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Life is too short to dwell on such things, I've wasted my time wondering how it was possible for God to have no beginning and no end.  Because there is a verse in the Quran that speaks of how is everywhere and knows everything.  In my opinion, in order for God to have these attributes, he would have to be somehow connected to everything he is aware of.  So in reality there may be a connection between everything that exists, from rocks to hair to everything and cats and dogs.  I've come to the conclusion that God can't possibly have an infinite amount of energy because infinity doesn't end.  He may have a powerful and vast energy but I think he is self contained and doesn't loose energy but all that exists or whatever he creates is just an extension of himself so he isn't loosing any energy at all.  Maybe everything that exists and will ever exist is contained in a big membrane like Brian Green mentioned.

One thing is for sure, I believe behind this illusion we call physical  reality lies  realm where everything is connected.  I felt it first hand, I felt this amazing unexplaining bliss and nirvana that is hard to explain in words during this one morning when I came from running and took a cool shower and laid on my side and imagined myself on a hammock and then felt and heard a white flash bang sound in my head and I could see the whole room more real than normal living day reality I felt truly alive and I look forward to going back to that state.  I saw my arm in front of me and tried to move it but saw a phantom translucent arm move and I was confused because I forgot that I had intentions of projecting.  I was in this membrane, water like membrane of cool amazing energy, I felt myself in the membrane not seen it.  This must be what Hindu and budhist people call enlightenment.  After a few minutes in this state of indescribable bliss I woke up and can still feel the heavenly energy and rested relaxed calmed tranquility.  This wasn't the only time I experienced this, I've also experienced it on an elevator and this lady noticed something about me and smiled and kept staring at me.  That was 2003 and I don't experience it anymore.  I don't know what was special  about that year.  I didn't get injured or nothing physical happened to me so I still don't understand why that year, why did I experience this.  Was it the result of my attempts to project.

I still can't comprehend how God doesn't have a beginning.  In order for something to be conscious of itself that consciousness and awareness must develop sometime during it's existence.  Maybe God existed as some energy that wasn't fully aware but gained aware through ions and ions and ions and ions and ions and ions of time.  Maybe evolving.  If energy just plain and simply exists without a beginning or an end.  Then why shouldn't God be the same???

I don't understand why I didn't remember that I was trying to project or that I had a strong desire to project when I experienced that amazing RTZ OBE in 2003.  I think it may have something to do with memory not being passed on to the other body my consciousness went into.  This could explain why dreams are very real when we are having them but when we wake up in present day reality we barely remember anything about the dreams.

Is there any muslim in here that can explain why some muslims force their own beliefs or faiths and even blackmail other muslims if they don't follow the religion??

I wasn't raised by my relative but i have lived with her now and every year that passes she grows more and more obsessed with religion.

The other night she yelled at me and said if you won't pray your 5 daily prayers then you can't live with me.
And I told her that I            years old and that you are in America a land of the free and that I put a deposit in this house and pay part of the rent and surely I won't have a problem renting my own place because I lived on my own before I moved in with you.   

She constantly says that 9/11 was a setup and that Osama Bin Laden is a good muslim man who was wrongly acussed and I constantly tell her that even if he was as innocent as a teddy bear there is a Wanted Sign with his picture everywhere and when people escape from jail or are wanted for any reason you could get in trouble if you don't report where they are.  I told her that people follow what the majority think even if the majority is in the wrong because people do not want to be set apart from the majority.  So therefore it would be wise to follow what the majority thinks if you are in their country and I told her don't let other hear of what you tell me it will only make your life harder.

If I am worshipping god because she is threatening to get me to move out then that means I don't really have my heart in the prayer and it is not valid correct?? so why doesn't she come to her senses and think straight. 

She has become aware that I had drank beer a couple of times and she also uses that against me.  Even though I stopped drinking because of my job and because of the hate of having hangovers.  This woman yelled at me the other night when a couple of friends of mine called me because they wanted me to buy some beer with them because they were short on cash and I told them O.k. I will come just to get them to stop calling me and here she is sitting in the living room yelling "I heard that, I want you to get out of my face"
and we yelled at each other and I made her cry.  I told her it's unconstitutional to force your own beliefs upon a person.  This is not Somalia.  I don't think even other Somali's treat their relatives like she treats me.

The only thing that has been proved is quantum mechanics or at least theorized I should say based on mathematical theories.  Some scientists are aware that reality isn't what it appears to be.  Most scientists suspect that other dimensions are a part of nature.  What hasn't been proven is where consciousness originates and how we are conscious. 

Most people don't believe in OBE's etc. and even if one claims to be muslim or christian etc.  they doubt there is more to reality than what meets the eye.  In other words they don't care where they go when they die, they just live this life.  As for me, I look forward to the afterlife and I study consciousness and sleep paralysis.

I think it was Benjamin Franklin who tried to get ideas from the dream world because he somehow knew bright ideas came from the dream world.  What he did was tie his arm to something and as soon as he fell asleep it would fall and wake him up.  He repeated this so he can catch himself in a lucid dream state.  It was a long long time ago I read about this and if anyone knows what I am talking about feel free to refresh my memory.

I can say for 100% certainty that one dream I had in which I was in Owatonna High School came true and I know it is not dejavu.  I remember a lot of dreams clearly.

The most amazing experience has happened to me.   I woke up 5 am and couldn't fall asleep for an hour and as I was falling asleep the usual sleep paralysis crept upon me but this time the vibrations were so strong and the buzzing through the ears was so strong and I am not scared of it, I found I can actually control how long I want to last in the state for, when i listen to the buzzing I stay in the state longer and the vibrations get strong, they got so strong at one point i swear i felt a pressure as if some energy was about to burst out of my body. 

Now I believe something beyond the physical is happening, science requires an experiment to be repeatable in order to be valid, as long as the experience is repeatable to me I am happy but I want to try and get additional evidence, I want to make some device to detect this, even if i detect a change of heat or body temperature when I am having this experience I will be satisfied.  I know there has to be something to prove that what I go through isn't delusions but something real.  I know I am not schizophrenic because this happens when I am asleep and my body is paralyzed, I know I am not dreaming because I have dreamed many times in my lifetime and I can tell that apart from this.  In dreams I am not conscious and do not reason with myself like I do when I start feeling the vibrations and start hearing the buzzing sounds and think to myself and say "it's happening again better explore it"

I was woken up by my moms cell phone this morning and couldn't go back to sleep for an hour or so and as I was falling asleep I heard the loud buzzing sounds and they got louder only when I listened carefully.  I then saw through my eyelids very clearly.  It looked like the room I was in but I went into deep sleep after that and then I woke up again and heard the same buzzing sound as I was paralyzed.  Its a strange sound and I wonder why it gets louder only when I pay attention to it?? is it coming from?? do I amplify that sound when I listen to it carefully? is it my own energy vibrating making that sound.  I'll never know, at least not in this lifetime.  I can repeat this experience by getting up around 5 am staying up for a little bit on my bed and then closing my eyes and laying still without thinking as I fall asleep and I am sure to hear it.  I actually hear that sound during waking hours too, they call it tinitus but I highly doubt it originates from the physical ear.  I know it gets louder when I am in a quite room and I focus on it during waking hours, but when I am sleep paralyzed it is so loud its amazing.

update I just found out that take for example 4 plus 4 plus 5 equals 13 1 plus 3 equals 4.  it goes from two even numbers plus an odd number that equal an odd sum of the 3 numbers.  This sum can be reduced to an even number of 4 get it?? thats weird and interesting. it's going from even to odd and back to even when it's finally reduced to one digit.  Vice versa even sums of the 3 digit daily 3 numbers.

I think I am on to something, the daily 3 lottery may have a flaw that can be exploited mathematically.  It may look randomly picked but I think a person can hit it a few times a year if they brain storm on it. 

Here is what I found.

I add individual daily 3 winning numbers from the past and further reduce the two digit sum to 1 digit.  Since the daily 3 numbers are between 0 and 9 it limits the value of the sum to under 21 (at least thats what I found out so far don't know what else I will find if I keep working on it but help would be nice if anyone wants to try it out.)  Basically I want to put this in an excel sheet and see a chart and see the most repeating end sum of the individually added daily 3 numbers and then I can use that to predict future numbers by working my way backwords.  Take for example the number 19 only a few individual numbers can add up to its sum.  Take a look at it below.  The good thing about the daily 3 is that even if I don't get numbers in the write order I can still win if I have the right numbers.


05/19/2007 7+8+1   1+6  7            
           
TWo even equals odd sum when daily 3 numbers added individually
           --> 
05/18/2007 4 6 7   17  8            
05/17/2007 6 9 6   21  3
05/16/2007 3 0 8   11  2
TWo odd equals even sum when daily 3 numbers added individually
05/15/2007 5 6 5   16  7
05/14/2007 0 5 0   5   
05/13/2007 2 1 5   8   
05/12/2007 1 7 5   13  4
05/11/2007 6 3 5   14  5
05/10/2007 8 8 4   20
05/09/2007 4 3 4   11  2
05/08/2007 6 4 1   11  2
05/07/2007 5 4 4   13  4
05/06/2007 3 6 6   15  6
05/05/2007 4 6 0   10   
05/04/2007 3 9 2   14  5
05/03/2007 5 8 5   18  9
05/02/2007 4 8 5   17  8
05/01/2007 4 9 6   19  10
04/30/2007 2 6 8   16  7
04/29/2007 6 9 3   18  9
04/28/2007 4 3 6   13  4
04/27/2007 5 5 3   13  4
04/26/2007 4 9 8   21  3
04/25/2007 4 3 2   9
04/24/2007 4 4 5   13  4
04/23/2007 3 7 2   12  3
04/22/2007 4 3 7   14  5
04/21/2007 1 1 0   2
04/20/2007 9 9 3
04/19/2007 8 9 3
04/18/2007 3 2 6
04/17/2007 5 1 7
04/16/2007 2 9 7
04/15/2007 9 3 1
04/14/2007 1 8 6
04/13/2007 9 3 3
04/12/2007 5 5 7
04/11/2007 7 8 4
04/10/2007 0 0 1
04/09/2007 5 1 4
04/08/2007 9 3 6
04/07/2007 2 9 6
04/06/2007 8 1 7
04/05/2007 9 0 7
04/04/2007 3 1 6
04/03/2007 8 7 3
04/02/2007 5 4 4
04/01/2007 7 3 1
03/31/2007 0 3 7
03/30/2007 8 1 2
03/29/2007 9 6 2
03/28/2007 0 2 7
03/27/2007 6 2 4
03/26/2007 6 0 0
03/25/2007 6 6 9
03/24/2007 2 6 9
03/23/2007 8 0 1
03/22/2007 1 4 1
03/21/2007 2 4 8
03/20/2007 2 7 1
03/19/2007 2 1 6
03/18/2007 0 7 0
03/17/2007 1 9 9
03/16/2007 8 4 6
03/15/2007 5 8 8
03/14/2007 8 7 2
03/13/2007 5 8 5
03/12/2007 9 6 6
03/11/2007 1 3 4
03/10/2007 3 4 9
03/09/2007 8 8 0
03/08/2007 6 6 0
03/07/2007 1 3 8
03/06/2007 2 4 9
03/05/2007 9 0 8
03/04/2007 6 0 8
03/03/2007 7 6 5
03/02/2007 2 4 7
03/01/2007 1 2 9
02/28/2007 6 9 3
02/27/2007 3 8 2
02/26/2007 9 7 7
02/25/2007 8 6 7
02/24/2007 3 5 3
02/23/2007 1 8 0
02/22/2007 1 6 4
02/21/2007 2 2 6
02/20/2007 1 2 3
02/19/2007 3 3 5
02/18/2007 9 4 0
02/17/2007 7 8 4
02/16/2007 4 2 5
02/15/2007 0 9 1
02/14/2007 5 5 9
02/13/2007 1 7 2
02/12/2007 6 2 5
02/11/2007 1 0 7
02/10/2007 5 9 3
02/09/2007 3 3 4
02/08/2007 7 6 1
02/07/2007 5 7 2
02/06/2007 5 3 5
02/05/2007 6 7 6
02/04/2007 4 8 5
02/03/2007 6 0 5
02/02/2007 0 7 4
02/01/2007 2 5 8
01/31/2007 3 4 9
01/30/2007 5 6 4
01/29/2007 7 2 4
01/28/2007 9 2 2
01/27/2007 9 2 8
01/26/2007 1 8 2
01/25/2007 7 7 1
01/24/2007 6 6 7
01/23/2007 2 2 4
01/22/2007 2 2 3
01/21/2007 9 0 1
01/20/2007 7 3 7
01/19/2007 0 8 0
01/18/2007 0 5 3
01/17/2007 1 2 9
01/16/2007 6 6 3
01/15/2007 9 0 1
01/14/2007 6 0 1
01/13/2007 8 4 8
01/12/2007 1 6 5
01/11/2007 5 9 0
01/10/2007 2 5 8
01/09/2007 4 0 9
01/08/2007 3 4 1
01/07/2007 2 2 8
01/06/2007 5 3 9
01/05/2007 2 5 4
01/04/2007 3 6 0
01/03/2007 0 7 0
01/02/2007 4 2 1
01/01/2007 0 0 3
12/31/2006 4 8 5
12/30/2006 8 9 4
12/29/2006 2 1 9
12/28/2006 2 0 2
12/27/2006 2 5 0
12/26/2006 7 4 5
12/25/2006 3 9 5
12/24/2006 8 5 9
12/23/2006 3 7 1
12/22/2006 9 1 3
12/21/2006 6 1 3
12/20/2006 0 4 3
12/19/2006 4 8 9
12/18/2006 3 4 9
12/17/2006 7 0 7
12/16/2006 9 6 8
12/15/2006 2 3 1
12/14/2006 9 5 3
12/13/2006 9 9 4
12/12/2006 4 9 9
12/11/2006 2 4 9
12/10/2006 6 4 4
12/09/2006 9 6 0
12/08/2006 2 8 3
12/07/2006 6 4 5
12/06/2006 6 2 5
12/05/2006 3 1 4
12/04/2006 4 3 9
12/03/2006 6 3 9
12/02/2006 4 2 5
12/01/2006 8 0 0
11/30/2006 5 1 5
11/29/2006 9 0 7
11/28/2006 6 9 6
11/27/2006 2 7 4
11/26/2006 7 4 3
11/25/2006 8 3 4
11/24/2006 5 8 4
11/23/2006 4 1 4
11/22/2006 3 2 9
11/21/2006 9 9 7
11/20/2006 9 7 5
11/19/2006 7 7 4
11/18/2006 2 9 0
11/17/2006 5 1 0
11/16/2006 3 5 0
11/15/2006 0 4 4
11/14/2006 6 4 1
11/13/2006 9 7 5
11/12/2006 5 8 0
11/11/2006 2 1 1
11/10/2006 1 0 6
11/09/2006 9 8 6
11/08/2006 0 7 7
11/07/2006 6 6 6
11/06/2006 8 3 7
11/05/2006 8 5 0
11/04/2006 2 5 2
11/03/2006 7 2 4
11/02/2006 9 8 4
11/01/2006 9 1 8
10/31/2006 7 2 7
10/30/2006 1 0 0
10/29/2006 0 0 4
10/28/2006 3 2 0
10/27/2006 8 5 4
10/26/2006 5 7 5
10/25/2006 1 9 5
10/24/2006 0 3 6
10/23/2006 8 4 8
10/22/2006 3 6 3
10/21/2006 5 2 3
10/20/2006 4 6 3
10/19/2006 9 1 2
10/18/2006 7 3 4
10/17/2006 1 4 0
10/16/2006 7 1 5
10/15/2006 9 1 6
10/14/2006 9 9 2
10/13/2006 9 5 3
10/12/2006 7 5 1
10/11/2006 2 5 7
10/10/2006 5 5 7
10/09/2006 3 3 5
10/08/2006 7 3 1
10/07/2006 6 0 0
10/06/2006 5 8 9
10/05/2006 3 0 4
10/04/2006 1 5 8
10/03/2006 1 0 8
10/02/2006 6 4 1
10/01/2006 9 7 9
09/30/2006 2 8 6
09/29/2006 8 6 3
09/28/2006 0 5 4
09/27/2006 5 6 3
09/26/2006 4 0 4
09/25/2006 9 7 8
09/24/2006 1 0 6
09/23/2006 4 0 4
09/22/2006 4 0 3
09/21/2006 7 4 7
09/20/2006 5 5 8
09/19/2006 2 8 2
09/18/2006 6 8 4
09/17/2006 6 8 4
09/16/2006 5 1 1
09/15/2006 5 4 5
09/14/2006 1 7 2
09/13/2006 4 8 5
09/12/2006 9 9 8
09/11/2006 7 6 5
09/10/2006 6 6 1
09/09/2006 9 1 8
09/08/2006 4 3 2
09/07/2006 2 6 7
09/06/2006 3 9 5
09/05/2006 5 2 4
09/04/2006 6 9 1
09/03/2006 5 5 7
09/02/2006 7 5 6
09/01/2006 0 0 9
08/31/2006 5 4 8
08/30/2006 7 8 5
08/29/2006 8 7 4
08/28/2006 2 9 3
08/27/2006 2 3 1
08/26/2006 2 6 8
08/25/2006 6 0 8
08/24/2006 5 3 6
08/23/2006 5 2 5
08/22/2006 2 1 3
08/21/2006 8 5 4
08/20/2006 8 1 4
08/19/2006 6 3 5
08/18/2006 4 6 0
08/17/2006 2 0 1
08/16/2006 2 9 8
08/15/2006 2 3 5
08/14/2006 3 5 7
08/13/2006 8 1 3
08/12/2006 5 6 8
08/11/2006 8 1 6
08/10/2006 6 9 6
08/09/2006 6 3 3
08/08/2006 7 1 4
08/07/2006 6 5 1
08/06/2006 5 5 4
08/05/2006 5 6 3
08/04/2006 6 7 6
08/03/2006 9 0 4
08/02/2006 5 2 4
08/01/2006 5 6 0
07/31/2006 2 1 4
07/30/2006 3 8 4
07/29/2006 2 1 7
07/28/2006 6 4 5
07/27/2006 1 7 6
07/26/2006 4 0 5
07/25/2006 2 8 2
07/24/2006 0 9 8
07/23/2006 6 2 0
07/22/2006 9 8 7
07/21/2006 2 6 2
07/20/2006 5 7 7
07/19/2006 6 2 1
07/18/2006 8 0 9
07/17/2006 3 4 4
07/16/2006 1 5 9
07/15/2006 6 5 6
07/14/2006 6 2 1
07/13/2006 2 3 5
07/12/2006 8 5 8
07/11/2006 4 2 2
07/10/2006 2 4 1
07/09/2006 8 7 6
07/08/2006 1 9 4
07/07/2006 0 3 0
07/06/2006 0 9 4
07/05/2006 5 0 1
07/04/2006 2 4 8
07/03/2006 1 8 6
07/02/2006 9 8 1
07/01/2006 4 3 7
06/30/2006 5 3 5
06/29/2006 2 3 2
06/28/2006 2 6 6
06/27/2006 4 5 8
06/26/2006 5 7 1
06/25/2006 2 1 1
06/24/2006 0 3 1
06/23/2006 4 3 7
06/22/2006 4 5 8
06/21/2006 0 2 4
06/20/2006 1 3 7
06/19/2006 9 2 7
06/18/2006 6 1 1
06/17/2006 5 0 8
06/16/2006 9 1 1
06/15/2006 0 4 7
06/14/2006 5 6 3
06/13/2006 4 6 5
06/12/2006 1 5 2
06/11/2006 6 7 3
06/10/2006 2 6 4
06/09/2006 3 9 9
06/08/2006 8 0 2
06/07/2006 7 7 5
06/06/2006 0 7 9
06/05/2006 9 5 9
06/04/2006 8 8 8
06/03/2006 5 5 5
06/02/2006 0 5 3
06/01/2006 3 0 0
05/31/2006 1 9 9
05/30/2006 0 3 4
05/29/2006 1 1 9
05/28/2006 5 5 9
05/27/2006 3 4 1
05/26/2006 6 7 2
05/25/2006 6 4 4
05/24/2006 5 8 2
05/23/2006 7 9 9
05/22/2006 7 0 9
05/21/2006 8 9 5
05/20/2006 1 1 2

I forgot to mention in Monroe's encounter with that being Monroe mentioned being submerged in water.  In the Quran, it says that Allah's throne is over the waters.

I read somewhere a while ago that nothing is infact something, God is possible to exist out of nowhere, I find it hard to comprehend that he existed for infinities past.  Unless we don't have the faculties to understand how it is possible for him to just exist without a beginning.  It is possible that there is a way to understand how it is possible for him to exist but we won't know until we gain full consciousness and awareness Robert Monroe said "His earth life and people were like half alive compared to his journeys and his new gained awareness".  I think God became aware out of no where, because in my religion Islam it doesn't say anything of him existing for an infinity it just says "he is the first" "he was neither begotten nor does he begett."

Something about Robert Monroe in his book the ultimate journey still amazes me up to this day.  In his book he mentions in an out of body experience that he suddenly became motionless and he couldn't move and heard a voice saying "I am your lord, do you fear me?" Robert then tries to imagine himself escaping this.  The thing that amazes me about this encounter that Monroe had is that in the Quran God mentions himself as something to be feared.  If you read it there is a lot of "those who fear Allah. "Fear me" in it.  In the Quran God talks about himself in the third person and often says "We" or "Us" which makes me curious.

I did the following search on the word fear here http://www.usc.edu/dept/MSA/reference/searchquran.html

Fearing doesn't have to mean being scared of him but may mean worshipping.
YUSUFALI: This is the Book; in it is guidance sure, without doubt, to those who fear Allah;

YUSUFALI: "'(I have come to you), to attest the Law which was before me. And to make lawful to you part of what was (Before) forbidden to you; I have come to you with a Sign from your Lord. So fear Allah, and obey me.

YUSUFALI: They ask thee concerning (things taken as) spoils of war. Say: "(such) spoils are at the disposal of Allah and the Messenger: So fear Allah, and keep straight the relations between yourselves: Obey Allah and His Messenger, if ye do believe."

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YUSUFALI: Verily, in the alternation of the night and the day, and in all that Allah hath created, in the heavens and the earth, are signs for those who fear Him.

I invite all athiests to keep an open mind about their existence and not be so sure that this is the only life in this world.  Our existence came out of nowhere and science is having a hard time understanding how everything fell into place including fission in the sun that allows for molocules to tunnel through emptyness and communicate.  There's signs in the universe and don't be surprised if you come to existence after your death.  OK. alright then.

Everytime you post something it is sooo looong and I get boored too easily.  Just summarized it so people can enjoy reading it.  You must have to much time on your hands.  Besides didn't you already post this before???

Thanks Jeehaad, may Allah make my exit smooth.

I recently read a hadith and I read
"One of the many critical events in the life of the Prophet Muhammad is the "Night Journey," when, while in a state of consciousness between wakefulness and sleep, he was taken from the Ka'ba (link fixed, Sept. 3, 2000) in Mecca to what the Qur'an (17:1) refers to as "Furthest Mosque" --in Jerusalem-- where the Dome of the Rock and the Al-Aqsa Mosque stand today. From there he was transported through the heavens and then back to this world during what is called his mi'raj (ascension). "

This is amazing because when I attempt to project or experience sleep paralysis it is in the state between wakefullness and asleep the border line state.  Even Robert Monroe said that he hangs to a string of consciousness while he remains still in the mind and the body.

Hello all,

This morning I had a very lucid dream.  It started with Dean Cain (superman) aging and then resembling santa clause then he went on a sled with no rain deer and flew away.  Then I felt like flying and started to lift off the ground and as this was happening I became a pin point of awareness so aware that I can see everything clearly.  Then I started to feel vibrations and a sinking feeling I usually do when I am sleep paralyzed.  The interesting thing about this is that everytime I have dreams of flying or desiring to fly I remember astral projection which makes me even more aware.  I remember in the dream I had this morning desiring to see lottery numbers that are winning but didn't see any.

I am definately going to continue attempting lucid dreams because I think what fueled the experience I had this morning was my desire to project last night when I was laying still on my back for a while in an attempt to project.  I am determined to project.  Last night when I went to the store to buy a lottery ticket I pulled out a fortune cookie slip that said "Man is what he believes he is" and lucky numbers under that.  The first lucky number of the fortune cookie matched the first number of the winning powerball numbers for last night.  It may be the excitement of wanting to project or exploring the unknown that actually fueles the consciousness.  Maybe it is what helps me remember during dreams so I can become lucid.  Becoming lucid in a dream is the easy part I just need something to help me become lucid.  Reasoning with myself during a lucid dream and being aware I am lucid dreaming is something that doesn't happen in normal dreams and this link between lucid dreaming and flying leading to vibrations is what I want to understand better.

That is very nice, you may be right could explain gravity.  I believe something similar to what you believe.  I believe that we are submereged in a membrane in a higher dimensional unviverse.  Something has to be holding us together.  Their are energies all around us invisible to us.  I believe the mind plays a part in making reality come true.  What we believe is what we see.  If we believed something is possibly without a remote doubt then it will come true.  It's all about believe.  Who knows maybe it's our own mind thats holding our matter together and keeping on us on the ground.  Our own mind doesn't originate from this world is what I believe but something very powerful that it is that can do powerful things.

The number 4/19 has been following me around for almost a year now.  In my last job is when it started.  I started working at my last job in 4/19/2006.  And over 70% of the birthdays of the patients who the majority of them are cancer patients have the birthday 4/19/and different years.  Generally they are senior citizens.  I've seen thousands with that birthday during the year I was working their and that is beyond coincidence.  Last night was freaky, I woke up in the morning and looked at the alarm clock thinking it was close to 6am when I  get ready for work and saw 4:19 exactly.  I was shocked. 

What could this possibly mean, what is the signifigance of 4/19 the month April is it special? I gotta start searching  the net to find answers.

Yep, after having enough lucid dreams and enough vibrations in the morning without even intending to project I believe the morning should be focused on for development.  This morning was the most amazing of all.  It happens when I wake up and go back to sleep.  I found myself flying over the city and can clearly see the city but not like I see in current reality but I can reason with myself and know that I am having a lucid dream.  This happens when I sleep on a very comfortable bed and feel very rested so I don't fall too deep into sleep.  Then I had the vibrations while flying, and felt pressure all over, I often set the clock to wake me up at my most tired moments at night when asleep so I can stay up for a while and attempt to get sleep paralysis.

I think I have a good explanation.  Plain and simply it's some form of matter that is shaken by some form of sound. 

let me explain, everytime when i sleep on my back or when my sleep is disturbed and I get up and go back to sleep on my back.  A few moments before the vibrations start I hear this unearthly and strange buzzing I don't know the best words to hint to you what it is, if your familiar with Tinitus then I am sure you know the sound I am talking about, except that this Tinitus sound is amplified 100 times and its radiating through my whole skull, not just my ears, and probably my whole body, maybe whats causing the whole body to vibrate is that sound.   Because I know when I hear that sound and am conscious and paralyzed that I am in that state.  At the same time as the vibrations and paralysis, I feel pressure in different spots of the body moving around constantly as if it's a circle of pressure that just pops up from anywhere it wants.  I also notice different parts of my face pulling forward.  I swear to God I feel another part of myself under myskin pulling forward and moving.  It is undeniable, it is not a dream if I get in that paralysis state, I can distinguish it from a dream because in dreams, my face and different parts of my body don't just get pulled and vibrated like that.  I know there is something more to our physical self then science can detect.  I know there is something inside of us.  They are already aware of dark matter so they are on good progress.  That pulling sesation is wavy kind of sensation.  What ever it is that we are under this physical body, I know it has properties of wave.  some form of energy that has no shape except for the shape it can BELIEVE it can take is what i believe it to be.

this morning I dreamed my borther and I were looking at the sky as the moon passed over the sun thinking an eclipse was gonna occur but only less than half an eclipse.  Then this ball of glowing metal descended and when we opened it we saw a big period of elements table sheet.   I remember reading Ion then another word which was long but cant remember that contained the letters x v and o.   I could of sworn I also noticed a new line added to the lines of elements that are currently on all periodic table of elements.  Could this be a precognition to a new discovery that will occur of a new kind of metal??? I think it's possible to discover new elements. 

I had ana amazing dream last in which me and a brother were looking at an eclipse of the moon and the sun but not a full eclipse, the moon passed a little less than half of the sun.  and then this glowing metalic ball descended from the scy, we looked at it and it had the period table of elements on a paper inside of it and when we read it, there was the words "Ion and another word that contained a letter v x and o:" it was a longer word so I couldn't remember it.  But I think that strange metal maybe an undiscovered form of metal in the table of elements.  The clarity of the dream was more than usual.

I don't know how im doing it but i just clear my mind and I just watch numbers flash across my mind and I know a lot of those are correct numbers but they also get mixed with others numbers which are not the correct numbers. 

This is the second time i came close.  these tickets i bought 1 hour before the  drawing and im surprised that I missed 1 correct number which i wrote down but didn't play becuase i didn't want to spend more than 2 dollars at a time.  that number was 27.

im getting their.

the term "the hour" doesn't necessarily mean 1 hour, an hour to beings in the higher realms may be like 50 thousand years.  So the hour can be a long period anyways here is some interesting proof that the hour may be upon us.

Either Mohamed is like Nostradamus or he is receiving news from the higher realms.
the hour will not be established until the following signs.

it's happening competition for taller buildings(that building in Dubai that has a tip that moves up and down daily so no one will know how tall it is which will be constructed), a man passing by a grave and says "would that I wish I were in his place".   So that statement must mean that the one passing by the grave knew that the buried was a man so he must of read it or assumed it.
I don't think that's me who said that but i said something similar.because I have been suicidal since 2002 but couldn't really go through with suicide because punishment for it is torturing myself with the same thing i killed myself with in hell.  I remember looking at graves and saying their lucky to have gone through it and gotten done and over with, but me I still have a ways to go.

Men who resemble women (drag queens will become frequent).  Women who wear almost nothing, (the beach? women)
Two groups of people will fight each other with great casualties on both sides, and they will be of the same religion (Germany and U.S.?)

the gog and magog people i think exist because they are desribed as having a sheild like face. And Asia is full of mountains that sounds to me like asians. (no offense intended)
and the list goes on.

The number 19 does have a special signifigance.  It is the number of Angels guarding hell.  It seems to be a number of justice.  19 people were executed in the salem Witchcraft.  19 Hijackers unjustly attacked civilians in America using their own resources.  November 19, Soldier's unjustly slaughtered civilians in Iraq.  And who knows about other 19 occurances in the world.

i've been blinded by greediness in trying to win the jackpot powerball but i've discovered that prayer and religion is important and that I live too short to enjoy the big jackpot if i do win it, i will only wish for longer life and become more miserable so I've decided to be a little less greedy and try to gain the daily 3 by psychic means.

I came very close to projecting yesterday using the remote buzzing sound in the ears yesterday.  It got louder and louder and I felt my mind become wavy and it increased.  I think this sound is the sound of our energy bodies because it is related to episodes of sleep paralysis that i've had in which this sound was very loud and definately not tinitus.  I actually felt floating or suspended and felt vibrations all over my body, the vibrations i felt were like waves in specific spots of my body.

anyways, i'm trying to win the lottery, I thought of an original plan, get wireless headphones and get a program that plays a sound couple times an hour all night long, "powerball.com" this will make me dream that i'm on a computer looking at that website and it should trick my mind to gaining the winning numbers. 

Ever notice how when your excited about something or can't wait to do something the next day, you dream about it very clearly.  Maybe that burning desire makes us remember it in our dreams so this process can be taken advatage of and be used to get lucid dreams.