Seeking... Friend? Mentor?

[ReoPlusOne]

I'm not sure why I'm doing this or even what I'm doing... But here goes.

I'll sum everything about me up as much as I can... I have a habit of making ungodly long posts.  I was raised mostly by dogs, Terry and Tucker.  My birth parents came into my life and suddenly wanted to raise me after they died.  I have been in two abusive relationships, one three years ago when I was thirteen and one just a few months ago.  I find it incredibly hard, not to trust people, but to respect them.  I generalize a lot, and the bane of my existence is the human race.  Yes, I understand that I am human as well, and that is just another part of me that I despise.  I have bipolar disorder and major depression, along with mild anxiety.  I am very eloquent for my age, but I can also be extremely manipulative and cold-hearted when I want to, and I'm not just blowing smoke.

I must admit, I have very little experience with things of an astral nature, but I would like to learn more.  I had a friend who helped me for a while, but we drifted.  She always used to tell me that I can't expect to get the answers from someone else, that I need to find them for myself... but hell, I barely listen.

So here we are.  If anyone is willing to take up the challenge and help me... post or drop me a message, I guess.

[Xanth]

Hiya!

Welcome to the forums. 

You might wanna hold off on practicing Astral Projection until you can attempt to balance yourself a bit.
Otherwise you probably won't have the best of experiences.

But we can probably assist you in any other metaphysical activity. 

Is there anything specific we can help you with first?

[Stookie]

Welcome to the Astral Pulse ReoPlusOne!

Yeah, there's a lot of people here who I'm sure can help, and a lot of others that want to ask similar questions. If you haven't yet, check out the Astral FAQ's and Permanent Astral Topics for a good place to start.

[Panthau]

Let me guide you my friend.
First go to poject-meditation (google it, im
not sure if im allowed to post links here)
and buy there Lifefliw 10. Listen to it every day
for as long as it feels good (a session lasts normaly 40mins).

If you have no results after 1 month (in fact, most
people benefit from their first session) dont ever listen to me again
If you cant afford it, pm me. Add /community to the project meditation url
to visit their forums where you can get alot of useful information
as long with success stories from people who use it (incl myself).

When you feel balanced enough, you can go on to
ap if youre still interested.

Atb,
Pan

[ReoPlusOne]

Specific? Ah... well, if I could see Terry and Tucker again... I think that might help.  I meditated once, and I thought I saw them.  Not sure if I really did or not, but it calmed me down for a while then.  I've never been able to let go of things, that's the problem.  And just sitting back and looking at myself I can't stand the fact that I still have a lot of growing up to do...

Thank you for all the warm welcomes.

[Panthau]

he i cant let go either.

youll go on when youre ready for it, sooner or later.

atb,
pan