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Hi, Ive always wondered how much the greatest minds of humanity gave us, Leibnitz, Schopenhauer, Wittgenstein, Godel,Goethe, Tesla to cite a few... and how a little part of these people's minds would be enough to comprehend a single individual's life thoughts..... they were-are infinity.
Besides a purely biological point of view I think they must have been 'inspired' by some sort of higher intelligence, resonating with theirs.Maybe this intelligence was already 'there' since the beginning of life on earth ; just like if by visiting an higher astral plane one accesses to higher knowledge too.Nowadays intelligence isnt 'explained' and more so genius isnt.
The 'purity' of one genius' energies and thoughts that lets an individual to reach levels of intelligence so high and- detached from the rest of humanity level, makes me wonder , alien-human beings or merely extreme intelligence?

I think my soul has been 'torn to pieces' by dark
Geniality people(vampires) and depression led me to almost suicide.My identity is gone.
I want my hopes and true self back now and forever, many people are
parasites and dont care on how much pain they inflict you by
'taking' a part of you when you're instead loyal and very open as a friend.My fault is to have always been too open, I have very often nightmares and disturbing dreams, my life isnt anymore the same.
What can I do to discover 'unconscios links' that evil willed people have put in my mind now that im very less aware of myself, given the premices?I want to be free and only the idea of being 'controlled by people abhorres me.I feel 'tapped' always and also when I'm at home.

I dont know any shaman in my zone, do you know other ways to bring back these lost parts of myself?
Thanks very much

Luca from italy

Of course higher intelligence ipothetically was 'resonating' with them for a great degree.Social inadaptation could be a  product of one genius' difficulty to find other same level IQ mates and  who cares to talk with 150 times less intelligent people?
If population's mean intelligence level would rise to the point of about 150 IQ, things would be different.

Why life has taken its toll on me?
AT 16 hells' gates opened to me and I still have to find an exit,

Hi All Thank you very much for the advices in this my crisis period.

Kristen, yes its true I'm exercising to 'close' my chackras when I'm with strangers, especially in crowded places, but should one also close his brow chackra and crown chackra?I red that the crown one should remain open since it connects one to his guidance(s)?
I'm carrying with me a black tourmaline and an hematite to deflect negativity , are there any other more powerful stones to offer protection?I've got an Atlantis ring which should help too, but of course real protection comes from the inside.I'm attracted by 'rubys'.

Sometimes I happen to feel a strange and unpleasant sensation at my solar plexus like if the person i was talking with were pushing some kind of 'energetic tie' to me, could it be possible?The fact is I feel that when Im with my grandmother, so that may be why I have fallen in depression so badly while she at age 87 still outscores her younger (70-74 years) sisters when playing cards!
How can I cut all ties that bind me to bad willed people and either suck/try to motivate me based upon their will, like a parasite could do indeed?
I have to resolve this problem as soon as possible, because I need my own pure frequency and energy back.I also use an Herkimer diamond which I read helps cleanse the subtle bodies, is it true or are there any more effective methods/stones etc..?

Mobius, "You said near the end "that evil willed people have put into my mind".You are the one in charge of you , you validated their
opinion by telling yourself that they are somehow more important
than you & their opinion of you somehow had more value than your own
opinion.For instance if I said to you " Hey Falken, you are an idiot"
(I dont mean it of course)& you said back to me
" Hey Mobius! you make me feel bad & you hurt my feelings" is all
assuming some one else is responsible for your life, so you need to
take back control & say " I , made myself feel bad & I hurt my own
feelings because of what I told myself about your reaction to me."

When self esteem ends, you have little awareness about who you really are (and was) then other people can drive their way inside your mind easily.Remember it was like being 'blackened' inside ,to give the idea.Of course Im regaining a little strenght as time passes but it took many years and detaching from people whom I felt addicted to.
I fighted and still fight to keep the boundaries form me and others but since my identity was so impaired I couldnt fight, like being trapped.Im my own judge, that goes without saying,

Violet, Im sorry for your mother, I havent got a supposedly 'biological' disease like clinical depression or bipolar disorder, BPD has an emotional trigger maybe 'fired' in the infancy, its a psychological problem.My BPD level is low too and I will 'heal' I think soon.
Yes fortunately I found the right psychologist and medician and wouldnt change them with anyone else, some other psychologists/psychiatrists are instead 'bad' apples in the medical community and should be fired from their profession.I would bring them to the tribunal if I only had the money...  My brain is me.
Ill try the eyes exercise buy I should find one for left-handed people like me since brain function/areas are different.Im gifted in an IQ sense, even if I had some premonition dreams, unfortunately about bad things.Im trying to explore this part of myself.

Yes Anon Im working on myself and trying to re-establish order in my mind and regain self esteem.
But I have a weak form of borderline so to speak.Antipsychotics are dangerous drugs which were given me by unprofessional medicians.
I would have liked to be put under a ton of Valium instead, you see the difference.According to both my psychologist and psychiatr. I shouldnt have been given these filthy medications,In fact im on a mood stabilizer and 2 antidepressants now.


Yes Mobius thank you all very much I feel your love
Im on Effexor 150mg/day,prozac 10 mgs day and neurontin 600 mgs per die.
NO, "Sounds like as stated before you have a few illnesses that have had
all tags like : depressive, psychotic, manic depressive, excessive
compulsive & Agrophobia, quite a bundle you have created for
yourself.So try another doctor, physician, hospital, medication,
but try something! as what you are taking & what you are doing is
not working.But now your on it, like stated before dont stop
taking them suddenly whatever you do."
They misdiagnosed me and Ive never been neither psychotic and/or manic depressive or whatever they labeled me until last year.
Borderline and stop.Neither 'agoraphobic', sorry but you invent things.Yes 'they' put these tags on me.Im already safe with the competent phisicians Im seeing now, thanks,

Once again thank you all for this warm welcome

Luca

Hi All Thank you very much for the advices in this my crisis period.

Kristen, yes its true I'm exercising to 'close' my chackras when I'm with strangers, especially in crowded places, but should one also close his brow chackra and crown chackra?I red that the crown one should remain open since it connects one to his guidance(s)?
I'm carrying with me a black tourmaline and an hematite to deflect negativity , are there any other more powerful stones to offer protection?I've got an Atlantis ring which should help too, but of course real protection comes from the inside.I'm attracted by 'rubys'.

Sometimes I happen to feel a strange and unpleasant sensation at my solar plexus like if the person i was talking with were pushing some kind of 'energetic tie' to me, could it be possible?The fact is I feel that when Im with my grandmother, so that may be why I have fallen in depression so badly while she at age 87 still outscores her younger (70-74 years) sisters when playing cards!
How can I cut all ties that bind me to bad willed people and either suck/try to motivate me based upon their will, like a parasite could do indeed?
I have to resolve this problem as soon as possible, because I need my own pure frequency and energy back.I also use an Herkimer diamond which I read helps cleanse the subtle bodies, is it true or are there any more effective methods/stones etc..?

Mobius, "You said near the end "that evil willed people have put into my mind".You are the one in charge of you , you validated their
opinion by telling yourself that they are somehow more important
than you & their opinion of you somehow had more value than your own
opinion.For instance if I said to you " Hey Falken, you are an idiot"
(I dont mean it of course)& you said back to me
" Hey Mobius! you make me feel bad & you hurt my feelings" is all
assuming some one else is responsible for your life, so you need to
take back control & say " I , made myself feel bad & I hurt my own
feelings because of what I told myself about your reaction to me."

When self esteem ends, you have little awareness about who you really are (and was) then other people can drive their way inside your mind easily.Remember it was like being 'blackened' inside ,to give the idea.Of course Im regaining a little strenght as time passes but it took many years and detaching from people whom I felt addicted to.
I fighted and still fight to keep the boundaries form me and others but since my identity was so impaired I couldnt fight, like being trapped.Im my own judge, that goes without saying,

Violet, Im sorry for your mother, I havent got a supposedly 'biological' disease like clinical depression or bipolar disorder, BPD has an emotional trigger maybe 'fired' in the infancy, its a psychological problem.My BPD level is low too and I will 'heal' I think soon.
Yes fortunately I found the right psychologist and medician and wouldnt change them with anyone else, some other psychologists/psychiatrists are instead 'bad' apples in the medical community and should be fired from their profession.I would bring them to the tribunal if I only had the money...  My brain is me.
Ill try the eyes exercise buy I should find one for left-handed people like me since brain function/areas are different.Im gifted in an IQ sense, even if I had some premonition dreams, unfortunately about bad things.Im trying to explore this part of myself.

Yes Anon Im working on myself and trying to re-establish order in my mind and regain self esteem.
But I have a weak form of borderline so to speak.Antipsychotics are dangerous drugs which were given me by unprofessional medicians.
I would have liked to be put under a ton of Valium instead, you see the difference.According to both my psychologist and psychiatr. I shouldnt have been given these filthy medications,In fact im on a mood stabilizer and 2 antidepressants now.


Yes Mobius thank you all very much I feel your love
Im on Effexor 150mg/day,prozac 10 mgs day and neurontin 600 mgs per die.
NO, "Sounds like as stated before you have a few illnesses that have had
all tags like : depressive, psychotic, manic depressive, excessive
compulsive & Agrophobia, quite a bundle you have created for
yourself.So try another doctor, physician, hospital, medication,
but try something! as what you are taking & what you are doing is
not working.But now your on it, like stated before dont stop
taking them suddenly whatever you do."
They misdiagnosed me and Ive never been neither psychotic and/or manic depressive or whatever they labeled me until last year.
Borderline and stop.Neither 'agoraphobic', sorry but you invent things.Yes 'they' put these tags on me.Im already safe with the competent phisicians Im seeing now, thanks,

Once again thank you all for this warm welcome

Luca

I'm really in a bad condition now.This is the email i sent to Daniel too.It all began when I was 15 , I became very aggressive and violent and began to destroy furniture in my home and doing 'crazy things' like constantly washing my hands and continually having showers even in the middle of the night (3a.m.), That brought the attenction to social workers' -which actually ruin peoples lives- and my mother asked them to put me in a 'correction house' for some time.
There I was with handicapped people, ex-heroinomans, mad people and that ruined my psyche further.Moreover im gifted
Let me consider: when I was o.c.d. actually i feared germs and contamination, maybe an unconscious part of me was telling me about something wrong.
In the same period i continued going to high school and there was a guy in my class that was addicted to hash and drugs, very manipulative towards other people and more with me.Seeing me as weak empowered him to take control of my thoughts in part.In my 2nd year I smoked hash and drank lots of beer in a school trip, afther that experience I fell down a hell,  a mental hell.It was like he(my classmate) was sucking all my energies and the drug consumption was the last shot to make me literally 'crush down'.In the following years I have been more and more confused and depressed , very negative even without wanting it.
A physician prescribed me the wrong medications (antipsychotics) and ruined my adolescence and i think- my brain.I was a 16 years old zombie.
Others in my class exploited this period of further weakness for sucking me more and more energy, thus ruining me to the bone.
I was an old person for the final exam.This period of weakness broke my psychic defences almost at all and i attracted all kinds of energies and misfortune.
Now Im 22 and still cant do an university exam because I fear going where there are so many people and cant put together my pieces of mind, literally thorn by all these events , my self confidence is gone and I dont know anymore who i am, im an empty shell.
My psychologist told me that 'work creates being' yeah but i cant and dont want to show myself the misery i have become.I think all the years under the wrong medications ruined me too .Im diagnosed as 'borderline' and im taking antidepressants .Antipsychotics are given to psychotic people or bipolars with agitation to my knowledge.
My psychic defences are so low that I feel im vulnerable to every people and situation.I cant continue living in such a way
Daniel thats how I feel and how life ruined me.They murdered me.

Luca

*by dark people* and *geniality is gone*
excuse the mistakes