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just get some urge for no reason to view the clock and it would be 11:11

I had an urge to view this forum and then an urge to view this thread. By the time I had finished reading your message and turned to the clock, it was 11.11 (am) here in the Uk. That is the first time I have looked at the clock since setting out of bed around 3 hours ago.

Thats some freaky excrement right there.

Hi man,

When I was younger I used to fantasize about violent stuff all the time and I am (have always been) the most gentle soul you will meet.

You will find the two most common things that people fantasize about are procreation and causing harm to others (for men anyway, who knows what women think about!). I guess those things are rooted deep in our sub consious.

As Dizzy Rascal puts it:

All I care about is sex and violence

Cheers for the replies,

Yes I'm still on meds (been taking them for around 5 years now), and I'm not sure if I would call this fun! Having people aware of your inner most thoughts is really scary. Infact I would describe my mental state over the last 5 years as scared out of my mind.

I read a post on here last night about psy-vampires, well thinking back to when this all began, the voices did introduce themselves as being vampires who had come to take my energy. These voices and images of faces etc would visit me each night, I never really recovered from it although it doesnt happen anymore (touch wood). Is there something that could be done to fix that kind of damage?

Its reallly freaky how much of what went on in those dark days I find talked about online, things the voices said to me that that other people have experienced to.

Its one seriously f**ked up world I live in!

Hi, not sure if this is the right place to post this but the shear amount of available forums is a little over whelming for a newbie.

Anyway, here is my story.

I have always been a bit of a loner and had a bit of an episode at 21 after a few years binging heavily on canabis. I would smoke a lot of the stuff and just sit with my thoughts, almost meditating I guess (looking back on it).

Well I went pretty crazy, seeing things and hearing voices. The doctors refused to label what was wrong, but I was certain that people could hear the thoughs in my head. This dellusion has never really left me.

I have lived a pretty "normal" life for the last few years, but recently took a step backwards. Basically, I have the most random thoughts pop into my head - things I would never think of my self. And people who are in close proximity say these things out loud.

It feels as if their thoughts are popping into my head before they say them, I guess. Or maybe my thought gets put into their head, so they shout it out. Except these things are not my thoughts, I dunno where they come from.

For example I looked at a girl the other day as she and a boy were walking towards me. The thought "hello sid" popped into my head and as they walked past, she said the same thing to the boy, as part of her conversation. I dont even know anyone called Sid!

Really this is the most craziest experience that anyone could have.

As the doctors have no clue and every other link on the internet just says "keep taking your meds", I just wondered if someone with an open mind could shed some light onto this for me?

Cheers,
Mad_head