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This is really strange.

I am on a new medication called Vyvanse to help with my ADD, known for one of its side effects being depression, but I find it strange how I am not depressed when I am astral projecting, in fact I feel amazingly great, but when I'm in the physical world I feel heavy, mournful and depressed. Mom commented that I seem "serious" and not my usual, humorous self. It's really sad because in the past two days I've projected again and it was some of the most epic, fulfilling projecting sessions I've ever done!

I dunno - is it my meds? Is it an addiction to staying in the astral world? What might it be?

I bet you all your star warz guys that you're not the only one on this planet with whatever fetish that is. 
That's just about a guarantee.

Wow you think? That's awesome! I guess you're right.

And yes I do love Star Wars...the Jedi Order has really influenced my own personal spirituality

Thanks for feed back. So this gist of it is, is ok, as long as it's not over the top.

Basically yes.

Also I have a fetish probably no one else on the entire world has, making it nearly impossible for "normal" porn to satisfy me...hence the reason for my dislike of normal porn, besides its profane and vulgar (and often abusive) nature - too much cussing, females acting abusive to the viewer (the THOUGHT alone that being verbally abused is a turn-on makes me wanna hurl!) and the fact that a lot of female pornstars are (in my opinion) quite ugly...they may have sensually-appealing bodies but often their faces are harsh and probably prematurely aged from hard drug use (considering the seedy, gutter nature of most porn.)

I'm more of a hentai guy myself when I DO watch porn, but that's because anime women have an angelic beauty, innocence and sexiness all at once...MUCH better imho than "real life" porn. Well then again perhaps I'm biased since my guardian angel appears to me as an anime/manga girl.

My thoughts exactly...

The more you pressure yourself the less you'll be able to do it.
I kind of agree, I can be VERY hard on myself

Distractions can be bad and good at the same time- sometimes it's better to continue to practice without  the expectation of projection, and 'recharge your batteries'.
Elaborate if you can?

But sometimes the feeling that you need to do it for a reason will be what gets in the way of projection.
Lame! But I see what you mean. But yeah...even meditation is hard for me nowadays, probably because I want to be able to do it perfectly, and go through my ideal meditation routine every time, which would take at least 45 minutes, an impossible feat unless I get up at 4:30 AM!

So anyways, how do YOU project? What are some steps, if you don't mind me asking? I'm always open to try newer, possibly better-suited methods.

I can only speak from my experience, but I can say that I am very hormonal and when I am "horny" it is very hard for me to focus on proper meditation, and I will usually get up and fap when I should be meditating...fapping turns to web surfing, and web surfing turns to distraction, such as playing video games, watching Youtube, etc. Now I'm definitely not saying looking at porn causes you to always lose focus so much you start doing other distracting stuff, just that's how it is for me. Also happens when I'm trying to sleep.

And I've always hated the notion that sexuality is a "sin" because "God" says so...being a pagan I have a lot to disagree with Christians about, since we've been persecuted by them for too long. I don't mean to complain about unrelated issues, sorry. Bottom line is, sex and fapping can be wonderful things, but too much sex and fapping can lead to distractions and thoughts about stuff other than spiritual awakening.

That said, I have a very personal relationship with my guardian angel, who takes the form of a beautiful, winged maiden in a white gown. I have always wanted to be so good at astral projection, that I can be so close to her that me and her can "do it."

Hi there, first post of my own I see...

Anyways I'm having an extremely difficult time astral projecting nowadays, even though I used to be able to do it moderately well (this was about 8 months ago when I last projected successfully, and even then it was quite difficult, but at least it was possible.) I know how to do it, and I follow a method called the "general transfer of consciousness" method, which is described in an astral projecting book I have. But when I try to do it now, I end up becoming so drowsy that I just end up napping instead (I say napping because, from my experience, it is exceedingly hard for me to project at night.)

This is a serious issue, especially since it is my goal to be able to astral project at-will on a regular basis. The reason for this is because I want to hold council with the gods regarding the whole 2012 issue, resolving any fears I may have about the upcoming date...believe me, all this 2012 hype scares the crap outta me.

Finally, I will say my lifestyle is very difficult and busy...I am taking two college classes at once and I'm still new to college. That combined with the fact that my boarding school makes you go to their own classes at least 3 times a day. I have autism and I get overloaded very easily, and usually my break time does not exceed two hours between appointments. And when you don't attend one, they get maaaad.

I'm thinking all this pressure, combined with sleepless nights and such is making me too stressed and drowsy at the same time that it's way too hard to astral project. Which sucks because I NEED to be able to project like I used to.

Really not so sure about this whole 2012 thing. It makes me very scared, and I wish I could save the world if something horrible is about to happen. My mom would always tell me "if it triggers your sense of fear, it is probably not true," because she is an adherent of the Science of Mind/Religious Science, which believes all truth feels good...I doubt that.

All I know is I want the fear to end, and I'm sorry if I didn't contribute much at all to your conversation.