unwanted relationships, telepathic links, and internal dissonance

[Chaos Mage]

Let us say for a moment that you have a belief in telepathy.
Your belief says that 'telepathy is a stimulation of communication', so, you start to talk to a lot of different people, and change your lifestyle completely from being a big vortex sitting there fluctuating in space (in your own home).  You go out and start to communicate vocally, which, in time, makes you extremely empathic.  You nourish yourself with ideas, personalities, and people traits that makes you more comfortable with your awareness.

Now, you encounter an obstacle...  you lose any type of telepathy whatsoever to the empathy.  You begin to isolate yourself again, and return to the mental state of being a fluctuating vortex, only that now, you begin to astral travel due to the increased mental energy.  But your belief in telepathy continues, and when you reach the astral state, you hear a lot of things.  I was just looking at a post here, and that's where this post comes from as a starter.  I don't know about what going astral is like, I just know that I dream, and can phantasy into anything I want... or at least, I could.

Now, as for unwanted telepathy, are we communicating out of a strong belief in telepathy, even in our daily lives?  Is that where subliminal reality comes from, in that we communicate with our entire organism?  This, it seems, is or isn't being done, and it amounts to regular three-fold prayers to 1.Source (past), Soul (entire living thing) and God, as master of the future.  By doing this, we expand our three dimensional mind ability to perceive a third dimension.  So then we have to consider ears, eyes, nose, and such things as the entire body.

Why am I babbling on about this?  Well, it does seem in my life that something that I did effected the way that my life functions in terms of communication.  I do not understand how to communicate.  Perhaps yes, extended rituals in chaos magick using phantasy have some involvement in this disfunction. But also!  There is a strong tendancy to hear things which are coming from the external world.  Does that mean I need more water in my ears or something?  How does that even work?  Or do we need hot/cold types of ears?  Whatabout eyes?  Do eyes need to be cool or cold to absorb more light?

I've been searching biology, and at one point, I must have known the answer.  Now I've forgotten, and have to keep asking the question. When I have an unwanted relationship, what do I do?  Pray to all souls?  Source as the source of souls, soul as the full weight of souls, and god as the magick or effect which changes the situation to a neutral based, ultimate freedom environment?

I guess I'm just BSing.  I got work to do, but I got other things to do too.  Time to check out that ridge, and see how many badger holes there are this year.

[Szaxx]

Hi,
Sounds like an old saying,
There's a place for everything and everything in its place.
Somehow you have misplaced something.
Can you find and correct it?

[Chaos Mage]

I think what I was getting at is that when you only have so many limitations in your amount of relationships, people start to abuse you.  Especially if you are naturally an empath, but 'the situations that arised and changes made' effected the person to become extremely telepathic, yet only on so many frequencies.  It's like mind control that way.

I don't know man, maybe I'll get out of here.  Even in this community, if I still have the disfunction in how I communicate, and lack sense in the types of things that are said, then I won't be able to leave anyway.  It will just be more of the same if I did leave, so what would be the point?

In an isolated community, you don't really get to choose who you see on a daily basis.  Go about a week without seeing anyone, they start coming after you.  I'd really prefer to just have internet and a few good video games, and sit in my house or go walking down the road.  Thing is, some of these unwanted relationships are unavoidable as they are co-dependant and dependant relationships.  That's something I never wanted in my life, and those damn fools gone and did everything in their power to make me appear to be like a invalid baby.  And for what?  To hide the truth about the satyr race?  That's what it's looking like!! 

Telepathy doesn't seem like anything that is required.  The more I look into it, study about the physics behind it, inductions and resonance and synchronization, well, the less that it seems that telepathy has a benevolent purpose.  Combine that with internal dissonance, and telepathy almost relies on it to sustain it's mind control assaults.  There's a reason those three things were linked together.

[silwer]

Is there no way for you to end those unwanted relationships? Even if their life might drastically change without you to cling on to it is apparently not what you wanted, so what is stopping you from removing them from your life?
If you need a new start, isn't it possible for you to move away to some different place and start over from scratch?

I'd really prefer to just have internet and a few good video games, and sit in my house or go walking down the road.

That is how my life was after I moved away from home. Just me and whatever I chose to have in it.

[Szaxx]

Hi,
If your general outlook is dowdy the empathic feelings will be from those feeling the same way. You're tuned in on them. This could make a downward spiral causing you to feel worse. This would accentuate the feelings and more would come.
A change of scene can help but a better outlook on life in general will work wonders. Its great knowing things that others feel but the others too have bad times and these can take control of their mindset. If you are in a crowd of people all similar in some direction the synchronicity between them will align. Its a law of nature and applies to our world and the next too. Its not rocket science.
Taking a casual approach to daily routine not letting things get to you works. Its not easy but that occasional smile from someone towards you is a bonus in removing the drudgery of routine. Try and do things applying a sense of humour. It will catch on and the miserable ones will leave you alone allowing you to become more in tune with happier people.
Its the same when astral. You are sacred of something, something will scare you. Know you're of pure unconditional love and you'll never see mr nasty. Its that law of attraction thing doing its bit.
Have a think on it, to stop the bed bugs biting, sleep on the couch.
Makes sense with a bit of thought...

[Chaos Mage]

It is partly my own fault now that I think about it.
I don't assert myself with vocals, or set my bounderies or even make a distinction between the bounderies I've set and the commands that people give to me.  With other people, there is no direct vocal command or anything, yet there is a scratching on the nerves from having to be around them.
Perhaps some of this is also a retentive and corrupted form of sexuality.  Often, I've found myself more than curious about 'what it would be like', and yet, the actual activity never seems to be appropriate.  A strong female companion other than a whining cat could be in line.  And that will never happen as long as I'm stuck in this village.

Opportunities for social/public expression (other than internet), are difficult to find when you have a stigma of mental illness.  Yet, it is almost guaranteed, for every social exposure, there is some residual and subliminal feedback over time.  So what does that mean?  Is just my mind out of control and playing tricks?  Doesn't seem to be the case.  Yet if on a new encounter or meeting partner, I become moody, depressed, or motivated to be rude by leaving early, then the relationship turns into something that can't be tolerated.  Having strong beliefs in anti-socialism and freedom of phantasy could be part of it.

In terms of a direct telepathic channel, the medium of phantasy activity could open the mind to specific entities or ideas that gradually manifest, take charge, and assume control.  So that's why wiccans do not use phantasms, as these will build their momentum until all they have to do is feed on your subconscious and subtle beliefs to sustain their existence.

Is that how it is?
On a level of simply co-existing with people, it can be very easy or very hard.  Often, when people want you to do something, they expect a decent job done on time.  When you are becoming physically ill due to authority arrangements, both in the family and by medical persons or other, and no way to terminate the relationship due to the oppression of the authority, then what can a person do to get out of it?  Move to a different country where the persecution will hopefully end?  That seems to be the only solution.

Just today, a friend and I drove out to the Maiden Lake, and I pulled a cat tail.  When we got home, I threw the cat tail into the marsh.  Immediately, there was some kind of backlash, my door didn't shut and wouldn't open to be reclosed.  It was stuck.  So I'm assuming that I did the wrong thing.  I screwed around with Mother Nature, and she let me know that I was getting stuck in it, that, 'the door is shut and will not open'.  I take it as a literal communication that the gates of heaven are closed for one like me, so, I will have to make my home on Earth for as long as I am incarnate.  If people are going to be hard on me about it, and make my life miserable, then all I can really do is tucker down and avoid seeing anyone, and just live in my phantasy games.

[Szaxx]

Hi,
Ah yes, you could turn this inside out. Let them be the characters in the game. You be happy playing 2 roles. Yours, the one for you can be happy and the other for show is the miserable one. This one is shown to those that like the misery. They'll be happy seeing the misery and you'll be happy knowing you've beat their misery without them knowing it. The real you will be happy knowing the game is being played and you've already won. If they find out they'll still be miserable because all along you were happy and they'll know you've won without any effort.
They'll pick on someone else, you get the last laugh.

[Chaos Mage]

I don't want to hurt anyone, or their feelings.  Sometimes online I get very 'hot', and blow up at some atheist, but I way feel they deserve it.  Around here, you know, it's not so bad.
I just picked up a leather jacket with a slightly tattered zipper for twenty bucks, pay when have cash.  Plus I got to use the bathtub at their house.  That's a relationship I want to keep, and the company is usually good.  I act weird too you know, cuz I'm not always awake or alert enough to communicate effectively.

As for the unwanted relationships, sometimes it works out.  I do get paid for my work, one way or another.  Sometimes, I want that person or those people to be my friends, I like characteristics about them that appeal to my sense of natural life.  They also have wisdom and teachings.  It is probably really about the way I feel, in which case, most of it is internal dissonance.  It's got little to do with drugs and booze.  I've spent ten years fighting non stop, trying to regain my religion.  I really believe that it's some kind of implanted device and computer operative that is making me 'schizophrenic'... if not, then it's vampirism.  Either way, it's vampirism.  It causes me to be subjected to mental health authority, and they discredit my work and position every chance they get.  And I've done things, I've played my role with expert efficiency, they keep pushing the poison and lying about weed.  So that makes me angry, and that 'authority over me' is not something that I find valid.

Lately I've been developing practices which fall in line of modern Wicca.  Being chaote, I have freedom and can learn from their spell models.  I would really like to have a relationship with 1.more children, and 2. religious people, either true christians or good down to earth wiccans.  How will I find this?  Somehow, it seems like I am an unwanted relationship in myself, as to being involved in the community.

You know, I had a great idea.  It might be out of place to say it here, but I figured that one year, as an offering to the Celestial Sky God (Jehovah, we'll say) that all the farmers would plant flowers of many kinds for one year.  Then everyone's house could be full of flowers, and the decay of the beautiful organisms of flowers would fill each house with vitality and life energy.  You see, around here, if I talked like that, it would just cause gossip and back biting, and insolence to my face.  I thought it would be a nice offering to Jehovah that would enrich our lives in every way.  "A sweet odor to Jehovah" as the book says, certainly, it seems like fields upon fields of flowers would be the answer.  Or weed, lol.

Maybe it isn't about avoiding relationships.  Certainly, if I feel sick and like I have to vomit all the time, I don't especially want to be around people.  Is it the computer?  Has the internet taken up so much of my mind that I don't even know what it's like to be around people?  Or am I just that high and mighty, 'an opinionated man'.  There is work to be done, certainly, I suppose that prayer and worship will help immensely to feeling healthy, and being happy, even around people that are making me feel uncomfortable.  To make my love strong, my faith shine, and my heart a temple of true spiritual life.  I spose that's the eventual course of action. 

They say to take each day as it comes, and don't sweat the small stuff.  I know that these people do inherently respect me, they are just blinded by their own internal dissonance and fuddled up empathy in their desires.  I'm prolly the same way.

Thanks for talking this through with me.

[Lionheart]

I don't want to hurt anyone, or their feelings.  Sometimes online I get very 'hot', and blow up at some atheist, but I way feel they deserve it. 

I feel the same about people that come here and have to always voice their opinions that their Religious beliefs are right because they say they are. They should keep their preaching to themselves. Let people come to their own conclusions of what's right or wrong for themselves!

[Szaxx]

Hi,
Ignore opinionated people further than their self beliefs, they have enough to contend with and don't even know it.
You may find a singular belief that appeals to you and that expected of you. This will help immensely with the dissonant suffering, so long as you don't stray too far off the path.
Its ok to have an opinion, thats what makes us human.
Keeping it inline with a belief structure creates the personality. Its finding this belief that appeases us as individuals to fit in. Thats the hard part.
Look within yourself and you may find it.