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I've only AP'd once, as per my last post, but I'm curious as to how far you can go. Is it possible to use AP to explore places far from your own body, or is that dangerous? Could I visit someone, or some place, hundreds of miles away?

Thank you guys so much!

I'm actually very interested in the fear aspect of all of this. Have been reading all around here, and I'm intrigued by the concept that it's a projection of my own negative thoughts or emotions. I can't wait to try this again, but I'm curious if confronting the source of this negativity might be a bad idea? I'm excited to try to use my astral experiences as a way to better understand my subconscious while I'm awake.

I often suffer from bouts of terrible sleep paralysis. They terrify me when they happen, but my boyfriend recently suggested that I research astral projection, and see if it was possible to turn one into the other. I read very, very little about it, only meditation techniques that I've tried, but with no result.

Tonight, I instantly felt I was beginning to experience sleep paralysis. Instead of panicking, however, I remembered what my boyfriend told me. During most of my episodes of sleep paralysis, I experience false awakenings. I can see the room around me, but can't move. I began to come into this, and I told myself, "If you can see the room around you, walk around it, then."

Usually, I fight during these episodes, trying to move but failing and panicking. Instead, I stood up from my bed. Without standing. I clearly felt myself leave my body, however, I noticed I felt odd and out of control. That if I kept focusing my energy toward moving forward, I would continue to move forward and fall through the floor. Sort of as if I were balanced on a pivoting platform.

The best way I can describe is that moving felt too easy, and difficult because of it. I felt drunk or underwater. I could easily sort of float from one place to the next, as if I were walking on the moon or the ocean floor, but walking down the stairs I felt that because I was focusing my energy downward, I might fall.

Once I reached the bottom of the stairs, I began to feel a terrifying anxiety. For one, it might be because I am absolutely terrified of the dark. I never took into account that while awake I'm afraid to be downstairs in the dark, let alone while projecting.

I walked around my dining area and living room, and decided to see if I could leave my house, into the lawn. I left through the closed window, which I wasn't sure would work at first. It felt like any inconsistency might break the experience and I would instantly awaken in my body. It did, however, and I walked across my lawn, and through a small garden that's planted there. I could clearly see the snapdragons planted there (though I haven't paid any attention to what's growing there during the day.) I walked through them, and noticed something really strange.

I couldn't hear anything but televisions and radios. From my own house, and the neighbors. Some of them sounded as if they weren't exactly from this decade, either. And some, I knew, weren't even on. But I could hear them clearly and knew instantly where they were coming from.

Being outside was terrifying to me, there was a very foreboding presence lingering on what I feel was the border of where I could explore. I've felt a presence like this before many times during sleep paralysis, but never in an open space. Usually, when paralyzed, I feel it's a very singular presence nearby. This time I felt it was EVERYWHERE.

I tried to ignore the fear as long as I could, and wanted to see if I could enter my neighbor's house (a priest, I've always been curious as to what it's like in his home.)

Then a very strange thing happened.

I could hear a song being played. Very clearly. A song I've never heard and according to my limited research doesn't exist.

It sounded as if it were being played on an old record, from the woods behind my house. The voice was familiar but new, very similar to Billie Holiday or another female singer from the 40s or 50s. The song was woeful but beautiful, the vibe very much the same as the song Strange Fruit, which I haven't heard or thought of in years.

The disconcerting part, however: the lyrics. "Tonight, you'll sleep in beautiful.....death...."

I immediately wanted to be somewhere else, and I tried to see if I could travel to somewhere I've never been, and it felt like it was too far a reach, and I could feel myself not being pulled but whisked back to my body, and I instantly woke up.


I have no idea why my experience was so terrifying. Was the foreboding presence maybe a result of external influence? Was I maybe already feeling it before I projected? The song, too. I've searched a few posts here about hearing songs during AP experiences (part of the reason I'm choosing to post, and feeling a little less crazy than when I woke up.) I found a few mentioning similar things, but for the most part the lyrics are about praise and are generally uplifting. What does it mean that mine was about death?

Thanks in advance for reading, and any help. I'm terrified to go back to sleep, in case...well, you know.