Sentinental

[Sentential]

Im not sure why.. I understand the curosity. I kinda must insist they you dont hang around those kind.

"How did you make a pact with them?"
[xx(]From what I know about my past live(s) its the same way that you think it would work.

"how many years ago was this, I know this was in past life, but how long ago in terms of years and how many lifetimes ago?"
That I am not sure of. I know I was "under their control" in my most recent past life. How much longer ago than that I am not sure.

"What sort of attacks did you suffer?"
Just about anything that you can think of. My friends turning against me, being shunned by everyone. Acne lol the works. Anything to get me to scorn others.

Their main goal as I saw it was to make me feel inhuman, thus I wouldnt see a problem with hurting / using them. There is less guilt when you feel that one group is below you and dererves what it gets.

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Negs are nasty mofos, destroyers of life. As much as I am greatful to help others see this, I want to make perfectally clear that being like I was is totally unacceptable. I could never live with myself if I ever was that way again. Being that cruel is just plain wrong and self centered.

Forgive me for sounding like a broken record, but negs are very prevasive. If I were to plant the thought that even for a second it felt "cool" something would take advantage of that and use it against them


Are you refering to what training I might have recieved? Yes I have extensive neg training. I know how they operate and seek to use it against them. Why do you ask?

[aryanknight666]

Just interested...
Because real satanic rituals did not exist until about 1966, and these rituals were of the first church of satan, which if you might already know is a church of athiestic philosophy. Their ritual of "dedication" has nothing to do with dedicating yourself to a real being called shaitan or real demonic beings. Ones like these would not have existed until...somewhere around the 1970's when the temple of set came about, even then I have my doubts whether those rituals have anything to do with pacts with real demonic beings/satan.

Although I'm not suggesting you suggested this, but, I do not believe I am in contact with "negs". I do beleive in astral wildlife which can attack or thoughtforms that have become chaotic, or unhappy base level spirits that can be hostile, but I do not believe in monstrous demonic evil spirits and the beings I am involved with are not of these league. They are certainly positive and not "lower astral beings" at all because they do not dwell or reside entirely on the astral and they are not "lower" because they are really powerful and it would probably take a single thought to incinerate anybody they pleased.

[Sentential]

I would agree that the lines arent nearly clear cut as you would imageine. The ones I was in contact with are pretty nasty folk to say the least.

I make references to "demons" only because that is the only widespread name I can think of. I personally refer to them as the "ancients".

Whomever they are they wholly evil in their approach. Completely sadistic and enjoy suffering.

They only other reference I can think of who would fall into this group would be Seth from egyptian mythology. Those were the foul things I once served under. As you can imagine I learned quite a bit about things.

As for the pact that I supposedly made, I belive it to be just that. It was an agreedment of mutual benefits... however that only incuded them and myself[xx(]

Since I was of great use to them, they were quit anyry that a (in their eyes), a rouge guide interfered and turned me away at an age where they could not yet bring me back into their service[xx(]

That guide is my current one named Xion. He displaced the former (apparentally) named Xios. My current one chose a similar name so that I would not be able to recognise him as different, thus he succedded in snatching me away from their claws.

If there are anything else you wanted to know, or something I could help with just hit me up on AIM. ( Sentential03 )

Ill try to the best of my ability to anwser any question you may have. But please fogive my hatred of "demons". I tend to use blanket statements to describe specific things.

I dont doubt your feelings. Spirits take on many names, however I know deep down YOU know who I am refering to. I may call them demons, you probably call them something else, but I am certian you know of the evil ones I speak of.....they are a nasty bunch

[aryanknight666]

I know now what you mean, and that's exactly who I'm reffering to as well. And I don't beleive that they are evil, those Gods were the Gods of the first civilisation(s) ever on earth (mesopatomia and later on egypt), they predate the hebrew/judeao/christian gods by a long time and I would consider "yahweh" and kin to be a nasty bunch. The reason why I say this is because of the times they have ordered mass murder, rape, blood sacrifice of animals and humans, things like that. But I haven't heard of anything like this about the ancients and everyone I who has had contact with the ancients who I know (in the clergy for example, so aside from you) have had positive experiences with these beings, as have I.
Of course, if you were to believe they were evil, you might want to accept the notion they are fallen angels come to govern the men led astray, and the early civilisation of earth come from them, because lucifer caused the first humans to be kicked out of the garden of eden and led them away from innocence with knoweldge, free thought will and choice, civilisation, culture and technology.

[Sentential]

It sounds alot like the guys you mentioned. Either way they are a very nasty bunch. I dont like thinking about that kinda stuff. I get really bad flashes of past memories... it isnt pleasnet. Sometimes they transpose themselves onto my own memories, twisting them harshly. Its not a sense of a psychotic way, its just really REALLY creepy, an omnious feeling.

It really bugs me that I, I OF ALL PEOPLE, could be the hands that caused that kind of suffereing.

But yea. My experiences have been tainted by this. I still know all that they told me, and have access to all I have learned. The only difference is that I follow a different set of ideals than I once did.

I would like to know more about these people.. this yawesh you speak of. That sounds about right.

As for the fallen angel bit that hits a hard note. I personally dont belive in alot of the bible crap, but I do belive there is some truth to that. Ive shown people what my astral armor looks like. From what I hear it is an interepration of what the fallen wore. [xx(]

[Silver Incubus]

Do you have a pic of this armour?

[Sentential]

Yea I do, but it really doesnt matter. Knight and I had a lentghy discussion last night. He That armor is actually originally insired, despite my initial thoughts. did the ole pendulum trick to get some anwsers for me.

It was actually quite suprising for me to see it. I found out that alot of what I knew was indeed true, while some was completely false. Ill post the log of it if he wants me to.

[aryanknight666]

Hi,
I want to know more about your encounter with negs.
How did you make a pact with them? how many years ago was this, I know this was in past life, but how long ago in terms of years and how many lifetimes ago?
What sort of attacks did you suffer?