The Astral Pulse

Reckon I decided to do a dream journal. I've been fairly successful avoiding lucid dreams lately but that's only because they can physically wear a person out. However since coming on these forums and studying a bit I decided to let them back in. I'm glad I did. Mom passed away 3 years ago and I seemed to have lost contact with her. It happens that way sometimes when people pass over. So it's only appropriate I start this journal with this one as the timing is perfect.

Thursday  August 13,2016


Was driving the old blue Buick down the highway when I hit a bump in the road. The car served off the road flying across a ditch and into a yard nearly hitting a beautiful young Oak tree. Only the car came to a rest a few feet away. Spotting an old clapboard house and barn I got out to make peace with the residents.

In the way of dreams I noticed the dirt yard and the dying/dead flowers at the base of the oak. The place looked like it had been abandoned for many years but also like someone cared for it still. What grass grew was freshly mown and what leaves there may have been had been raked away leaving trails in the dirt. Though any paint on house or the barn had been long since bleached away by the sun there was a notable cleanliness and order. I turned thinking I should go tell dad I nearly wrecked the car.

That's when I felt her (mom) brush the hair from my temple and as I turned I became aware in my dream. We were now standing in a room reminiscent of a nursing home. Mom showed me a self-portrait she had been working on. She was giddy with excitement. As she showed me I noticed a television monitor also showing her portrait alongside an old photograph. Two ladies were in the same shot updating everyone on the progress of the residents. They were talking about mom and how far she had come and how she had almost completed her portrait but still had a ways to go. I glanced down at the portrait I held in my hand and noticed the two ladies were being recorded live right in front of me.

One of the ladies (long black hair with a white skunk streak) leaned forward over the desk and told me, "I know you, we used to be Blossoms together." I realized I did know her from somewhere, she reminded me of an aunt I haven't seen in a long time but I don't think it was her.

I turned to survey the room seeing a number of others displaying their photographs and their self-portraits in various stages of completion. It was like they were carrying around holograms of their progress and no one seem embarrassed by their efforts. Some portraits still had a ways to go being very ugly, twisted and mangled, not matching their photographs at all – yet. I saw dad briefly, he was not as solid as the rest, almost like a watercolor of him. I had the thought he was also dreaming but he didn't see me.

Then I heard, "time to go back(?)"

Then we were in cars going somewhere. Mom and I went together with mom driving. She was so happy to be driving, doing something normal. I let her drive although I thought she was going a bit fast and being careless. She couldn't hurt us here though so I relaxed. We were in the old blue Buick. She hit a bump and off the road we went nearly smashing into the same Oak tree as I had at the beginning.

Only this time there were lot's of people there. The grass was green, the leaves were green, flowers grew in beautiful colors. There was food and sunshine and most remarkable, I knew so many of these people. And I saw dad, don't know how he got there but he was barely solid enough to see. I went to get his attention by tapping his shoulder. Just time I touched him he poofed in a light green mist of smoke. I thought perhaps he roused himself with a snore.

A lady there saw the look on my face and said, "It's okay, we're used to this, we've all been here a time or two. You too." I turned to look at the old car and poof. The experience ended.

My thoughts: In this dream I did not make any attempt to manipulate or change anything. I just let it happen. I was happy to see mom on her way to recovery. And more than that seeing how we are given a chance to heal and fix our own hurts was an amazing experience. I was totally delighted to see my dad in the dream. He is a alive and well but I see him slipping everyday. I do believe he too was sleeping and dreaming when I saw him. Whether he remembers it or not I am really glad he got that chance to see mom. I have a lot more thoughts but this post is quite long enough.

Although this is meant to be a journal for me I am very open to comments, questions and opinions.

Quote from: Nameless on August 21, 2016, 06:01:42
I've been fairly successful avoiding lucid dreams lately but that's only because they can physically wear a person out.

That might be due to your belief that one must spend energy in order to experience the NP. For me, it energizes me. I feel like I draw raw energy from there directly and I feel great the next day, not to mention the emotional excitement from whatever I experienced.

Your dream was very detailed and it showed progress for the participants. I'm glad you got to see your mom. My dad passed away 10 years ago, way too young and that was the most painful thing I had to go through. I thought the pain was almost unbearable. But then thanks to my ability I have been seeing him frequently during my APs. He is happy and he is watching over us. Experiences with deceased loved ones are always so special and emotional. I hope you get to meet her again during your adventures.

Thanks LightBeam for your kind words.

QuoteThat might be due to your belief that one must spend energy in order to experience the NP

No, honestly it's because I have been having LDs since childhood to the point of physical exhaustion. I've only had the paralysis part of sleep paralysis a few times in life. Normally I am able to move quite freely so I think the exhaustion is a totally physical thing. But when I do have the paralysis thing I have noticed I am not as tired so maybe that is something else that can be looked at from a scientific pov.

I've actively shut down my extra sensory perceptions during various phases of my life just to ground myself. Till coming across this forum I didn't have a clue others were even into all this stuff. I just thought I was weird.  :-) :roll:

Sorry to hear about your dad passing so young. I don't know what's worse losing them young or watching them go day by day as they age. My mother's passing was a blessing, she was in so much pain and torment. Seems you have a highly developed ability. You made me smile talking about your dad. It's a good thing.

Interesting! Today I was reading another thread (Star Seeds and ETs)and followed a link to a youtube by Delores Cannon. In that video Delores talks about having to experience all life on planet Earth and she talks about the plant kingdom. And suddenly it made sense. Here's a quote from my original post up top.

"One of the ladies (long black hair with a white skunk streak) leaned forward over the desk and told me, "I know you, we used to be Blossoms together."

Love it when a puzzle piece finds a home. :-)

Quote from: Nameless on August 28, 2016, 18:36:43
Interesting! Today I was reading another thread (Star Seeds and ETs)and followed a link to a youtube by Delores Cannon. In that video Delores talks about having to experience all life on planet Earth and she talks about the plant kingdom. And suddenly it made sense. Here's a quote from my original post up top.

"One of the ladies (long black hair with a white skunk streak) leaned forward over the desk and told me, "I know you, we used to be Blossoms together."

Love it when a puzzle piece finds a home. :-)

Well we got a coincidence today, it seems, we got some answers. :)

Quote from: Phildan1 on August 28, 2016, 18:38:25
Well we got a coincidence today, it seems, we got some answers. :)

Haha, now if I can just find the significance of a diamond wrapped walnut. :-)

Sunday,  August 28, 2016  LD - AP

I was caring for young children in a home daycare setting. We were outside when a father showed up with his little girl. As I was working a garden with some of the children I could hear the father and another daycare worker discussing his little girl. Looking at her I could see she was somehow trapped in her head. (I know that might not make sense).

I touched her arm and told her I would help her. Then we were in her dad's car. She was all buckled up and I began digging around on the floor. I found a walnut. The walnut was encased in what looked like a diamond ring. There two bands, one going one way around the nut and the other going the other way. The diamond or crystal was at the center where they crossed. I felt this walnut had something to do with this child's problems and I showed it to her. I could tell she recognized it and reached for it. I woke up before I could determine what to do with it or how to help her.

I really want to help this child. Anyone have ideas what the walnut could mean?

Interesting dream. Was the walnut with the shell, or just the edible part?

The nut was still in the shell with the ring around the shell.

To me the symbolism here is that in order to find the seed (find answers, achieve accomplishments, etc), first the hard shell needs to be broken (a difficult task)

Quote from: LightBeam on August 28, 2016, 22:26:33
To me the symbolism here is that in order to find the seed (find answers, achieve accomplishments, etc), first the hard shell needs to be broken (a difficult task)

That makes sense LightBeam. I hope I get the chance to work this one out. I also wonder if showing her the nut was the right thing to do as that is when I woke up.

Quote from: Nameless on August 28, 2016, 22:32:10
I also wonder if showing her the nut was the right thing to do as that is when I woke up.

Yes, definitely! You have revealed in a way what exactly is the task.

Thank you so much. Sometimes another mind is all it takes to help see things clearly. :-)

Diamond covered walnut indicates you are using your whole self in an ambitious way that may seem off to others. You also are using great amounts of your time to do this and see it through.
I hope the walnut stays solid. You don't want to crack it, that symbolises failure.

Thanks Szaxx, that's a whole nother way to interpret the walnut. I was thinking it applied to the little girl. But if it applies to me I need to polish those diamonds. Thanks hon.

Monday, September 5,  2016

Met a very impatient man. Apparently a natural calamity had left a number of people without homes. A local hotel had put them up for a night or two till they could make other arrangements. He was raising a fuss over not having decent beds and housekeeping not seeing to their needs. The hotel had put his family in a loft space and given them enough covers to make pallets on the floor.

He had not fully grasped the situation and basically was showing his butt and being very selfish. Calming him down by pointing how hard the hotel and staff were working to provide shelter and food (without profit) to large number of homeless people didn't take long.

I was going to suggest he and his family pitch in and help others less fortunate but I was pulled away to do some reading.

"This was a very long time ago..." As I was reading I could hear the book character actually saying the words. There were a couple of words that seemed like non-sense. One was liminery. I think that's right but never heard that word before.

Merriam-Webster says; French - Define liminary: placed at the beginning (as of a book) : introductory, preliminary..

This is a projection I have wanted to share for quite sometime. I want to share it to show how very real a projection can be and how very informative and they can be to your waking physical life. I'm skipping the 'how I got there' part as to me that is the least important. I think of this projection as

THE BEAUTIFUL DREAM

I was out walking with my family. It was the most incredibly clear sunny day I have ever seen. The sun was bright and warm and smelled like liquid heaven. A gentle cool breeze delicately wrapped around our arms and faces as we walked. I could feel it's tickle across my skin. There was my husband, our 4 children, his parents and my parents. We were walking up a hill alongside a long country road. I could smell, feel and taste the breeze, the sunshine, the flowers, the tar from the road. My senses were hyper-clear. I could see quite clearly off into the distance in perfect detail.

As we walked up the hill I sometimes ran ahead and sometimes linger behind wondering at the beauty. I reveled in joy seeing my father-in-law walking with my mother-in-law. He had already passed over a few years prior and she had been wheelchair bound since long before even then. They were happy and content holding the littlest boys hand and talking with a beautiful young woman I recognized although she had yet to even enter our world.

My parents walked and talked and for that blessed day my own mother was completely pain free. There beside her was dad as he walked so proud and he too wondered at the immense clarity and purity. I could see that in his crystal clear blue eyes. The little boy also not yet having entered our world relished the running and playing and back and forth as he ran between his two sets of grandparents, often slowing down to hold hands and giggle.

Up ahead, just over the top of the hill we heard a train whistle and could feel the rumble of the train racing along it's tracks. There were voices too, a rhythmic singing, an occasional shout and the blows of hammers. I ran ahead leaving my family to their leisurely stroll. At the top of the hill I paused to look back at my family in wonder. In front of me a work crew were working away on the train tracks doing general maintenance repairs and way down around the bend I could see smoke rising from the approaching train engine and hear the lone whistle calling long and low.

The workers cleared the track and scooted off to take a lunch break and I noticed him. He was my guide, waiting on the other side of the tracks. I quickly ran down and across the tracks to meet him leaving my family to wait for the train. I knew he had a message for me. Catching up to him I admired the form he had taken, that of a tall elderly black man. I wondered why that form, he had used it before. I thought back to when I was young and remembered a couple of black men I had admired. They were good people with lovely souls and one of them had had a rich soothing voice that just made you want to listen. I smiled, understanding.

We sat a ways down below the train track in the shade of huge oak. He told me, "that is your family, the way they are before and after. And you might want to keep those covered, you'll be needing them soon." I looked down, horrified, to see my blouse was undone and blowing in the breeze. Hurriedly I buttoned up feeling embarrassed not knowing how that had happened. My guide smiled gently telling me, "It's perfectly natural, nothing to be ashamed of or embarrassed about. They're waiting for you." I turned and saw the caboose passing by and my family waving from the other side. My guide had gone.

Additional notes about the above.

Father in Law had already passed over.
Mother in Law was wheelchair bound and passed a few years later.

The littlest boy had not been born yet and came into this world as a complete surprise (sort of) shortly after this.
The young woman is my daughter, born a few years after this. I saw her on many occasions since I was a child myself.

Mom has now passed and dad is still hanging on.
There was an incredible amount of depth to this projection/dream from the five senses to the knowing.

I in no way tried to control the elements. Doing so would have most certainly ruined the message that was being passed along.

Wow, I've been looking at the latest dream journals and wondered whatever happened to mine. Tickled I found it, looks like I'm falling down on the job. I just reread the above and realized something. Back then, when I wrote the beautiful dream I had yet to fully realize that I had indeed met any of my guides. And yet, up there, I knew immediately. Either that's a pointer to my disorganized mind or... idk.

Stickied for motivation to post!  :)

Thanks Xanth :-) I tried posting here yesterday but my connection was lost. Now I can't think what it was - so much for motivation, :-(

I'm so bad at this, haha.

Last night had an interesting introduction to how hypnosis really works on a sort of cellular level. I was in an astral classroom (so to speak). An instructor brought in a table to use for demonstration purposes. There was a large board propped up on the table. The side facing us had little baskets and he passed out large linen napkins and washers.

After a while he turned the table around and showed the other side which had some various contraptions attached to the board. I understood the hypnosis was already in full swing and wanting to observe rather than participate I blinked out.

I found myself in a parking garage with some creature in a car trying to basically kill myself and another there. The other person was directing dogs to attack. But one of the dogs was the real dog. The others were projections. It got weird but was all an exercise in actually using hypnosis.

Then I blinked back into the classroom where the others were throwing their napkins (tied to a washer) into the little baskets on the other side of the board. They were easily able to ring the baskets. I and the teacher communicated silently a bit. Then the other one from the garage and the little dog showed up and I cuddled the little dog on the couch for a bit and was offered a drink.

Interestingly I could read perfectly the words on the labels. I had a choice of Orangey Orange soda or Tequila. I passed on both and chose a cup of water.

About hypnosis. It is really just a way to convince ourselves that we can do all the things we can do anyway. Because in truth we can do anything.

Hugs

Really wish I could come up with a better name for this journal. Because not everything is a dream. Oh well, something will come to me.

Last night once again I found myself sharing another's essence (so to speak). This lady and I go back a ways. I know we have a special bond but I don't know why. Not sure it even matters. I haven't mentioned her before now because., well, I just haven't.

She is a tall slim lady with ebony skin. Has a very regal bearing and lives on an island with her tribe/family/neighbors. She's quite lovely, contemplative and has some major hidden powers that she herself does not understand. But everyone around her looks up to her as well they should. She's quite the inspiration to me as well.

So last night I am in her mind. I always tread very lightly when I do that although I still don't know why I do it at all. She's hot because it's very hot on the island, hotter than ever in memory. A communal 'sleep' pavilion has been set up in the coolest area on the island. Anyone can go there to catch a few winks since it is so hot everywhere else.

She goes to the pavilion to lie down and her husband goes with her. They keep a bit of space between them due to the heat. He says, "What is it, you seem distant again." (don't know the language but had no trouble understanding) She tells him she just feel something, not bad not good, just something.

Now the thing is she is sensing my presence. She knows I am there but she doesn't fully understand. She doesn't know how to explain this to her husband or anyone else. For my part, I am reluctant to reach out too forcefully. I don't want to upset her or me. It's really kind of mind boggling because just as I seem to randomly visit her she also seems to randomly visit me.

I'm hoping whatever is going on here is also coming to a head (so to speak) in her mind as well. Perhaps eventually we'll be able to connect with more control over our apparent symbiotic situation.

When I pulled away from her mind she turned and looked around. She was fully aware I was leaving and seemed to feel as sad as I did.

Have any of you experienced anything like this?

I am coming to the point of calling it "My Seemingly Endless Variety of Experiences" Journal...the last few years, I have practically given up on the idea of categorizing this stuff in any way...any time I think that I have, then even newer experiences are introduced.  :-D It seems to be equal parts of me having certain realizations and then, accordingly, new experiences or memories are introduced or emphasized.

Nameless, what you describe strikes me as an obvious "parallel life" kind of experience; I have nothing equivalent to compare (the closest being my Fieldtrip), your description being so good that only some of Lumaza's experiences come to mind. Late last year, along with an experience I shared with you, I also had a brief, snapshot memory/experience of an off-world life I shared with Lumaza but it was nothing more than that, very brief, maybe five seconds. I wonder that my experience wasn't triggered because I had recently finished the second book in the Frank DeMarco "Rita's World" series that expanded my thinking on past lives, parallel lives and a more complex understanding of how souls and oversouls are possibly composed and existing.

So, of course, a few questions-

You've had this experience how many times and how far back?

You say she has been "in your head"...care to elaborate? How did you notice her presence and what thoughts did you take away from it? Why do you think she was there?

Thank you for digging in and sharing at this deep a level. Luv

Hi Ev, we do share a lot of similarities and you and I both have a lot of questions. You're so much better at pulling this stuff together than I am. I operate mostly on feeling. Not that I don't have any sense to go with it, lol.

I like your journal title - you should go with that it's awesome. ~v~

You've had this experience how many times and how far back?

I came into contact with her in 2013. How many times is difficult to say as sometimes it's me visiting her, sometimes it's her visiting me.

You say she has been "in your head"...care to elaborate? How did you notice her presence and what thoughts did you take away from it? Why do you think she was there?

In my head is the same as I was in hers in the above exp. Astral Projection/Dream. Only I'm awake and she's projecting.

She seems ancient on some level although her physical self is mature but not old. It's like she has two aspects, one being higher and that one seems to be directing these events. Perhaps trying to form a chain or correspondence of some kind. The Higher being wants me to tell her story but as of yet I don't know her story.

Maybe they are two separate beings. The Higher one began badgering (not really) me to tell stories back then and I think it has led up to me learning to listen/perceive so I can tell this one. Who to and why I don't know.

Looks like I've made a mess of those explanations up there.

We need to be sharing on a deep level. We aren't going to get anywhere as long as people are afraid to face the fear and dig. Hugs and Love right back at Cha.

In my experience, the "Who to and why..." doesn't necessarily matter...it's simply going through the process and the unfolding awareness that results, is what is being asked of me...that is the learning...it is confusing for me and usually takes weeks and months to put any workable answer together, and even that can change over time.

So, in order to dig a bit deeper, I will try and dip a toe in the water and swirl the colors around, hoping a snapping turtle doesn't remove my toe for me...

In your experience, you relate the idea that two beings or aspects may be operating within your awareness. Your description makes me think of a Richard Sutphen book I read some thirty years ago which introduced me to a variety of, and more complicated possibilities of just what the "soul" may be. The Rita's World books that I read last year added to this thought-train.

Early in my life I figured that I was one singular soul, reincarnating through a linear series of lives, with a theory of Karma either thrown in or not. Then the idea of non-linear lifetimes was introduced, even parallel existences; okay, I incorporated that. Then came the idea of an over-arching Oversoul that "my" soul was somehow a part of. That became a bit problematic since I was already dealing with the issue of my present lifetime Ego which really resisted the idea of it's dissolution at death :-o; now I had to contend with the idea of the possible sublimation of my idea beyond the Ego, that of my idea of my Soul being somehow subsumed within a greater Oversoul or a "greater community" of some sort. My actual place within the Multiverse appeared to begin fading at the edges...

Now comes the DeMarco/Rita's World perspective that posits the idea that we are all not souls but actually little experimental combinations of "splinters" of previous successful incarnations, additive personalities and new attempts to complement the experience of the Soul/OverSoul. If we are successful, if we become fully defined/actualized/realized...then we continue, but always as part of a recognized greater being, so to speak. If not, if we utterly fail...then our "splinter" material dissolves back into the soup. The "splinters" are what give us these half remembrances of previous lives, because that is exactly what they are taken from, for whatever the reason they were chosen. The memories are not actually ours, except in an indirect way, but we sometimes tap into them. Genetics also ties into this.

At the same time, the Soul/OverSoul is experiencing multiple, maybe hundreds of lifetimes and with our individual psychic development we can tune into one or more of these either accidentally or by practice. Apparently it seems to be part of our development, as in this case with Nameless. Or maybe, it is an indication that you have actualized and are now at the next level, experiencing from an additional level, slowly beginning to understand how it is experienced from a minor perspective of the Soul/OverSoul level...? (Don't let that go to your head. Lol)

Personally, I have a slight issue with understanding the limits of my personal "being-ness". I do accept that all of Physical Life adheres to a certain framework and hierarchy- Orders and Phyla and Species, etcetera. It makes perfect sense that the Multiverse and the Non-Physical operate similarly, along with the concept that we are all somehow parts of a higher being (God/Source, eventually), and that may include many degrees and orders.

I guess the fear is loss of identity somewhere within it all. It's funny in that when I am in the Void, I have no problem with letting go and dissolving into nothingness; it is so relaxing and easy(I would take an hour of that over a two week vacation, lol).

You wanted thoughts, so there are some... :wink:

You didn't make a mess of those explanations...you explained them just fine. I know how, when I go to type out an experience, it is so understandable in my mind, and yet I freeze up over the keyboard, not knowing how to even begin, the language just isn't capable...been there many times.

Okay, so let's drill down on a point of interest that I have...You state that you became aware of her presence while you were awake? I find that just slightly amazing...please describe that...How did you become aware of her presence? Did your memory somehow alert you to who she was? What did you think and what did you feel? Not to your degree, but I have slightly felt the mental presence of others-you, Szaxx, Lumaza, Lightbeam and some "others"...very faint, but just enough to make me think...

I wonder that the "higher one" isn't the Oversoul in your context...just an idea maybe. A Higher Self that shares the two of you? Is the Ebony one a previous/alternate/parallel lifetime...a "splinter"?

I have fully given up on the idea that we are to figure all of this out, in this lifetime. Maybe we are continuously challenged to just take it as far as we can. What fun!

EV

So much to think about. Some of the ideas you've posted I've come across before about the soul matrix (past lives, karma, over-souls and now splinters). I haven't drawn any firm conclusions yet probably never will realizing I'll not hold all the pieces at this point.

I feel the same as you as to learning the who and why and whatnot. I know we'll know when it's time to know. But it is entertaining to wrestle with ideas and every once in a while we hit on something and the universe gives us a nod. Snapping turtle <- you just had to plant that image didn't ya? LOL

I think I should probably give Rita's World a read. The splinter idea is like my own thoughts about re-incarnation/past lives and such. And it paints a prettier picture than the example in my head. I picture all of us like plastic. A few plastic items can last a very long time, most just wind up somewhere they were never intended to be and a lot winds up recycled into new and useful items.

"Or maybe, it is an indication that you have actualized and are now at the next level, experiencing from an additional level, slowly beginning to understand how it is experienced from a minor perspective of the Soul/OverSoul level...? (Don't let that go to your head. Lol)"

Haha, that's exciting to think about and it is gratifying if true for me. However even if so I know that would still place me dead center of still being a small fish in someone's pond.

"I guess the fear is loss of identity somewhere within it all. It's funny in that when I am in the Void, I have no problem with letting go and dissolving into nothingness; it is so relaxing and easy(I would take an hour of that over a two week vacation, lol)."

I don't think you should fear this. I've a feeling we NEVER lose who we are. I love the void too, could you imagine the euphoria is you could spend a week in the void. Wow!

I'm going to end this here and add another post. I'd hate to lose everything by making this too long.

Now I'll move on to your points of interest.

"You state that you became aware of her presence while you were awake? I find that just slightly amazing...please describe that...How did you become aware of her presence? Did your memory somehow alert you to who she was? What did you think and what did you feel? Not to your degree, but I have slightly felt the mental presence of others-you, Szaxx, Lumaza, Lightbeam and some "others"...very faint, but just enough to make me think..."

In 2012 I was suddenly inspired to begin writing creative stories. This is something that many people had told me I should do for as long as I can remember but I never cared. There are a lot of details I am not going into at this point. I played with the idea and posted a few crappy things online not giving it much of a chance because I just didn't see myself as a writer. And then... I don't know what happened. Odd things started happening. I was definitely being guided. So I began just writing what was in my heart. In 2013 I sat at my keyboard late one night just staring at the screen. I want to make clear that I was not asleep, sleepy or meditating. I was just looking at that blank screen and made a statement. (sort of like an after-thought). Okay, if you want me to write it show me. (something like that anyway).

Now I am not going to put that here but I wrote exactly what played out on my screen. I will say she first introduced me to some kids and those are what I wrote about. Only after I had written that did she appear some time later.

I had no idea at that time who she was. She was slightly terrifying, not that she did anything to garner that impression. It was her appearance and her clear commanding air. Well I had asked and this was apparently my answer so I dove in writing fast trying to keep up.

I felt GREAT. I felt confident and terrified at the same time. I was so nervous posting some of those stories but my confidence did grow. What is more important to me though was how she would clearly let me know when I had gone off course.

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I can feel you and the trio you mentioned above as well along with a few others. It's so strange to finally come in contact (online at least) with some of the energies I actually know on another level.

You know, it feels good to finally talk about this. There's just so much involved with so many day to day experiences that I and I'm sure WE just don't mention or talk about otherwise with those we are in actual physical contact with on a daily basis.

I think I've covered everything, haha.

One more thing, you ask if the Ebony one is a previous lifetime or splinter. I don't get that feeling but maybe. She seems to be her own separate person in the now despite living in a very quaint (by our standards) style. But timelines are different Otherwhere. The OverSoul(?) certainly has connections with both of us. Hmmm?

Lately I've been encountering lots of kids. I'm entering their dreams, nightmares and fears. It was a bit confusing at first then I realized my job was to help them overcome those fears. I'm telling you that can get pretty dicey.

I'm not given any information before I begin so I often don't know where their fears are coming from, that is, from their imaginations or possibly real-life fears so I just have to go with the flow. The kids are not always human as we think of humans. It's been quite a learning experience for me having the opportunity to view this other side of myself.

My most recent exp I had the wonderful opportunity to view a small boy with amazing courage. He nearly broke my heart. I will call him Cactus Boy here as a reminder to myself of his courage and his ingenuity. Where ever that little fellow actually resides I am honored to know him and pray I have given him the added courage he needed.

Cactus Boy, haha. Lately I have been planting a lot of cactuses in my garden :) Maybe he is my garden gnome or fairy hehe

Haha, what a coincidence! This little boy had learned to mentally wrap himself in a sort of insulated blanket fitted out with cactus needles so he could chase off the 'bad' man who scared him. Rather inventive.

Ah, very clever of him :)

Quote from: Nameless on June 25, 2018, 21:03:40
Lately I've been encountering lots of kids. I'm entering their dreams, nightmares and fears. It was a bit confusing at first then I realized my job was to help them overcome those fears. I'm telling you that can get pretty dicey.

Nameless, you are being shown that it is now time to step up and become the "Teacher". That usually comes as a result of accepting the duty of a "Invisible Helper". It's a mental decision, but nonetheless, still a decision that only you can make.  8-) :-)

Quote from: Lumaza on June 26, 2018, 02:52:16
Nameless, you are being shown that it is now time to step up and become the "Teacher". That usually comes as a result of accepting the duty of a "Invisible Helper". It's a mental decision, but nonetheless, still a decision that only you can make.  8-) :-)

I sure hope I'm ready Lumaza. It's one thing to screw up on my own accord but can't bear the thought of screwing up anyone else.

Quote from: Nameless on June 26, 2018, 04:21:12
I sure hope I'm ready Lumaza. It's one thing to screw up on my own accord but can't bear the thought of screwing up anyone else.

You have been ready for a long time. You just needed a bit of a "confidence" boost".  :wink:

Thank you Lumaza, so many of you here at Astral Pulse have helped boost my confidence, enlighten my senses and put me on a track of thought I hadn't considered before.

Quick note - brief conscious phase last night -  a man entered my field. He looked like an Eastern Holy Man, garbed in red and yellow silky robes and wraps. He reached out and plucked something from my right ear. It made my ear burn though not painful. He turned his hand and showed me what he had removed. On his palm lay what looked like either a gold coin or disk. It was perhaps the size of a nickel and looked really old and maybe rusty or blood on it. He closed his hand and vanished. This is important but I don't yet understand.

That is very interesting, Nameless. Maybe he is showing you that you can hear something, but you have to really listen. An old wisdom that you already have, but need to realize that you have it.
Years ago I went to Vegas with my sister. Many interesting extraordinary things happened that week, but there was one instance where we were at a gift shop at a casino and as I was looking at the items, I knew that someone was looking at me. I turned and there in the distance was a group of monks, like from Tibet, exactly draped in gold and red. One of them was intensely looking at me. When our eyes met, he smiled. A rush of thoughts entered my head at that exact moment, like he was telling me that I know something that you know, but no body else. It was like telepathy. I smiled back, then the group left. I felt like this person was someone I knew from a past life perhaps, and in this life we just crossed paths with just this brief interaction. Brief but powerful though.

The other night, I had a similar dream like yours. I realized that I had a tick on my right shoulder. I ended up in a hospital room and there was a doctor who removed the tick and showed it to me and said "You see, I took out the whole thing together with the teeth and legs, nothing is left in your body and there will be no consequences of the bite. "

That's exactly what I though, a Tibetan Monk. That was pretty wild seeing those guys in Vegas. I can relate to that knowing though. I find your dream really interesting in that it happened so recently as did this latest exp of mine. A tick a rusty old coin, both things we wouldn't want attached to us.

You said "Maybe he is showing you that you can hear something, but you have to really listen. An old wisdom that you already have, but need to realize that you have it."

I have been hearing something and have been working on clarity.

That sounds great. See it is creating a shielding feeling that sounds great. 

I have a guide with the shape of a monk as well. As I told Lumaza once, he took me in one of my dreams to see the world tree, or how the world was like a tree and bearing seed for foundations.

Can you retrieve the blood coins? Can you remember if there was any engravings to pull you or push you towards some destination she had?

Has it changed your perception? Maybe you could try another phase session, try to get some answer to be more clear so when you know you flip back awaken.

There is nothing I can just think of that has not been already mentioned here before. Perhaps it is of luck disguised.  :-)

Thanks Rakkso, this is the first time I recall encountering an actual monk although I have been close before. I will consider your questions. I did try to phase again last night but no go.

I'm constantly revamping my perceptions. Sometimes it feels like I'm in a whirlwind and I have to just stop and get off every now and then and remember the first course of action here is being human. :-)

Well I blew it.

Had the chance of an adventure and became all gooey human cringing in terror. Was grabbed by the ankle and should have just relaxed and went with it. Unfortunately I immediately reverted to my old fears and conjured up a dream to save myself instead. Darn it.

This is why you don't get cocky, LOL.

Quote from: Nameless on July 02, 2018, 02:59:56
Well I blew it.

Had the chance of an adventure and became all gooey human cringing in terror. Was grabbed by the ankle and should have just relaxed and went with it. Unfortunately I immediately reverted to my old fears and conjured up a dream to save myself instead. Darn it.

This is why you don't get cocky, LOL.

That's normal, don't worry, maybe next time :)

Quote from: Nameless on July 02, 2018, 02:59:56
Well I blew it.

Had the chance of an adventure and became all gooey human cringing in terror. Was grabbed by the ankle and should have just relaxed and went with it. Unfortunately I immediately reverted to my old fears and conjured up a dream to save myself instead. Darn it.

This is why you don't get cocky, LOL.

No harm, no foul. There "will" be a next time and another and another....

I aborted many "adventures" due to ankle and leg pulling.  Once I saw it through though. I found out how adventurous it could really be. I don't think there is much that can top my getting grabbed by the ankles, suspended upside down by them and twisted through my ceiling like some kind of spinning top. (I am not tempting or challenging fate either, lol  :-o :roll:). I got to the "spun through my ceiling" part, then I clicked out.

Very interesting ap. I was with my daughter and we were walking around town, window shopping and a little actual shopping. We bought us each a dress. Mine was size 12. My attention was drawn to the 12 several times.

It began to rain so we entered a store, a number of other people were there as well getting out of the rain. After we entered I looked back and saw there were quite a lot of people there sitting on benches and the floor. A little girl looked at me and I immediately knew she needed something. I sat in front of her and bowed my head. Immediately I was chasing a white pinpoint of light down a long tunnel. (sound familiar).

The little girl sat in front of me and stared the whole time. I know she was with me on this journey across planes. Sometimes we slowed down just to observe what all was there and then we'd speed back up and race along awhile. We glimpsed and passed many realities eventually winding right back where we started there in the store.

My daughter and I decided to go on to the car and call it a day. It was still drizzling. Somehow she got ahead of me and I saw her meandering back toward me walking on the side walk. I couldn't find the car but she said it was 'right there'. I couldn't see it.

Significant points seem to be the rain and the number 12, my daughter and the child.

Quote from: Nameless on July 03, 2018, 23:48:43
I know she was with me on this journey across planes. Sometimes we slowed down just to observe what all was there and then we'd speed back up and race along awhile. We glimpsed and passed many realities eventually winding right back where we started there in the store.

M

Wow, this description is like one scene from a fantasy book I am writing. One of the group gets killed in the battle with the darkness, then the main character lays next to his body, gets OOB by will and sees his spirit standing there. In attempt to show him the multiverse, she grabs him by the hand and start racing with him through realities flying higher and higher, streaming through light and colors, stars and galaxies, energy vortexes and swirls. At times they slow down and certain beautiful worlds are shown. At the end as they gain speed through the dimensions suddenly there is a blinding blast of light like supernova explosion, which  tells the readers that they have reached the highest heaven and have become one with everything and God. I imagine this becoming a movie and that exact scene in the background of this song. Epic :)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i1DOTURfpno

I think this AP definitely shows your continuous assistance and guidance to others.

Wow, that is interesting. Loved the part of the youtube I got to see. Will have try and load it again to see the rest. :-)

Last couple of days have been interesting. I've noticed my daughter seems so much lighter (spirit, mood). Each time I notice this I reflect on that adventure I wrote above with us walking in the rain. The last scene where she is ahead of me and turns back - she's walking in the rain. This is not a heavy rain it's light gentle sprinkle. I noticed how light, fresh and just plain beautiful she is.

I just decided to check dream moods to look at the meaning of rain. Wow, the very first line "To see and hear rain falling symbolizes forgiveness and grace."
This is a personal validation as I know she has been holding onto a lot of baggage lately.

I decided to put this here just to show how our dreams truly can provide what we need even for those around us. :-)

That's wonderful! The water I think represented the energy that cleansed her emotions.

.....and down the rabbit hole _ again

Well I've been doing this healing meditation, looking to cleanse all parts and aspects of my being whether I understand them or not. This has actually been going really well. So several nights ago I had a 'talk' with the 'Others' leaving myself in their capable hands.

Yo-kay! First I want to publicly thank all those involved with my care. THANK YOU

If you are wondering what the heck I mean here it simply means I have finally accepted the fact that there are a lot of energies involved with who we are and they are here to help. But we have to accept them and allow them to do their work.

Anyway after meditating I lay down to sleep not really expecting anything other than sleep, figuring any energy work would happen while I was unconscious. Haha, I'm sure you all see the funny there. :-D

Instead of sleep I felt a deep sense of physical body relaxation and dove into that as blessed relief from stress. But then... Energy, strong, warm, non to gentle yet very healing. Felt like someone was giving me a massage with an energy device. The massage concentrated on hips digging deep and penetrating to the deep tissues and bone even. It was almost painful at some points but it went on and on. I lay there awake totally enjoying this for a long time before finally just deciding to let go so I feel asleep.

Can't say what happened after that but next day I sure felt the benefits. I lot of leg and hip blockages and pain have subsided. I know this is/will be a slow process and I really don't know exactly what to expect. But I'm trusting my helpers and they seem pretty competent to me.

It's taken a long time for me to get to this point of trust but it is the most important step forward I believe I could make.

Trusting in who we are, trusting in the decisions we made or the ones we make even when we aren't sure of our path is the ultimate test of our strength. It shows faith, willingness and belief in our unlimited potential.

Exit stage left...

I'm driving a beautiful red sports car, zipping along free as a bird. I realize two things, one I have device in my hand and two I am handicapped from the waist down.

The device is a curious small thing I can point at where ever I want to go and I'm there instantaneously. So I'm flying over hill and dale across some of the most beautiful countryside I've ever seen and looking ahead I can point the device and click it and go sailing fast forward to that spot on the road. It was a wonderful trip.

But I was running out of gas so had to pull into a station.

Being handicapped I had a wheelchair and rolled into the store to pay for gas and pick up snacks. Seemed everyone was handicapped either physically or or mentally on some level. The correlation was pretty clear, non-physical we have no handicaps but physical (just being here) is a handicap. But we can and should still enjoy ourselves. I did, didn't want to come back that's for sure.

Clicked out and found myself consoling a mother whose children were in general driving her nuts. My job - remind her what she was here for. That's all.

It was a wonderful phase experience making today a very good day indeed.


(note to self: Remember the cloud - I love you too!)

Did you fly with the car? If yes, yours and my experiences have so many similarities. I have flown with a red mustang convertible during AP. That was quite a ride :). I have also flown my house. One time as I was standing on the terrace of my childhood home, I thought, why not fly. So the hose lifted up and started flying above the city. I was still standing on the terrace holding onto the rail, wind on my face and a big smile.


It looks like all of your experiences involve assisting other souls. You have become a guide.

Yes indeedy. I could fly off the road or to a spot further down the road. It was amazing. I don't recall flying a house, whoohoo that must have been a blast. I did however fly a big yellow rubber raft once. That was fun, especially trying to rescue people trapped in closets. Yeah, flying through houses is loads of fun, running into fold-down ironing boards - not so much LOL.

But more seriously I have been given lots of lessons and instructions in guidance that I now recognize. I have to say it is the most rewarding thing I have ever done. I am even more grateful to my own guides. I hope one day to be as good as they have been.

Quote from: Nameless on August 02, 2018, 03:54:47
Yeah, flying through houses is loads of fun, running into fold-down ironing boards - not so much LOL.

Haha, I can imagine

Quote from: Nameless on August 02, 2018, 03:54:47
I hope one day to be as good as they have been.

I am sure you already are :)

I miss MntGoat from EIC. Just before it closed he posted a thread in which he had created a square room with round table and a type of crystal chandelier hanging over it. He charged it so others who wanted to could come there and use it. I think he had Lumaza's son Nate in mind. Anyway that is how I understood it, only got to read it once and by then Fred had already disabled the reply buttons.

But I liked the idea and thinking on this I decided to see if I could access the room and crystal to charge it and send a bit of healing Nate's way as well as my daughter who has been way under the weather lately. The results were astounding, at least on my end. I can only hope Nate is doing well. I'm sure Lumaza will let us know.

The crystal began to shimmer and vibrate a lovely sparkling bright pink. I saw a ray of pink light leave the crystal going straight up. The ray split with one ray going straight up and out. The other shot off to the side going straight up and curving back down. I imagined it was seeking out my daughter while the other sought out Nate.

This morning my daughter was finally not looking so pale and was even laughing. And she finally ate a piece of her birthday cake!!! Yay! It's a special recipe passed down from my mom. It's been waiting on her since Sunday!

I don't really know how all this healing energy works or any energy for that matter. I just know it does.

I do hope to hear from MntGoat soon.

It looks like your energies really reach and affect the intended recipients. Have you tried direct contact healing? But for that you need the patient to know and accept what you are doing. Have you watched the show "The Healer" on TLC. It's truly fascinating what Charlie Goldsmith does in a matter of minutes. I wish I had that strong healing ability. Perhaps you can give it a try on a few willing people with direct contact.

Honestly till recently I really never thought about it much. My mom was healer although she didn't think so. She just prayed and her prayers were answered. I know God talk is pretty much taboo but I think whatever you call these manifestations it is the same energy flow.

Only once have I consciously sought to physically heal someone and I did ask their permission. They gave it and that was a powerful experience that brought about a huge change for that person. I didn't 'heal' them as for that they needed to do some work on their own. But I did at least temporarily give them a much needed respite. They slept for many hours after and woke more refreshed than they had in a long time.

I would LOVE to watch that show and a few others. Sadly I rarely ever get control of the remote. It's funny but sad too but that's another story.

I don't know if I am supposed to be a healer or not. I just try when it seems I should. Sometimes I can't 'feel' it no matter how much I want to help. I just have to sit back and let it be.

Thank you so much for responding. It really helps me see who I am and feel more connected. Hugs

Quote from: Nameless on August 10, 2018, 05:47:26
I know God talk is pretty much taboo but I think whatever you call these manifestations it is the same energy flow.

I think everyone in here agrees that there is a Source from which everything was created and at the end we are ONE. Sometimes when I feel overwhelmed with something or things of different areas of life  just get stuck, I just get into a few God sessions of complete surrender and trust that God can do anything, but I need to step back and let him. Complete let go of any type of control as well as worry. I give the burden to God and say this is your burden now. These sessions work so well and in a short period of time I can see change in the course of whatever was stuck. Sort of stepping back and letting the higher energies untwine and regulate the energies messed up by my fears, beliefs, doubts, wrong decisions, etc.... So, I keep God very close to me, I try to feel his energy at all time and be at a state of surrender. That way, I can clearly see what is being shown to me and what are the signs and right decisions to be made. Some people may think due to ego that it is them who are in control and everything is what you do yourself. To some degree this is true, but lets not forget that we are a part pf the greater source and without it we are isolated piece of energy with not much power. We have to think not as individual sours, but as a very connected part of ONE entity. And the very core of this ONE ALL THAT IS  the ultimate power from which everything is possible, we just have to stay connected to draw from it.


By the way, you can watch probably clips from the show on youtube when you have time.

Not sure what to think about my last adventure. I was attacked by a smallish brown creature with quills. It bit me on the hand near the thumb. I flung it off before it could get a good grip but it pounced right back and drove sharp little teeth straight into my wrist. It held on tight wrapping it's tail around my arm and began sucking what felt like all my fluids.

There were three other characters there as well and they tried to help but it wouldn't let them near, shooting at them with its quills. One of them came running with a tranquilizer gun. His first dart was batted away by the creature on my arm. I turned that arm towards the guy and told him to tranq me. So he shot me in the arm with the dart.

Took about a second before I started falling to the floor and another half second for the creature to slurp up the tranquilizer. Soon as it did it was zapped like a huge bolt of electricity hit it and flew across the room, smashed into a cabinet and lay still.
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Notes: I bolted upright thinking my wrist would probably be hurting, from what I didn't know. I did feel a sting near my thumb and on my wrist. I was sort of 'here and there'. There I could see two little incisions but they faded rapidly. Here I saw nothing but clearly felt the residual effects for a few minutes.

Later on my daughter woke up and told me she had a sharpish pain in her thumb and near her wrist. (I had not said anything about my experience) She said it was weird as she didn't do anything to it and although when she woke up the pain was a sting she couldn't see anything and the stinging faded rather quickly. She was sitting there rubbing her left hand in those areas. Interesting, it was my left side as well. By the time she told me this she said it just went away. We could see no marks whatever.

Guess I'll digest on this awhile. Any thoughts or similar exp from anyone?

I must say that was very clever of you to think of an alternate way to neutralize the creature by injecting the poison into your arm from which it drank. Very clever indeed! That shows you have resolved a difficult situation in a rather unique way. But, I also think that you did this for your daughter not for yourself, since she felt the same thing. Sort of both your spirits were merged to fight something, but you were the assistant and the lead of the fight. When I say fight, that doesn't necessarily mean fight in a conventional way, but rather resolving issues with a force of knowledge.

In dreams, I have been bitten many times by bugs, snakes, etc, but I have always managed to kill them in the end. That always happens when I am in a difficult situation in life and I notice that after these creatures are neutralized, my problems resolve.

I hadn't it looked at it that way LB but did wonder if it was me helping her or her helping me. I can see she and I working together though. Funny really as in the here and now we are so so different.

Interesting, I think this is the first time I have attacked anything. I don't think I have ever killed, then again it seems I barely know myself. (I had to kind of giggle saying that). I have often been warned by snakes of impending dangers. They tend to strike but never actually bite me or hurt me at all.

 :-D just started to read your post here Nameless, interesting relationship you have with your daughter.

Quote from: Nameless on August 18, 2018, 06:27:10

Interesting, I think this is the first time I have attacked anything. I don't think I have ever killed, then again it seems I barely know myself. (I had to kind of giggle saying that).

Ah, but you actually didn't kill anything that had permanent conscious composition if you will. The creature was just a thought formation of your challenge that your subconsciousness interpreted as such. Don't worry, REDRUM LOL. There is always a first time for everything haha 

Oh hi Plume. I've known my daughter since I was a kid myself. It's weird.

LOL, I know I know LB but still... Gee, I really gotta get me some of the RED-RUM. And there goes my innocence.

"A smallish, brown creature with quills"...and "sharp, narrow teeth"...

This reminds me distinctly of my "9 Easy Dream Triggers" experience with the Goonies critters. The precise, little twin bite marks reminds me of the feeling I had at the time of the wounds they would possibly produce had they caught and bitten me.

This is probably not a remarkable correlation; just possibly an interesting one. Reading your experience, Nameless, gives me some minor shivers...lol.

And don't even get me started on the "Red rum!  Red rum! Room 237, "Here's Johnny!" references...don't even go there! LOL!

Quote from: Nameless on August 10, 2018, 04:39:39

I do hope to hear from MntGoat soon.

If it's any constolation, I did have a user name that went by as MntPain. I just find this odd correlation interesting and kewl.  :-)

MntPain - Oh My!, LOL So you're a bit more than just a molehill, haha. Just teasing but that is kewl. :-)

Well EV - Here'ssssss Johnnnny                                 Carson

LOL

Quote from: Nameless on July 16, 2018, 04:53:40
.....and down the rabbit hole _ again
Instead of sleep I felt a deep sense of physical body relaxation and dove into that as blessed relief from stress. But then... Energy, strong, warm, non to gentle yet very healing. Felt like someone was giving me a massage with an energy device. The massage concentrated on hips digging deep and penetrating to the deep tissues and bone even. It was almost painful at some points but it went on and on. I lay there awake totally enjoying this for a long time before finally just deciding to let go so I feel asleep.

I'm quoting myself here which I don't normally do but I want to point out something the LightBeam.

LB this is also EXACTLY how your energy feels. Makes me wonder if perhaps that wasn't you and this took place well before our experiment. Dear - You are a healer.

Quote from: Nameless on September 10, 2018, 20:17:46
I'm quoting myself here which I don't normally do but I want to point out something the LightBeam.

LB this is also EXACTLY how your energy feels. Makes me wonder if perhaps that wasn't you and this took place well before our experiment. Dear - You are a healer.

I don't know if it was me. I tend to shoot different people energies if I read that they are not well. I remember several times reading from you that you were not feeling well in the past. Either way, I hope that you can see progress even if a little at a time. I just met a reiki healed through a friend. I had no idea she was one and I don't know why I mentioned to her that I was looking to get certified. I don't talk about any of that with anyone, just here. So she opened her purse and handed me her card. They will have classes in October with certifications for those who demonstrate results. I can't believe this just came to me without me even looking at this time. I just had the idea and I was planning to start searching. I am excited to put my abilities to the test.

P.s. I am having issues with logging in with my comp. Some DNS issue. With my phone is hard to type that much. I will be more active here when this gets resolved.

That is very exciting LB. I know this will do more for you than you might expect.

About the DNS issue, you need to clean that file. If you can tell me what your comp is I could look that up for you. Or you can if you are able. Search  clear dns cache for (your os) such windows 8 or whatever.

Interesting times this past week. I've had several phenomenal experiences but I won't bore you with those I don't wish to share.
So in no particular order...

1)  PR (physical reality) - My son jumps out of bed one afternoon from a nap and says, "Mom, would you please shut the door and keep it that way." Apparently he was a bit miffed bc he was constantly rescuing me from some tiny little individuals who were attacking me with toothpicks. He was shooting them off me with rock salt. Of course I was getting hit too but those little people were being blown away by the dozens. What ticked him off was every time he rescued me I would leave the door open and another horde would attack. LOL - that's my son, always my hero!

What he doesn't know (or maybe he does). Someone is always leaving the NP door open.

2)  Two strangers appear in connection with the son mentioned above. One is an autistic genius the other a retired stunt or circus performer. There were some interesting elements here I don't know how to describe as they were beyond simple np.

3)  I was on a road marching at the head of a brigand of warriors. We met up with another brigand heading our way to pillage and plunder our home. I met with the leader of that group. Seemed I had a serious message for him. My words to him were, "You see one portion (indicating the force behind me). When you approach our domain you will see another portion (indicating the warriors left behind) but what you fear is the portion you don't see (indicating the hidden forces).

As I said the above I was fiddling with a vivid green object in my hand. It seemed to represent prosperity. The man I spoke with eyed it but I indicated to him that 'this' could only be had by being gifted not taken. He looked around nervously but seemed to understand that his quest for dominance was misplaced.

I clicked out at this point. I was struck by the similarity of our garb to Roman wear. Wish I were as strong, resilient and calm as my NP personality.

4)  Nope can't even describe this one yet. I want to, it has something to do with some of my other exp. Particularly a certain female, a certain race of humans, the three dogs with red glowing eyes mentioned in another post here and some message I still must not be getting. Those lectures are just so boring. I did try to listen but as usual I was distracted.

Good Lord, why can't these NP characters stick to simple symbology? Arrows pointing directions. Raised palm for greetings, that sort of thing. I mean exactly what am I to make of those glowing red eyes? And what the hell is up with all these character walking in lock-step as though glued together? Grumble grumble

As this is my Everything Journal I'm going to put some recent stuff here I think some might find interesting. I notice we rarely talk about our daily physical lives in relation to the non-physical. I think that is a mistake if we want to obtain a fuller more clear picture of what all this just might mean.

A couple or so weeks ago I did something I really did not intend to do. Someone left a deck of playing cards on the buffet where they sat for weeks. I noticed them but thought nothing of them. Plume is the tarot card reading guru far as I am concerned. Anyway I walked by and felt a very clear nudge to pick up the cards. No, not interested. Then again another day, same thing. So I picked them up and took them to my room. As I held them I was impressed with the number 3, so I shuffled and drew three off the top.

I knew the cards were significant but other than a very vague idea I didn't know what they might mean. Again I was impressed with the word - learn. Well, okay. So I took a pen and wrote my ideas on a few cards starting with each of the 4 suits and later went online and looked up the basic definitions of playing cards as generally understood. These are not tarot cards but they'll do. My vague ideas were generally spot on, I was surprised by that having never studied cards before beyond regular card games. At this point I went ahead and wrote a short descriptive meaning on each card in the deck. In the end I used the Jokers as a simple YES and NO. I originally intended discarding those.

Next day I did some tentative readings for a couple of people, letting them shuffle the cards and just play them for awhile. I asked my "np support team" why cards. And they responded because that would work for me and make it easier for them to 'talk' to me.

Later that night I was discussing all this with my son and after he drew several cards and sat there holding them he handed them back. I unconsciously shuffled the cards and suddenly felt and urge to again draw 3. I did - They were the exact same as the three I drew the previous morning.

The point of all this is to say that our guides, our angels, our support team are not only with us during meditation, AP, OOBE and Phasing. They can and are often with us in very physical ways they just aren't 3D.

I know some of you will likely feel the need to remind me I need to be careful who I put my trust in. I thank you for those thoughts. Rest assured, I am always protected.

PS - Even though this is my journal feel free to talk, ask questions or converse in any way you feel. I truly enjoy all of your input. This journal isn't just my record, it's a HUGE Question mark.

Hugs to you all and hope your giving season is as remarkable as you.

Quote from: Nameless on December 09, 2018, 00:06:48
The point of all this is to say that our guides, our angels, our support team are not only with us during meditation, AP, OOBE and Phasing. They can and are often with us in very physical ways they just aren't 3D.

Oh, absolutely. They can perceive us and provide assistance when needed, but we cant perceive them while fully focused in the physical. When I was 16, I wanted to ride my dad's motorcycle. It was a small caliber one, but at that time I had only been on a bicycle. I hadn't even gotten my drivers license yet. I had no reflexes to drive a motor vehicle. I thought it was easy and he actually let me ride it. So, I remember after one minute I froze, I forgot which handle was gas and which was breaks. So, I kept increasing the speed but I wanted to stop because I was approaching the side wall of the neighbor's house. I completely froze as I was going to hit the wall head on full speed without a helmet or any protective gear. Just a few inches before the wall all of a sudden the bike made a turn. My hands turned the bike to the left. It was not me though that turned the bike. At that time my whole body was paralyzed. I couldn't even feel my hands turning the front, I just observed the bike making the turn before impact. So, that was someone else that helped at that time. My dad said that he was watching me in terror approaching the wall. He never let me ride the motorcycle again LOL.

That's incredible and only proves our team is here and now. I think that is likely the biggest thing they have been trying to get us to understand. It's like we know this but we need to KNOW this.

You're dad must have had a strong heart! LOL Poor guy!

Wow! Nameless...
I just felt an urge also to come here to read something from you, I truly think that your are very connected to your physical realm, it shows in ways that you express here often and you also play with it innocently. I feel this from you that it is deep and maybe the most important quality that you have, and you do not take this approach with a technical skill that you  have learned, but actually listen to an inner voice that is yours and truly pure. It does not matter if you throw rocks or cards that you drew , it is that magical touch and a sense of wonderment that opens the flow for things to fall in place and for you to notice. I had the most incredible cards experiences that left me knowing that something is working behind.
The simple cards are often the best and the urge is a call , that has been my experience . The more you play with the call the more you let that line of communication become clear and strong. You have not just pick up a skill like that , its been many things that contribute to your trust and state of wonderment that is so important. Funny ,its natural for me to be in that state , I can see how hard it can be for some, easy though when you invest in the games of letting thing flow. The numbers that you also picked are powerful numbers" 3 " cards , it creates action and a relation that has movement. there is a story that can be started from just that number.
OH ...! MY am I getting some competition here  :roll: The more the better. anytime you want to talk about cards I am here for it.

Awww, thank you Plume for such sweet words. I've learned a lot just watching your progress. I love how you just look at whatever is going on and keep it simple. I much admire that quality. I doubt you'll get any competition from me, lol. BUT I have thought of inviting you to a throw down with the cards. Of course our support team will have to agree. I'm actually thinking they might just be delighted.

Plume, do you do remote readings?

  :-D
I would love to share my adventure with the cards, From my experience and I think you have that connection also, it has to be personal and the urges are important. Often the story will create a feeling and I had to express it to the person in question or what the focus is being revealed.
Sounds like we can do this but images do help and maybe you can be of some help if I have to post them with the reading , we are on the way to get this mystery figured out .
got to go will be back tomorrow ...

LightBeam, I do think it has alway been done from remote reading in some way. I only do it when its feel right.  I did do reading for the members when I started on The EIC and had such great fun. It was for energizing my abilities  and to force myself to write more. Now I do it for myself but if you happen to be in my story I will let you know for certain,  because it is pack I have to my cards or my communication line, never let the story be slip away or unwritten,  it has to be notice and shared. if I draw the cards on my table I have to write something at all cost...You know its a training for much more I think :-D ...now don't ask me what  :roll: I have no idea , still just playing for now. but eh! never know I could have the urge to offer again some readings . I do have a pending friend here that I promise a reading with my Lenormand cards...it will happen in some way , I know :wink:
I do this all in fun and games but with some serious learning in ways that is still a mystery to me. A quest to know how is this possible, really.

This last week has been crazy on the otherwhere front. Having lots of dreams regarding my current mindset. Those I understand. Have been checking into cartomancy, trying to learn a bit about card reading. Doesn't hurt to try and keep the mind sharp learning something new. So far I am learning just how difficult it is to teach an old dog new tricks (wink).

But last night was truly disturbing. I expected dreams along the same lines as those I've been having this last week. I didn't expect to get pulled out and thrown to the wolves (so to speak).

I awoke being literally pulled out of body and thrown backwards into my past when I was a kid living in a haunted house and being visited by all manner of...

I know people talk about demons and I pretty much think they are creations or misinterpretations of our own fears when interacting with certain energy streams. However I knew where I was but can not figure out what I could have been so afraid of besides literally this little strong as crap creature with a death grip on my head (read that as brains). I wound up fighting this little creature tooth and nail and finally settled on suffocating him till he passed out. Then I duct taped him up real tight. Mom made a brief appearance to say something about a cord.

Anyway I woke up with tears in my eyes. I felt terrible for having suffocated the little guy despite the fact I didn't kill him. The moment he passed out the sucking pressure on my brain vanished.

I still can't quite fathom what this was supposed to represent but it left me feeling very sad and horrible about myself.

That sounds intense and scary. It seems to me that something from your childhood has not been resolved. Not necessarily a fear, it could be anything from relationships with your parents or relatives, to false believes, etc. This may be effecting your present life and now it's time to resolve it. You were taken back so you could deal with it. I think the little demon is just a symbolic representation of the issue that is holding you back. Don't feel bad about hurting it because this was not an attack on your part, but CHANGING energies, that will allow changes to take place in your life. Even if it seems that you are hurting someone, you are doing it for their best to change them for the best and transform the darkness into light. It takes courage to do so and maybe you need to learn to become more courageous to take actions of this sort and to exercise tough love for the good of others. See it as a positive thing.

Thanks LightBeam. I'm confused as usual. I honestly didn't/don't think I have any left over unresolved issues. It's weird for me as it seems perhaps I should have but I think I'm ok with my background and past. Maybe I'm just too stubborn or too dense to recognize myself.

As an example it's like that trip to the psychiatrist when he wants to take you back to your childhood and you just know he wants to uncover some vile trauma from your past and you tell him no, nothing like that, I'm just depressed apparently because I just am. lol. In other words does it always have to be some 'thing'? I'm not saying your wrong, matter of fact you are likely right. But I hold no animosity or desire for revenge or anything like that. My parents were faulty sure but great parents none-the-less.

But you mention beliefs. Now that might be something I should give more thought to. :-)

If it seems I'm using this journal as a sort of mental sofa it's bc I am. lol. I've found many times in life talking it out does make the ole brain turn creaky wheels. It just helps sometimes to have someone to talk it out with. Hey, even if no one else ever reads this in my head I can believe some one will and perhaps it will help them too.

Nameless, I think your initial read on the context of what's going on currently is correct. The dreams you were having may have been precursors to the experience you just described. It was a different experience than you are used to and possibly a significant one relative to your development. I think Lightbeam's interpretation is both insightful and accurate and takes the translation to a deeper level. I thought the same thing but initially lacked the wording to describe it as well as she did. The creature you 'choked out' may represent a belief or set of beliefs, or issues, including some fears, that you might have thought were dealt with and left behind in your past. Only you can really figure that part out. This experience may have shown you that it/they are still there, maybe in the manner of a thoughtform that displays a certain power and resiliency that we are unaware of; and in this experience you were pulled out and directed to confront it.

I know that you are currently reading Otherwhere and I think it's definitely possible that the material in there may have prompted your current dreaming trend which might have resulted in this obviously cathartic experience. That's how subtle and meaningful some of the ideas are in that book, despite the somewhat fantastical dramatization of his experiences, at least imo. The next book, MDH is much more into the fine tuning of these qualities. In fact, I was contemplating your experience last night while scanning Multidimensional Human and I came across a section where he talks about reaching a stage of development where this exact experience is described. Of course, I didn't mark it when I should have and now can't find it as I logged in for this reply...but I will find it and share it when I do.

The experiences that bring tears are especially bittersweet ones...nice work. :-)

Thanks EV, I also think Otherwhere is acting as a prod of sorts on my subconscious. I would def like to know that passage you came across but it can wait. It'll present itself again in time.

More of the same on the dream front last night but the dreams seemed lighter, less intense. Unfortunately I can't remember a one of them.

Well tomorrow I will be making a huge pot of kick-butt Chicken Soup to kick-start the New year. By kick-butt I mean loaded with antioxidant, anti viral and anti anything else that ails the bod. It's not our usual fare for New Years but hey nothing wrong with breaking tradition and with streph and flu-like symptoms hitting hard on every one 'round here I reckon nothing could be better. So YA'LL come join us iffin you're feeling poorly!!

Electric current - Sunday evening. Upper body, warm and tingly
"Marla" - Monday morning

My eyes burned where the lady stuck her thumb into them. She was helping me see better, my eyes were cloudy, I was having trouble, everything seemed so foggy and washed out. She told me to open them wide so she could pull my vision out.

I did but each time she reached I pulled away. Natural reaction I reckon. But finally I was able to hold them open and she reached out and in a moment had flipped my eyelids up and over, with the wave of her hand a tattoo appeared on the inside of my lids. I could see this clearly and instantly the burning left, my vision cleared to an amazing clarity.

I could clearly see the tattoos on my turned up lids as well as my natural eyes, both very clear and prominent. Just as I began to wonder if others could see them too I realized they could not which I found comforting not wanting to look like a freak. Before I could explore this new found vision my door opened so I had to wake up and get the day started.
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Last night I randomly woke and looked at my clock, it was at 11:11. I said okay, I'll be waiting and went back to sleep. I never know what my helpers have in store for me but always look forward to their interactions. Wish I had not been woken so I could have explored this new thing further but oh well, that's how it goes.

My eyes are feeling rather unusual today like I've been holding them open for too long but I've got to tell you the clarity is amazing and that's just physical sight.

What an eye opener, literally :)
This dream is so obvious that it doesn't need any interpretation. But you are the only one that can know what were your eyes opened to see. It could be many things, but we usually have that first intuition, whatever comes to mind first is most likely to be true.

 :-D are you playing with cards :roll: maybe pull one out and just let the word flow, for me it opened a door to my imagination that does seems to be also part of a reality that could be hard to notice.  I have to put together a thread now on the crop circles  or snow circles..., I have some amazing news :roll: . there was a circles that appeared in England, an owl in the snow... just has I was working on one of my clay plaque which was an owl design . I know it may not make sense yet what I mean... all this will be all reveal to you here very soon. Need your magic touch my friends.

What a wild experience Nameless! Definitely an eye-opener! Nice!

This is another example of something I have slowly come to realize over many years- often these very strange dreams/experiences are actually healing experiences. The trouble for me is that they can be so strange and initially uncomfortable and unsettling that I often become resistant and abort the experience.

I was recently doing a course at The Monroe Institute and during one of the sessions I had the chance for a 'do-over' of a healing experience that I had rejected a few years ago; this time, I recognized what was happening and let the process follow through to completion, even though it was quite unnerving at first. My memory of it was sparked by the comment of another participant during the lunch that followed the session. She commented that she had literally been 'run through the wringer' in a bodily/energetic fashion. (A wringer is an old device: an attachment to a clothes-washing tub that consisted of two wooden rollers powered by a hand crank and you would feed the freshly-washed clothing through it to squeeze out the water). I remarked that I had gone through a similar process that I called the 'veggie chopper' where a square of translucent glass descended over me and a grid of metal slicers repeatedly 'sliced and diced' me. I felt my NP body fall into 32 chunks, then a second pass reduced me to 64, and finally what felt like 128...quite an odd feeling as my awareness lay on the floor of the cubicle in momentarily separate yet self-aware pieces, lol. The Trainer who was sitting at our table confirmed that these are forms of healing and methods for balancing our energies.

Two full fledged adult males, one older, the other younger but not young. Walking. Both dirty from having been out in the woods a while (perhaps hunting). Younger male eyes a yellow shirt hanging on line. Older male tells him to take it and leave his. Says mind the stories you tell.

Scene Two: Younger male is sitting with woman and half-grown boy telling them about the hunt. Older man walks by and interrupts. He tells younger male he can't tell that story. Younger male is a bit confused, as in why not. Older male tells him, You weren't wearing that shirt when that story took place. You can only tell the story of the clothing you are wearing.

Younger male is thinking but I've done nothing in this shirt yet And he thinks perhaps he should have picked something different or kept his own clothes.
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Perhaps this means that you can truly understand something if you experience it first hand. Observation of someone else's experience doesn't make you fully understand. And this is the reason behind the necessity of multiple reincarnations as many characters experiencing everything, the good, the bad and the ugly, in order to fully imprint the lessons upon the spirit and make it expand with knowledge.

Agreed LightBeam.

Last night was weird and other than a few images the one thing I retained was a voice telling me to keep it close and hide it in my bra.

I'm pretty sure whatever was going on was very serious but THAT ^^^ just makes me laugh out loud. I mean, WTH?!!!

Haha, that is so funny. I guess it's something important to have to be hidden that well LOL

Guess I'm gonna have to have a conversation with my nips, not sure how they would feel having to share space. Not sure how I feel about that either (rolling eyes). :-D

Quote from: Nameless on April 12, 2019, 21:32:10
Guess I'm gonna have to have a conversation with my nips, not sure how they would feel having to share space. Not sure how I feel about that either (rolling eyes). :-D

Thanks for the laugh, Nameless!  This is hilarious :lol:

My apologies to every one. While running back through this journal I realized there are times it seems the conversation gets dropped. I especially noted it here on this page where EscapeVelocity is talking about the veg-o-matic or the wringer.

I know everyone does this as sometimes the conversations get taken off-board and are discussed in private with different members. This in no way is meant to detract from this or any other topic, it's just a natural by-product of making friends and connections. And as often happens we sometimes forget to come back and back up our responses out in the open.

But I think every one would benefit from giving EVs comment above a little extra thought as I do agree that these sometimes very frightful moments are probably the most important ones.

Today I had the pleasure of meeting 3 of the Horse Heads. Another member here and I have discussed these particular entities. We, at least I am still a bit lost on their particular role so I'll just describe this latest exp which was half lucid dream and half ap.

I'm in another 'where' where the grass is significantly greener than here. The very physical action in this Otherwhere is that something urgent is happening and people are riding their horses, wagons and what-have-you to the action. (don't know what that was about). But I see 3 incredibly beautiful horses in a corral nearby and no one is noticing them. One of them really stands out, being uniquely colored. I can't quiet describe it.

I jump a fence and approach knowing I need to connect to this one particular individual/horse. But I can't seem to make the connection. So then I'm on the third story balcony of a really huge ranch house looking down at the 3 horses (?). I beckon to the one horse but first I have to ride one of the other ones. So that one with a really beautiful golden hide and lighter mane rears up on hind legs and literally jumps to the balcony, landing right in front of me. We ride off...

Then I'm back on the balcony and the second horse (?), grey with a white mane does the same landing delicately on the balcony. We ride off...

Then I'm back on the balcony and the third horse (?) with the indescribably coloring jumps to the balcony. I reach out to touch his mane and hurtle away... but I don't think I am exactly riding him.

Notes: These are clearly not terrestrial horses but the image fits well within my own translation table. They are however HUGE, very MUSCULAR and EARTHY. Contact, for me, for them or for all of us is however rather difficult. I appreciate the effort they put into making this communique possible. They showed dedication and extreme patience. For that I am grateful.

Although I have no recall (consciously) at this point of what we did or discussed during my click-outs I feel this was very significant.

The first time I met these particular beings they presented themselves on a strictly mental level. And no, they do not fully appear as horses. However since I have come to think of them as the "Horse Heads" they have clearly taken on the image to further our communication of which this latest experience was the first of those. They have clearly shown me that they are far more than just four legged beasts. Something I already knew but greatly appreciate the acknowledgement.

One thing I failed to mention in the above post was how these beings demonstrated their grace, balance and delicate precision. They truly wanted me to understand that they are not brutish or unrefined. I look forward to further contact.

 :-D I just read this but have no clue or experienced what you are describing , interesting though :-)

Hi Everyone, I've been missing you guys lately. I see we have a new member who has blown in like a breath of fresh air. Course I'm talking about Dark (for short). Makes me happy all over again just being a part of our little home here.

I don't have much to report on regarding ap lately. I'm currently in a very soothing and relaxed place. I think I am experiencing a real physical world reaction to much of what has gone before in the lessons taught in projection. This is my time to assemble, organize and put to use those insights I've become aware of, some of them very small, some much larger.

I used to think, 'the universe is our friend' but now I know it in a way that before I mostly only gave lip service to.
Getting rid of old concepts, old thinking, old 'useless' beliefs is necessary to development of self on all levels. I stressed useless bc many of these beliefs are quite useful as they give us ways to express ourselves. So those 'beliefs' don't have to be core beliefs but things that give you understanding.

As has been the case many times lately we have had very low signal reception so getting online and staying here has been iffy and phone reception has been even worse.

On a personal level my daughter who is planning her wedding just had an awful experience. I know and they do to that a baby should come after the wedding but sometimes life does things differently and despite birth control (or maybe lack of self control) they became pregnant. Sadly at about 12 weeks she lost the baby a few days ago. We placed her beside her grandfather out under the oak tree and will be planting flowers later today. It makes me sad but I know the timing just wasn't good. Still I couldn't help but cry and my daughter and soon to be son-in-law are really grieving.

Not looking for anything from you guys just wanted to share a bit and kind of let ppl know that behind these posts on this forum are real ppl with problems and life issues just like everyone else.

Love and Hugs to All of You.

Oh Plume, I'm talking about extra-terrestrials/alien contact. I seem to have had contact in the past but there are problems with remembering and communication. We don't talk a lot about this side of things on this forum but hey, why not. LOL

I am so sorry for your loss, Nameless! This is very devastating. Life is full with ups and downs. We can try our best to understand the reasons behind each challenge, but it is extremely hard while in the mids of a challenge to stay calm. The situation needs to be processed. The processing may be long or short, but it needs to happen. Prayers to you and your family!

Thanks LB, prayers much appreciated. We're okay and doing really well as a whole. Hugs!

LD/Projection

Became aware in my car driving through the small town just down the road from me. We live out in the sticks. I was doing something and just gaining awareness when I looked up and saw a tan/brown car coming towards me in the other lane. Then I was in the ditch and things got strange. At the time I thought it was still the dream.

click

But then I am sitting in my car in a parking lot facing a [store] I have been in many times during projections. I'm sort of dazed and confused and everything seems surreal. I see [cops] in front of the store and think I should probably talk to them just remembering there had been an accident. I stumble out of my car and notice a huge round dent in the side like something big and round had hit it. There is this really goopy translucent jelly like substance smeared all around the dent and down the side of my car. How strange and what the heck is that.

I look towards the [store] again and attempt to call out to the [cops] but I feel dizzy and disoriented. One of them notices me as I slide down the side of another car parked behind me. Several [cops] approach and one, a woman, squats down to ask questions. She asks me if I remember the accident, and I say what accident? Then I tell her I was in a ditch. She asks how I got here, meaning the parking lot. I tell her I don't know but there's a really weird dent in my car. She and the others go have a look, shaking their heads. She comes back and starts to ask more questions but she stops and asks me instead if I feel alright. I almost told her yeah I'm fine feeling fine as a daisy but I realize the top right side of my head is tingling and I do feel really 'spacey' and she keeps wobbling around in my vision so I tell her that instead.

She puts her hand on my knee and tells me to hang on everything will be just fine. She looks over her shoulder and I think she is calling for an ambulance but I'm not sure.

Click - the end

I put [store] and [cop] in brackets because of their dual nature. The store is a simulation area I have been too before and only represents a store in context of the experience. The cop and cops seemed to represent the dream, keeping in context but actually most were merely simulations while the one was a helper more along the lines of possibly a medic.

I'm not sure but this may have been along the lines of a premonition or a heads up if you will. If so then it is what it is and that's fine by me. I trust all will be well. If not then I'm a bit lost as I have never before experienced that dizzy, tingly, disoriented feeling. I felt glorious and peaceful other than that with a sense of calm and curiosity more than anything. I will say I did feel some relief to find myself in the parking lot of the store rather than IN the store. I don't particularly like it in there and felt relived to have come to my senses before entering.

Quote from: Nameless on March 15, 2020, 23:03:26
I felt glorious and peaceful other than that with a sense of calm and curiosity more than anything.

That's a very good sign. Reassurance that no matter what comes your way will be ok at the end.

Quote from: LightBeam on March 16, 2020, 01:07:38
Reassurance that no matter what comes your way will be ok at the end.

You could call that the true definition of having "lucidity" in your Dream!

Thanks, I appreciate those comments. I'm not going to read this experience the way it appears as I have been fooled a time or two but...

 Nameless, I really like how you are able to dissect and find the true meanings/messages behind your Dreams. Not everyone can do that. That is quite the skill you have there!  :-) 8-)

Quote from: Nameless on March 16, 2020, 03:55:07
Thanks, I appreciate those comments. I'm not going to read this experience the way it appears as I have been fooled a time or two but...

You had to say that just as I was complimenting you, lol!  :-D

Quote from: Lumaza on March 16, 2020, 03:58:23
You had to say that just as I was complimenting you, lol!  :-D

Of course, LOL

Quote from: Nameless on March 16, 2020, 04:02:59
Of course, LOL

I'm leaving the compliment up. You deserve it!  :-) 8-)

Quote from: Nameless on March 16, 2020, 03:55:07
Thanks, I appreciate those comments. I'm not going to read this experience the way it appears as I have been fooled a time or two but...

Haha!  Your wisdom is showing!!  Eeeeeeeee!  :D ;)

Quote from: Xanth on March 18, 2020, 01:14:51
Haha!  Your wisdom is showing!!  Eeeeeeeee!  :D ;)

LMAO Don't know about wisdom but my behind sometimes claims to be wise.;-)

I had an epiphany the other day. It started as a small thought and I brushed it aside, I really did not want to explore it at that time. I honestly thought it would be depressing. But the thought came back and somehow twisted itself up with a lot of the mysteries that have prevailed in my life. So to put this out there I will have to do a little backup story.

My family moved here to my current hometown when I was eight years old. I hated the move, I was devastated. I spent the next ten years plotting my escape thinking to return to Florida. So at about 18 I set out to return but life got in the way and I wound up right back here in Georgia. For the next 20+ years I plotted and occasionally made my way beyond my little town .

But something always brought me back. Always! I know some of you travel quite a bit and have seen much of the world. I'm not one of you, I've lived my life first in Florida then in Georgia, rarely leaving either state. I know I've missed a lot of sightseeing but so much has happened in my life I don't think I missed much in the way of living. Family ties are strong in this one as Yoda might say (if you ignore the part of me that would like to cut all family ties, haha).

Another twenty years and here I am with no desire to go anywhere. And it hit me, I'm in Georgia!

As we face this great pandemic (real or made up) and I look around our country and the world I have to honestly say my state is doing well. At this point in time I realize I really am right here for a reason. The reason is a little murky but with my own perceptions and views on the world there aren't many other places I could be that would agree with me and those views so well. Some areas of our globe and country are having it very rough right now and I don't envy the people there. So whatever my greater purpose is I needed to be here all along else I likely wouldn't be able to function or carry on as I was always intended, just don't ask me exactly what the heck was intended. But for the first time in my life I feel settled which is not the same as resigned.

I wonder if any of you have had any great epiphanies concerning your own selves. If you have I would encourage you to share them. Don't ask me why and you can share them here on a separate thread or somewhere else to your liking. I just feel right now is a good time to share.

Hugs to you all, you are all so very important.

I like the ending of this story, Nameless. Like lived happily ever after :) It seems to me that you have removed a major barrier that was an aspect of your journey for a long time. Perhaps that baries has been manifesting into some difficult circumstances in your life. You may notice some changes for the better now that this is disolved. I bet your overall happiness and sense of belonging will increase.

For me, I had a similar realization many years ago, after I started exploring the NP. I also struggled with where do I belong. I didnt like my small town and wanted to go to the big city. Then that city did not look cool enough and I wanted to move to the capital, then I wanted to move abroad, when I was a child I thought I dont belong to this Erath and I wanted the mothership to come and take me LOL, and so on. I was searching for a place which my heart to tell me is home. When I moved to the US, I started feeling extreme nostalgia to my home town. I realized how happy I was growing up there and I was missing the closeness of its people, although often accompanied by gossip, but I missed it so much. However, I didnt feel that I wanted to move back there. Then one day, I had my first full blown OBE. The more I was exploring freely the invisible worlds, the more I realized that I am a citizen of the multiverse and everywhere I go is my home. There is no one location that I should settle in, I "saw" the entire multiverse on the palm of my hand and I knew, it is all mine. It belongs to me, it is my home, all of it, including where currently I am physically . I felt like my spirit expanded and it filled in every nook and cranny of the multiverse, every timeline, every planet, every charachter, all that is. From that flood of intense thoughts that came to me that day, I never felt again lonely or out of place.  I stopped searching for "home". I realized that have always been home. I realized that the past is never lost. We can go back and relive the good memories (that happened several times during APs/incredible feeling), the present is most powerful, and the future could be anything we imagine.

Thank you LightBeam for your thoughtful words and for sharing your own epiphany.

I loved this quote by you

"There is no one location that I should settle in, I "saw" the entire multiverse on the palm of my hand and I knew, it is all mine. It belongs to me, it is my home, all of it, including where currently I am physically . I felt like my spirit expanded and it filled in every nook and cranny of the multiverse, every timeline, every planet, every charachter, all that is. From that flood of intense thoughts that came to me that day, I never felt again lonely or out of place.  I stopped searching for "home". I realized that have always been home. I realized that the past is never lost. We can go back and relive the good memories (that happened several times during APs/incredible feeling), the present is most powerful, and the future could be anything we imagine."

That is truly beautiful and touches that deep place inside that can sometimes be so elusive. It truly is, all of it, Our Home.

Quote from: LightBeam on May 15, 2020, 03:33:48
when I was a child I thought I dont belong to this Earth and I wanted the mothership to come and take me LOL,

I did the same thing. I have to admit though, I still do today!  :-D

There are many sayings on "Home is where the ......". The one I really like is "A man travels the world over in search of what he needs, and returns home to find it." That's the one that has shown the most truth in my experiences.

Wow, I just spent a very surreal hour cruising through this thread. I had meant only to find something I had hoped I posted here. What I found instead was Reply #103 above dated March 15, 2020. How could I have forgotten this?!

A month or so ago (I am trying to remember the date) there really was an accident.

Just like the projection above. I go (in the here and now) to that exact store. Just a normal trip to the store. I go inside and as I am standing in line I notice someone in the parking lot running across the lot. We all (me, cashier, other customers) notice some activity taking place. We all go outside and a tan car is laying on its top in the ditch. This accident happened only moments after I pulled into the lot. There was a gas leak and smoke from the engine. One brave soul fetched the fire extinguisher from the store. An ambulance got there very quickly (it's less than a quarter mile away).

I am sad as I type this because I don't know anything else such as what happened to the driver. Did he survive? I've spent a while trying to find this on goo  gle. I can't find anything but down here it isn't uncommon for things like this to miss the paper.

I still struggle with this type premonition. What good is it if I can't do anything? And this is exactly what I meant by not reading into an experience because interpretations... (I'll just end this here).

Quote from: Nameless on July 17, 2020, 04:30:05

I still struggle with this type premonition. What good is it if I can't do anything?

Now, look at my reply on #104. In the dream you were in a collision with that tan car. The woman in your dream told you that you will be fine. In reality you arrived just moments before the car flipped, so you avoided the collision. I think through this dream, somehow one of your probable futures was altered in your advantage and you were not harmed. I hope the driver though made it, but I think it was not about you saving that driver, but saving yourself. 

Quote from: Nameless on July 17, 2020, 04:30:05
I still struggle with this type premonition. What good is it if I can't do anything? And this is exactly what I meant by not reading into an experience because interpretations... (I'll just end this here).

I always wonder this as well. Why show us if we can't do anything about it?  :|

I believe in this case Lightbeam is correct. Even though you weren't consciously aware of what was about to occur, some level of your consciousness was. Perhaps a couple of minutes difference and we would have seen a different accident involving you in it. These are the times I just look up and say "Thank You"!  :-)

Thanks guys, you always make life better. Hugs
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I haven't seen my oldest son in nearly a year. About a week ago I just really wanted to see him and he popped up in one of our shared LDs. He was with some friends and seemed really happy. He gave me a hug and told me not to worry. You know I can't help but hope this one is true.

Then the night before last there was another interesting shared LD with my son. We were out in woods picking flowers. He plucked the top flowers off what I think was an elderberry bush. It was so snowy white and frozen. He took a bite and offered it to me and I took a bite. The most (only) frozen flower I have ever eaten. It was amazing delicious.

Monday 12/14/20 around 3AM

An 'Other' visits Earth (AP)

She was a young woman, shoulder length straw textured blond/brown hair, blue eyes, reasonably fit and trim. I saw her walking along the edge of a paved highway only a couple of counties away from where I actually live. I immediately 'joined' her. She took little notice of me and basically paid very little attention to my presence. She did however allow me into her thoughts/mind/body and seemed to expect and accept that sharing as part of her purpose.

To say I was impressed with  this alien / other is so much an understatement it is laughable.

Physically she was very strong, much more so than is humanly normal.
And despite my brief description of her above it does not do her justice. Compelling is the only word in our language that would come close to describing her. It became very apparent very quickly that she naturally attracted attention even as she consciously worked to NOT do so.

This being was quite clearly on a 'walkabout'. If she had a deeper agenda I have no idea what it was.

She and I kept up a sort of running dialogue as we traveled. All telepathic. First thing I noticed was the incredible physical strength aaand the very tight feeling of clothing. She felt constricted as though clothing were a new thing to her. I believed her to be a Light Being because of this and the fact that she had a somewhat difficult time keeping her self within 'her self/body'. Hope that makes sense.

I will now refer to she and I in our adventure as us or we since it was a dual purpose trip.

We were attracting attention (not good). Mind you no one could see me, only her.

We were toting a very heavy duffle/backpack with absolutely no effort. I thought this thing would kill me if I had to tote it. We needed directions (not really) but she wanted me to understand. We looked up and saw 3 fellows down the road working off to the side. They were probably a mile or more away. She hinted for me to watch and within just a few steps we were within range of them being able to see us. We asked where we were and which way to go to get to a certain town (not naming towns). They pointed back down the road and right at the v. (I knew she wanted to go left, hmmm). So once we were out of close eyesight of the fellows we jumped down across the ditch (no normal human would have attempted that jump). And again within a few steps we were at the v and headed right.

A car with a family inside stopped and asked if we needed a ride. She said no but asked if there was a Piddles nearby. I took her meaning to be a Walmart. They said yes up ahead and drove off slowly. Just as they made a small curve we jumped off the road and walked a little in the woods along the side. The car came back. I understood this was due to that compelling presence she generated. They didn't see us and road on.

Back on the road within a short space we were in a Piddles/Walmart parking lot. We started to go inside when a man and his daughter with a friend came out of the door. They asked if we needed a ride (I think due to the backpack). We said no but then the daughter or friend got in our face with one of those modern day attitudes you see a lot of on you tube. She accused her/us of dissing her or something which was completely untrue. So we/she told her. "no no I was just shocked because you remind me so much of a friend I haven't seen in ages, blah blah blah. That appeased the girl and the two girls got into the van where 'dad' waited.

As they began backing out of the parking space we saw a very thick rope tied to their bumper and to another car. We squatted down and took hold of the rope so the van could not back up and waved for them to stop. They did and we untied the rope. (no idea why they were tied up)

The dad asked again if we needed a ride, we said no. As they drove of she said to me, "maybe we should have said yes, they're helpless on their own." I thought that was funny.

We turned and went into the store and this is where I made my exit returning to my own body.
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This was a very powerful experience. I only wish now I had gotten a name for her but the only thing that comes to mind is Straw. So Straw it is.

What was so amazing was that I could feel how powerful she was in her own body (or lack thereof) and how confining it felt to be in a human form. But she loved it. To her it was like the ultimate adventure. She really enjoyed the chance to traipse around in human form knowing she had all these abilities ordinary people didn't have. But it didn't make her feel superior, she felt grateful. Grateful to be alive and living the dream. She was very careful not to reveal herself although despite her efforts it was impossible to spend much time around most humans as her affect on them was just normal and to be expected. So she kept to herself mostly and was why she chose backpacking and mostly wondered the highways only making brief appearances in public.

I just feel so privileged to have shared this with her. Talk about some amazing insights. I really feel she wants me to share this with all of you.

That is an awesome experience. Thank you for sharing. I am experimenting with a 3AM-4AM window.

You are doing great Tides, I know you can accomplish your goals. Glad you enjoyed this and super glad I could share it here.

Quote from: Nameless on December 16, 2020, 14:54:22
Glad you enjoyed this and super glad I could share it here.

So are we!  :-)

You made a new friend, Nameless! Awesome! What a great adventure! That makes me think what if I go to another planet and have to assume temporary their forms. How would I feel  :?  :-o

What an amazing experience Nameless!  I'm sure you have many of those but certain ones definitely stand out and are worth sharing with others here on the forum. 

Quote from: Nameless on December 16, 2020, 04:43:31
This was a very powerful experience. I only wish now I had gotten a name for her but the only thing that comes to mind is Straw. So Straw it is.

I always find myself asking for names because I always like to put a name to a face.  I know that is likely pointless in the NP since names aren't necessary but old habits are hard to break!

Thanks for posting!  :-)

I am never so happy as when I ask for and get a name. And get an experience such as this. I agree with what the others have said here, well done for making it back with this and my gratitude for your sharing of the report. These always trigger something wonderful in me.

Oh guys you are all so amazing. I find myself thinking what if...

What if the whole lot of us could experience something like this as a group.
THAT would so be something to look forward to

and somehow I feel as though perhaps we should look forward to something just like that.

I won't say I'm just dreaming because, well, you know ___

Quote from: Nameless on December 17, 2020, 01:08:49

What if the whole lot of us could experience something like this as a group.
THAT would so be something to look forward to

and somehow I feel as though perhaps we should look forward to something just like that.

I won't say I'm just dreaming because, well, you know ___

I would say not just look forward to, but work toward.

This in part is something I was open to observing through my recent year long consciousness experiment, 365 Days of Dreams.

The Idea was to create an impetus toward bringing forward with us as we wake into our daily state of awareness at least one dream, or dream fragment, or feeling. To 1 ) work the muscle required for recall and 2 ) observe any significant crossover in our concepts and experiencing. I myself was looking, perhaps more specifically for potential crossover as *evidence we may, as a direct result of our grouping be synchronizing in such a way as there is observance of our collective activity from within as a One-Consciousness; where-in our persons are entering the fields of each other. As I said in the PDF, during the course of the experiment I found clear evidence of this occurring within my own observation point with multiple of the experiment participants. We just have to keep working the muscle, expanding our sense of awareness in ways like this. So much is indeed occurring, juuust beyond our knowing, and therefore experiencing. Has this board ever opened a consciousness experiment up to the group? With the talent here I would suggest it.

Quote from: omcasey on December 17, 2020, 03:27:51
Has this board ever opened a consciousness experiment up to the group? With the talent here I would suggest it.

Yes and it always got the same results, "Failure". The same 3 or 4 people were interested. But then the thread just seemed to quietly disappear into what I call the "Astral Pulse Abyss", never to be heard from again. That is, unless one of the spambots here latches onto it.  :roll: :| :-P

I am listening to Billy Carson (a very motivating Speaker) right now on the Jimmy Church Radio show and he is saying the exact same thing. Everyone thinks things like this, (NP exploration), is very interesting and they want to do it. But then the work sets in and they lose interest. Casey, you know exactly what i mean. You have been experiencing this for years yourself. People think the idea of NP exploration is the coolest. Yet, they won't do the work necessary to achieve it. Where's the "App" for that, lol!  :-D

I was just going to lurk but I felt my experience with LD'ing could add to the discussion.  When I was on this site oh, geez, 2008 or so.. I can't remember, I'll have to go look, I was having at least 4 to 6 dreams a day, now... I can barely remember two mins of one dream.  The key?  MEDITATION and DEDICATION.  I have not meditated in over a decade, I pray, but that's little snippits, nothing like the serious dedication I had back then.  I have grown, and you NEVER stop learning.  Fear stopped me for many years, and lately, spontaneous separation has been happening, but I'm still very hesitant. lol Anyhoo, just thought I'd add my two cents that meditation and dedication are really the key to success.

:-)

 Hello Nay and welcome back! I didn't know you here in the past, but I have read many of your past posts here and enjoyed them!  :-)

Quote from: NayII on December 17, 2020, 14:26:59
I was just going to lurk but I felt my experience with LD'ing could add to the discussion.  When I was on this site oh, geez, 2008 or so.. I can't remember, I'll have to go look, I was having at least 4 to 6 dreams a day, now... I can barely remember two mins of one dream.  The key?  MEDITATION and DEDICATION.  I have not meditated in over a decade, I pray, but that's little snippits, nothing like the serious dedication I had back then.  I have grown, and you NEVER stop learning.  Fear stopped me for many years, and lately, spontaneous separation has been happening, but I'm still very hesitant. lol Anyhoo, just thought I'd add my two cents that meditation and dedication are really the key to success.

:-)

What you say here is the truth. Daily meditation, (if you can find time to do it) and dedication are definitely vital to "continued" success. I know it's difficult to keep that up especially since "life happens". If people are serious about this, like they are with any other skill/Art they wish to learn, guitar, piano, etc., they will find the time. I stress this here all the time. You really get back what you put into this. But that's the same with any desired skill we wish to learn in life.  ...and like you say, you really never can undo what is already done. Once you start down this path a change in your own personal reality will occur. You grow, evolve and never really stop learning. I find that if it is meant to be, "it" will seek you out!

Last night on Coast to Coast AM, George's Guest was Ryan Hurd. His interview was in the second part of the show, that began at 2:00 am my time here in Minnesota. It was a fantastic interview and I was doing my head nod agreeing with what he said all the way through his interview. I liked that he avoided the "goading" that George is always known for, to go into the darker side of Sleep Paralysis and OBEs. Here is a link to Ryan's website for anyone interested:
https://dreamstudies.org/about/

Quote from: Lumaza on December 17, 2020, 20:14:55
Hello Nay and welcome back! I didn't know you here in the past, but I have read many of your past posts here and enjoyed them!  :-) What you say here is the truth. Daily meditation, (if you can find time to do it) and dedication are definitely vital to "continued" success. I know it's difficult to keep that up especially since "life happens". If people are serious about this, like they are with any other skill/Art they wish to learn, guitar, piano, etc., they will find the time. I stress this here all the time. You really get back what you put into this. But that's the same with any desired skill we wish to learn in life.  ...and like you say, you really never can undo what is already done. Once you start down this path a change in your own personal reality will occur. You grow, evolve and never really stop learning. I find that if it is meant to be, "it" will seek you out!

Hi, and thank you! I've thought about this wonderful site over the years and finally had enough "pull" if you will to set up another account.  I was hoping to be able to get to my PM's, because I shared many of experiences that are getting harder to remember as I grow older, but alas, I don't think they exist anymore. 

I totally agree with, if it is meant to be it will seek you out.  Life did happen and continues to happen lol but I just didn't have the same drive and longing as I did and admittedly it can be almost an obsession and quite the distraction BUT for about 1yr or so I've been drifting back into the subject, spiritualism I guess you'd call it.  I never was good at tag and titles. lol Anyhoo, don't want to steal the thread, thanks again for the welcome. :)

Getting back on track or re-threading, as it were (nice to have you back Nay!)...Nameless mentioned a collective experience or a partnered-exploration. In my experience, it is real and possible but it does take dedication and determination and maybe a bit of collective timing.

I am certainly no expert at partnered exploration but have had some experience and some limited success.

At TMI, some of the sessions in Lifeline, X27 and all of Starlines involve partnered exploration. If you read Bruce Moen's books, you find that he learned a technique and accomplished this amazingly well. Six or so years ago, I initially doubted and rejected Moen's 'prime the pump' visualization technique as I read his first two books and put them aside; they just didn't fit with my experience at the time. After going to TMI for the first couple week-long courses, I learned the hard way that Moen's technique described what I was having difficulty with and proved to be one of the answers to my issues. After that, I read the rest of his Series and found it a map for my future Starlines course.

We have tried partnered exploration with Astral Pulse Island, with Bee's Barbecue at EIC, with very limited results. Personally, I didn't get much if anything. I think the reason may have to do with establishing a common Purpose or Intent.

At TMI, we had the common Intent to do a Retrieval or in Starlines to explore the galaxies. I definitely saw fellow members in my Retrievals. At Starlines, I recognized fellow members on the starship we collectively visualized; I had one experience with another participant that was simply undeniable of the fact. But beyond that it was incomplete...we explored the galaxies, but for those who remembered, it was solo journeying, as it was for me. And we just have to accept the fact that not everybody returns with the same memories or experience; it varies greatly for many unknown reasons.

Casey mentioned two conditions: One is learning to exercise our NP muscle memory (this is possibly a most important idea) and #2 is learning to recognize and accept what she calls 'crossover experiences'...I have to give this idea credit as it is what I've been doing for most of my life...if I couldn't make sense of my personal experience at the time, I had no choice but to relate it to the next nearest thing...this has its own price...this price and reconciliation can come decades later...

So, if we try this, I recommend a NP collection point and a definite Intent for a destination or action. We meet here, then we go there or do
EV

You know the thing about a meeting place, is that if the participants of the experiment are not bringing back content daily, regularly, there is not enough data to work with. Everyone usually wants to go right to conscious projections. I would suggest beginning with dreams. Begin a group daily dream log like I did on my boards. The idea is to bring back content every day. It doesn't have to be a lot of content, it can be a single symbol, it just has to be something. Then look for crossover in the symbols participants are bringing back. This will spur everyone on. Remember - the more content is brought back every day, the more of your projections/OBEs you will also catch. What I was most interesting in discovering through my own experiment, is whether grouping itself, here in physical space would cause a grouping between some or even all of us in non-physical space and show in the data we collected. Although there were other participants on my boards, I was the only one with enough focused intent to carry on daily for the 365 days. I continue the practice even now, only now I report once each week with the weeks worth of dreams. Collecting content every day is not easy, but rewarding to say the very least.

OMG, it just hit me.
Got hung up again reading parts of this old thread due to Ev providing the link on another thread. So EV you strike again.

Reply #121 I am relaying an experience and settled on calling the main character Straw.

Now I did say how she was unnaturally strong etcetera but in my mind I kept actually picturing her as wearing a pair of iron pants.

Guys!!! I have been getting iron infusions the last 4 weeks and my legs don't feel like straw anymore. I actually walked around a large store today without feeling faint.

Now I do still have a lot of nerve pain but I could do me some walking!!

I know it seems like a little thing but I'm a walker, it has always been my favorite sport, meditation practice, way to explore and I could go on and on. I've done a LOT of walking in my life with some jogging and a bit of running. To see me today you would likely highly doubt that as I just don't look the part.

From straw to iron. WOW! You know I am not surprised by this I just totally blown away by how it all works!!!

Now, lets get that group thing going. I'm going to start a thread BUT I am not going to be sole OP on that thread. It will be a group thread so we all can take the lead or step back as we see fit. I will come back in a minute and put down a link.
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Group Think
http://www.astralpulse.com/forums/welcome_to_astral_chat/group_think-t48018.0.html;new#new

 Congratulations Nameless!  :-) 8-)

To others that may seem like a little thing, but to you it's enormous. I refer to the words of songs often in my reply because they seem to hold the truths. This time it's "Don't Know What You Got Till It's Gone". That is the title of a song by the 80's hair band Cinderella and is so so true.

Always sending healing thoughts to you my Dear!  :-)

Thank you Lumaza and always appreciate healing energy. It's bee quite the battle for me so much hugs. I just love these insights simple as they sometimes seem.

Early this morning just before waking I found myself shopping in a little store. I purchased a little booklet or photo album or something along those lines. Walking out the door I run into a police officer, a friend, who asks me to come along with him. I shake my head no, get in my car and drive away.

Out on the highway I see him behind me and he pulls up beside me at a red light and motions for me to follow him. I nod and as he turns on his blue lights and makes a U-turn I simply turn on the cross road and continue on my way.

I go to the school where I find myself in a room looking at the little booklet when another friend enters and tells me our other friend, the officer is waiting for me. She asks if she can come with me. "Uhm, no, I'm not going with him"  I say with a smile. I leave and head home.

Click
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This was a very lighthearted experience. The officer was jovial and did not attempt to coerce me in any way. I was in a great mood and simply enjoyed the cat and mouse game we played on a friendly level.

But for those of you who don't see it (imagine most of you did) I passed up a wonderful opportunity.

The friendly police officer represented a guide. I was given several opportunities to follow him but chose not to go. I kind of regret that as my decision wasn't a hard no, I just felt like playing a bit and obviously this guide was up for the game and also seemed to be enjoying himself. I had already made up my mind to follow him soon as we were back in our cars but life did what it so loves to do and woke me fully and I lost it. Darn!!!

Early morning phase

I'm at home in a nice house with some family members present. There's a nice side porch/deck with railing. I go out and talk with a couple people. A few reporters show up out in front near the sidewalk and in the space between my house and whatever is on the other side. They are being very casual, they are not there for me or anyone in the house. They are simply on break and finding quiet spots to take a load off, a random garden chair here, a stump there etc.

The reporters are simply topping off or finishing up their reports (don't know what they were reporting on). I wave to a couple of them and they wave back calling out saying hi, just being friendly.

I go back inside and just as I begin to say something to family there is a knock at the door. I go to the door and it is now getting late but still plenty of light. There is a couple at the door. I have never seen people who looked like these two. At first I think they are dirty but perhaps not and their skin is naturally a darkish stippled color. Or maybe they didn't believe in baths (don't know). Their clothes are bland greyish looking. Could be dirty but also could be natural unbleached fibers. Not too tall, short black hair, round faces/heads, dark eyes.

I say 'yes' and am going to say more but they begin speaking. First the woman says something but I don't understand. Then the man begins speaking and the woman also speaks. They are both talking and I realize they are chanting or repeating some phrase that could be a curse or a blessing.

I look at the man and say I don't understand and he pauses and says 'sunni'. The woman also says 'sunni'.

I shut the door and pull the curtain. Turn to my family who are looking at me expectantly. They had been talking about the reporters and I was going to tell them not to worry as they always come around just to take a break in the shade. But now they are more interested in the couple at the door.

Before I can say anything I feel a slight vibration and my legs seem to have been lassoed. The lasso (metaphorically) wraps around my legs all the way up to my chin. My arms are crossed over my chest and I am whipped up and around the room.

The family are looking at me and seeing this but have no real response as if to say, well there goes mom. lol

I'm being whirled around the room and bumping into the walls and thinking 'damn did that couple curse me or something'. I think perhaps I should pray but I am not feeling any fear so know this is not a curse and I am fixing to have an adventure within an adventure.

Then I hear (telepathically) 'Sunni, sunni' in a gentle whisper.

Click - and I am awake and totally aware of what just happened.

I searched Sunni but only found references to Muslims. Looked at images but saw none like the couple. Don't know what to make of this exactly. Can anyone elaborate?

Not sure but it seems like a fairly significant NP event. Nice, comfortable beginning, family, but events quickly advance...that often happens.

'Reporters' indicate certain energies noticing, watching...

Was the pronunciation "sunny" or "soo-nee"...? They said it twice, which is probably important...

EV

Definitely "sue - knee". The man would say it and the woman would echo, so heard it 2x repeated each time.

Dream/Lucid Dream

Was in a house(?) Drab, colorless, cluttered. Went to restroom. While in there a little boy comes in. Everything was so washed out except that little boys hair which was so coppery red and shiny, it was beautiful. I said hi and felt he needed attention so we talked and I offered to comb his hair. His dad stood there looking and I could read his thoughts. He was happy someone was paying attention to his son and surprised his son allowed it.

I combed the child's hair. I can not describe the feeling just from combing that child's beautiful coppery locks. Then it was bed time and I asked the child if he would like me to lie down with him. He said yes. We stepped into what must have been a bedroom and lay down, me with the child curled into my belly. His dad lay on the other side and we slept a moment.

Shortly I was aware the dad and son were slipping out of the room. I waited till they were gone and got up and left.

Went into a restaurant and sat down, waited for a server. Over heard employees talking about patrons making lighthearted fun of some of their customers. I could clearly see around a slow curved barrier one such family being talked about. But all the colors were drab/muddy like.

After waiting a while I decided to go get my own coffee so left the table and walked around finding the coffee station meant for employees only. I found it and it too looked drab and colorless and a bit unkempt perhaps dirty. Hard to tell when everything is virtually the same color.

Employees nearby noticed me but continued to talk among themselves.

Forgoing coffee as none was made although a pot was steaming (?) I turned and noticed a buffet. I picked up a small plate with 4 items. Don't know what they were and decided to take a little stroll outside while the waitstaff got their affairs in order then I would wander back in a bit.

Walking down a side walk holding the little plate I began to eat them. The taste was reminiscent of food but can't really say what. I see a small kitty cat and I do see he is gray/white/black striped. I toss him one of the bits on my plate and immediately he lights up!

It is like he becomes a lightbulb but light is contained within his cat form. A lovely pale pink. Looking ahead there is a patch of trees and brush and I see all the animals there and they are all lit up in varying colors blue, green, yellow, pink, red. The light was all contained within their form in lovely pastels. I could see the trees and bush in normal color.

Next I sat at a small outdoor table under the trees and began eating. A child approached from behind and I offered her one, she took it and lit up. I was still wondering what the heck I was eating. But I looked back at the plate which had had only 4 bites to start and it was still full although I had given two away and eaten what seemed like a belly full. But now the food was also in color. I could see that two of the bites were little chocolate boot shaped things and were filled with colored candies. I heard a gaggle of young'uns approach from behind so emptied one of the boots onto the table where a LOT more candy came out than it could possible contain. I grabbed candy in both hands and laughing said do you all want some and threw it into the air over my head. I heard laughter and giggles. The kids thought they were sneaking up on me and were delighted that they hadn't fooled me.

Others came to the table and now the table is covered in small bites of food and candy all colorful like it should be. However everyone who ate lit up like self contained lightbulbs, all pretty pastels. A baby sat on the table wearing a white tee and black pants. I tickled his tummy and he giggled and laughed.
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Notes:
I've experienced muted drab colors before but here the coloring did seem representative rather than just a lack of clarity or being due to that being the actual colors scheme.

I am really amazed at the soft pastel light. That I have never seen before. When there are colors they are usually normal or vivid to extremely vivid. These were very soft and self-contained within each living being although the landscape surrounding them became normal in color.

I was obviously feeding them (what) joy, love? The (food) helped each of them turn on their inner light which in turn lit up their surrounding.

I woke up from this feeling good, happy but not with any of the overwhelming sensations that can often accompany our explorations. Just gently delighted and good, did I mention good, lol.

I can't believe that I was given the grace to accomplish such a feat. It makes me a little teary eyed. So thank you to the highest of all beings.
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Also a shout out to EscapeVelocity.
Prior to this dream as I went to bed I stated/asked only this, "Show me my role, what can I do?"

What an uplifting message you received!  The loving and nurturing person that you are will be the rewards for anyone fortunate enough to find themselves in your path!  :-)

Cheers,
T

Thank you T. I will certainly strive even harder to be that person. Can't say I am great but now I know the potential is there. No denying it is joyous work.

Awe, I love that! My heart melts when people try my food and that makes them happy. I can imagine on a spiritual level how would that feel. Of course in your case you were feeding their soul and comforting them. But besides that, this LD has so may other interesting details that seem interconnected with the concept of nurturing others. And yes, if you have one clear question and ask before you go to bed, chances are you will be shown information. Sometimes, I give a bunch of questions and I get nothing at the end. but I am like, so I want to know this and that and umm oh that other thing lol, so I learned not to be greedy haha. Focus on one thing at a time. Which you did and the result is obvious. great job :)

Thanks LB. I tend to ask too many questions as well. Last night I was feeling really clear headed so I think that made a difference. I think sometimes when we ask a lot of questions that maybe they do all get answered but they get weighed down with each new answer so all we manage to hang onto is the last one or the most vivid.

Sometimes, when we are able to slow things down a bit, slow the events and energies...it's not always clear and it can be an imprecise thing...we can ask the right question, and we actually get a useful answer...what a precious gift! That was an unquestionable metaphor going forward. No question in this case.

Nicely done Nameless, and deservedly so. What a beautiful message from your higher, inner self...and just what I see, having known you some years now; there is more. Like LB said, there are many nuanced insights buried within this experience; some you could continue meditation upon.

I remain an amazed fan,😆
EV

Quote from: EscapeVelocity on February 28, 2021, 00:50:35
I remain an amazed fan,😆

I second that!  :-)

I find that "ask and you shall receive". But and it's a big "but", it won't necessarily be on your own time or even in a way that is expected. In the end though, the answers you seek will come in some way, shape or form.

In a way, your experience Nameless, could also be seen as a "Retrieval" of sorts. It also shows the true essence of who you really are!  :-)

I talk often about Annie Bessant's penning of the term "Invisible Helpers". Nameless you definitely one of them, not only in the NP, but this physical realm as well. This Forum is loaded with Invisible Helpers. From Adrian the owner who keeps the Forum going, to Xanth and the Moderators here that keep the site afloat, to the members here old and new that voluntarily help people understand more and share their own experiences. All of these people helping people  that they have never met before here in the physical realm. Volunteering their time in that effort. That's the definition of a Invisible Helper to me. It doesn't always have to be of a non physical nature. But often can be!  :-)

Thanks EV for your never ending support and you too Lumaza, Lightbeam, T-Man and others who pop in and out here and there.

So many things happen non physically and physically that we many times overlook. I encourage everyone to pay attention not just to their out of body experiences or phases or whatever. Answers are in the very air we breathe. Sounds entirely too simple to say that all we need to do is be mindful but honestly that is all that is needed. Don't doubt yourself, trust your instincts and pay attention when happenstance steps in front of you.

Hugs to you all

Quote from: Nameless on March 02, 2021, 20:18:03
Answers are in the very air we breathe. Sounds entirely too simple to say that all we need to do is be mindful but honestly that is all that is needed. Don't doubt yourself, trust your instincts and pay attention when happenstance steps in front of you.

This is such a big truth! Thanks for bringing it up, Nameless! Yes, answers are everywhere. There are so many clues that we receive every moment of every day/night, both of physical and non-physical nature. If we start paying attention to all of the clues and link them to our questions, we may get the location on our treasure map.

This very post is a clue to you, my dear readers, whoever you might be. If you came across this and you are reading it, ask yourself, why did this post cross my path.

I'm asking!

I'm in an old car driving a dusty road. I see place up ahead where there are three (maybe more) stores. Two are gas stations, one is a grocers. Was going to pull into first gas station but pass it, didn't really like the looks of the people out front. Pulled into the next station, they were all in a line like a dusty old strip mall that hadn't seen much business in many years.

As I pull through the second station I remember another time I had been here and decide Nope, not going through that again. So I pull around the pumps and go back to the other one. I park in a dusty parking lot and walk to the store/gas station. I sit on the sidewalk and put my cigarettes down beside me. A girl breaks away from the group, walks by and swipes my pack. I casually get up and go to her window (she is in her van now). I grab her wrist and say, "hey, what's up." I see she has a whole carton of cigarettes right beside her. Instead of taking my pack out of her hand I take the carton and raise my eyebrow to her. "trade ya". I was expecting a fight.

She blinks dumbly and says okay then drives away. I'm left standing there wondering what just happened. I realize she nor the other characters are fully conscious.

Then I go to a house where a bunch of people are just sitting around or mindlessly doing stuff. I see one person serving food and there are kids there. The food looks as dull as the people. I find the kitchen and make a few choices to improve the food and go around setting plates of food in front of everyone. A couple of the people notice and sort of take an interest and slowly take a bite or two. I realize these characters are not fully conscious either.

There was a third scenario that I don't remember well but know I felt the same about those people as well. A few people seemed to 'want' to start trouble but they didn't seem to know how or just weren't involved enough to be able to.
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It was weird. The only predominate color in the entire experience was yellow. A small flash of red with some of the food (a tomato ?).

The last time I was in this particular episode there was a lot more activity. I can't recall exactly what at the moment. But I rather enjoyed being there in a wild west meets 1960s sort of way. A little fear based adrenaline rush, a  Duke's of Hazard style escape.

But wow these mostly semi-conscious characters are a trip. If only I could wake them up.

Hey LightBeam, how is that story you're working on coming. Typing this out just made me think of that. Couriser and couriser.

Quote from: Nameless on March 14, 2021, 23:59:20
Hey LightBeam, how is that story you're working on coming. Typing this out just made me think of that. Couriser and couriser.

Well, the story is being created and is taking shape now. So, you are one of the main characters along with a few other Pulse members. The characters jump consciously from one life to another in many time periods, and recently I was thinking of the plot in the wild west. So, this is far fetched, but maybe because I am thinking of several of you as the characters and taking you to many places in my fictional world, perhaps that connection may influence your dreams. Not sure if that could be, but just throwing it out there as a possibility. Especially that the people and the colors you encounters were sort of dull/half conscious. Maybe they were half created, as they are in my story. If that is the case and you are picking up on your fictional character, then prepare soon to enter the dark ages LOL.

Ooooo yummy, the dark ages! Can't wait. LMFHO (laugh my freaking hiney off) :-)

The post above certainly had a western feel to it post old dusty automobiles.

Quote from: Nameless on March 14, 2021, 23:59:20
She blinks dumbly and says okay then drives away. I'm left standing there wondering what just happened. I realize she nor the other characters are fully conscious.

It sounds like you may have Journeyed into what Robert Monroe called Focus 22.

"TMI UK: On the border between time/space and non-physical states of being. Comatose.

my-big-toe.com: At this level people are unconscious or partly conscious. People in coma, suffering from delirium or dementia, under the influence of drugs or alcohol; patients who are anesthetized or comatose. This level is chaotic, people are confused and very difficult to communicate with."
https://thedynamicstate.wordpress.com/2018/11/21/6937/

I call this area the "Zombified" state. People just walk around aimlessly like they are sleep walking.

That's interesting Lu. I always just thought of them as just less lucid than I at the moment.

I would think people in a coma or spaced out of their gourds would be highly conscious/active in these np experiences. Except for the ones who are of course mostly brain dead. I know that's kind of a subtle difference but.., lol.

But zombified is the perfect word choice, they certainly are that!

Lucid Dream

1) Starts out on the lower deck of a ship or submarine. I have a little light I am trying to hide so I stick it into a vent and am trying to cover it when a Soldier in full battle armor appears. He says, "you can not hide it". He pulls off the vent cover, hands me the light and whisks me away to safety.

2) I am now in a cabin or command outpost sitting at a table. I am playing with the little light and now see it it is like a small glow stick, vibrant green. Lots of noise outside and soldiers go to their posts. I fear the bad guys are going to find us and get in. Again the soldier appears and wraps his hand over mine around the glow stick, he puts it in his vest and away we go.

3) I'm bobbing in water, thinking I might drown but a helicopter appears overhead and again the Soldier appears and dives into the water beside me. He tucks the little glow stick into my shirt pocket and hoist me aboard the helicopter.

*I come awake but the dream continues as I make my way to my recliner*

I fear I might lose my little light as I now realize it is indeed MY light. The helicopter hits turbulence and sure enough the glow stick slips out of my pocket and plunges into the sea. The Soldier doesn't hesitate as he dives in after it. He gets close and a wave pushes it away. He swims, a large creature swallows it and dives down into the deep. The Soldier without flinching dives after and retrieves my little light once again restoring it to me, it's rightful owner.

I thanked the Soldier feeling really small for not realizing my own value. He says, I protect, you light the way. We are all uniquely created to a purpose. We can not fail says The LORD God.

Love it! Very straightforward LD. The light is yours. It is a part of you. You can never loose it. Loss is just an illusion. But that illusion can be perceived as very real by the portion of us stuck in these limiting realities. And yes, there is no failure, no matter what choices we make. Both success and failure as we perceive them serve as lessons and are both beneficial.

Brilliant.

Quote from: LightBeam on June 16, 2021, 21:32:58
Both success and failure as we perceive them serve as lessons and are both beneficial.

So true, so true.

Recently I read this reply That Kevin Hart, the Actor, had made when questioned about the "Cancel Culture". He didn't need to use the profanity. But the words fit the message he was delivering.
""When did we get to a point where life was supposed to be perfect? Where people were supposed to operate perfectly all the time? I don't understand."

"I don't expect perfection from my kids. I don't expect it from my wife, friends, employees," he continued. "Because, last I checked, the only way you grow up is from f---ing up. I don't know a kid who hasn't f---ed up or done some dumb s---."

I have always lived by the adage "people that live in glass houses shouldn't throw stones". I like this one too "to error is Human, to forgive is divine"!  :-) It is through our "failures" that we learn to prevail!

Quote from: LightBeam on June 16, 2021, 21:32:58
Love it! Very straightforward LD. The light is yours. It is a part of you. You can never loose it. Loss is just an illusion. But that illusion can be perceived as very real by the portion of us stuck in these limiting realities. And yes, there is no failure, no matter what choices we make. Both success and failure as we perceive them serve as lessons and are both beneficial.

Sadly many have given their light away willingly, so not a loss as in they lost it but definitely a loss. These would be people controlled by dark forces. But reclaiming their God given light is a simple but oh so difficult process.

Quote from: omcasey on June 16, 2021, 21:39:58
Brilliant.

Thank you Casey  :-)

Quote from: Lumaza on June 16, 2021, 22:17:35
So true, so true.

Recently I read this reply That Kevin Hart, the Actor, had made when questioned about the "Cancel Culture". He didn't need to use the profanity. But the words fit the message he was delivering.
""When did we get to a point where life was supposed to be perfect? Where people were supposed to operate perfectly all the time? I don't understand."

"I don't expect perfection from my kids. I don't expect it from my wife, friends, employees," he continued. "Because, last I checked, the only way you grow up is from f---ing up. I don't know a kid who hasn't f---ed up or done some dumb s---."

I have always lived by the adage "people that live in glass houses shouldn't throw stones". I like this one too "to error is Human, to forgive is divine"!  :-) It is through our "failures" that we learn to prevail!

Absolutely! Seems only we the imperfect demand perfection. Funny isn't it?

What a great LD with so many metaphors! A great clarification of Purpose and division of responsibilities. Wow!

It Can't Get In - Lucid Dream/Partial Astral

Two episodes in which a being tried to get into my head. Poor fellow, he hung upside down on the window peering in. Gone were his handsome features, blond hair and blue eyes. He hung there looking in like a cat begging at the door, a dark shadow with spindly wood ash like body.

Next he walked along a bank never crossing the ditch to join us. Just followed along frustrated presenting a rejected demeaner.

I didn't say what 'we' were doing because they were just trivial daily life things with friends and family.

Point being there are always more challenges and they aren't all big and scary. Sometimes the challenges are small and unexpected and that's how they slip in. Just hold strong knowing you yourself are at the helm and nothing gets by you unless you let it.
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It makes me think of my current health issues. I know in my heart that we are indeed able to heal ourselves through having a strong belief and acceptance of a higher power that works through us. That power I do not believe IS us per se but it is controlled by our own desires/understandings/faith and beliefs.

So why can't I just demand the healing I need? That is a good question and one many if not all eventually face. Perhaps I have entrenched beliefs I have yet to overcome. Perhaps sometimes this power is best utilized by others with a certain calling to that sort of thing. I haven't figured out all the details but do know anything is absolutely possible.

As a side note I have been following my heart and doing what I think is best for me along the way. Sometimes I hit, sometimes I miss. Right now I am in the 2 steps forward 1 step back stage so that means there is progress. Patience is my test and no I don't just say that to make it look like an excuse. Patience has always been my test, lol.

I will likely die before I am completely whole but with the coming zombie apocalypse at least you all know who to feed to the zombies first. All I got to say on that is RUN dammit, don't waste my sacrifice standing around hemming and hawing - RUN!!!

hi Nameless,

Changing beliefs is not easy, since we perceive one thing, which takes time to change and this constantly deceives our understanding and validation that the belief has changed.
I strongly suggest for you to read "The Nature pf Personal Reality" by Jane Roberts and also there is another in which Seth dedicates specifically for health and how to use self hypnosis to alter our beliefs. the book name is "The Way Toward Health: a Seth book" He has tools and exercises through which we understand all the little details surrounding how exactly do we create our reality including health. It is not so black and white, but his books are exceptional in explaining why.

As I am reading again "The Nature of Personal Reality", every day I want to post here things that are essential for understanding reality and tools to improve our lives, but one thing is connected to the previous chapters and I cant type it all. I wish everyone reads these books. I cant say enough how much critical information about the multiverse and existence/realities/purpose is condenses in there.

Thanks LightBeam. Today everything is just clicking. I found both those books and another one EscapeVelocity has recommended to me. I found them on ThriftBooks.com and ordered all three. Not new but not a big deal for me. I'm grateful to have found them reasonably priced.

You're right about changing beliefs. I don't personally have a strong belief in any concept. However I did grow up in a predominantly Christian household so saying belief might not be accurate but it is a language I understand. My core beliefs as I assume with most people won't change. Like love, fairness, honesty and the never ending quest for knowledge.

Can't wait for the books to arrive. :-)

 Nameless, I like how you always have the ability to discern the meaning of your Dreams. That shows growth and evolution!  :-) 8-)

Where it comes to the health thing. The day we are born, we are already working towards our next transition. I have also found that many of what they call the "Light Workers" have some kind of physical or mental affliction. I take it as a "forced grounding", that creates the opportunity for us to be "aware". Our physical vessels slow down and break down, so our mental and spiritual focus can grow and evolve!  :-)

Quote from: Nameless on August 02, 2021, 16:55:53
I don't personally have a strong belief in any concept. However I did grow up in a predominantly Christian household so saying belief might not be accurate but it is a language I understand. My core beliefs as I assume with most people won't change. Like love, fairness, honesty and the never ending quest for knowledge.

oh, I see what you mean. When I say beliefs, I don't mean basic religions or spiritual belief system. I mean all types of personals beliefs about ourselves, the reality and life. For example, the belief that with old age come diseases and pain, will automatically create circumstances in one's life where the physical body experiences this exact belief and will get ill. If one firmly beliefs that no matter what age we get, we can prolong agelessness and health. These very thoughts send messages to our cells and they rejuvenate upon our command, which prolongs the natural course of time and our bodies will stay healthy and young much longer. If we believe that the risk of getting cancer is high, then this belief will create like circumstances. Our beliefs trigger our everyday thoughts and our everyday thoughts create and manifest. Fear also is a belief of what we fear. These are the things I am referring to that need to be examined, find what belief type is causing our unfortunate circumstance in any areas of ours lives, understand why do we believe it and from there to try to change it. Again, not easy, because sometimes we are trying to force to think abundance, where at this time one is poor and what we observe make us believe in its existence. This is where a much deeper understanding of the nature of reality is needed to be able to successfully rid ourselves of these limiting beliefs and change things around.

Also, we are being told by the law of attraction specialists to think positive and change the negative thinking. Well, this wont work, because if we do not have the backed up belief, then the positive thinking will be forced, the negative thoughts will be shoved into some corner of our consciousness, but they are still there because they have the backed belief. This will create more chaos as people are pretending their negative thoughts are gone out of fear. Then every time they have a negative thought they will be afraid of what this thought can create and that will create further chaos.  Fears, concerns, negative thoughts and emotions need to be analyzed, examined, acknowledged in order to identify what is the belief that generates them. And then start self hypnosis to change them. that applies for all of these beliefs about money, joy, being loved, being in a love relationship, relationship with others, family, health, job, etc.

Quote from: Lumaza on August 02, 2021, 17:19:04
Nameless, I like how you always have the ability to discern the meaning of your Dreams. That shows growth and evolution!  :-) 8-)

Where it comes to the health thing. The day we are born, we are already working towards our next transition. I have also found that many of what they call the "Light Workers" have some kind of physical or mental affliction. I take it as a "forced grounding", that creates the opportunity for us to be "aware". Our physical vessels slow down and break down, so our mental and spiritual focus can grow and evolve!  :-)

I owe much of my abilities to this very forum and the wonderful members present and past who have helped along the way. Inevitably we aren't meant to be here permanently no matter how we think. But owning our time here is a wonderful although many times painful lesson.

Absolutely LB. Everything you just said is spot on and well said. It is confusing but that is where the challenge lies. Like some days I feel totally at one with all existence and others not near so much. I can only imagine most people go through that exact same thing. All I can say is that when are up encourage encourage encourage others so we may be encouraged when we are down.

LD

People subtly losing their minds like in a Stephen King novel. one minute sane the next crazy. Some just decided they could run over whoever they liked or hang someone. But not everyone went insane just a random portion. Those who remained sane helped rescue victims of the insane. I was rescued inside a furniture store. Outside the store Sara Huckabee was hanging upside down by her feet. She was rescued by a bystander as well. Sara was dressed in a police uniform.

That's a trippy one, but I can see how that can literally happen to our world. We better toughen up.

A metaphorical LD that makes perfect sense for the current situation-sadly.

The only relevant question that occurs to me at the moment is- How did it make you feel?

Hopeful

Projection(?) - Sweet and Tender Moment

Last night I was feeling really tired. Between allergies and not sleeping well that's how it's been the last couple weeks. So I'm laid back in my recliner just resting (not sleeping). I'm having a conversation with someone outside of eyesight. We were talking about colors and for some reason I am explaining colors to this little voice. I'm pointing out the colors using berries and other fruits. I keep being drawn back to rusty red berries and bright orange. I'm just sort of daydreaming all this.

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The phone rings so I sit up and answer. It's my daughter. She asked me if I was astral projecting (lol). I say I don't think so but why. She said her son (my little 4 yr old grand baby) had just sat up in bed and was talking to someone. They asked who and he said Grandma.

I went over this afternoon to encourage him to eat his dinner so 'mom' could get some chores done. I told him I heard he woke up last night talking to someone. He laughed and said, you know grandma I talk to you about the rainbow." Then he goes and gets a picture he painted in pre-school to show me. His rainbow was rusty red and orange.

So, was I projecting or just tapping into his thoughts. Either way it's these sweet and tender moments I cherish the most.

Projection/Remote View/Information

I entered this projection as a point of consciousness, as an observer. There is a lot to this and a lesson for everyone but like me you will have to figure out what that lesson is.

From above I saw a small blonde headed woman standing beside a crashed car on the highway. She was dead. She knew she had just died in that crash and she knew she would go into the light. But she stood there watching the man that was in an SUV. She knew he as well was dead. She could see his confusion and knew it was up to her to take him into the light or he would likely run around lost for a long time.

Observing from above I could see that the woman was a pure human with absolutely no attachments at all. What a rare sight. The man however had so many attachments he was bulging with them. I knew she would need help getting him into the light. So silently and unknown to the woman I gave her a boost of energy just to get him going and off they went. A nano-second later I see him as though sitting in the clouds with the most magnificent smile on his face, feeling joy he had never known.

An instant later I am in a mansion up a flight of stairs like on a balcony. There are three people on the second floor. I see the woman approach the door and instantly know that while she did die at the accident scene the EMTs were able to resuscitate her and took her to the hospital. The man however was pronounced dead at the scene. The current scene takes place many weeks after the accident.

The woman feels deeply distressed after the accident and only wants to meet his family. She wants to tell them he is in a better place. It had taken her a long time to find them.

Inside the mansion one of the three is the victim's brother, one his sister and the third is there in corporal form, not quite solid. Some might call him a demon, a ghost, a guide or something else. The brother and sister were having a conversation with him. They were into demon worship and pretty much all things bad. As you might have gathered in reference to the mansion these people were part of the 1% we all hear about. Part of that ruling class.

They were highly agitated because they had been trying to reach their brother through all sorts of methods of various demonic nature. They were truly baffled as this had never happened before, they should be able to reach him despite him being dead. He knew they would be calling him and they already had a small baby coming into the world for him to inhabit. So where was he???

Back outside the woman is pounding the knocker and the butler is answering the door. They nod and he brings her upstairs, they know who she is but had ignored her as insignificant. Just a lowly human with no special powers to speak of.

The woman, a little intimidated by the opulence of the place and this first time meeting and knowing what she is there to tell them feels a bit overwhelmed but she has made up her mind. She introduces herself and begins her story, telling them their brother is in a happy and safe place. They and the corporal presence are shocked beyond belief. The corporal being fades away leaving the brother and sister alone.

The brother and sister begin harassing the woman, they want her to bring him back. But of course she can't do that. She tells them that only he can make that decision. They are furious and ramp up their harassment and threats. She holds her own and does not let them intimidate her. But she finds out one very important detail.

Apparently there is some sort of contract that leaves her owning everything that had belonged to their brother. This contract is very involved and came into being long ago and can not be broken so whether she wants it or not it's hers. Only she is NOT one of them.

And although the woman doesn't want anything from them or their deceased brother she now understands that the world is not as black and white as she once thought so no, she will not be joining their corruption.

This is where she picks up her first attachment. It presents as a bag of roll-on luggage. She walks down the stairs and out the front door pulling the bag.

From my vantage point I can clearly see how this baggage will taint her if she doesn't rid herself of it soon as possible.

She now feels it is up to her to rid the world of this demonic energy. She decides to literally blow up everything the deceased man once owned. Me, I have to do something to stop her as her actions will only increase the divide between humanity and unseen forces.

She stands on a hillside with the luggage which now presents as a dynamite plunger (she's going to blow the mansion). Knowing my job, I glide down close to her and sort of whisper in her ear. I tell her she will hurt a lot of innocent people. That the evil (negative energy) is deep below and needs to be dealt with on a much deeper level. That the world needs a cleansing, not destruction. That people (for the most part) are unaware of these forces/energies/attachments that were not forced on them, but rather collected over time. That they must be empowered to shake those forces off organically.

The woman hears me although she thinks it is her own thoughts and begins her own journey down this thing we call the rabbit hole.
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Observations:
1  During this entire event I could clearly see the deceased man basking in the light. I could feel his energy, delight, glory and excitement as he felt things he had never felt before. He had many compounding thoughts. For the first time he understood true joy, he understood how kittens could make a person smile and really feel that smile. He understood a mother and father's love for their children. He knew things in his soul he had never known before. He would never give up this new found grace he had found and only wished he could reach his brother and sister and so many others and show them so they too would know the futility of the things they had done. He hooted and hollered like a kid on a slide to get their attention. But they could never hear him as their souls had no relation to the side of existence he was on. He knew deep within that he now had all the power he had ever dreamed in previous life. He was now a creator where as before all he and they could ever do was copy. And what a poor copy it was, not bringing joy only hate and death.

2  In other experiences I have on rare occasion seen people of a pure soul. Or you might say with no attachments. It is very rare and one of the most beautiful sights there is. These people though rare are what I personally consider PURE, untouched, totally human. And it isn't just humans, most of the beings inhabiting our little globe have these attachments, even plants and animals.

It is these dark attachments that make it necessary for there to be light workers. Light workers do not attach but we do guide as best we can.

3  I felt very sad for the brother and sister and even the corporal soul. Seeing that they simply could not ever FEEL LIFE the way most of us still have the capacity to makes it much easier to show sympathy to their human self. The human beneath is a gentle beast full of love and joy.

Nameless

 Very cool!  8-) That experience is loaded with metaphors. I see why you said, "There is a lot to this and a lesson for everyone but like me you will have to figure out what that lesson is". It can be perceived and even deduced by everyone in their own personal way, depending on experiences and circumstances in their own lives.

Yuu ARE a light worker, Nameless! Showing them the heaven' s door :)

Interesting development today. Had another astral family adventure this morning only I wasn't there. Well I was but not so they would know. Didn't realize till I 'woke' up that they weren't talking to me, they were talking about me, so to them I wasn't physically with them. But my grandmother was there (I never met her as she was long gone before my time). However, she frequently visits in my 'dreams', more so than my mother which I find interesting as my mother tends to visit my daughter more so than me.

Anyway, my grandmother popped in to say hi to our newest family member who is only about 4 months old now. Now the really interesting part.

My daughter text me this morning. Seems we both woke up about the same time (within minutes of each other). She had quite the experience as well. She too was hanging out with all the family and apparently, I presented myself to her, only I wasn't really there either.

So, it was like I was dead and coming to them in spirit in both our experiences. Of course that's what prompted her to text in the first place.

Now guys, I know I'm not in the best of health and don't have any foreboding feelings of my own demise or anything like that. Of course, I know it could happen any time, near or far, but that doesn't bother me in the least, so I feel there is something else going on here. I know we have some concerns but wow. How to explain this.

Was this just a snapshot of vague though real concerns or was there some lesson being taught/shown? I don't know (yet) but I did want to record this event.

Alls I can say is whether physical, spiritual, astral or mental life is never a dull moment.

Interesting dream, and your daughter having a similar one at the same time. But I don't see it as concerning. I've had many dreams with a mix of diseased and alive relatives where no one really interacts with me. I just observe the situations. We have so many parts of ourselves roaming around at different frequencies, and so is everyone else. So at times a mismatch of frequencies yet trying to get together for events may result on something like that. 

Quote from: Nameless on November 21, 2022, 23:46:27
Alls I can say is whether physical, spiritual, astral or mental life is never a dull moment.

I second that statement. The weird thing is, you can have so many completely different scenarios on any given night. Lately I am experiencing a "questioning" period. Night after night now I am becoming aware of a loud question that is asked of me. It seems to occurring in the dark void. I can't see anyone and the weirdest thing is I don't ever remember the actual question that is being asked, even though it is given with complete clarity.  :? All I know is that I have been becoming aware nightly for a while now after a voice appears.  I don't even know what my own answers were. It's like my memory has been wiped clean. At the time, I am fully consciously aware of the situation.

The first night it occurred it really caught me off guard. The nights after that, it seemed I was in the dark void "awaiting" the question that soon followed. I guess it's just another one of those "MPR" puzzles that we seem to be challenged with there.

Thanks LB, I'm in agreement with that. We do seem very capable of carrying many frequencies at once.

God Lu, A definite signal that, "No, you can't take this with you. What get's discussed here stays here." I guess it's not something we either can or perhaps should think about consciously.., at the moment. All things in due time but it is really hard accepting the duality of 'being a part' and not being 'allowed to keep that part.'

Quote from: Nameless on November 24, 2022, 15:57:27
Thanks LB, I'm in agreement with that. We do seem very capable of carrying many frequencies at once.

God Lu, A definite signal that, "No, you can't take this with you. What get's discussed here stays here." I guess it's not something we either can or perhaps should think about consciously.., at the moment. All things in due time but it is really hard accepting the duality of 'being a part' and not being 'allowed to keep that part.'

That's almost like "What happens in Vegas, stays in Vegas", lol!  :-D
I feel that whatever it was, was helpful on some level, even if I don't remember it. It's strange how I am "allowed" to remember that there was a question at all.  :?

About a week ago I had this amazing OOBE. I was with my husband and grandson playing in a beautiful pool of water. We were really having a good time splashing water everywhere and laughing with our grandson and little friend he brought along to play as well.

Well, after that experience I wrote a little note to myself and dated it. I keep a notepad by my chair for just such things as notes and stuff. As many of you know my husband passed away in 2019 so getting to spend time with him again was a very precious gift.

Two days later my daughter comes over and she asks me if I had had any weird experiences recently. I smiled and said, like what. She tells me her son (my aforementioned grandson) had told her the other day that he had gone and played with his grandma and grandpa and had a lot of fun. Haha.

I handed her the note pad.

Quote from: Nameless on July 21, 2023, 21:26:32
I handed her the note pad.

I would have loved to have seen her face when you handed her your pad!  :-o :-D

I have learned to really cherish those visits too!  :-) Once in a while they turn into a question and answer period. Other times, I just enjoy her company and cherish the short time we had to spend together!  :-)

What an extraordinary experience, Nameless! Such a validation of eternal bliss.

Lu, you should heard the OMG omg OMG's. She was super delighted. Thank LB, it truly was an eternal moment.

So recently I mentioned a small np episode I had with the AST (astral surgical team). Just a little background, I have nerve damage and since having emergency surgery for an aortic aneurysm just under a year ago I have had some really bad pain in my right foot. A few days ago, the 11th I think, I quipped out loud to the ast that it would be great if they could do something for my foot. It really messes up my sleep. So it was early morning and finally I was relieved enough to fall asleep. Next thing I know I'm grabbing this woman out of the woods (she had just done something completely random and sliced her foot open, it was ugly). I grabbed her and took her to the ER.

The AST was there in full force and they immediately starter working on her and another person was brought out to the waiting room whom they had just operated on for the same thing. I thought, hey while I'm here maybe they will do something for my foot.

That's when I realized they had already fixed me as much they could for the moment.

I can honestly say my foot has been much better. Some pain and numbness still there but not of the agonizing variety.

 Nameless, thankfully they don't charge like our Medical services here do in this physical reality. Otherwise, we would need some kind of "Insurance" there too, lol!  :roll: :-D

Here's a cool split-second gem. Suddenly out of the great black void of a deep sleep I am snapped awake. I'm in a medieval dungeon. There's a singular slit (out of reach). The sun is pouring through the slit. A heavy shackle has been snapped around my ankle.

A split-second thought: What's this? A new adventure?

No, just my cat gripping my ankle in a vice-like grip and the sun blaring through my window. :lol: 

Ah, that would have been such an adventure  :-D

QuoteNo, just my cat gripping my ankle in a vice-like grip and the sun blaring through my window. :lol:

OR

The vice-like grip and sun blaring in the window reminding you of your time elsewhere.

So, I'm reluctant to post this but here goes. You can thank Lu or choke him :-D  as he's the one that convinced me to post it as some of you may have a perspective on this or had something similar happen.

First, this is not an ap or obe or anything like that. The other day I was driving to town. There was a pickup truck and two other cars in front of me. I was behind the truck for 2 or 3 miles when we came to a traffic light. As we were all slowing down to stop at the light my eyes were directly on the truck in front of me when it began to turn translucent or transparent. It vanished as I watched. This was not a case of looking away and turning back and it was gone. I actually watched it vanish. I found a place to park and just sat there thinking about it. After a few minutes I cranked up my truck and went home.

What happened? I've seen a LOT of strange things in my time but not like this.

Ah, Dolores Cannon has the answer for you. I recommend watching the entire lecture, but the exact topic that relates to your experience starts at 20:15 time point.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZHzVvx8CG6I

Hello Nameless, I want to tell you that I have read your entire Journal and I loved it, you have really experienced things that have impressed me a lot! And as always, learning from everyone's advice. Thanks for sharing all this! It's good that you decided to tell this story... Whow! How much material these experiences leave us to process...

I also want to say THANK YOU to all for recommending Dolores Cannon, as I had not heard of her. I was reading some of her books, that have given me answers to things that until now I had not been able to find. Your story also reminds me of when Dolores Cannon talks about abductions, where they even take the cars with people through molecular acceleration.

I think that there is continually an overlap of realities, the thing is we're just not always aware of it.
I have lived the same experience as you and have come to that conclusion. It scares me a little sometimes, simply because I don't quite understand it. Something similar to your experience is the following... I was on the balcony of a first floor apartment, which is very close to the street. It was like 2 am and there were no cars or people passing by, everything was desolate, but suddenly I saw a stray dog. In the city where I live, especially in some neighborhoods in particular, you never see stray dogs, maybe only on the outskirts of the city, that's why seeing it caught my attention, it's not common, but... oh well!

This dog was behaving normally, and was quite big... He just wandered around for a bit, until suddenly he stood in front of a huge old house (which was right in front of me) and stared through the tall and huge iron fence that separated the house from the street in question. The dog suddenly gets into a position to jump, like cats do, obviously it was impossible for the dog to jump over the iron fence since It was about three meters long and ended with pointed arrows, I didn't understand what he wanted to do. However, he jumps (not too high) but what happens is.... (What I saw in great detail from being in front of all this without any distraction around, I would also like to say that the streets were very well lit)... When the dog jumps, he DISAPPEARS, in fact, I saw how first disappeared half of him, leaving for a fraction of seconds only the back part in the air, that disappeared later, that is to say that for a moment I only saw half of the dog in the air, as if he had entered through an invisible portal, so to speak.

Maybe you may think that the dog passed through the fence and entered the house, but the answer is no, since the fence were not wide enough, it was narrow and the dog was really big (I later went to corroborate). Nor was there any plant or dark object where the dog could have hidden when jumping, giving the illusion of disappearing, since as I say, there was only the dog in front of these tall iron fence, there was nothing else around. He jumped and disappeared, just that. I was speechless, as always, trying to process what had happened in my brain and in fact I stayed almost an hour longer to see if I saw this dog come out from another side, but I didn't see him again.

The place where I was was not my house, but a friend's. When I told what I had seen, (which in general I never do, but I felt in need because of the impact) my friend told me that that old house collected Egyptian's antiques, almost a kind of museum, just a curious fact.
I have also experienced other similar things and so have my friends and family, things that show that not everything is as solid as it seems and makes us question every aspect of reality.

Tak, you are just wonderful. Just wonderful.

Thanks LB for reminding me of Delores Cannon's great insights. I think what waffled my head the most was that it was a whole truck. Organic beings, animals, etc yes but a truck, lol.

Thanks Tak and I agree, Delores Cannon is no less than awe-inspiring. I'm really glad you discovered her and us as we are very fortunate to have someone of your caliber and experience join us. I definitely know places and objects hold energy and often transmute/entangle those energies. Also love that you talked about a dog. Dogs seem surround many of my experiences as well. Always looking forward to hearing more of your experiences.

Just want to chime in and comment, what an incredible experience. I don't think I've ever witnessed an entire vehicle disappear like that. I have seen a silver orb once coming straight towards my car while driving down a highway- it disappeared just before impact. My heart jumped thinking something was about to hit my windshield.

Thanks Casey :-D WE ARE all wonderful! I'm very fond of everyone here.

Oh Nameless, thanks to all of you for this great community, Astral Pulse is a great school, I regret not having found it 12 years ago, I wouldn't have stopped my practices if I had, since I could have worked my fears and doubts with your advice, instead of leaving everything. But well! I had a lot of time to process and find new ways. I'm just a beginner and an eternal student, I try to learn with respect and humility, with open heart and mind.

I had never read hypnosis books of these characteristics, I still have not read the 5 books The Convoluted Universe, but perhaps there are answers to questions that I have had all my life. I have a huge list of questions that I wrote in order to find an answer in AP and LD. But I feel a little disappointed because no one wants to answer me, they tell me that they don't know or that I don't have permission yet to access that information, or if I get intense they send me back to my body. I guess that means there are more important areas to reach in my practices than searching for information right now. However, I already know that all knowledge is within us and will be revealed at the appropriate time. I don't want to be capricious or greedy with information. I'm patient. So I continue searching in the readings of these great collaborators of humanity, for vestiges of Truth, like putting together a puzzle, until I'm able to find them for myself. Oh! I would love to be hypnotized one day.

As you say, one thing is a person or animal (if they are such things or entities wearing some kind of disguise) but the truck was wild! And then it's so hard to talk about it. We are equally fortunate to be able to witness these types of anomalies and I wonder if they occur to us because we are somehow attuned to expanded states of consciousness or if the phenomenon was witnessed by others at the time, we'll never know. But all of this is a great example of this overlap. I'll see LB's link and see what our friend Dolores Cannon has to say about it.
Take this event as a gift!

Quote from: Tak on February 18, 2024, 13:04:26I'll see LB's link and see what our friend Dolores Cannon has to say about it.
Take this event as a gift!

Hey, Tak, I think it would be more interesting for you to find Dolores' channel on Youtube, subscribe and watch all of her lectures. The information she shares is from her books. Watching the person is much better than reading, because seeing expressions and emotions will connect you deeper and you will get to appreciate her on a different level. I have completed her level 1 practitioner hypnosis course. If you go to https://qhhtofficial.com/, you can find a practitioner in your area (they are all over the world) and you can choose intern practitioner who will not charge to do a hypnosis. It has to be done in person though to have the full effect of connecting you with your higher self.

In regards to receiving answers during APs, I have also tried asking a straight question while out, but never did anyone appear, sit me down to spell out the answer. Not because no one is listening, but because this is not how knowledge is acquired. I have found that I receive knowledge and information through just knowing, "downloads" as we call them. while all of a sudden you get an idea, a feeling, a knowing about something you have been asking, but it' more a telepathic thing/energy exchange, not via a conversation of a human type with someone. The information is always flowing though us, we are all connected to it at all time, but it is us who are blocking its understanding until we gain enough experience and learn lessons to be able to process the knowledge and convert it to knowing. We just have to learn to trust our intuition.

Subtitle: Raising the Bar
This is a physical story with non-physical elements.

I want to tell you all about an experience I had many years ago. Lately I've been getting quite a few pushes to go back and re-evaluate some of these.

When I was six I fell into/through a plate glass window and nearly severed my leg. Not really but close enough for a game of horse-shoes. Damage to the ligament and scar tissue caused some ongoing problems. That's a bit of back-story for clarification.

One day at about 10 years old I fell out in the yard and twisted my leg. To say it hurt is an understatement. It was on fire and I couldn't use it to stand back up. Mom called us all to dinner. Being late to dinner was not an option.  I looked around and wished I had something to grab hold of to pull myself up. I saw a black bar hanging within arm's reach above me and almost reached for it.Then stopped and furrowed my brow. Where did that come from? The closest tree was 10 feet away and it was only a twig at best. There was nothing else around.

I looked down and studied my hands in my lap at that point. I absolutely knew the bar was there and that I could grab it but it certainly didn't fit into the reality I was immersed in. And a voice said, "look". I did and realized I had a dual-vision, one physical, one not so much but both totally real. The voice said, "See it there, see how real it is. Now see it here."  (those are not exact quotes but close enough)

I grabbed the bar and it was very solid and real as anything I have ever touched. It was even warm from the sun. I hauled myself up and limped inside.
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This event lasted only a few minutes but has stayed with me for life. As I look back over this experience I am forced to face reality. And reality is not what I have come to believe down through the years. It much more resembles the reality I knew as a child.

As an aside, I haven't abandoned the Pulse. Just need frequent breaks.
Love and Hugs

Nameless, that was shocking, it's good that you have experienced many of these situations in life. What we know as reality is just a concept and a social convention, no one has any idea what reality actually is (or maybe only a few on this planet). I am far from knowing what reality is... living in mystery is truly an adventure and every day I learn new aspects of it. We do not even fully know our own body, mind, and spiritual capacity to know what we are capable of achieving, we are barely knowing ourselves. So saying that I know reality, is still very far from being something palpable for me, I start with my own consciousness.

Have you come to any conclusion from this fact? Do you think it was someone who put that to help you? Could it be another aspect of yourself manifested on the physical plane in the need to get out of that situation? What do you think it was?

As always, thanks for sharing ♥