My first fight with a Neg - or at least I think?.

[SpiritPathwalker]

Well, your aura or life force can be damaged, but luckly it heals alot faster then the physical body, probably because you can take in extra energy to replace/rebuild what was lost.

Leg should heal on it's own, any basic healing tricks should work to speed it up a bit.  if yah still feel any negitive energy in your foot or leg, might try an astral clensing to help heal it.

Only way I can think of to get rid of a neg without seriously damaging it to scare it away.  Depends on the neg, some can be talked into leaving, others a nice smile with a show of power "Hi []!!" works, but some can be so persistant only way to get rid of 'em is to destroy 'em.

[Kenneth]

Hi all.

Just thought i would let you know how this little "fight" is turning out.

The day after my little "encounter", I was away on a hotel. Most of the night there, I lay awake, feeling what can only be described as pure Fear coming through me in waves emanating from my left leg, and partly from my stomach.

To start with I got some of the same pictures and images, and I tried the same approach as I did on the first attack - to "fight back". It went OK, but as I could feel it getting a little bit weaker, I tried to experiment a little to also get to learn something from this experience. (And besides, it actually began to bore me, this fighting back and forth [])

What I tried was to "open up" to the feeling, while at the same time keeping the images out of my mind. I didn't try to "replace" the feeling of fear with the feeling of my innerself, as I tried earlier, nor did I try to Slice the images to pieces, but I rather tried to keep a firm grib on "my inner self" as a state of mind, and sort of making my self an "Observer" to what was happening with my body.

The waves of fear grew immediately VERY strong, but I managed to stay with it (I felt like I was in the quiet center of a hurrycane - feeling the winds gushing around me), and NOT get my self dragged down with the feeling, or pushed away with the images.

At some points it got to be so powerfull, that my body (which allready were soaking in sweat, and ALL my hairs standing up), actually felt numb and sort of paralyzed. (I have to admit, that at that moment I moved a little to bring a sence of life back to my body[]).

The feeling of fear came in waves of about 6-10 seconds, like pure energy of Fear being shot through me. I tried to maintain a firm "grib" on my inner self (the same way you try to keep your mind free of stray thoughts when practicing meditation), and slowly it started to ease up.

After about 3-4 hours total time, I felt like it was over for now. The sweating stopped rather suddenly, and all the hairs on my body went back to normal. After that, I slept soundly for the next 6 hours, and was actually surprisingly fresh the next day.

I have not felt the usual "emptines" in my mind like the previous times when I have handled what you could call an "Inner Deamon", or a situaion from my past regarding with repressed feeling of anger, fear, humiliation etc. When I removed them from my system, it sort of felt "empty, hollow and black" inside for a couple of days afterwards, but I have not had any of those feelings.

I don't feel any "stronger" either, and it is only when I focus on the incidents (like now), that I can feel a little to medium sort of "tingling" in my left foot and leg, and a little shaking feeling in my hands. Other than that, I seem to be my "normal" self once again.

I don't think this is over yet, but up until now I seem to have survived in one piece []

[Kenneth]

Hi All!

This night, I had my first real "fight" with a Neg I think (Or a VERY live imagination, and a heavy burried old memory). Please help me judge it []

When my girlfriend and I went to bed last night, I felt very energized. I was in a very good connection with my Inner self, and could feel the distinct "prickling" of energy in the back of my head, in my shoulders and in my spine, thus signalling the special Inner Self type of energy.

I tried doing a deap healing on her, because she has a skin-desease (Like a rash), that is very painfull for her. About a half an hour later we fell a sleep, and I dreamt a very pleasant dream, until suddenly in the dream I was attacket by a large brown snake so suddenly and ferroucius, that a woke within 2-3 seconds of the initial attack.

When I awoke, all my hairs on my body, my legs and my arms were standing up, and I could feel the fear trying to overwhelm me along with some VERY lively pictures in my mind of a snake attacking me with open jaw, and some ugly looking fangs. (The size of the snake varried very much through this, from a meager 1 meter, to 5-6 meters and VERY thick, and with a jaw bigger than normal).

I remembered some of the things from Robert Bruce's book, and imediately imagined myself with a "light-saber" of pure love (Don't know how it became a light-saber instead of "normal" sword[]). Then I started to try to get a mental "grip" on this thing, and at the same time focused on staying in touch with my Inner self, and the "energy" source of love that can give me. (Felt like pushing blankets aside, that were being thrown over me with each "wave" of attack)

Within 1-2 minutes, and a lot of attacks and defences, (And I don't know how many times I chopped and burned that snake into pieces), and it biting me, the initial attack faded off, and the goosebumps almost disappeared.

I laid there totally bathed in sweat, and tried to recover a little bit for about 1 minute, when the second attack started. It felt like it bit down hard on all the toes of my left foot, and suddenly I got the feeling like it was crawling up through my left leg INSIDE of the skin ?!? ....

I tried to get a grip on it with my mental hands. (Or imagining my self getting a grip on it), and we fought some more. I could feel the images AND the "feelings" trying to get control over me (like a blanket being thrown over you? - the images and feelings coming in waves), but I tried to remain in "touch" with my self through all of this, and went at it with my sword, a machine gun AND a flamethrower [] (I am greatfull it was not in the REAL world I was that feroucious!!). Then the second attack stopped for a little bit.

I hurried out to the bathroom, and started the water running, while i peed. During this, there were no goosebumps or any other feelings of anything out of the ordinary. I drank a lot of water, and went back into the livingroom, where I turned on the light, and then the third attack began.

This was not as powerfull as the first one, or as lengthy as the second one, and I tried to keep myself balanced and open to my Inner self, while finding the most twisted ways of slicing that snake into pieces. I also tried to "change" the images in my mind into a little black cloud instead of a snake, and then filling that color with pure, white love. I also "talked" to it with my mind, telling it i knew what it was, and what it was trying to do, and that I would NOT allow it!. It felt like it got easier and easier to get a "handle on", and I was able to actually control it's movements in the end. (In the start it was like the attacks came from a lot of different directions, and I had absolutely NO control over where it was).

It got weaker and weaker, until it finally stopped after about 10-15 minutes. All in all it took about 20-30 minutes of fighting, of trying to stay "in contact with my inner self" through the fear it tried to induce, and image after image of a sword slicing into a snake, and looking into the biting jaw of it. (And a black cloud later in the event).

Even when I write this, I get a very "cold and stiff" feeling in the toes of my left foot, spreading up through my leg, and I can feel myself beginning to sweat. But I have no feeling of the Goosebumps, and the overshadowing feeling from yesterday, and once in a while when I think about the attack, I try to "Grab" that image in my mind, and turning it into that of a shake being sliced into pieces, stabbed, burned and thrown away!

I have a sort of "shaky" feeling in my body, but I am happy, and I think (And hope?), that I won that battle, and I don't hope, that this is the beginning of a lengthy war!

I am not sure how I can "end" this thing, how I can "repair" the potential damage done to me (If there IS any damage?), and how I can avoid damaging the Neg more than I have allready done? (If it IS a Neg, then it is just doing what it does naturally, and I just want to defend my self against it, not kill it or damage it more than I have to!!)

I am not normally very "Imaginative", but yesterday was a VERY lively experience, with some VERY fast pictures and images and feelings, with the goal of "dragging me down" with them, or so I felt?.