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Yes.. It reflects the kinds of energies that are flowing thru you and from you.

Anyone know of a Technique for strengthening ones aura?

I'm not sure what else I can say. It seemed that I had woken up and walked into my Studio room. Thats when I noticed that I wasn't awake. My Body felt like a jelly.. Then a fear came over me and I tried to meditate to hold onto the OOB but I lost control and I snapped back into my body.
Still though for the longest time I can't get out of my Bed or Couch.

I'm so excited today because I had the most successful OOB I have had since 1994. Normally I can't move my head.. I have to drag it with my hands as if it was an anchor. But Last night I got up off my Couch and walked into my studio room. I know that doesn't sound like much but it's the furthest I have made it in a looooong time. I then started to get scared because I was afraid I would lose my confidence being out and sure enough I snapped back into my body.
I really hope I can do this again tonight..

I'm just writing this so that the moderator knows that I don't believe in super science and mind control as well as conspiracies. I just didn't want you thinking that I ended up screwed up because of what someone posted.

Well I don't have a business yet but what I wanted to do is have people vote on what we should donate to.

Eggs actlee!! Thats what I keep saying.. If this highly organized group with perfect stealth like capabilities as well as surveillance and tactics.. I would have been dead years ago..

They want me to die.. I feel as if they are gonna try to kill me and make it look like some kind of suicide.. But this is just not realistic.. I would never kill myself..

They say that I'm a danger to organized society..Thus they want to kill me. But I say to them.. Why? You let people like Marylin Manson to get famous but someone like me who want to help people.. I'm the dangerous one?? Makes no sense.. I'm looking to make a business that raises funds for charity organizations.. how does this make me a danger to society? I've met schizophrenics in my time that are far more a danger than me.

The Mental health Agency that I goto for treatment say that I am unusual in the fact that I can handle my disease alot better than most Schizos.. When ever I talk to them they always say how they are so proud of me that I can deal with it like I can. But I still deal with issues even though I can handle it.. I wish I could just wish it all away and have a normal life.. What do I mean by normal? Well.. How it use to be when I was a teenager with no voices and stuff.. I want that feeling of security and stability once again.

Because they say that they are the CIA and not some inter-dimensional beings..

They (voices) try to make me think I'm sort of special Schizo.. Which is just stupid.. It's alot like "A Beautiful Mind" but the difference is I know they aren't real.. It's just annoying that I have to struggle with the thought.

Thats just it.. I have no power or anything.. Just hallucinations and Delusions.. So why would an organization stalk me? Because I can Astral Project? All of you can as well right?
There is nothing special about me..

I am already having Psych services.. I have a Psychiatrist, Therapist, Case Manager and a Outreach Worker.
I take meds and I'm doing ok on them. I'm just looking for an alternative approach..

Actually it's a little more mundane than that.. These are humans that I "sense" they are more like government agents. There just isn't any logical reason why they would be after me.

I know without a doubt that this is delusional. I'm a diagnosed Paranoid Schizophrenia. I feel as if there is some organization who is after me. I know this is unrealistic.. Does anyone know of like banishing rituals or something else that could help me deal with this.. I have casted a couple of protection spells but I was wondering if anyone else might have some better advice.

I've been having a problem when I get out of my body.. I can move my arms and legs freely but my head can't.. It's like an Anchor being dragged through thick Mud. I hate it when this happens.. Anyone know what this is and how I can fix it?