Extensive Log of My Incredible Experiences

[Nexmofo]

First of, I didn't know in what forum to post this, however I chose this one because most of my experiences are related to attacks or experience with entities, but there is stuff here that would fit elsewhere especially in general metaphysics.
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The time has come to share my stories!
English is not my native language, so I may lack some vocabulary.

I have been waiting to share these stories, ask for input & help, for a couple of years now. These happenings have marked my entire life, they have made their way into defining the very being who I am now. These are my adventures.

I'll start from the beginning!
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Born January 5, 1989, I was a pretty good looking kid. But I had something, there was something strange about me, I had an unsettling aura of goodness and knowledge. I would talk about spirits and aliens all of the time, I had a confidence which skyrocketed beyond any my age and a deepening wisdom that may have come from a past life.

A minute with a stranger would leave him to only say, "Wow, how come he's so intelligent?"

Part of my family was Christian, but I never bought into it. Parents are into spiritualism, taught me about reincarnation at an early age of maybe three. My father's a medium. I never believed in a devil, and had hopes of being a scientist some day.

I had NIGHTMARES, as everyone does. But my nightmares were different.

What I had were sleep paralysis night terrors, those were my nightmares. I thought that that's what everyone had, so I never questioned them or talked about them.

I remembered my dreams every night, and 80% of them were lucid. Again, I thought that everyone had lucid dreams, I thought that a dream was by definition lucid, so I never even used the concept "I knew I was dreaming", it was natural by definition. With extreme frequency I had OBEs, but I also concluded that they were nightmares.

Cats, my greatest fear, my greatest enemy. Since birth to maybe age 7, cats were the devil (although I don't believe in him!) himself. Every time I saw a cat or otherwise thought of a cat, I would lose total control of my thoughts. I could no longer think, I was no longer myself, some powerful force would take over my mind.

The hatred towards them grew so as I hurt a few, never killed one, but would throw them or sit on them. Today I have overcome this and it no longer happens.

Cats in DREAMS! Oh, boy, if a cat ever showed up in a dream, I would suddenly be in hell. I would enter sleep paralysis INSTANTLY, while seeing the cat. Then I would lose total control of my mind, and most likely start FLYING UP at incredible speeds without being able to control where I am going, or anything else. Without exception.

Or maybe some monster would come to mess with me.

THEN ONE DAY, at age 6, I opened my eyes in bed... and I wasn't in my home. Everything was dirty, it smelled horrible, the concrete walls were now of rotten wood, the ground was dirt.

I panicked! Got out of bed, ran out of the room screaming "MOM! MOM! MOM!"

What did I see? A HUGE RAT about the size of a person. It would say "It's me! It's me! What happened?" Oh, boy! I panicked even more and ran to the kitchen, there was another rat there (grandma)!

When losing all hopes, the first rat came up and started chocking me, all the time I'm screaming "MOM! MOM! MOM!...", when suddenly my vision blurs, then corrects itself. I'm back to the real world, I see my mom there asking what happened, everything so neat and clean. I explain, and her reply to my dismay

"It was just a dream."

This was the start of it all...

From all those years to age 12, I would be haunted by sleep paralysis in dreams. Anything out of place would trigger sleep paralysis. At times I would be walking around perfectly fine, and see a teddy bear where there shouldn't be one. The place would darken, and I'd be frozen and defenseless.

You see, I was under ATTACK. Invaded. At times I would wake up, walk around my house and then see some kind of evil creature. I would enter (sleep) paralysis and the creature would do whatever it intended, and then I'd wake up in my bed again.

This happened many times (over 1000).
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I don't know where to begin, so we'll skip a lot. I was 14, living in Orlando, Florida. Planning a return to Brazil (again!). I was living in this really nifty apartment complex, upper class, my father and I had started quite several businesses together, and we were triumphing.

And then... SOMETHING HIT ME!

There was something in the house! There was something in me! There was something all around! The atmosphere, it was HEAVY, fights would spawn in the house out of nowhere.

I didn't feel comfortable in the dark at all. If I laid in bed a night, my vision would start to become greenish and I would enter sleep paralysis and be attacked by a creature.

THIS WAS EVERY NIGHT! Without exception, for a YEAR!

I exchanged the night for the day. I no longer slept at night, only during the day. Sleeping during the day did not stop the attacks, however they weren't occurring everyday, and when they did occur there was sun light coming into the room to protect me.
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OK, so this is what I'm going to do. I will provide you with a description of the attacks & overall paranormal experience almost like a log (which will end in a FULL POSSESSION of me and my bedsheets which tried to kill me by an EVIL creature who might be named Dalai-Lama [yes], more on this later), so I'll be replying to my own post.

Update: Here's a crude drawing of the creature, I call him The Ginger Monster, because his texture, color and appearance were just like ginger. http://www.geocities.com/secondwwar/gingermonster.JPG

This will help me organize them in nature to keep me (organized) from rambling. Will post back soon!

Thanks for reading, and please comment!

[Leannain]

nice reading.
tens muitas aventuras pelos vistos

[Nostic]

Wow, that was quite interesting Nex. When I was reading about your fear of cats, I was thinking, maybe you were killed by a cat in a past life-time- I'm assuming a big cat though  . Why else would you have such an irrational fear?

[Tyciol]

Do you plan on posting anything more? This is large, yes, but not what I would call extensive if you say it's representing your entire life.

You are younger than me. Interesting. I like youth.

I too have always been smart as a child, and rejected the latent Christianity present in my family. I sometimes wonder if I would have if my family actually practised it correctly... heh. You should post some on the Christian forums (or perhaps you have) to ba...question  it with similar minded agnostics

Your aversion to cats is cute, sort of like Ranma's. I love cats though, you should get a pet cat, they are cute and beautiful and you can learn a lot from their grace and strength, just don't let them get fat.