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 Thank you for your comforting response! And yes, it would suck if I kicked my husband out of bed! He must not have as much sleep paralysis, because he often swings his arms around and ends up socking me in the face!

I do have another question. Why is it that sometimes when I project, I'm in my own city, and other times, I'm in a strange room or different place?

One weird thing is that in our city, there's a statue in a park of a guy on a horse. My mom and I projected, and the statue MOVED. It was like it was real. We woke up and were weirded out. Then at another point, my mom said she projected and saw my uncle. Later, my uncle said he had a dream where he was flying like superman all over the city, and he saw that statue and it was real for some reason. They both experienced this on the same night, so my mom told him about APing and what it was. So even when we're in our own city, it's different, like that statue always being real.

Why isn't it always just like flying around your own room?

Also, I'm guessing nothing can take over my body while I'm gone, right?

 Hi all,

I just registered, this is my first post here. I've tried asking about this in other forums, not knowing there was a forum specifically for this topic. I hope I find some help here.

My mom started astral projecting in the 80s, she was in her early 20s. It happened accidentally, she had never heard of it. Later, I heard her discussing this with a friend of hers when I was about 13. Her friend was Wiccan and also APed often. I wanted to try it out and just believed it was easy, I guess. I did it on my first try after reading about some techniques online. I ended up in a strange room, it wasn't the room my body was in. I was scared, didn't know where I was. I could hear my body breathing and it sounded like I was under water. When I got out of my body, I floated so slowly toward the floor that I thought I'd fall forever. I wasn't sure if I could fly through walls. It was just very scary, and I was afraid I'd meet other APers if I left the room, and I wondered if they'd be scary.

Since then, I haven't been able to control it. I never wanted to do it again, but now I'm often awoken paralyzed and vibrating. I'm being violently tugged out of my body, and I have to fight to stay in it, then fight to move my hand or wiggle my toe to get out of the paralysis. Then, even if I get up for a while, it just happens again as soon as I go back to sleep. Then I got the feeling that someone wanted me to do this, because it was so against my will. I've tried praying for it to stop, sometimes I can breathe, "uh-uh!" and scream "NO" in my head, but nothing works. Sometimes "it" wins and I leave my body and just slam right back into it, since once I'm out I'm still saying "NO." Then I'm just in and out of my body all night. I'm 23 now, it's been ten years of this. Some nights I get NO sleep, because I'm just fighting to stay in my body.

So, my first question is: Why is this happening to me? My second is: How can I control it? My third is: My mom died last year, can I AP to go see her? My fourth and final question is: Why was I in a different room? Other times I've APed, I've been in my own room and could fly around outside and it was my city. Why was the first time in such a strange place? Could someone explain the different levels to me?