Yoshi,
I understand that life can be really difficult, and this planet can be a total grump, but you have to consider the fact that you were born here for a reason, and it wasn't to kill yourself. You have to spend some time really thinking hard about why you are here, commune with your deeper self and come up with at least a direction, because there's no doubt that you did indeed decide to be born for a reason, and you will deeply regret it if you don't carry that out. Part of the reason for your birth was certainly to encounter the kinds of problems you are presently dealing with, and actually deal with them, get through them, and achieve some kind of balance in your life. If you are considering suicide you have to realize that this is something you've probably done in other lifetimes already, and look where it got you? Right back here. So if you want to get past this pattern you have to get past it without killing yourself. If you do kill yourself, you'll have to be reborn into a very similar lifetime that you will have to face up to and overcome, just as you do now. So it's better to deal with it now rather than later. I'm not sure what you problems really are, but I can assure you that these are a part of the very reason you were born - to overcome this challenge. And once that is overcome, I'm sure there's other reasons for your lifetime here that will make it very much worthwhile to keep living. People aren't born here without a reason and a purpose, they just have to spend some serious time finding out what it is. I wish you great luck. Don't expect it to be easy, but don't give up either.
I understand that life can be really difficult, and this planet can be a total grump, but you have to consider the fact that you were born here for a reason, and it wasn't to kill yourself. You have to spend some time really thinking hard about why you are here, commune with your deeper self and come up with at least a direction, because there's no doubt that you did indeed decide to be born for a reason, and you will deeply regret it if you don't carry that out. Part of the reason for your birth was certainly to encounter the kinds of problems you are presently dealing with, and actually deal with them, get through them, and achieve some kind of balance in your life. If you are considering suicide you have to realize that this is something you've probably done in other lifetimes already, and look where it got you? Right back here. So if you want to get past this pattern you have to get past it without killing yourself. If you do kill yourself, you'll have to be reborn into a very similar lifetime that you will have to face up to and overcome, just as you do now. So it's better to deal with it now rather than later. I'm not sure what you problems really are, but I can assure you that these are a part of the very reason you were born - to overcome this challenge. And once that is overcome, I'm sure there's other reasons for your lifetime here that will make it very much worthwhile to keep living. People aren't born here without a reason and a purpose, they just have to spend some serious time finding out what it is. I wish you great luck. Don't expect it to be easy, but don't give up either.