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Welcome, man.

I know where you're coming from. It's difficult, for me at least, having a spiritual life while engaging in the physical as a young adult. Trying to drag a spiritual "all is good" mindset into the college scene is like carrying jello with a fork. Perhaps real enlightenment is the ability to seamlessly blend the two.

Yeah, it is.

Yea, actually I do. A few months ago I was at a bar hanging out with a few guys I hadn't seen in a while. I was in the middle of recovering from a very bad injury so I was pretty down in the dumps but not overtly sad to my knowledge. This old guy sitting near me starting talking to me, saying how I was depressed and essentially gave me his own analysis of my life, haha. I doubt he was anything more than that old wall flower you see at the bar that drank his life away.

The alarming part of this situation, was that the person was well rounded, well dressed and more than likely had not been drinking. Also, he did not fit in at the bar absolutely what so ever. He was unmistakeably out of place.

When I suffered from insomnia due to a drug I was taking I experienced this change in perception. In my mind it went from "day/night, day/night, day/night" to just one never ending day with intervals of darkness. I'm no longer dealing with insomnia so this perception was changed back.

Try any method you come across... no method will work for everyone so you just gotta figure out what works for you.

Well, I've been using trazodone for about 2 years now, and it helps greatly with getting to sleep and staying asleep - but I've always had the feeling of day/night, now just kind of naturally my concept of this is this day and this is that day just blend together - and surprisingly I enjoy it. I can go to sleep, and wake up and my brain will start up doing exactly what it was doing before I went to bed. It's very interesting, and I actually prefer it over the concept of having a distinguishable difference between days. It feels more real, so to speak, it feels like I'm able to get the most from reality. Quite thought provoking, actually.

Thanks for your replies, maybe you or someone else could point me to some guides and shoot some tips on tapping into my brain and unlocking it so to speak? Any help would be greatly appreciated

Thanks in advance!

Hello all Glad to be aboard.

This is sort of a general post, but I suppose the objective would be astral projection...

I'll start off by letting you know a little bit about myself.

I'm 21, and have been learning about my metaphysical self and spirituality for a solid 2-3 years, and the least I can say is it's been a incredible adventure so far.

I consistently build new philosophy through myself, within myself about the world I perceive and everything within it, and how it affects me as a whole and how I affect others. It's an on going process, where I am constantly learning more and more outstanding information, through general philosophical thought. I have discovered many unique characteristics about myself and continue this journey every day day in and day out.

About two months or so, stuff really picked up for me. A certain musician had inspired much introspect and understanding of love within myself, and the yearn to love myself - which I am currently working on, and it's a hard thing to do for me and many others. I really started to change my way I looked at the world after listening to this musician, and it really helped me open up in many avenues I hadn't yet.

More or less, I began developing the ability to manifest(which for now has subsided), and I was able to manifest complete positivity, complete love of myself, and complete love for the world in whole. There was a few instances where I had realized, that I was literally a different person, a "better" person in some ways(although I know that to be untrue, we are all who we are and we are all great, as long as we *allow* ourselves to be).

This experience a few months back, I literally just enjoyed everything for a day, or two out of the month - and it came rather randomly as though certain Earth changes occurred, and started tapping into my brain's radio so to speak. I was able to just do anything, walk down the street and just enjoy literally everything, I understood the physical concepts of being tired, dealing with crappy situations, etc - but I was able to deal with these situations yet maintain complete peace with myself and the world. It was as though I was walking on sunshine

Needless to say, I know I am still able to tap into that - it's just that priorities such as school kind of get in the way so to speak, even though I believe eventually I will be able to maintain this view on life and do everything I need to do simultaneously, it's just sort of hard to balance priority and "enlightenment" together as of now.

A few more things I think I'll add, is that after this situation occurred it was as though my brain just started OPENING up doors that had been deadbolted my entire life. I literally remembered dreams from when I was ~5 years old, dreams that I still cant fully comprehend, but they had to do with my future and or past self(past life.) I was 5, and I was seeing myself as a grown man at a party or such, and I was looking at the situation through a 5 year old's mentality and seeing all of this stuff and it was very very interesting to me. This dream had been long forgotten about, but it had resurfaced and it was NOT deja vu. I remember where the dream occurred, roughly what time of day it occurred and what setting I was in.

So more or less, I understand that my brain is developing certain changes.

Another interesting event is, that I'll get into briefly(and let me just say, I've had some very *abnormal* situations occur to me in my life, years ago) is that 2 months ago as I started reaching a new level of enlightenment, I had been at a bar with a friend enjoying myself, and I had 4 or 5 beers.

As I was watching the crowds do their dancing and all of that, I realized that I was detaching from the entire setting and literally viewing these people from a non-biased almost intellectual standpoint, a philosophical standpoint - I was just observing and saying to myself "Wow, All these people dressing up and doing this this and that to prove themselves to themselves, the human ego...", thoughts like that.

So, I venture from the bar outside to go smoke, and a older Russian(40 or so) looking man comes towards me and just looks straight at me and says "Have you figured it out yet?", now, me never seeing this person before in my life, I'm literally in shock, and I just respond "Not yet but I'm trying.". I immediately follow him down stairs, and as soon as he sees me he walks right back out, I follow him back out and ask for a lighter. As he comes over I ask him "Will I see you again?" he responds "yes", and jumps in a brand new *expensive* car and drives off.

Needless to say I have no idea what he was thinking I should be figuring out, and honestly it's irrelevant to me because I see no point in spinning circles on something someone I don't know says to me. Only reason I bring it up is that maybe some of you have similar experiences.

Now to present day.

I have sleeping problems, so I take trazodone to assist me in my sleep. I have a jacked up sleep schedule I'm naturally an insomniac and enjoy the night time. For the most part from 8-21 years old, I absolutely HATED waking up. It's now becoming less of a problem to me. Typically when I'd wake up in the past, I'd feel groggy and it'd feel as though a new day had started.

Now, it does not feel that way - the concept of a day is starting to vanish, and I don't see it as anything monumental anymore, it just represents a marker of time as we know it. It almost seems obsolete in a sense? So more or less, I don't feel any different from when I go to sleep than I do when I wake up.

I haven't tried astral projection much, and every attempt I have tried I've failed.

Tonight, I had felt relatively tired, but not I want to sleep tired, more along the lines of I just want to lay down for a few minutes tired. So I did. I laid face down on the carpet, and just kind of laid there, closed my eyes and began to breathe deeply. I've had no training and read virtually nothing about astral projection. As I'm laying there I kind of have this sense of detachment from my mind(physical "conscious", thinking etc.) and my body. So I try saying to myself, let your body operate on it's own it is designed and regulated by the mind to do such, and stop thinking about it. Focus on your soul. Well, it ends up I just kind of laid there, I had one kind of wave so to speak, where I felt as though a cool ocean kind of swept through me over a period of a second or so, and it was sort of debilitating to my mind's conscious, almost as though it was trying to sweep me out of my body.

I was wondering, now that you know my history, and where I stand, what type of methods I should go about to doing this? Also for reference, I don't do any drugs(besides trazodone) and I rarely drink.

Also, feel free to add to anything I've wrote, as I'm more than happy to indulge any specifics you find interesting apart from maybe a few things.

Best regards