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I would like to share with you a story, about how I literally EXPERIENCED the EGO/CHRIST CONSCIENSESS mind and what it felt like. I am a student of A Course in Miracles,and this is what it talks about, and I actually felt it. So I KNOW it is truth. At the tiime I had no clue.

I went to a Catholic priest of all people, who did what he called "Slain in the Spirit" healings, but I didn't know that at the time. All I knew was what I saw him do at a mass..he touched people on the forehead lightly with holy oil and they fell over like bowling pins, Priests altar boys, nuns and lay people.However at that Mass I did not fall, so I figured it was a buncha crap. But years later, my 92 yr old mother made a private appointment with him for me.
He is a very tiny man can't weigh over 140. I am very tall and heavy I weighed at that time about 190.
We met in an office at the college he worked out of. I faced him, he touched my forhead and I fell like a ton of bricks. Now this very tiny man, put ONE skinny arm behind me and gently laid me on the floor. My mother was a witness, she said she couldn't believe it.
I layed there, and my mother said I never moved an eyelash.
Here's what it was like.
Of course my eyes were closed.
On one hand I was TOTALLY aware of what was going on around me. I "SAW" my mother sitting on the couch at my head, bending down looking at my face very intently. Also, I "saw" Rev MacPhearson kneeling on one knee over me, saying very fast, "Holy Spirit come down come down" over and over again.
And someone came in, it was a student that needed to get something out of a file closet that I was laying in front of. He had to step over me and I thought, this is ridiculous I have to GET UP!!
BUT! I couldn't. Because while my EGO mind was analyzing etc, the other half of me was experiencing this TOTAL COMPLETE SILENCE. It was what was holding me there on the floor, this NOTHING. If Someone had set a bomb off I couldn't have moved. SILENCE and NOTHING was what was in control, not me/ my ego. It was amazing. Now, there wasn't any bliss, or ANY emotion at all. Just SILENCE..a VOID. but a FULL void.
And  later when I started A Course in  Miracles, I realized THAT was the split mind. That is the goal..to reach in my awareness, this silence, where everything and nothing is.
I only wish I had known enough to focus my ego self on the silence, instead of on what was going on around me. And it was also weird that I could see..even the student..talll blonde and handsome, my mother confirmed this..but my eyes were closed.
So I thought I would share this with you spiritual seekers..the split mind is a fact Jack!
Blessing to all..Ametrine

Hi E1.
I am new here, and thought maybe I could get some help with an ongoing problem.
Every time I meditate, the deeper I go, the sadder and heavier I feel.
Once I was Very deep, and the pain was so bad when I brought myself up, I was literally suicidal..I ended up in the hospital for a week. Now normally, I'm fine. I WANT to meditate, I've read and prayed till I'm blue in the face.  But as I go into a quiet state, I get to a point where I feel like I am just a puddle there on the floor.. a blob of screaming pain.
One Psychic told me I had been a slave in Lemuria in a past life, and that the men would put metal plates over the slave's Chakras so they could not become spiritually aware. She said I had that residue still.
Be that as it may, true or not, I need this to end.I havetiried Chakra clearing.
I've tried wearing Hematite to help block the negative energy I may be picking up..but no dice.
I have worked with the fear factor, also..I thought maybe the sadness was disguising the fear..but I don't think that's it. You know about the BLISS people talk about?? I experience the opposite of Bliss ,the opposite of Nirvana and I have NEVER been that sad (what a weak word to describe it) in wakefulness..even when I was hospitalized.
Anyway, since then, I rarely meditate, and if I do I tread lightly. As soon as I feel the heaviness coming I stop. Now how am I Going to reach my Christ/Higher Self, if I can't MEDITATE?
I am also a student of A Course in Miracles..which ALSO tells you to quiet your mind!
Thanks for listening..

Tried followong these directions but it didn't come out PIC was from webshots..oh well will try again.later. meanwhile those who know what they are doing, great work!
I have an excellent pic of a  spirit male ascending to tunnel of light. It is on my personal webshot collection and I would like to post it here..does anyone know how to do this??? Thanks. The pic is on my desktop right now..

FANTASTIC PICS!!! Thank ssooo much and keep em coming!!! I LOVE them they make me feel that some of these artists KNOW and have experienced what I've only read about. They make the goal visible thanks sooooo much!

I read somewhere that life has absolutley NO purpose OR meaning other than the purpose and meaning WE decide to give it. WE  decide what or how we wish to BE and then make the statement to the Universe that THIS decision is OUR meaning and purpose to our life. I like that theory. It's all about creation....So What do you WANT the meaning of your life to be??

Hi
It could be an Orb..try this site (just copy and paste if it's not live)  Tyou can learn more there and there are lots of pics of orbs..

http://axgxhxoxsxt.tripod.com/amateurghosthuntersofseattletacoma/id34.html

http://axgxhxoxsxt.tripod.com/ghostlystoriesampphotos/id6.html
Good photos of orbs here too you can mail them a pic and they will tell you if you got something.


Orbs are balls of energy that are naked to the human eye. Some say they are spirits..you can do a search on orbs too.

THANK you timeless!
I am going to bed soon, but I will read these tommorow when I am less fuzzy from fatigue. I so apprecialte you taking the time to respond!!

As for the Ametrine purchase..well there ARE no coincidences! Enjoy it!
This is a new angle..I appreciate it. Many thanks and blessings and I will keep you posted on what happens!

Hi,Ensoñador
I am sorry I cannot help you with this paticular dream. But I wanted to communicate with you to tell you how impressed I am with some of you other posts. Are you basically saying, "The Is IS."? Because I think that that is the pinnacle of wisdom and I wonder, with your wisdom, that we are searching for something that doesn't exist, Does this belief bring you inner Peace? And is it KNOWLEDGE? or belief?
And how did you come to this knowledge at 21 yrs of age?
I think I see what you are saying, that all this searching for our higher selves, Spirit etc, is looking for something that just IS, not something that exists, does that make sense and is that what you mean?
I find the way you express yourself fascinating and would like to hear more.
As for your dream..maybe looking up the meaning of the number 10 in numerology might shed some light on it, and what did /does your grandfather mean to you? I find that if I write down a dream, all the details, and especially WHAT I WAS FEELING during the dream, clarity ALWAYS comes as I write! Try it!
Looking forward to communicating with you more...Alison aka Ametrine

Nay,
I had almost the same experience..I was standing at the top of the stairs calling my husband, and when he didn't answer, I looked around, saw that everything was hazy and I felt WICKED heavy  and I thought, OMG I'm having an OBE! I didn't like it at all, I had thought I would feel lighter, and it basically SUCKED!  So I thought "BACK IN!" aand I immediatly went back in and opened my eyes.
I said to myself, W[xx(]ell if THAT'S an OBE, I don't wanna do it again!
So when I read your post, I was glad to hear someone else experienced the heaviness too. I am new here, and learning alot..maybe with e-1's help, I'll give it another shot. How do I make it better???