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[Dreamland]

Where do you buy those Dreamland's ink cartridges? I miss those explosions of colors! 

Sorry I forgot to answer that.
The Gateway tapes from ebay.
The Dr Steve Jones Explorations Beyond the Body, Explorations Intensive, and Exploration Advanced Journeys are from ebay too.

That's all I have.  I have never heard of Dreamland but it sounds interesting based on the name!

Jenn

I love reading your progress over time Jenn, how great the vivid and colorful dreams are. My dreams tend to be gloomy, cloudy, with gray and blue tones, in the twilight, if it's not night! I don't know why. This doesn't bother me, on the contrary, I love them, it gives a lot of suspense and adrenaline to everything (not always but most of them). Where do you buy those Dreamland's ink cartridges? I miss those explosions of colors! 

What happened to you doesn't seem strange to me at all, although I don't know why, it happened to me (and even worse!) In the last years 3 times I woke up and didn't know where I was, in which country, or even in what year or absolutely nothing ... total reset! Only lasted about 10 seconds and everything came back, something inside told me that I should stay calm, that I would remember soon and so it was. This could be because I was a backpacker for four years (yes, I really like traveling and meeting people, on Earth too!) and changing places so quickly could generate that effect, but at that time I was stable, it was really strange, it happened to me last year also and I'm not traveling. Unlike you, I don't remember what happened during my dream to get into that situation. Perhaps I have gone further than I have been able to process, or I returned faster than usual... who knows.

I see that you have a great skill with dreams Jenn, the fact that they are so vivid and real means that you are just one step away from making them lucid. Have you not considered inducing lucid dreams and projecting that way? I believe you have the potential to achieve this. I never learned to induce paralysis and vibrations at will and detach myself like the classic OBEs, but I "cross the threshold" through lucid dreams. Maybe that's your way.

Let's go with those dreams!

I'll have to do some readings on lucid dreams.  I have traveled too.  I'm 65 and back in my hayday, myself and a few friends went around the country a couple of times just seeing what we could see. I totally get the traveling bug. Right now I'm going back to work SOON to save frugally in order to erect a small off grid cabin on a piece of land. It is my dream and I feel it is still achievable.  It was awesome to travel however.

And back to lucid -- > Lucid, from what I've read, is KNOWING you are dreaming while in the dream.  I'm not sure how to achieve that but I think that would be great.  You might be on to something as far as my inner journeys.  I have had three conscious OBEs but thats all.  I'll try lucid.

Thank you so much for that tip!  And I am so glad someone else had a momentary loss of identity..  It didn't scare me but then I knew I was in my house.  Being someplace where I did not have access to a "letter" might have been totally different..

And I have always loved having vivid dreams.  They just seem MORE vivid right now than is usual.  I have had gloomy before but they are not the norm.

Cheers,
Jenn

[But I suddenly realized I had no idea what town I lived in or my freaking address... just like in the dream]

That's great, Jenn! I have noticed the same with fasting and strict healthy eating that does not burden the body too much digesting all the time. I have noticed that when during holidays when I typically eat whatever I want and abandon all types of healthy eating, my NP experiences significantly diminish and even my level of being connected at all time to the divine goes away. I turn into a complete human with a body that feels heavy and dense and my brain stops transmitting. I think it has to do with the brain also being burdened by slow functioning body if loaded with so much food and the wrong food all the time, and not having enough nutrients and break from digesting to give a rest and have the opportunity to function at optimal level to be able to transmit. Keep going and I hope you get greater and greater results.

OH thats so nice to hear about being more spiritual when eating clean!!  I feel so good right now. And I'm very excited about this fast right now also. I have had NO detox symptoms..

I'm not sure if I have already posted this but I am  having EXTREMELY vivid dreams in color.  Complicated dreams with lots going on.  I remember them in vivid excruciating detail.  They are not lucid, just vivid. And when I wake it's as though there are remants of the dream affecting my waking state.

This morning I lay down and fell asleep around 8am or so, and not to go into all the detail (too long and very involved), but in a portion of my dream there was this nasty looking guy driving a two tone yellow and brown chevy with dirty scraggly long blond hair.  I just KNEW he was a drug addict somehow.  How, I have no idea. But I decided to call 911 based on his driving.  He was also going through a box on my neighbors porch and they weren't home.  This was across the street from my house. I got a phone out of my pocket and called 911.  This was not my personal cell phone and for some reason, when I called 911 it kept ringing my actual neighbor in real life.  Ruth. It would not connect to 911. So I sprinted to my garage and found my phone and called 911 from my cell phone but when the dispatcher answered, I could not remember my address or the town I lived in. I could not tell her where I was.  So I had the 911 operator "stand by" while I ran to the end of the next block to look at the street names. But my street was not on the sign.  So I ran to the next block and same thing occurred.  (end of the tiny dream portion)

When I woke up from this dream and got out of bed, my dream was uppermost in my thoughts. I was thinking about it in it's entirely. It was pretty darn awesome. It was soooo realistic. So real. So authentic. I remember everything about it. Every detail. I had only been awake a few minutes at this point. But I suddenly realized I had no idea what town I lived in or my freaking address... just like in the dream. I was clueless. I walked around my house and tried HARD to remember my physical location and I could not. I did not want to look at a letter to find out.  I wanted to remember but it was gone. It was like a blank spot in my brain. Totally.  I'm not kidding. My memory was exactly like in my dream. I hated to, but I finally, after about 10 minutes, I looked at some mail and there it was. My address. It all came flooding back.

Like I was saying earlier, it was like a remant of my dream was affecting my waking state.
Pretty weird, huh?

Jenn

Last night as I lay in bed, I could feel electric jolts shooting through my head every few seconds or so. At the same time it occured, I could see a flash of light. The flash of light was was wide but thin.  Shaped like a piece of plywood. I was NOT meditating, but just laying there quietly thinking about things to do when it started. It was around 3:30am  It was awesome!!  I'm hoping... It lasted for five minutes or so and I just enjoyed it while it was there.

I think cleansing my body with fruit juice is going to have a big effect eventually.  I am not using the tapes at this time. I'm back to the old fashioned way. I tried with the tapes but had no results except very minimal. I might try again while I'm juicing but I'll just have to see when I think the time is right.

Also by the way, I feel amazing on this juice fast.  I feel on top of the world. I'm trying to purify my body and basically just give my body a break.  It takes a lot of vital energy and vital force from our bodies for sold food to digest.  In spite of being 99 percent vegan, my body needed/needs this break.

Jenn

I am on a fruit juice fast for 30 days to detox and rejuvenate my body.  The last time I fasted I had amazing results just in the general feel of my body.  I am on day 4.  I'm hoping for a breakthrough in my meditations..  I'm not trying to lose weight, so I can drink as much as I want in order to feel sated.

Jenn

I'm not posting because there is nothing to report.  I am having zero luck.  Tonight I am back to listening to Monroe.  FreeFlow Focus 10.  Back to the beginning.

I'm trying to not get discouraged.  This has to be simpler than I am making it. I will try to only meditate to Monroe and put obe out of my mind. I'm trying to hard. I need to relax more I think.

OH... I'll give that a try next time.
Thank You!

[tree meditation]

I'm going to go 48 hrs (this weekend) with no guided meditations. I need a break I think.

HOWEVER, I'm going to meditate the old fashioned way during this time.  I'm hoping I can get where I want to be.

I'm going to do my tree meditation for a couple days.  I was extremely successful doing this in the past, so we'll see how it goes. Since I can feel the vibrational state and movement when I close my eyes, I am hopeful that will jumpstart the process.

Another meditation I used in the past (to get sucked out through a straw) was a head concentration meditation.

I'm going to do both of those.

I've had Monroe in my ears most of the day..

After I finish Dr. Steve, I'll start back on Monroe.  I've made a list of the recordings and took out what might be considered fluff . Then I copied a list of several of them, stuck them in a separate folder, converted them to mp3s and when I start back on Monroe, this is what I am going to listen to and also the order I plan on using. I changed the name to reflect the file type and now I'm set. This is a couple weeks out at least.

Jenn 

Prior to "turning on my earbuds", I'm going to do breath counting exercises and then breath awareness exercises for a period of time.  I'll know when I'm ready to turn the earbuds on.

"Laser focus" is my primary goal.. I'll keep "flying to the moon" as a quick second..

One more thing.. 

REF: Going to bed without being sleepy has no bearing on the vibrational state when I close my eyes.  I still vibrate when I close my eyes and sense movement, regardless of my racing mind. But the racing mind stops it from going further.

My mind and being able to slow it down sufficiently is the entire key. No problem with vibrational state OR movement.

[My Mistake:]

You're welcome! 

Unfortunately, you will find you are challenged to repeat it "like you already did". I find that the next couple of times after the initial success seem to be more challenging than the initial one was. That's when the real "tests" begin. I don't believe it was a fluke, but I do believe that your next success will be something that you never expected. Good luck!

You are right --> absolutely.  I have not been able to repeat the process. I changed my process for two days trying to enhance things and that was a mistake. Excitement got the better of me.

My Mistake:
I had been trying the last couple days/nights to go to bed earlier and so PRIOR to being sleepy. I did this because I wanted more time to meditate. I was excited. I tried that for two days/nights. It definitely does not work for me. I am very hyper mentally.  I discovered that if I go to bed prior to being sleepy,  I can't meditate and my mind races.  I cannot slow things down enough to get in a meditive mode mentally. In my normal waking mode, I can concentrate and think with clarity about 10 things at one time and keep track of them all. When my older relatives were alive, we would all sit around a table and all have many many different conversations at the same time with everyone and we all knew what we were talking about. Used to drive my husband crazy. He could not keep up with what was happening but it was normal to us.    It had always been so.

I think I MUST be sleepy in other to get in the right frame of mind because that's when my mind is winding down.  Last night I also slept with Monroe again in my ears vs Dr. Steve to try and slow down.

I think the best thing to do is "to change nothing". Just keep doing what I was doing. No change.

The two things I discovered the last couple days is 1 -I don't fall asleep if I am not sleepy AND 2 -if I am not sleepy, I can't slow my mind down to meditate..  lol...  Those seem like a gimme to most people, but I know now. You don't know until you try something. I need to be in a S L O W - M O D E, a S L E E P Y - M O D E to be successful...  At least I know that with certainty now.

So... I am going to keep doing what I was doing.  I need to flow again. I can't flow with a racing mind.
1am to 2pm needs to be my time when I start. That's when I start slowing down.

Jenn

Yes, you have to be aware of the 'look', that slight sidewise glance or stare that explains no one is receiving...

It is disappointing when it happens, yet enlightening. It proves a certain sense of solitude many of us share; which is its own community, I guess.

There is often the hope of Time and that attitudes open wider.

Yes, I caught that look from my ex.  I know the look. It was the sideways glance.  I think I understand the solitude now.  This forum is basically the only place I can be open about everything.

It's really kind of sad that in this day and age, people still are closed on some issues spiritually. I think they are afraid of finding out it's true. If they believe this is possible, it changes basic concepts that everyone is raised by in this modern age. They just don't know how to handle "the possibility" of something so different ... It scares them but they would not dare admit it. It's easier to believe the person is a little off.

Most people know of meditation. No feel that it should really be normalized even more than it already is.

It should be taught in schools starting as early as kindergarten. I truly believe it would bring a new era to humanity.  Such a simple thing - to sit quietly.

Now, unlike projection, I am a bit more open about my meditations to people and the benefit it gives.

Prayer is also a form of meditation, you could broach that subject with your in law.  👍

Feel the waters from there.

I think it would be great if it were in schools. Even if it were only five minutes in the morning and five minutes after school before they went home. I'm with you on that. But I doubt many parents would agree. I think it would benefit young children a lot. Not many know how to sit quietly.  They are over-stimulated most of the time with television, movies, gaming etc...

I think for now, I just won't share my experiences with my family members. In the future, maybe. I'll just have to make that call if it happens. Right now, my sister, my son, and AP forum are it.

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Right now, I'm listening to strategies for moving around after someone gets out of body. I've got to have a plan WHEN this happens again.  And I sure hope it's tonight.  



Jenn

p.s.  Thanks y'all.


 

Yeah, you can usually tell right away how receptive to this subject people will be. 
I'm always careful with whom I share. 

I'll be doing the same.  Being careful. I can talk to my son about it but not my daughter-in-law.  I tentatively mentioned meditation to her.  She is in her mid-20s and she said "Oh I know some people who meditate.  Every morning they do a 2 min Christian meditation.".  I did not continue the conversation.  I felt like it would go nowhere. She is a wonderful person, but she has some set ways and that's okay. She came from an extremely religious family.  Her dad is a preacher.  Each unto their own, but I sure hate to see someone be closed to new things and new experiences, especially being so young. I hope one day, for her, that she has a wonderful experience that opens her eyes.

My son is more open.  Most of the time.    He is 40.

Jenn

Jenn, after seeing your beautiful Artwork there, I have to ask you "are you sure you haven't been having non-physical experiences for years already? Your Art shows that if you haven't, then you have opened up a "Channel" to someone that has! 
A fantastic rendition of the "real' thing! 

I don't know.  It's possible I guess. That's never really crossed my mind. I can't wait to see the "real thing"... I can't wait to be surprised!!

And thank you everyone for the kind words. Fixing to check out Kodemasters link.. 

[never]

I have a sign on my bathroom mirror that says "I am more than physical matter".

My ex came by today and I was dying to tell someone what happened last night so as I started relaying all of it to him, I happened to catch the look on his face. ut oh...  I put on the brakes,  stopped talking about it, and diverted the conversation in another direction and onward to another subject.  Thank god I had not gotten to the good part yet about being conscious inside my astral body while inside my physical body.

I could tell by his look that he thought I was stark living crazy, regardless of what he said in the past about astral travel... I will never discuss this with him again. 

How you did it? Your continued practice and patience finally convinced your "higher self" that you are ready to experience anew. You have been using a very strong form of "brain entrainment". You have showed your passion and never gave up. You were challenged, yet you met those challenges head on. Congratulations. Pretty soon you are going to also notice that just simply closing your eyes kind of jump starts the whole process again and again. You probably also notice by now that when you just simply close your eyes, it looks and "feels" different than it did before.

You are right in saying when I close my eyes, things are different.  I'm nearly instantly in the vibrational state.  I feel like I should have been this determined years ago..

Thank you Lumaza.  I always love your input.  It's puts things back in perspective.  I just hope this was not a fluke and that it continues.  This small success makes me MORE determined than ever.

My next goal is to get out again and fly to the moon...

Jenn

I'M THRILLED!!!

[It took me 43 days of meditation immersion.]

I'm just sitting here marveling.  I actually saw through physical matter.  wow..

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I started listening to Monroe on July 23, 2023 and today is Sept 4th. 
That's how long took to get "out of body" while being fully immersed in multiple daily meditations with Monroe, Dr. Steve, and Jurgen.  AND listening to one of them constantly at night while sleeping.
It took me 43 days of meditation immersion.

I know most people could not do this the way I have done it.  Because most people just don't have the physical time in their schedules.  And everyone is different too.  Some people might do it really quickly.  Some slow like me.

And I'm still not sure HOW I did it.  I'm thinking that all the things I have been doing and listening to have trained my brain in some manner.  Because last night was no different than the other 43 nights, except I have more knowledge, more practice, more experience in practicing..  Thats the only difference between last night and night 1.  And I am also extremely tenacious.  I don't give up.  I have been trying to get out of body for 20+ years and have refused to give up --   since I first experienced a conscious OBE.  But for 20 years, I failed. Then 43 days ago, I started Monroe and did 4-5 waves, then added Dr. Steve and then Jurgen, as I did not feel I was making progress with Monroe.  They were all my first "music, guided meditation etc..."  Something about what I have done the last 43 days had made my success happen but I'm not sure exactly what it was or how I did it. But the method of guided meditations might have made the difference.  Either that or it was just my time to progress spiritually.

I just know I am looking forward to tonight.

Jenn

Today is the eighth day of my 21 days to repeat my pre-energy work and listen to my tape.

[HISTORY:]

PROGRESS!!

Well, since I've learned how to use Audacity, I ripped the .cda on the disk that I am supposed to listen to for 21 straight days and made it an mp3.  I added Jurgen to the end of it --  his Multidimensional Man, which I love. I added it playing three times to the end of Dr. Steve.    It's a little over two hours in length.

I went to bed last night listening to my ripped mp3.  Even though it was long, I had it on repeat.

During Dr. Steve's portion, I fell asleep and woke up twice while the mp3 was playing the first time around. 

The first time I woke up to Dr. Steve, I was absolutely in a deep meditative state.  I stayed awake as long as I could and just really got into what he was saying.  I just flowed with his background noise. It was beautiful.  But I fell asleep at some point.. I suspect I was awake around 10 min or so.  Not long.   

The second time I woke, it was getting toward the end of Dr. Steve's portion on the tape.  Probably 10 min or so until his portion ends and Jurgen takes over. I was in some sort of dark floaty place, not the void.  But I was definitely in some sort of trance state upon awakening.  I tried hard to only listen to Dr. Steve's voice and to stay coherent.  But I fell asleep..    again...

When I came to for the third time, Jurgen was playing.  The tape of Jurgen had passed all the OM portions of his recording, which are at the beginning of his tape. I have no way of knowing if it was the first, second, or third insert of MultiDimensional Man I had added behind Dr. Steve. I only know it was after the OM portion. 

But this third time -->> when I regained consciousness (woke up during Jurgen), I was out of body and floating INSIDE my body.        And my astral body was lying face down, and not face up, INSIDE my physical body. I just kept listening to Jurgen in the background and marveled at the state I was in. In the position I was in, I could see through my physical body and see the bed below me, which was just a few inches away from my astral face. I started trying to move my fingers and toes but fell back asleep pretty quickly I think. I wasn't coherent for long. A few minutes. Just long enough to know what was happening.  I completely forgot how to move away from my physical body even though I was fully conscious inside my astral body.      I couldn't figure out how to move away, how to fly, how to bounce.  haha.  I have read everything, listened to everything and I went blank. It wasn't excitement that made me go back to sleep or jump back into my body.  In fact, l I don't even remember going back to my body.  I was still trying to move AWAY from my physical body when all of a sudden it was morning and I knew I had fallen back asleep. But I woke up smiling.  It was the first thing on my mind this morning.  I didn't fly to the moon or have some great adventure, but "I saw through my physical body" to the bed.  My physical body was of no concern. Seeing the bed below my astral face, at the time, seemed like a bigger deal than seeing through my physical body.  lol...

HISTORY: A day or so ago, I listened to one of Dr. Steve's tapes, where he was describing advanced techniques, and one was "the Superman technique". You were supposed to get out of body and then flip your astral self inside your body so you can take off like Superman.  I think maybe that influenced my being in the position I was in when I woke the third time. Hallelujah!

There was another method by Dr. Steve that I listened to was about programming yourself to wake at a certain time WHEN you are out of body. I wonder if that also influenced me.  They "superman technique" and the "awake during obe technique" were on the same tape.  I think I better listen to that one again.. hahaha

My practice is paying off.  I had just a taste of what is to come..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am super pumped right now... YES YES YES!!

Jenn

p.s.  I know this seems like a small thing, but it's a very big thing to me.  I was floating inside my body fully conscious..  ah... I have been trying to do that for so long.  I'm thrilled and over the moon! I did it.

That is one good looking harvest Blossom.
You have a flower fairy lurking in your garden.

Thank you!! I love gardening in the spring. That flower fairy is welcome anytime.

Oooooh Habaneros!!  Nice. 
I used to grow Ghost Peppers and Carolina Reapers. 
Grew so many of them that I still have boxes full of dried peppers from many years back.    

I have grown ghost peppers too!!!  Hot as fire!!  I love experimenting with different hot sauces with different flavors and peppers.

I suspect I will have boxes of peppers this year as well.  I have seven pepper plants.  Six in the backyard growing in tires and one in the front yard in a 25-gallon pot.  The ones in the back are nearly up to my shoulders. I have thousands of peppers literally.  They look like a hedge growing.

On another note, I have not obed yet but I have another thing going on.  Since I have been meditating so much, over the last few days, I can be doing something (anything) and this smell will waft in front of me.  A very sweet flowery smell that really just smells delicious. A strong smell. I don't have any flowers in the house so I am not sure what it is but I feel like it's something spiritual related. That has happened two or three times the last couple days.

Jenn

Yes, I think I'm in the zone too. Thank you for saying that!  That's a great way to describe it.  I've been practicing but right now for whatever reason I'm falling asleep again... All that movement just stuck there!!  But I've been working really hard outside the last couple of days too.  That may be why I'm having trouble staying awake.  I'm just about done with yard work again...

My garden is still producing this September.  I suspect the pear tomatoes will be around through late October.  I'm waiting for my peppers to turn red, but I had to pick some anyway. I've had some amazing hot sauce and spicy things this summer. I have Habernoes, red sativa, and chili pequin growing. I eat the little chili pequin all the time.  Delicious... And the habs are my favorite pepper for cooking.

This was a partial harvest of yesterday.





It's 5:30 am.  I'm fixing to lay back down.  I feel rested so HOPEFULLY I'll stay awake.

Cheers,
Jenn



 

 

I never was able to lay down earlier.  But I am fixing to. My computer is shut down and I'm on my phone and in my pjs.

I just wanted to (or had to) say something I've noticed. Just sitting here in my computer chair, if I close my eyes and take a deep breath to relax, within 2-3 or so seconds I feel vibrations and movement. Wide awake sitting up. Five seconds is too much time. It's quicker than that. It's nearly instantaneous. It's like I close my eyes and it flows into a vibration with movement.

I even experimented a little. I got up and walked around, drank some water and went and sat back down again. Same thing happened.

This is wonderful!!  I'm being entrained!!

It's 1:52 am and I'm finally fixing to lay down. I'm on a weird sleep schedule.

I also finally have my chart exactly like I want it. I am logging everything.  I can't help it. It's just how I am...

Cheers,
Jenn

P.s. I'm excited and expectant, but calm.  I spent a lot of time in the back yard today. I'm nice and grounded. 

Last thing. It even happens sitting here holding my phone if I close my eyes. Wow!!  I know it sounds outlandish but it's really true. I consider this true progress!!