Hello everyone. I'm a 23 year old from Northern VA who's recently tried to get into astral projection over the past few months. I began suffering from Depersonalization Disorder about 9 months ago, which really opened my eyes to questions of reality and different forms of consciousness. (Spent 5 months as a spectator of my own body and living in a world which looked and felt like a dream state.) Through the extreme anxiety and suffering from the disorder, I eventually reached ego death, which was unwanted and something that truly has been traumatizing over the last 3 or so months since it happened.
First, let me say that with ego death, I don't feel like a body at all. I feel like a point of consciousness. When I move around, I don't really feel like a body moving through space, I just feel like awareness moving. It's like there's no separation between my body or anything else. "Being one with the universe" I guess is what they call it.
Since the ego death, I noticed very strange things were happening to me. I would be laying in bed and would randomly notice that I was seeing through my eyelids. I would also be lying down with my girlfriend and felt like I couldn't sleep, and when I would open my eyes my gf would tell me I was snoring, even though I had felt conscious the whole time. I didn't really think anything of it until I stumbled upon a video of Tom Campbell and then through him I found Robert Monroe. I immediately rented his book from my college library and found great interest (and truth) in the fact of a larger reality which we can access.
I started trying astral project and about the 2nd time I was able to feel vibrations, it scared the mess out of me and I stopped. I tried many times after that but was always too afraid to follow through the vibrations and strange sensations.
I've been trying to steer away from it until a few nights ago. I had my first astral projection unwillingly. I had been lying down with my girlfriend on Christmas Eve, and realized that I was seeing through my eyelids again and my girlfriend was claiming I was snoring several times while I believed I was still conscious. Out of nowhere, I found myself in my room (different from the room we were in) watching myself talking to my girlfriend.. as soon as I realized I was watching myself, I flew to my body and tried to get inside of it and then woke up immediately with chills all over my body. I just didn't realize I was astral projecting when it happened, I felt like it was real life.
Anyway, that's my story. I hope to learn from all of you experienced travelers and hopefully I can add another perspective with what I've gone through with depersonalization. Thank you all for reading.
First, let me say that with ego death, I don't feel like a body at all. I feel like a point of consciousness. When I move around, I don't really feel like a body moving through space, I just feel like awareness moving. It's like there's no separation between my body or anything else. "Being one with the universe" I guess is what they call it.
Since the ego death, I noticed very strange things were happening to me. I would be laying in bed and would randomly notice that I was seeing through my eyelids. I would also be lying down with my girlfriend and felt like I couldn't sleep, and when I would open my eyes my gf would tell me I was snoring, even though I had felt conscious the whole time. I didn't really think anything of it until I stumbled upon a video of Tom Campbell and then through him I found Robert Monroe. I immediately rented his book from my college library and found great interest (and truth) in the fact of a larger reality which we can access.
I started trying astral project and about the 2nd time I was able to feel vibrations, it scared the mess out of me and I stopped. I tried many times after that but was always too afraid to follow through the vibrations and strange sensations.
I've been trying to steer away from it until a few nights ago. I had my first astral projection unwillingly. I had been lying down with my girlfriend on Christmas Eve, and realized that I was seeing through my eyelids again and my girlfriend was claiming I was snoring several times while I believed I was still conscious. Out of nowhere, I found myself in my room (different from the room we were in) watching myself talking to my girlfriend.. as soon as I realized I was watching myself, I flew to my body and tried to get inside of it and then woke up immediately with chills all over my body. I just didn't realize I was astral projecting when it happened, I felt like it was real life.
Anyway, that's my story. I hope to learn from all of you experienced travelers and hopefully I can add another perspective with what I've gone through with depersonalization. Thank you all for reading.