I really appreciate the advice guys, I had already went to someone for professional help and they kept me in rehab for 6 months twice, also giving me all sorts of medication that would sedate the crap out of me but wouldn't really fix the main problems, their advice on the problems weren't very helpful and half the time they would nearly fall asleep whilst taking to me, I'm not over exaggerating honestly they didn't help at all. My social worker would think I was paranoid for watching ufo videos on Youtube even when not showing any signs of anxiety or paranoia which really annoyed me, she would say I needed to see the doctor again, even my other carers thought she was mad for doing it. At the moment I'm just doing what I enjoy doing which is drowning the voices and visuals out with over the top thinking about what i'm going to do with my life and I also think about random things like how the universe could've began and how our souls were formed what not it really keeps me happy for the time being, also I watch a lot of asmr which helps so much. I'm sure things will turn around eventually, again thanks for replying guys