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Ok, I know how many various posts about doomsday have been going, and I feel the need to make a few comments.

Ok, the whole world has been plagued with mystery since it was formed/created(trying not to get touchy with athiests), and people have simply discussed certain topics, formed a few theories, then dismissed them as un-important. My thoughts lie in the truth behind human existance, and why the whole world has never TRULY united itself, as it could if only everyone was on the same thought process. Obviously this could NEVER happen in our society, but my question is, was that a test? Time feels no bounds, people live and die and others are born. Ever noticed that society gets crappier everyday? Ever noticed that as time passes, the new-age and lesser religions are being shunned by the greaters? Im starting to wonder if this is a time of suppression, or a time of uprising....

How large is this group? Not very, its tiny compared to the greater population. How many people can TRULY say they lived a good life and will be guranteed some benefit at death? There are the ignorant,who beleive they will and won't, and those that truly are, and they are small, yet again.

Nothing is predictable, atom patterns, conciousness, the planet itself...along with many other things. People have spent their whole lives trying to understand the impossible, to grasp the perfect truth, and each major religion had their leader who had obtained it, or gained a stronger grasp of the meaning of life that we all seek in the long run. Being 16, I have noticed the world rapidly changing in these many years, people caring less for the wrong, carring less for acheivement...all of it...its disturbing....

How many major discoveries have been made in these past few years? Little to none....and we only have learned to slow the torments and death caused by the most powerful of diseases. We CANNOT predict anymore, we only hope, and that hope is smashed by Murphy's Law 90% of the time. Perhaps the end of the human race is near, perhaps its not. It simply seems that we are now at a divine understanding...we can either continue to grow and prosper, or we ARE going to wither out and die, within the next few hundred years.

Is anyone looking for a permanent alternate energy source now? Hell no! They stopped! We only have a few hundred years left of fossil fuels, and we ourselves, may not even survive to USE THEM ALL! We have possible meteors headed at Earth, the undefeatable possibility of a global nuclear war, because there will always being someone wishing it...and the humans are now too hooked in politics and lying to themselves and gaining propaganda from their various nations.

Ladies and gents, we have a problem, and it seems that the only people who give a damn are discussing it, and can do no more except feel terrible about it. Are we truly the ones to be SAVED? Or is our group the one to bring about our final end? Perhaps there never was a final race of being in this universe, but perhaps there is a perfect MINDSET. People can learn, only if willing, and will kill for their own comfort and protection. I have noticed so many theories and concepts on the final days of man, and I am starting to wonder if it is intended and genetically programmed for us to question our final destruction.

We all know how denial feels....question something such as your closest family member or loved one being dead. Pick someone that you have no immediate clue what they are doing, and its quite possible for them to be dead. Guess what? They are!....You do not beleive me, but what if i was right? You could never know until it was too late, followed by the pain and torment of the loss. Humans naturally deny that which they don't want to hear, then come to grips with it.

Now, how many people are open minded? Few...VERY FEW....and that leads me to wonder...could our mindset truly determine our fate? A random person could tell you the world was coming to an end, and you would deny it simply as a random thought, unimporant, silly, random, and still....you wonder....

I can't help but feel that if we as a people do not open our eyes to some new truth(which I haven't figured out) that we are all going to be royally screwed later on. Think about it...some humans have obtained their secondary abilities that many do not have, be it AP, Telekinesis, or even some of the more unbeleiveable skills such as pyrokinesis or perfection of Chi control.

People have come to these boards claiming they have some great knoweledge of the end of the world, and I mentally cannot beleive it. I dismiss it as rambeling, and I never really care for more than a moment. Neither does anyone else....

While i am not saying they are right, why couldn't they be? Who gives you the right to shun them for what they have to say? Times have changed, and you never know who is talking to you, be it a man, a woman, a spirit, or some spiritual leader who has passed.

The talks of a demon war are all dismissed as silly and unimportant, and that is exactly the mindset I am talking about. i cannot mentally grasp it as a reality because I have never seen a demon in physical form, and this horror is, there is no way to gurantee it will or WILL NOT happen. I simply cannot beleive it, but at the same time, i hate my conciousness for not being that open. When horrible things happen, people are shocked, act shocked, or even fall intoa  state we have named "SHOCK" and it can also be fatal.

Can we as a race truly begin to understand the final result of our existance? Are we meant to? Or will the ones who seek the truth rise up as the final defense for those who have fallen or will fall in the years to come, in our final hour...Its a firm question...

Ask yourselves a question: If the end is coming during your lifetime, will you do all you can to assist it, prevent it, or sit neutral and hide as time takes you, rather than your final great moment.

Tobacco,Cancer,AIDs,Wars,Famine,Fanaticism,Murder,Crime,Accidents,
Terrorism,....they are all going to mean absolutely nothing later...we simply have no idea when that time is...and many don't want to know, or care....but perhaps we should? Should we fight a fate if it exists? Or should we simply live with the flow of time and fall if it deemed to happen?

Take some time to think all this over...question yourself...where you TRULY stand mentally...would you be ready for your final moments if you discovered when they were coming?



Now that I have that from my system, I seriously want to know your views on this? I have no idea where all that came from, I just gave it some thought and started with the philosophical talk, and I am quite confused with it myself. Comments?

Ok, many of you older people probably remember me, the newer ones never met me. Anyways, a long time ago, i posted about an entity I had met when I had awoken during an OBE that was already going. It was hot pink, and gave off the vibe that it had no sex, but it had bright peircing eyes. It was spooky, not scary, not inviting, but spooky, and neutral, much like looking at a person across the room and have them glance at you funny.

Anyways, all this time went by and i disregarded it as important, and now I have seen it again...this time in a dream...and I have no idea WHAT THE HELL is going on.

The bad part is, the dream was a tad different but generally the same concept. Its near water, this time a lake, not the edge of a dock, and the being is floating out on the water. I was glaring at the water then up at the most beautiful night sky I could ever imagine(big man going soft here ) when I glance down and notice a pink shaded humanoid about 100yards away over the water, kinda hovering. I GLANCED mind you, and went back to looking at the sky. Then i see a bright shift of pink, and now ITS face is about 2 inches from mine, staring into my eyes with its own...its not hostile...but not comfortable either...its eyes...they turned...mm....soft, as if with remorse or pity, and I have no clue why. Then its eyes faded black and I awoke slightly sweating and EXTREMELY confused. Now im actually a bit worried, seeing as how the first time i saw this being was JUST before the near death of a close family friend. My mother also had a premonition about this same man getting ill again, with the same form of cancer, and this time, it was stronger than before.

If this means what I think it means, i may start practice on my energetic healing again, because I simply can't watch a family friend wither away and die. I have accelerated healing on a broken limb and cured a pinched nerve without surgery, but I have never even THOUGHT about healing CANCER, or the dangers about trying... any comments?

A new game is coming out in June called
Psi Ops: The MindGate Conspiracy.

psiopsgame.com for those that care for it.

It involves many various forms of Psi, including remote viewing and mind drain/energy leaching(on a violent scale though). The primary to the game is telekinesis and pyrokinesis though, but the main character is basically a soldier who has harnessed his PSI powers. It looks to be a good seller, and any of the video gamers on THIS forum should definitely be interested. Its a third person game if you care.

I figured it could go here for lack of a better place, and it technically shows Psi(extreme forms mind you) in action for attack and self defense .

The Golden Spyglass, The Subtle Knife, and the first in the series, i do not know. AP related stories. War with god, but regular everyday characters suddenly in dirty situations. Not preachy, fun to read, interesting plot, GOOOOOOOOD STUFF. Im not sure of teh first book of the series, but the Subtle Knife comes next, then the Golden Spyglass. Reccommend yall read em.

Astral Portals are opened by a special knife, looks into creation, war with god, decent amount of action, good plot.

Yeah yeah, I come here on and off, practicing OBE when I have time. I finally figured it out for myself; ways to acheive OBE, what OBE is like, ect.

All happened last night.
I had fallen asleep at about 7pm and woke up again at 11pm. I wasn't sleepy anymore, I had just been tired previously. After watching TV with my father, I tried to go back to sleep again when he went to bed. I laid down, waiting for the usual trance type sensations I would experience before I lost logical thought and blacked out. This time around, since I was not sleepy, this did not occur. I went into the trance state, then immediatly into vibrations. I began to actually feel my astral arms and legs float out, never had experienced this well before. I had a rough transition of conciousness, but found myself at the foot of my bed. Next thing I know, im being pushed by something,astral wind I guess, and I passed through my bedroom wall, and into a COMPLETELY new area. I was in some kind of a stadium, as in ancient, made of stone. THis stadium was larger than any football stadium I have ever seen, hundreds of thousands of people. I moved over to a nearby seating area, looking at the people as they stared down into the center. I should have glanced there, but I was more focused on the people ignoring me. A young girl glanced my way, and suprised me. I had been dealing with a blurry vision problem the whole time, and finally blinked myself awake, with full memory recall.

I was amazed at everything, because I hadn't experienced a good deal of it before. So, I tried again. I laid back, closed my eyes, and waited for the vibrations again, and they came, strong as before. I had a plan this time, try to fly into space. I cleared my vision a little after getting out, but it was still blurry. I tried to feel myself moving upwards, but got a weird effect, I moved downward. I was UNDERNEATH my bed now, looking up through the mattress. I hear a loud noise that suprised the heck out of me. It sounded awkward and growling. It bothered me, and next thing I know, I AWAKE TO FIND MYSELF SNORING! I WAS HEARING MYSELF SNORE WHILE OUT OF BODY!

Someone should take tips from this experience. 2 nights ago I experienced the issue of Astral Noise and arms clutching my ankles. Its not scary, and just ask nicely in your mind, the feeling will go away, or thats the way I experienced it. Try falling asleep early and keeping your mind occupied until you auto-project. Im just a little wiser, and a little more enlightened.

Been ALLLLL TOO LONG since my last experience with OBE. All too long indeed.

One of my previous stories was about my experience as a child with Astral Noise/Negs talking around me, terrifying me...Well this story continues....

As most people know, I make on and off attempts at OBE. I stopped a few weeks ago(about 3) because school had started. Its Labor Day weekend now, so I am staying up later than usual.

Tonight, while falling asleep, I fought to keep myself concious without tensing myself, trying to fiddle with the do and do nots of relaxation.

I discovered something new, a kind of visual manipulation ability that I can do better than anything else, and put it to use. I felt myself sliding into trance, and vibrations quickly hit. I start to see into some kind of astral/dream realm, something I had seen before. I let off the rest of the tension I had, and felt my body coming free. Next thing I know, I HEAR (Yes it was clear enough for me to think it was in the physical) say "NO! WAIT!" in a demonic and inhuman voice. I tried my best to shove it off, but I couldn't for some reason. I lost my concentration and woke up, and im sitting here now typing. I realized why just now... that voice reminds me A LOT of what I heard when I was younger, same tone, same pitch, only different words...

This has me completely whacked out and Im sitting here trying to recall any other previous dreams/OBE/TV/radio/ect, where I may have heard this.

Anyone ever heard of the SAME neg constantly pestering someone for years?

Hello again everybody, Im back with more questions,comments,stupidity for amusement, etc.

Anyway, I have noticed a few things I have been doing recently in my meditation, and I have NO idea what to make of it. In my meditations while trying to project, I have noticed that sometimes when i start to accidentally follow a daydream but im still half concious, Ill actually make a quick movement following that daydream. Lets say, I move my arm to pick up something in the daydream/vision, I will sometimes actually move my arm in response, as if a sleepwalking type thing. I never thought much of this until recently, I actually SPOKE while following this. I daydreamed I spoke something to someone else ina  daydream, and I caught myself saying it as I became more aware. I stopped myself halfway, frozen in astonishment.

Anyone else been AWAKE to recognise UNCONTROLLED sleep/meditational movement?

I have discovered (or so I think) a method for speeding up ones basic movement ALOT. As in, moving your hands quickly to catch something or strike out at, as if when your angry. Its got to do with peripheral vision for the starters. I feel when I look slightly past something or peripherally, I get an extra energetic flow while concentrating on a specific bodypart. I then found with this extra energy I can move much faster, as if snatching something away if needed. No idea why, but this works for me in getting a LARGE amount of extra and ABNORMAL speed. I haven't made this work in running, but short bursts of movement work. After you get the hang of the energy you feel, you can use it without using any special method, you just USE IT. I know there are legit Ki practitioners out there who may help me make heads or tails of this.

I finally broke my OBE restraints again. Earlier today I was tired of hearing my sisters argue so i went into the other room and laid down. After a minute of watching TV i became sleepy and close my eyes. After feeling minor tingling in my fingers, I moved my hand next to my side instead of above my head. Soon I heard loud roaring and saw lots of colors behind my eyelids. Next thing I know, Im standing bedside looking around. I then heard 2 loud pops and slowly fell to the floor. Next thing I know, I wake up VERY happy that I have acheived result again. I had no results until now dueto staying up late. TO ALL OBE novices, get plenty of sleep THEN try for an OBE.

I have just a few comments since I have noticed that we now have a few skeptics in our forum.
1.If we are just imagining it all, then why aren't you busy trying to understand people having such profound dreams/hallucinations about one subject?
2.If we do hallucinate, are you suggesting that this kind of hallucination could be self induced or induced by others, maybe even used for mind control?
3.Have you ever looked at your hands ina  dream? Did you inspect them well, or did you notice with peripheral vision?
4.Have you ever MADE a thought during a dream that was realted to your phsyical life, such as remembering a fact that would influence your dream in some shape or form?
5.For the skeptics/religous ones, If we are all commiting a sin by projecting, following what has been previously said, what does that make you when you dream/lucid dream/have an NDE?


This is not meant to mock anyone in any way, just some serious questions to make the skeptics question their own assumptions. If anyone can think of any more, feel free to add on.

P.S.Try and have fun with this, lets not make it a flame war []

I now have a new problem. I restart AP practice and look what happens!
For some weird and unexplainable reason, after starting AP practice, entitys are in my house or around me ALOT. I have a slight ESP and grew older suppressing it with common beleifs taught by my parents. I eventually started with AP and to make a long story short, I stopped a while for school and slight boredom with non-success. I now constantly perceive different beings moving around me, through me, ect. Im NOT PARANOID and I DO NOT HAVE MY FAN ON TO GIVE ME THE SHIVERS. I mentally ask for whomever in my general area to go away and usually they will. I have had one or two occasions where I would have an onslaught of shivers, as if someone was moving through my phsyical body to cause the shivers to annoy me. I was wondering, anyone know any natural methods for getting rid of these pesky people/creatures? I could always attempt to project and slap them myself, but im not going to project every 5 minutes :-/

This is way off topic when compared to our most unrelated subjects, but I found something interesting that can be set around AP. Its a computer game called Sacrifice, involving wizards and creating creatures from souls and all sorts of spells for destruction, ect ect. Its the story of wizard who was fleeing his previously ruled realm from a demon that he had summoned but could not control. Using his arcane magic, he had ensnared an imp and with his assistance, he was able to cross the "Astral Void" of the etheral realm to the location of the gods. As the game progresses you find about this persons past and all of this wonderful stuff. You are also able to use souls that you either take from your enemys creatures or your own and you create different monsters to do battle with. Its a real time strategy game and its lots of fun, its been out for a while now, a few years possibly. It also supports many aspecs of AP, as in when your wizard dies as long as your alter still exists, your ethric matter if you will, you cannot be banished from that realm, you only float around as an etheral spirit. Once one has absorbed enough mana you will reform a new body and the battle continues.

Interesting isn't it?

Hello to all that remember me, its been QUITE A LONG TIME. Summer has just started and I finally have time to practice OBE again. New stories to tell, things to explore, ENJOY YOUR SUMMERS!

New Story:Was laying down on our livingroom couch when I eventually started dosing off as my friend had just left and my father was boring me with some story he was reading from his laptop.

Eventually, I started to feel my legs and arms getting heavy, so I decided to try for an OBE. I got as comfortable as I could and after about 5 minutes I felt a sudden falling sensation. I tried my best to ignore this, but with that "chairs getting thrown across the room" kind of sounds going on, it got the better of me. I blacked out at some point, maybe for a minute or two, but then I became concious again, standing in a dark room under a nightime sky. It was daytime at the time I began so i assumed it was a lucid dream. Walking along, i watched small flowers start to bloom instantly in the grass, and the stars twinkling in the nighttime sky. The ground was wet and smelled of grass, it had just rained obviously or maybe was raining, I wasn't really focused on that. Eventually, out of the corner of my eye I notice a bright neon pink entity looking at me. it startled me but at the same time intrigued me. It was hot pink, and had a set of bluish hazy eyes, that was about all. It was then that it hit me, I HAD SEEN THIS FIGURE BEFORE! I had seen this person in one of my nightmares when I was younger, not as the antagonist, but my savior! I had a sudden flood of memories come flying back at me, all nightmares where some pink figure had intervined and showed me the truth that there was no reason to be afraid. This upstart brought me semi-concious, interuppting my dream. I was still in trance and could see in the RTZ around me. At that point my mother began to walk towards me from our dining room which was to the right of me at the time. Just as she touched me I felt a sudden falling sensation, a rush of energy, and next thing I realise, I am sitting straight up holding onto her wrist. I accidently scared her half to death :-/ Don't try this at home kids

Glad to be back, WOHOO!

I recently got into a fight with a friend of mine and needless to say, it got pretty nasty. I felt like crap for the rest of the day. I didn't know what to do, either to forgive and forget or hold a grudge. PLEASE try this if your having emotional problems pertaining to other people. Before you fall asleep, ask yourself some questions involving the situation between you and the other person. Before I fell asleep, i asked myself "How come i let this happen?""How can i correct it?""Who was truly wrong?"

That night i had an interesting dream. The symbolism involved is something I will only understand, and ill explain some of the unrelated garabge. Here it goes.

My mother played a role by owning a local store(no she does not really) that is being ruined by my friend and 2 other local guys who I despise. As they ruined the place my mother became very upset and at some point passed out. It was like watching a movie at first, then gaining a first person perspective. I came into play the second time they came around and got ahold of one of them. I punched him and pretty mch shattered his jaw(I knew in my dream i did anyways) and he hit the ground. My friend and his other buddy took off and jumped over a fence. Shortly afterwards, some person dressed in Samurai armor(of all things?) put his hand on my shoulder. Suddenly it went back to a third person perspective(me watching). I heard some music in the background that I am STILL trying to figure out. He simpled glared at me into my eyes and said "Please, make it right". I woke up about 2 seconds later.

All the symbolism in the dream came together after I woke up. My mother represented an argument of sorts, and her passing out was the shock that it caused. The store was completely unrelated, just representing a conflict. The other 2 guys were not really a concern. My friend being a jerk represented our argument. I realised after waking up that I was at fault. i went over to his house and apolgised. Shortly after a minute or two of talking, we started acting like it had never happened.  
You would be suprised about the answers your dreams can give you if you only take the time to listen.

Don't let a silly argument ruin a friendship.
"Please, make it right"

"View people like a shattered mirrior. The peices show the distorted personality. View the peices as a whole and you will see their true reflection."-Poem by Me

I have been reading alot recently about spirit guides and such and I started thinking about them. I got some ideas about how ones life could be influenced by them. Anyone ever have that creepy feeling of someone who isn't there looking over your shoulder? I have felt this once or twice before without any fear. It was like a regular stranger curios about what i was doing walked up and peered over my shoulder. Not sure what was so interesting about carrying out garbage, but it was kinda funny. i have felt it before with an extent of fear because i felt a strange breeze and felt an odd presence nearby. Im not one to be paranoid in the dark and I get that feeling on some occasions. Could some of these entitys hanging around possibly be spirit guides? Im sure that SOME other people have had to experience this at least once. Im pretty curios about this. Any comments?

If these presences were negs, i would know, trust me, im very perceptive about negative things around me. If something were attached, I would have no problem destroying the little creep. I need some more ideas. If your just reading this at random and have time and an idea, PLEASE post. I want to follow this a bit more

-Andrew(aka Psi)

I had the WEIRDEST dream last night about World War 2. Get this, as i was laying in bed, trying to fall asleep, i can remember just before going unconcious that I thought about the movie Saving Private Ryan. i remembered the opening scene where everyone is about to climb off the boat and as soon as the ramp hits the ground, everyone gets blown to peices. Then, the oblivion of sleep caught up with me. I had a VERY interesting dream dealing with world war 2 that night. im going to post it later , but Im getting ready for work, but i can't at the moment because it was a LONG dream. Anyone have any input on causing certain dreams or WW2 dreams? Id like some info if you can provide it. im going to post my dream later today. be warned, its VERY long

-Andrew(aka Psi)

This is going to be VERY tough to explain. Robert, if your not busy, PLEASE try and help.

I have been having more vivid dreams recently that all seem different like one about a local dock and another about walking in a backroad i have never seen. I have a couple of more that are a little tough to tell. My problem is, I KNOW there is something similar about these dreams like they all have the same root theme to them. I keep getting the subconcious urge to figure it out every 5 minutes. I can't decipher how they are alike, and Im about to go meditate and try my hardest to recall these memories and figure them out. I can't stand the nagging thought that all these dreams have a purpose to them that I don't understand. I know this sounds like a silly quote from "the matrix" but, it is very comparable to a splinter in my mind and its driving me nuts!

Has anyone else had this problem? I know its difficult to understand, but please, ANY ideas"no matter how stupid you may think they are" would be appreciated. I also have had 2 other dreams about spirits in my home, but Im almost 100% there are none. I have demanded in trance that any entitys in my home present themselves but no luck. I haven't had an unexplained occurences around the house, so as said above, im fairly sure there are none.

I recently found out that sadly, one of my dogs has heart worms and it is a case that is dangerous enough to kill her within the next month. We gave her heartworm medication and she SHOULD be ok until we get her treated, but we still have to give her the medication. My sister is really shook up over this, and im the only one in the family REALLY interested in energetic healing.

    My mother has broken her arm before and it was suppose to take more than a month to heal up. My mother got me interested in healing and i basically dabbled with healing on her arm and it was perfectly fine after about 2 weeks. I continued to be non-chalant about using energy to heal people, and just playing around with it once in a while.

     My fathers boss brought up something about psychic abilities one day when they were talking and he started joking about me healing my mother. My father thought it was just some weird coincidence. His boss found this offensive because she beleived in it as much as i did. She complained about a numbness in her hand because of a pinched nerve in her neck. She asked my dad to ask me if i would be willing to goto her house and attempt healing her. My dad thought she was insane in a sense, but did it anyway. I healed her neck with a technique that i created myself and about 3 days after I did it, the numbness in her hand went away.

My question now is, would this work for an animal such as my dog? I received a slight headache from healing my fathers boss and I am not sure of what the consequences of healing a disease that is fatal to an animal. Secondly, im not 100% sure if id be able to heal the dog or not

I had an idea to write a fairly long story about an astral projector who started out as a regular teen, then he starts to have visions in his dreams. He repeatedly encounters a man who is crying throughout the story. In the story you learn how he came about learning to project and how he finds out what the crying man(its an astral being) is. I know this sounds kinda screwy at first glance, because im typing quickly.

Its going to have heavy detail in it about Astral projection, and its also going to be a very spiritual story. Any ideas before i get started, or possibly a comment on the idea would be appreciated. Oh, and expect me to appear in your dreams sometime if anyone steals my idea. Just kidding

I am obviously new around here, and read Astral Dynamics twice. I have come across an interesting effect of the awarenss hands. Have a friend simply point their finger in the general area of between your eyes, or do it yourself. Most people notice a weird sensation in their brow center, or JUST between their eyes. It feels kinda funny, and possibly painful and annoying after a few minutes. Attempt this. I got some interesting results of that phenomenon presenting itself even with awareness hands!

Try it out:Just relax and calm yourself as if you were about to take a nap, or just lay down and get comfy after a day at work. Once you are relaxed a little bit, as in, just comfy like watching T.V. comfy. Next, FEEL your awareness hands coming up, and pointing your fingers of your awareness hands at your nose, in the area stated above. I get the VERY same sensation, and i beleive this may work for all people. Im not sure what this means, but i found it interesting. Give it a test drive, its kind of funny

NO! NO SEANCE! EVER! NO!

A seance is going to do nothing but cause trouble. Is it worth talking to a dead relative on one occasion for a little while to be harassed by a horrifying spirit for the rest of your days? *&^% no! I made this mistake doing this at a friends house, he is still harassed to this day, and blames me for it.

Here is a question, how many of you have trained in areas other than Astral Projection? I honestly became interested in the metaphysical when i was 10, and started goofing with the basics of Psi when i was 12, and then stopped when I was 14 to pursue AP. Now, between age 12 and 14, my parents learned of my interests, and I also learned a type of healing involving Psi, not sure of the name. Anyways, I cannot gurantee I can project anytime i wish, but I know for DAMN sure my healing abilities WORK. I have assisted the healing of a broken arm, and had it healed in 2 weeks, and cleared a pinched nerve in 2 days that would normally take surgery. I never thought much of this, more on the lines as it is simple and I never notice it as a special ability to be able to act as a moderately skilled healer at MY AGE.

Concentration and natural fighting ability are never really on someones mind, but some people, the oddballs, have no reason other than their own instinct to improve these skills. We have boxers, we have football players, we have our modern military men, we have those who train in martial arts for nothing more than the thought of being skilled.

While I hate to have people thinking this, I do have an ingrained mental beleif that something is going SERIOUSLY wrong with this world, and that we are running ourselves out of time. Someone said avoid the possibility of the problem by taking it out ahead of time, prevent this possible "war"....well, why not?

I know where I stand with my abilities, I can heal others spiritually to a certain extent, and I am a football player sized guy, and have practiced with a sword i crafted,out of sheer boredom. I have a knack for shooting, be it bow or rifle, I love learning about weaponry.

My views on this possible war is really unique. I am NOT prepared, never would be, nor would anyone. But at the same time, I have the feeling its possible but never going to happen, much like I feel its POSSIBLE for someone to gun me down at school, but im not concerned they would.

I know it sounds rediculous basing beleifs on unproven things but its GUT INSTINCT that has me feeling the way I do, not any doomsayer you could bump into. The problem here is, I AM the doomsayer, I just keep my mouth shut, because I have no idea where its coming from or what it possibly means.

Perhaps the world won't be annihilated by an asteroid, perhaps the polar ice caps won't melt, perhaps humans will push on for many more years, but I feel that this WON'T happen, and i have no idea why. I do beleive though, that a merge between the astral realm and this one is a good chance, because think about it, we as humans are spiritual regardless if we want to be or not, and its the non that are always fighting the possibility of a god or divine plan/purpose.

Now my question is, how often does someone stroll up to you and tell you to be ready for the rest of your life? NEVER....so I suggest everyone take a good long look at themselves, realize what they have, love themselves for it, and move on in life. If we do have a great and honorable fight ahead, so be it, but lets not dwell on what is to come, because if we do, we waste our time pushing aside greater acheivements as a race. If our time is coming, all of the worlds prejudices, seperating race, sex, creed....They will all vanish in our finest hour and either all of our race will unite or we are all going to perish, its that simple. It applys to anything, we have shut down a greater opponent on many occasions throughout history, but that greater opponent has always had its own, brainwashed, massive group to do its bidding. Various revolts in history, the world wars, all of it shows when people set aside most of their differences and fight for a greater good/evil.

So, do not dwell on that which NOBODY can comprehend at this time, otherwise you will be the brainwashed fighting for the WRONG side should that time ever come. Live your life to your fullest, enjoy yourself, and disregard your fears until the day they are going to be proven or refuted, because you may actually never experience that which perfects you as a person should you change your ideas for fear of a coming conflict.

Be like me, confident in life and have a good time. Leave these thoughts where they belong, back of your mind [^]

Have you ever been HUGGERd by a spirit? That leaves an odd sensation.

I know this sounds odd, but think of the hug as if it were the most romantic and warming thing you have ever felt, so pleasent that you could cry. I am a football player sized guy, rarely ever get upset, and yet I was crying when i awoke from this. I have no idea what wrapped its arms around me, but it was wonderful, I couldve died in that bliss and not have been upset. I still mentally twitch and have the hair on my neck stand on end when I visualize that being,the eyes...they were so odd....the whole situation wasn't scary, but wasn't pleasent. In a whole, it was queer, and startling.

Thats a bit odd....I had a dream recently that involved me staring into the sky towards the moon, and me coming across a spirit/entity/guide I have encountered before. Now im confused as hell. My post elsewhere discusses seeing it again, and how I am never comfortable around it, but it is never hostile. I thought it related to the death of one of my family friends, but now that I realize it references the sky, its spooky...

Appearently I missed a TON in my absence. We have some cute ladies in the forums, and it STINKS too, especially since I never get to flirt with them, oh well []

I need to get an updated picture big time, working out and shedding 40lbs has me feeling really good, especially since I went from flab to semi-marine lookin [|)]

I stopped with the Ap for various reasons, but my girlfriend is my pasttime pretty much now, []

Anyways, how has anyone been?

Oh yeah, and peacefulwarrior, don't take this the wrong way, but you look like a freakin paladin or somethen. Your like me, good in looks and the kind of guy who could tear someone up, hah, and usually niceguys don't wind up with beautiful women, appearently you did. good for you [^]