what should i do?

[gangta]

i can give in to....what or whoever it is thats with me now. "we". i feel that its something dark...but im so drawn to it. i feel its presence gives me such a strong feeling...of power, of freedom. it doesnt seem like theres any turning back after i give in....so should i?

[Novice]

I believe you said you were diagnosed schizophrenic in another thread. I would highly recommend that you bring this topic up with your doctor. No one on this board is qualified to give you the type of help you need/want.

[Awakened_Mind]

I'm not a qualified doctor but I'll say this: Anything that offers you power will invite negative karma.

Power that is immediately gratifying. Power that seems to be best used for the good of you and not others. Power is only good when an individual has control over themselves and uses it wisely. Power has a certain responsibility associated with it.

Heed Novices' advice.

-AM

[James S]

Gangta,

I'm in complete agreement with Novice here. I suggest you do as he recommended.

You're not going to achieve anything here other than try to hook people into your dramas and seek inapropriate validation.
If that is what you want, rather than to seek proper healing of your condition, then you've come to the wrong place. This forum is about awareness, evolution, healing and personal growth. All you are doing here is feeding a negative emotional addiction which will only prevent you from healing and growing.

Please, stop trying to seek validation from others, take some responsibility for your own wellbeing.

I'm locking this thread to prevent any more discussions about your condition. What you need here is some real professional help, not endless discussions on an internet forum.

All the best. I hope you get through this ok.
James.