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I struggled with DP/DR for a long time. It started when I had a salvia trip. I made the mistake of listening to The Beatles' "Revolution 9" during my trip. Though in retrospect the experience was quite beautiful, it had some traumatizing effects on me. I couldn't work and was barely able to go to school. I saw a psychologist who really opened my eyes. He told me that I can either ignore these thoughts, or embrace them as a new level of spiritual awareness. He said that this usually happens to people who are more self-aware and in tune with themselves and their existence. Trust me, for a long time I thought I was going to be stuck in that state of mind my entire life, and it in turned caused depression. It got so bad at times that I'd get nauseous being in my room, watching television, thinking that none if it was real. That at any moment the walls around me could just crumble and I'd be left in the empty void of pure spacetime.

It will go away though, with time. It just takes a little while.
If you want to talk though, just send me a message.

Thanks everyone, this will help me a lot!

Hey, newcomer here!

So I've been trying to project for over a year now. I've had minor success, but no full projections through meditation. Though I have had three particular experiences through lucid dreaming that may constitute as a projection. I don't have lucid dreams very often, but I've read of how it's easier for many people to project from a lucid dream. So every time I've found myself dreaming, I've immediately attempted projection.

I'll now describe each experience seperately:

1. My first time, I rolled out next to my bed. I didn't look at my physical body, because I was afraid of seeing myself. I simply jumped through my wall to outside. I then went to the park directly across the street from my house, and started trying to fly. At first I couldn't seem to do it, but then I began to levitate. I was in the air, but I couldn't get any momentum or inertia to move anywhere easily. This is all I remember.

2. This episode is the haziest in my mind. I recall being in my room, but finding it somewhat hard to move. Once again I avoided looking at myself, and walked through one of my walls. This is all I seem to recall.

3. This was very recently. I was up all night, and went to bed around 5:00 AM. When I projected through my lucid dream, I was literally thrusted out of my body, as if from a catapult. I ended up at the foot of my bed. It was incredibly hard to move. Harder than the other two times. It was as if I had some motor disability. My arms were stuck in a position against my chest, and my knees were bent. My head was also bent downwards, so I was looking at the floor. I felt disabled. I managed to look up somewhat, and I saw my legs sprawled out above the sheets on my bed. This scared me, and I believe caused me to go back to my body.


I'm posting these experiences for a couple of reasons. There are some questions I have regarding this, and I'd appreciate any feedback. First, during these experiences, I still didn't feel as if I was fully "there". You know how in dreams your consciousness is a little hazy, as if you're just letting everything happen, like watching a television show? It still had that hazy feel to it during these "projections". Do all projections feel that way, or was I not actually projecting? Also, does anyone have an explanation as to what occurred during my last projection, when I found it so difficult to move? Was it some sort of premature projection?

Any input, whether related to my questions or not, is welcome and appreciated.
Thanks in advance for any help!