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Sixx

Hi everyone I know I don't post much on the pulse, i think the last time i posted something I was wanting to get back into astral projection but work and life got to busy and  i just didn't really try in the end
but now I'm not working much and i have lots of time,  and things have changed  for me ,
so to the point of this post....

My Mother passed nearly a week ago now (76), she suffered from Lewy body dementia a horrible brain disease that affects the nurons sending imformation around the brain , it ranges from parkinsons to dementia horrific hallucinations  etc all very negtative stuff. in the
end she had to be sedated with morphine and  another drug I can't remember as she was screaming randomly at anything.
when she wasn't bed ridden she would tell me of these horrible places she would go, and not matter how much i tried to encourage her to think of a happy place, a sunny day , a smiling face , she couldn't do it, the brain disease? probably.

My worry now since her transition is that she could possibly be stuck somewhere in one of these places she visited,
my intent for an OOB is very strong at the moment as naturally i want to ,I need to know shes ok,
I wondered if some on the pulse could give me some guidance on retrievals, some techniques anything would be appreciated,

thanks.





baro-san

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Nameless

First, condolences for the passing of your mother.

I can only speak from my own personal experiences and my own thoughts on this matter.

I highly doubt your mother is trapped in any of the scenarios you might imagine. I say this as much of the symptoms of dementia and such are do to higher brain functions having declined leaving behind what is often referred to as the reptile brain. This portion of the brain really only controls the essentials and a very small amount of our ability to think.

I may not have explained that well. What I mean to say is your mother's mind likely had already vacated her body for the most part. The part of her that you knew and loved had already moved on. I know people can and do become trapped but a question for you.

What was your mother like when she did have a well functioning mind? What were her beliefs then? Perhaps those things would be more telling than anything stemming during or after her disease progressed. You don't need to answer these questions here if you don't want, they are just posed to help you turn your thinking to other possibilities.

I hope this helps to some degree. It's not easy losing our loved ones even when we are prepared. Don't hesitate to ask further or just talk. Whatever you need we are here.
Remember, You came here to this physical earth to experience it in its physical form. NPR will always be there.

Sixx

Thankyou for the kind comments,
I understand what your saying, I hadn't seen my mother for over a year up until 2 weeks ago,
and last time i left i said goodbye as i didn't think I'd see her again, but even then her mind was pretty gone, no emotion or real idea of where she was.
there where little spurts of being in the present but for the most part she was gone, her beliefs were of god and heaven, and I used to be the same along time ago

Mothers and sons always have a strong bond i think but as you go through your life its not really thought of, until that persons gone, then theres
an empty space,
something for me to meditate on perhaps,
thanks everyone.

EscapeVelocity

Sixx-

My condolences as well for your mother's passing. Losing a parent leaves an empty space, like you said. It's a very special place that only a parent could occupy, and as a child you naturally think it is a permanent thing; and yet, it is not, as we all eventually come to realize as we grow older.

I agree completely with Nameless' perspective on this. My readings and observations have also shown that most elderly people going through these stages of deterioration are, in fact visiting the other side and becoming slowly more acclimated to the NP side and gradually giving up their perspective on this PR side. And we do have guides and friends helping with this transition from the NP side.

With that said, I would not dissuade you from trying to check in on her; I see no problem with this. I have re-read some of your earlier posts and I see that you are familiar with etheric/RTZ projections. It was during one of my own etheric projections, three months after my father's passing that I unexpectedly and instinctively 'asked' to be taken to check on him. And I was escorted there and met with him, if only briefly...but it was enough to know that he was alright, so I left it at that.

So, if you are familiar with the process of an etheric/RTZ obe, then you know the level of 'intent' that is needed. Now you have a very good reason for an 'intent'. So take that intent with you into sleep or into a meditative/obe session and see what transpires. Ask to be taken to her, ask to receive information on her well-being, her status. Ask in whatever manner seems appropriate to you. Now is the time to be calm and relaxed but with a degree of seriousness and determination.

Let us know what you get from this process and we can proceed from there, if necessary. I know this is difficult, but it is best to start with you and what kind of 'read' you can get on the situation.
Be yourself; everyone else is already taken.
                                                          -O. Wilde

Sixx

My condolences as well for your mother's passing. Losing a parent leaves an empty space, like you said. It's a very special place that only a parent could occupy, and as a child you naturally think it is a permanent thing; and yet, it is not, as we all eventually come to realize as we grow older.

I agree completely with Nameless' perspective on this. My readings and observations have also shown that most elderly people going through these stages of deterioration are, in fact visiting the other side and becoming slowly more acclimated to the NP side and gradually giving up their perspective on this PR side. And we do have guides and friends helping with this transition from the NP side.

With that said, I would not dissuade you from trying to check in on her; I see no problem with this. I have re-read some of your earlier posts and I see that you are familiar with etheric/RTZ projections. It was during one of my own etheric projections, three months after my father's passing that I unexpectedly and instinctively 'asked' to be taken to check on him. And I was escorted there and met with him, if only briefly...but it was enough to know that he was alright, so I left it at that.

So, if you are familiar with the process of an etheric/RTZ obe, then you know the level of 'intent' that is needed. Now you have a very good reason for an 'intent'. So take that intent with you into sleep or into a meditative/obe session and see what transpires. Ask to be taken to her, ask to receive information on her well-being, her status. Ask in whatever manner seems appropriate to you. Now is the time to be calm and relaxed but with a degree of seriousness and determination.

Let us know what you get from this process and we can proceed from there, if necessary. I know this is difficult, but it is best to start with you and what kind of 'read' you can get on the situation.
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thankyou very much,
I will make some posts in the near future of my progress.

Windwalker.

I believe your Mom has been set free of the disease which her brain caused her to suffer given her consciousness is no longer encumbered by a physical brain. I am curious if she was on a benzodiazepine like valium xanax or klonopin etc? Drs. prescribe these like candy to the elderly and the side effects are the same your mom suffered.

Sixx

Quote from: Windwalker. on May 13, 2019, 19:44:34
I believe your Mom has been set free of the disease which her brain caused her to suffer given her consciousness is no longer encumbered by a physical brain. I am curious if she was on a benzodiazepine like valium xanax or klonopin etc? Drs. prescribe these like candy to the elderly and the side effects are the same your mom suffered.

thanks Windwalker,
She was on Quitiapine and clonzazepam tablets, then in the last  months she having trouble swallowing, so  went onto the liquid form of clonazepam,
all are part of the benzodiazepine family i think,
In her last week/days as she couldn't eat they had her on morphine and mirtazapine ( if i spelled that right) and it was when ever she showed signs of
pain or uncomfort  they'd give her some more, just a horrible disease,
I see why the actor Robin Williams checked out early.

Lumaza

 Windwalker, my condolences on your recent loss!  :cry:

All I can offer is that comforting thought that she truly is in a better place now. Give yourself some time to heal. You will find that she will return someday in one of your "NP" experiences to reveal that she truly is okay.

Back about 8 or 9 years ago, we watched as "Lou Gehrig"s disease" consumed MJ's mother. It was terrible to see the suffering she went through. Her body had shut down, but unfortunately her mind was last to go. The disease didn't attack her brain though. So, she had to suffer the whole experience , even losing her ability to speak, while still being fully cognizant of it.
"The day science begins to study non-physical phenomena, it will make more progress in one decade than in all the previous centuries of its existence."  Nicolai Tesla

Plume

My condolences Sixx,
I also have parents with dementia and other brain deteriorations. it is hard to know what is happening in there last years . it is the brain , we realize that we are more then our physical when we learn to explore those states. You may just need to make an intend to have a sign send to you at all levels even during waking time , it comes in all kinds of form. make it your point of focus with no expectation just imagine that you will have some kind of message. Trust that you will know. heal first and let it take the time  that it needs.
Plume

Sixx

Quote from: Plume on May 15, 2019, 02:49:51
My condolences Sixx,
I also have parents with dementia and other brain deteriorations. it is hard to know what is happening in there last years . it is the brain , we realize that we are more then our physical when we learn to explore those states. You may just need to make an intend to have a sign send to you at all levels even during waking time , it comes in all kinds of form. make it your point of focus with no expectation just imagine that you will have some kind of message. Trust that you will know. heal first and let it take the time  that it needs.
Plume

Thankyou Plume,
and your right its very hard to know whats happening in the final years, and also it only really hit home for me the final months of just how much the desease
reduced her to nothing physically ,how devastating it was, yet all her organs where strong and healthy, she could have lived quite abit longer.
you make  a good point about making an intent to other levels of myself too , heal.......

Sixx

hi Just an update,
2 or 3 nights ago i had a lucid dream, I say lucid I know its just a label for having more awareness,
so the dream that lead into more awareness.
A young girl asked me if I wanted this kitten, I said yes.., thankyou, I held the kitten in the palms of my hands it was pink.
Immediatley I realised I was dreaming, soon after the kitten started to shrivel up,
normally when I realise I'm dreaming I do focus exercises, this time I was  focused on my mother, so I asked my Higherself,
Take me to my mother,
I was flying into a building window, I saw my mother standing in front of a mirror probaby 40 years old looking,
she turned and smiled , I gave her a big hug,
and like all lucid dreams emotion will collapse the experience , which it did.
i tried not to analize the experience to much afterwards and just accept it for what it was,
maybe it was  just my higherself saying everythig is ok,
anyways it was a comforting experience.

EscapeVelocity

Your experience is very reminiscent of my own and it seems that you received a positive and reassuring message. I hope it provides some closure. Thank you for sharing this with us.
Be yourself; everyone else is already taken.
                                                          -O. Wilde

Sixx

Quote from: EscapeVelocity on May 24, 2019, 22:51:32
Your experience is very reminiscent of my own and it seems that you received a positive and reassuring message. I hope it provides some closure. Thank you for sharing this with us.


Thankyou EscapeVelocity,
and thankyou to everyone else.