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Hey Im new here and am going to be pretty dedicated in a lot of the techniques on this site (and psipog), but one thing holdin me back is fear.  Im 15 and im sorta tall lanky but fit anyway ever since I was little I have had fear of really pointless things and am scared pretty easyily (when im alone that is). Well I was ready to jump into practicing this stuff but then I found all these topics about negs and watchers and that scares the pants off me to even think about, like it makes me even look over my shoulder now...  Im gunna try a bwgen preset that said should help, but I think I have a lot of potential in me because im debating right now weither or not im a natural, and I dont think I should let the fear stop me but it is really hard.  Ive even had counceling that helped a little (like I wouldnt go in my basement) but now when I try to sleep all i can think about is damn negs or crap sittin there starin at me.

actually someone explained that it was the mirror in the background that did that

I think I messed up my sleeping patterns with just liek 2 nights of a lucid dream preset.  Now I wake up around 4 AM (im used ot wakign up at 11 AM). and just last night I layed down at 12 am and didnt sleep till 6 am then woke up fully at 8:30 am... bah

well an example is I was laying in bed last nigh just like trying not to concentrate about negs or any of that crap and my vision like flashed and seemed to me my field of view was getting bigger with each pulse (which were in a pretty loud audible rythm to me) but that freaked me out so i just rolled over and tryed not to think about anything.