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My goodness. Years of mystery have come to an end.

I'm currently holidaying in London and had a hard time sleeping last night due to mothers snoring, so I stayed awake most of the night listening to music and had some quite deep personal reflections.

Anyway, come about 6am I had just fallen asleep again and was having ridiculous dreams to which I realised I was dreaming, I remember being in a house and had predators outside and once I realised I said, 'I don't have to put up with this excrement, take me now!' - i put my arms up in the air and I was expecting to get whisked up and out but I actually fell through my bed and was sucked into a fuzzy abyss like a vortex, I was floating around and could feel the wind in my hair, I was trying to open my astral eye I see where I was but my physical eye would open and I would then get whisked back until i eventually came back to my body.

I am very happy with my first experience and hoping I've opened a spiritually opening can of worms. Woohoo!

Hope you are all well.

I havent projected yet but a couple of weeks ago my best friend said she was floating above me trying to get me out, but my legs were stuck. I remember rolling over at some point in the night ( I had only about three house sleep) and saying to myself "i'm too tired to project", i didnt think it had anything to do with her though, i pretty much try to project every time i lucid dream now and no such luck

Who knows!

Yes Xanth got it!!

I'll also add It's not like a schitzophrenic thing .. it sounds like it but I know it isn't, I'm not fearful of it if that makes a difference haha

I hear people talking. Now It's in my mind, I can't hear what they're saying or it's just random words, I cant really follow it, dont know if my brain is doing it or if I'm tapping into something else.

I also half dream and shock myself awake because I've fallen off something and hit the floor / believed my story in my head and gotten frightened. The more I'm aware of all of this the more creepy my existance becomes haha

So I was having whack dreams this morning about god knows what and I realised I'm dreaming, (I'm having a thing right now where either I'm realising I'm dreaming or It's just a part of the dream where I say I realise it but I actually don't, HA) and after I "realised" I was still dreaming and half aware of my body, but my brain was in gear, I knew it was early morning and that I could attempt to project.

Well, what a swirly confusing mess that was. I could feel parts of my body rising up, swirling around me and then going back into my body and it seemes to happen for ages, I could feel certain limbs separating and then would come back down, it was all feeling, nothing visual apart from swirly blackness (I'm using that word a lot but it's really working for me) and then after a while I got ticked off and rolled over.

Yay for getting closer though, but I do wonder what's holding me back. I realise It's a part of me holding me back but can't figure it out...as in this state this morning I went from noticing what was happening to actively trying to get out and vice versa and neither worked.

Blah. But cool. But mostly blah coz I'm angry today.

True.

I have a hungry mind

Why would you think a poorly educated Redneck "hick" wouldn't learn anything?

We learn from experiencing. That's the reason we CHOSE to view life through these physical bodies.

Whether you are a poorly educated Redneck or a wealthy Aristocrat, they are both experiences. 

I may have worded that wrong. I'm saying that if you lived a handful of lives and learned several important lessons, then started a new life in an incredibly hateful and unevolved society and due to your upbringing and your environment you ended up not unlearning such lessons but committing crimes or doing things that would render you unlearned of said lessons. Due to such circumstances there are people who don't have any chance at all, fed the wrong food so have undernourished bodies and brains, taught hate from their parents etc etc .... they have no concept of lesson learning and karma and perhaps wouldn't learn anything at all due to said reasons

I hope I'm making sense haha

I kind of find this topic a little unnerving for the multiple reasons.

-Who dictates what true enlightenment is?
-Do you have to experience 100% enlightenment to finish your work on earth?
-Does this mean that monk type individuals are the only ones who won't come back for more lessons?
-If you learned the lesson last time but due to cultural reasons or the fact that you grew up in a redneck hick town and are poorly educated and due ot those reasons have no concept of any such lessons cause you to start your learning all over again? (I ask this because I don't believe we take memories from life to life AT ALL).

-I ask these questions because I don't think everyday people who are stuck in the westernised trap of greed and consumerism and think of nothing outside of themselves realise any of this.

-There's a number of conflicting ideas I believe in, I do think we have to learn certain lessons, but I don't think they're that serious. If we have been given free will, and we are good people with good morlas, isn't that enough?

The Dalai Lama could have been Hitler in a past life, and their parents, environment, education and culture could have been the only deciding factors. (And perhaps karma)

UNNERVING. Lol.

I don't think that sort of stuff is relevant when you're a spirit? I also think that if you take too much of your mind/haven't learned any lessons/are stuck in a state of unforgiveness then you stay here until It's resolved and then you go home. Why would anyone want to stay here as a spirit with all there is to offer on the other side? Pure bliss and peace, I assume. It makes no sense. And that's the fault of the human mind when taken over by human emotion (i.e possiveness, not forgiving and letting go, guilt etc)

-Interesting! I've read a fair bit of Eckhard Tolle, none of that guy though. Any serious recommendations? I can tell when my ego is having a hissy fit over something and just smile it tell it it's going to be okay

And go! I keep finding crap .. I do love the one by ChristinaDream, but it's not long enough and when she is encouraging you to get out of your body her whispering is too harsh and it takes away your relaxation. Listened to some Paul Santisi ones sounds more hypnotic than anything.

Also what's your opinion on binaural beats? Some of my friends think they make them see entities and scary faces in their imagery. When deeply meditating I tend to hear very faint conversations of other people in different accents and I have no control over what's being said, is it possible my auditory attention/body has tapped into something?

Excuse all the random questions they all came to me at once

One strong cup of it affected my dreaming for two days!

A way to look at anxiety or stress is a simple detachment from the current moment. So when the feelings arise, if you can breathe deeply three times and come "back" to the present momen,t if you keep doing it, the anxiety and stress tends to dissipate

Just like AP it takes perseverance though!

Dreams two nights ago: (after I had mugwort tea)
I was at a music festival (this seems to be the current trend of my dreams at the moment!) and I needed to use the restrooms, which were very rickety and a lot of girls were in there. Blokes started walking in and trying to get us, so I ushed everyone into a room and held the door shut while several men tried to break in, I was punching them over the top of the door and they wouldn't let up, they had mis-shaped heads and sharp teeth (they wanted to sexually assault us, avoinding a certain word here because its horrible ) and my punches weren't working, someone came in swinging a base ball bat and knocked some of them out. We all ran out, then I realised I still needed to use the toilet so I went back in, men started walking in and I thought to myself "I'm not going to do that to myself again", then found my best friend and cried to her about what happened.

---------Last nights dreams, no mugwort tea, but I suspect there was residue because I was dreaming at 2AM and at 6AM----
ANother festival, lots of big rats around which I was trying to avoid, its a bit of a blur, however I became a tour guide of some description on a big bus. Upon standing at the front of it, the charater from V for Vendetta came on the bus and kindly asked me to hand him the PA. I handed it to him and he started talking in his character voice and set a timer. It was a bomb, which was going to go off in 3 1/2 minutes. I realised after a few stops that I would die, so I ran for the door at one of the stops (he was sort of watching me but sort of not) and I landed back where I started, at a weird festival, with lots of BIG rats, and then I woke up.

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I've had some very positive dreams in the past two weeks, prior to catching up with my ex, then ive seen him, some negativity has come back to mind and these dreams have started. I think the universe is sick of me making mistakes because its not what I want and I'm actually in control of my destiny at this point...anyway, thats my interpretation at the moment!!

I realise this post is old but I had a very strong cup of mugwort last night and all I can say is it extended my REM sleep and dreams quite substantially (as the packet said it would) and I did it earlier in the night than usual, I would also fall back asleep quicker than usual and dream again instantly, however I didn't prep for it (affirmations, intent) the night before and had some pretty twisted dreams.

Definitely worth pursuing again with intent in mind, and isn't too revolting to drink albeit slight bitterness.

I think people need to gauge someones beliefs before they offer peronsal opinion, especialyl when someone is grieving.

I had three people tell me my dads time was up (he was killed in a freak accident) and I wanted to strangle them. One went as far as to say how dare I think otherwise. I'm glad I don't see that aunty very often.

My dad despised his job and he was spiralling down and couldn't afford to quit, and he wanted out for years. My belief is that if you want something bad enough but you don't specifiy conditions the universe will deliver, so instead of him being fired he was taken out. Manifestation if you will. This isn't my concept of everyone's death but anyone who tells you their opinion and refuses to hear another isn't worth talking to at all and for a while I was sad I never got to say that to them, to atleast open their eyes to other possibilities.

There are also tactful ways you can express yourself without harm and it takes trial and error and also a decent grip on social awareness, I have almost eliminated all arguments with my sister by expressing myself differently.

Aaaaaaaand after a successful sleep I can reply properly now.

I aim to project without fear but also realise I could enounter things that make me fearful, I got close again last night with a Paul Santisi meditation but find myself getting exhausted if thats possible after an hour, but ultimately am grateful for the experience anyway because whenever I have been doing that I wake up happy with a clear head and my life goals in focus, so atleast if I don't succeed at this point in time I am gaining something anyway!

I have no religious beliefs, I am firmly agnostic, so there's no issues there. I am already aware that all of us are more than physical bodies and basically (and this is a quote from the book I'm reading, Astral Projection for Psychic Empowerment) I'm simply doing it to "become more than I am" and open up to worlds most humans are ignorant of. I think we can do so much more healing on a physical and spiritual level during the night and really want to become part of something bigger, and more important than all of the bull excrement we're told is important. Even though I guess It's ignorant of me to have expectations, I do expect that such experiences will perhaps detach myself from consumerism and other traps we've been told are necesseties in life and yeah, be that little bit wiser

No, thank you! I appreciate the detail immensely I envy people's ability to have a spontaneous OBE since I have been vaguely interested in it for years but only recently became very interested, but I guess given the fear you experienced would have been terrifying for you and I'm glad you overcame that! Sorry Im very tired and not making much sense, either way, your post was interested and useful

Yes, better

Okay, that doesn't help me at all though.

Where did you land during your first projection? Is it based on intent? I expect that I'll project into my bedroom and if I can stay in that state choose where to go from there...

So after 20 minutes of not moving at all I began to feel my hands go numb (in a pleasant way, not in a lack of circulation way), and the sensation creeped up my arms slowly until I was lamost 100% not aware of my body, my viiosn was flashing and pulsating, my ears got particularly noisy, my eyes started flickering, my heart beat bagn to soar and I had a tunnel in front of me that I was going down and then .....it dissipated into nothingness like a passing storm.

Was this Focus 10? How close would one assume I would be to projecting? Instead of trying to throw my body outside of itself I'm simply imagining transferring my awareness to my astral body which is already outside of myself according to Robert Monroe correct?

This was last night as well as about 10.30PM, I was very tired but stayed awake and alert for an entire hour by focusing on my third eye, very cool technique! Didn't quite make it though! I imagine if I did this at 6AM I may have been able to get out....

....I think I'm close?

Where is this method??

I wasn't aware I provided a definition of dream...please elaborate!