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Hmm, maybe I'll pick it up one of these days and check it out.  Even re-reading all of that myself, I almost kind of laugh even though I'm the one it happened to, LoL.  Like I can see why people think that's crazy (or think I just made something up for attention or something),  especially since it's not like anything I've heard of or read before.

Ah well, either way, thanks!

Hey all, I didn't know if I should post this here, or in the spiritual themed forum, but I figure well, I don't really know what it was, so I'll put it here.


****  Sorry it's so long, but I wanted to give the full description and feeling for the curious ****

I'm 20 now, but back when I was probably around 15, I had this experience that I find hard to explain to other people, but I thought if anyone would know what I"m talking about, it's probably people who are familiar with these kinds of things.  It all seemed so real that well.. I think it was somehow. I still remember almost all of it pretty well.

To start with, way before this happened, I remember laying in bed one night thinking in my mind, "If there is somebody watching over me, some kind of 'guardian angel' or something.. I'd like to know what your name is, out of curiosity.", and I kinda focused on that thought for a while.. And then for some reason the name Jordan just kind of popped into my head, and stuck there. And it just felt right.  So, with that said, moving on..


I wish I could remember exactly the time of day it happened, I'm almost positive it was mid-day though (like 3:30pm - 4:50pm, somewhere in there maybe?)..

I was sitting at the computer, home alone (if not then my mom was probably taking a nap in her room, but I think I was alone), and I looked off to the left of the computer, and just kinda zoned out on the floor for a second..

Then this is the part that's so hard to explain.. There was no like "transition" that I was aware of, no vibration type things that I remember anyway.. I was just, there.. It was like I was just visiting another place with my mind, like my mind and this place were engulfing most of my consciousness, I mean I could "see" it, yet I wasn't actually physically seeing anything at all with my eyes.. But at the same time, I wasn't really looking out of my eyes, it's like my physical eye vision was pretty much disabled, and this mind-vision is what took over. And still way in the backround of my mind, I was well aware that I was awake and zoned out, and could see everything normally with my eyes, even though I wasn't really moving them from the spot. (like my periferal vision was still seeing my arms, ect.)

So it was almost like a split consciousness?


Anyway, "there" was this kind of odd place.. It was just like a small black void, it was just darkness, yet there was this feeling of it being a room. No walls or anything, just this black void.. But, there were like 6 to 8 (I'll call them beings) in a circle. They were glowing and orangish/copper colored lights. For those of you with bad vision like me, it was almost like when you look up at an orange colored street light without your glasses on/contacts in, and there's like a central source of the glow, with kind of "spikes" of light coming off from the center, you know?

But, they weren't just lights, they were beings, there was an instant sense of that.  And immediately I felt this overwhelming sense of welcome. And right away I got the feeling that one of the particular lights I was seeing was Jordan, whatever exactly he/she/it is.  And, the other lights there you could feel were even aware that Jordan was probably the closest to me and/or the one I'd feel the most comfortable with at the time.  And then, a few of the lights there I just felt a little more comfortable with than others, not that any of them felt bad or mean or anything.

From there, whole conversations/exchanging of feelings ensued.  But was weird, like there was no actual SPEAKING or conversation, just an *instantaneous* exchange of feeling, everything was already understood, it was like human speaking and conversation wasn't even needed here. Before your mind could even think of the words to describe what the feeling or idea was that you were trying to get across? It was already done, the lights in the room already knew and understood what you were "saying", and already started responding. It was like a direct connection, everything instantaneous. It would be like the real-life equivalent to holding 30 different conversations with a person in the blink of an eye, where you both understood everything to it's fullest extent.  Sorry to overdescribe it, but that part of it was the most fascinating thing to me out of all of this.

I can't remember much of the conversation anymore at all, I just remember that each of the lights was a different person, they each had their own personalities,  different feelings, different ways they went about things, ect.  I recall one of the lights to the right of me had this very old, very wise presence. He didn't "talk" much, he just seemed to always ponder the situation at hand, and at the very end would kind of give his words of wisdom, heheheh.

Then at some point, when I had become more comfortable with it all (and they knew that too, there was no hiding of feelings or anything here), Jordan said that he had to go for a while, and that he'd be back later. Then he like floated up and out of position of the circle, and then floated away.. Like when he got to where you could sense the "Void Room" ended (though you couldn't actually see where it did), his light just like shrunk and disappeared.  Shortly after, a couple of the other lights exchanged a few last quick feelings, though most of the feelings were to the other lights.. Causual, kind of saying, "I've gotta go do that thing now, I'll see ya later.", and then they left, and I think they were going wherever it was that Jordan was going, or going with him or something, and then they quickly said their goodbyes to me. Also, when Jordan left there was kind of this feeling of, "Ok guys, you talk to him about everything, and make him feel comfortable, I've gotta get going now."..

So then I was left with the remaining lights. And this part of the "coversation" I do remember vaguely.  One asked me something along the lines of, "So.. Do you want to be one of us when the time is right? Do what we do?".. They didn't say what it was they were doing, but I had this overwhelming feeling that it involved helping people/watching over people/comforting people/ect.  Which is pretty much what I live for, like when I do any of that stuff here, it makes me feel complete inside. I know, that sounds a little girly for a guy to say but that's the truth, LoL.

So, naturally once I was pretty sure that's what they were asking me, I said yes.. And the older wiser light (I think it was him anyway) asked me, "Are you sure? It's alot of work at times, and sometimes it's almost like you have to sacrifice yourself, and everything you want to do, and are doing, to do what needs to get done.. But, in the end, it's all very rewarding. Very worth it, if you're that kind of person.".. And right away you could feel all the other lights happily agreed with him.  And I thought about it for a couple seconds, and said yes again.

And then there was this warm feeling in the room, coming from each of them, as if they were each smiling or something. And then there was this feeling of welcome, and also a feeling of, "I think you've made the right decision, I think you'll like it." coming from the older wiser one.  And then there was like this feeling of "Goodbye for now!" exchanged between us all, and they all floated up and/or away like the first ones did..

And then it was like a whole consciousness slowly fading away, and there I was, catching myself zoning out at the floor.  But it felt like a whole 'nother consciousness or state just turned off and all of my energy was focused on this world again, back to normal.

Right away I thought, "There's no way that just happened? What was that? I've never zoned out like that before?", and I looked over at the clock on the computer at the same time and about 10 minutes had passed. I've never zoned out for that long, nor have I ever had that feeling of dual consciousness or like, seeing something else at the same time with my mind while being well aware that I'm awake.

Yet, to this day, that all still feels very real. It feels like that place exsisted. And I think deep down, I fully believe that it does exsist, and that those things are real.


So get this..  My brother has this psychic friend, who he met through a long story I wont post here lol, who I've met a few times and talked to, gone out to dinner with and just hung out with.  And one time kind of out of the blue she told me that I have alot of guardians. Or guardians around me or something like that.

Is that maybe who/what I communicated with during that zone out years ago?   Or what exactly was that whole zone out about?  I mean obviously it was real enough to me that I remember most of it very detailed even 5 years later, and it's something I think about quite often.

I've always just been curious if anyone else has had some kind of experience like this?  Is that how things work in the astral plane?  Was I remote viewing something somehow?  I still don't completely understand it.

Anyway, just curious to see if anyone else has experienced something like that.