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Thank you Zante

I think thats what i needed to hear. That in trying to project for an emotional high, personal gain essentially, i was pushed to the opposite. and at that time in my life i wasnt prepared to deal with it.

You too 200sx, since i know it wasnt a projection, it was, therefore, a nightmare.

Honestly i think it helped to have written it out and think about it in a literal manner, unconnected to the emotion.

Head is a little rambled right now. But thank you for the responses.

[Hell]

So... a few years back i was avidly trying to astral project.

with about 5 months of work i ended up getting one conscious exit projection which lasted about 30 seconds, while i explored my astral house.

Anyways, on the path to projection i ended up having some nightmare'ish, (shocking, Crazy,cant think of a word that will do justice) Dreams and False awakenings. Stuff i was definitely not ready for.

just to open a little insight to what i experienced...

I lay down to astral project, after doing some energy work, and sitting in trance state for god knows how long, i decide to just go to sleep. Shortly after i woke up to the sound of screaming. Or at least i thought i had really woken up, it ended up being a false awakening.

Anyway, in this false awakening i got up because i heard screaming. i walk downstairs and there is the sound of Hell coming from my dads office. I mean the sound of Hell, It was like chainsaws, Trains, screaming of souls(like in movies), Chains rattling etc...

i froze, and then my mom walked out of the room, with black eyes, a possessed look on her face, her jaw dropped open like 8 inches, and it sounded as if the thousand people screaming were all coming from her. after the screaming for a couple seconds, she disappeared, but i still faintly heard the sound.

Shortly after this I woke up from the nightmare... to another false awakening.

This time i thought i had REALLY woken up, but i hadn't. I 'jolt' awake in my bed gasping for air. And i look around my room and where my computer desk chair had been, My mom was sticking through the floor, Just her upper torso, with her head craned back unhumanly, and her jaw open staring at the ceiling, completely silent.

After the first split second of shock hit me, i woke up to the real world, immediately rolled off of my bed and threw up. i was nauseous, dizzy and my vision was blurry for a good minute or so.

Now, for a long while after this happened i pondered, as frued would have, what the implication of my mother in such a fashion meant to about my emotions, my subconcious etc...

I have the best relationship in the world with my mother, And there are no ill feelings between us.

This happened over 2 years ago, and since then i havnt attempted to project. Any thoughts to help me clear my mind, any advice, anything to meditate on, or any motivation/something happy to think about Will be greatly appreciated.

And thank you for reading this long winded post.

So last year i had a lot of time to meditate, and attempt to project, Before school started.

I ended up getting my first conscious OBE right before school started. Since then i have been overwhelmed by classes and schoolwork so i have not really attempted to project in about 8 months.

Laying down the other day when i had some free time i attempted, and i felt as if i was starting from scratch again.

it took about an hour just to get into a light trance. all the sensations were odd to me. I felt like i could not move any energy through myself.

Any tips or advice for getting back to where i was would be greatly appreciated. I know i spent a lot of time and hardwork to get my conscious exit, i was wondering if anybody had advice that might quicken the relearning process.

Thanks in advance.