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This might sound weird, but I think it has something to do with the temperature of your house.

My father is possessed. He applies sexual energy over me and psychological abuse. Lasts for years... And I think those hearts I see are from this too.
The other thing: I seem to not being able to catch time. For me a day seems like one second. I'm scared.  A year passes like a day... I'm like in some hole. I try to get out but I can't. Something is pressing over me.
Damn, I can't even astral project, but may it be dangerous for me?

I apologize, it probably looks like I have thought that up to boast here for fun. Yes, I have a charecter feature that I like to boast, I know it's a weakness and I hate it. But what I wrote is truth, I really see hearts and faces and it responded to me talking to it. I don't fear it, I just keep seing it all the time.
I just want to know if the even numbers on clock are good signs or it comes from evil.
Thank you.

In Law of Attraction talk, this will be because you're in 'alignment', when your desires will come to you easily. This'll explain making a wish and it coming true as-well.

What is The Law of Attraction? Is being in "alignment" a threat? Is it from above or from below? What if I keep making wishes?
By the way I also (it is many years already...) see hearts, made of nasty things like dirt and when I made wishes on them they came true too! Then I said on that heart: "Show me your face!"  and after I started seeing ugly demonic faces everywhere (the clouds, dirt) and when I asked him to tell me his name I immediately heard (the TV was on) on TV the word "Devil"... The next second. Once I said I dunno why, this is stupid but I said it: "Take my heart" and the next moment my heart hurted so I couldn't breathe, then it passed.
So I just want to know WHO is it coming from, the numbers?
I also feel the presense of good things, not only bad. I just feel I am in attention. It feels like there are just things that are not good nor bad, that just don't care and just diddle around, like I hear them speak when I fall asleep. Meaningless phrases, not aimed to help, nor to harm, they just irritate.
Why is it going on with me and is not with everyone else, I mean people around me, my family and friends because I feel like I am crazy? I ask this question because I am at the very beginning of the Spirituality. I used to suffer silently and do nothing about it for years.
Roman67, thank you, that was helpful! The link.

This happens during half a year already. During the day when I look at the clock or watch I constantly see the same numbers, like 1:11 or 3:33, 5:55. I live in the country where the time is 24 hours.  So I see numbers like 22:22, 23:23. Often I see 0:00, that is in the midnight. (I go to bed late) This happens every single day from 2 or three times to about 7 times... I see numbers like 16:16 or I may see 12:21, 13:31 and stuff like that. Few times I had nights when I for some reason was waking up every next hour and looked at the clock and saw the next even numbers and felt asleep again:1:11, 2:22, 3:33, 4:44 and so on.  It is normal to sometimes see this, when it is said that you may make a wish and it will come true. But what the heck does this mean if I see this so often??? And what makes it kinda cool is that when I make a wish it comes true always! I know you might not believe but it is true. So I try not to make any wishes because I am afraid that I will make a wrong wish. AND when I told it to my husband he first laughed and then he started to see this TOO!! At first he made fun of it but when it started to get too often he started to wonder what could it mean too. I think it is some  paranormal activity around me. But what could this mean? And why does it involve my husband, not only me? I also had poltergeist thing but it seemed to end but still sometimes strange things happen that just drive me crazy because it always happen in a way that makes me doubt my sanity. I just can't figure out if it only seemed to me or I saw it real. Does anyone know what could these even numbers mean? What could be behind it and what should I do about it?

i am pursued by signs and they're like the astral progection of my mind. somehow i made something with my mind and "opened" it without intention. i mean the signs are not telling me what i don't know usually but what i think of in the minute. my mom also sees signs when she thinks of me and when she tells me i see that it was what i already know. they are real. what's that?? it happens to ten times a day. and  that minutes i feel something like sort of transe state. i am in transe most time of the day.
there's another thing that i am stuck on. don't take me as playing here but it is what happens. few years ago i was in crimea near the  "devil's fallos" stone ( believed to have devilish power in it ) and i made a wish that devil come and make love to me. idiot. in half a year i have a psychosis attack and hallucinating where my wish is  fulfilled. since then i have signs. i see hearts made of different dirt and nasty things. they persistantly follow me. it sort of fades a bit when i try not to care for them but lately i noticed that it does not work. church does not help, i see those hearts in there made of holy water drops and candle wax. once i saw a heart in the church that was few metres size covering the whole floor! more than those signs it is not going, i think because i don't give the permission.  once i asked him to show his face and then together with hearts i see now evil faces, sort of like in scary movies. once it was so big and vivid that i was so lied up i even pictured it. those faces smile and i feel no any particular danger unless he does not want me to yet, exept that he won't leave me alone...
i also had another astral lover i created listening to ville valo (Him), i was drawing him in a very erotic extasy. i could not draw anything else exept him. do you think ville valo is possessed?? i think he is and he does not know it. if he does it is even worse. there is something he does to his music that cause deilusional state of mind to a listener. i prayed with passion and totally refused him and with time he has left me, though sometimes he tries to bring me back. but no passionate prayer works with this one. he definetely shows me that he is not scared of my prayers... who the hell is he? i asked for his name but he does not want to respond on this request. in the dream i had at night he told "i want love i want love i want love". looks like i made the  stupidest thing: i promised my love to devil. that's why prayer does not help. god is love and i turned love upside down.
does anyone know how to find out who he is? i am not scared. though i want him to go or i would better do want him to go, i know. i try to fall into religious extasy, i thought it will help, but i already don't know if god thing is devil's work also while i think of myself as destined to become saint. i attended a religious sect of adventists of 7th day. two times but it was enough for me to get hypnotised or what they do with people. do you know how to GET RID of religious HYPNOSIS they make in SECTS? this does not let me think freely, i cant make myself whole.
looking for any comments or advise.

Summerlander, i didn't mean that, sorry for bothering you. thank you very much for your help and proposition, i changed my mind, i'll try to cope by my own.
Darina.

I wasn't able to access my comp these days so im sorry for making you wait. i don't want to let you play with my trouble and put it on a show here. no, thanks.

I'm sorry, Summerlander.

Summerlander, I decided to do it.  I feel you can. Only ask you to try not to damage anything.  I will give you my father's picture. Only I will do it on Monday's morning (My time is Eastern Europe) because tomorrow I won't be able to access internet. I want to send you the picture on your email privately, is that okay? and I want you to post here the results what you faced. I want to know what is in his mind. If he is GUILTY. 
Yes, I think of police. But there is a problem here.  I live in Ukraine and as you know it is a country of corruption and illegasy. I visit doctor privately and his practice on me is not legal. (this is my country). I am afraid if I go to the police they will know that I am ill and will find out I am not registered in psychiatrist. I will have to explain that he knew i was ill and mocked on me. Then I will get into hospital and it is no good. And I am sure  father will try to put me there, he might tell i am sick and they would believe mostly him than me. What is possible to do is to get some evidense of violense without the hint on my mental illness.  I might angry him up (this is damn easy) and make him hurt me physically and tape on dictophone his threatenings( he will say them). On the other hand my country is so corrupted that I can make almost anything if I have money.  My chanse is to earn enought money and become independent and be able to help Mom and then  do actions. I think I will have enough money by the end of this year, I am working on it. I am an artist , by the way.
I want to thank everyone who gave me help. Now I see clearlier what is happening with me and what to do. (There are different opinions, but all of them make sense to me).

I will think yet. I think of giving you my father's picture. I'm sorry for undecisiveness.

Dear Summerlander,
thank you very much for proposed help! I don't feel like doing this... I am too exhausted to take even little risk. I feel somehow like you are right about that there is nothing particular in my father, but what do you say about "elements of depraved mind"? Please explain me what do you mean. Is he mentally sick? If you can judge without photo, do you feel he makes a danger for my life? 
Thank you again.

Will I feel something? How long will the procedure last?
Summerlander, can you get inside my father's mind? I know what is in my mind exactly, though I might be not knowing everything, but I need to know what is in my father's mind. I want to know how much is really him in all this. And am I right that there is a demon inside of him ( though I know it is so) to  make some desigion to my future actions. Also I am afraid if it will be a danger for you and  if the demon might get angry of your intrusion. This is what scares me: will the demon get angry.

Summerlander,
before i give you my consent i need to understand what OOBE state is and if this what you are going to do with my mind has any danger to me and my father. Are you going to change something in my subconsiousness or you are going just to  look at it and  talk with it for information? What exactly is your goal of OOBE? Because I am a bit scared of your proposition, I don't know what it is. I hope you don't deal with any kind of BLACK magic? I'm sorry if I could offense...
I have very vivid pictures of my father, it is very visible on those pictures.

Hi, Summerlander!
Thank you for your help!
Looks like you have had a great deal with astral world.
i really have got the problem with my father. it lasts for 9 years, hard to believe but it is so. sometimes i want to believe that it is not him, i just dont want to believe my father whom i love hates me real.  but i also suspise that the neg is working with my Father's own rage. I know it is possession because there's abnormality. he makes ugly faces to me, sexually ugly, nasty, perverted, he corrupts his voice, he looks sick. and what's weird that NOONE sees it exept ME. and when he looks at me i see his eyes all black without the white eye balls, all dark... and his look is like blind, like he sees through me and does not see me... and he is so suspicious. each time i go out of the house he thinks i go to have sex with someone... i sort of read his mind. there is a very strong psychic connection between us that is hard to brake, perverted, corrupted connection...
it started after he saw me dancing naked in my room. so there is a fact of psychological roots and that it is HIS own hate besides neg.
the thing is that i look sick. for some reason i look like i just had orgasm. i don't know why. and when i try to be nice i sound like i have something in mind to the person. my father understood this that i "promise him sex for that he gives me money and food"... and he all the time makes me feel with his second meaning intonations and sayings like i am a cheapest prostitute. i don't know if it makes any sense if i try to explain it.
my father is a very cruel person. he is kind but he is very hot in temper and he used to tell me things like" kill if you feell like it". he used to be a karate champion.
the worst thing is that he is only hapy when i am down. whenever i feel high he gets very angry and makes me feel that again. he gets angry when i feel better and does everything to make me the biggest harm!
he must be in psychiatric colony. but i think i should not under no circumstances quarrel with him, he might kill me physically, i think i should be very kind with him to exort this demon out of him.

I am confused by this post.  Do you believe someone else is possessed, or do you believe you are possessed?  What I read doesn't seem like possession to me.

It is in me and it jumps into other people(while they don't know about it) with sexual thing  like a bridge for the goal of mocking on Me. I believe in astral anything can be.

Exuse me, Lexy, I don't know what LBRP and Middle Pillar ritual is. The book of Robert Bruse has opened my eyes, but still I don't know a big deal.

I will tell you things that sound like I am just shizophonic and this is the product of my ill brain. Noone who knows that I am sick with shiz believes me and I only hope that you here within this forum will know what I am talking about.
I am ill since five years old. Now I am 27. I take medical treatment for six years and already feel like my mind is getting more normal but there are things that don't let me live at all. Half a year ago I did exorcism, they took away that creature but something is still with me though I feel  the main thing is going away.
For 10 years I did not fight anything, I was wery down. I know that this is my fault. And now I feel it wants my death. I feel helpless, I just feel helpless and miserable.
I can name two of them. One is that one certain person sent on me. He was jealous on my talent and he had abilities to black magic though he was young then but now I am sure he practises it. This creature makes me feel like a excrement, miserable and weak. Whatever I do he whispers: you are ridiculous, you will never make it, don't make me laugh with your miserable tryings. It tells me that I lost anything and that fighting wont help anything and the strongest thing I can make is kill myself. It is in my mind each second I am awake. I know that I see him but I just cant fight, I don't know why, maybe I am really a excrement, I don't know why I cant fight it, please help, I am so scared, I don't want to die. I feel like I am immured. I cant do anything, I do nothing, and I cant explain what I have been doing during the day, I don't remember.
The other one is in my father. He( the creature in my father) is very evil, I think he is a devil. It is in my eyes. He takes my sexuality and corrupts it. He feels with my feelings. He forses me to feel sex to every person that causes me in reality unsexual  attitude, people that I don't feel anything like that , that is my relatives, same sex people, old men and women, little children, everyone! And he makes it so that it is in my eyes, voice, so that they all feel that I feel sexual feelings to them, I look like it. The more I try to repress it the worse it gets. Everyone thinks I am a whore. And I am absolutely not, I am a good person. I even never watch  any porn, I hate it. My father is the person who believes that I really feel this. This devil makes him  be so suspicious that he thinks that I masturbate 50 times a day with his things. He talks to me with second meanings insulting me. And it always is like about me really, it touches me deeply.
This comes inside every person that  this sex thing appears and they start to talk to me with second meanings insulting me in most severe ways, hurting me, I think my soul bleeds... and when I ask them they don't understand what I am talking about. My father hates me like the  biggest enemy and makes it clear he wants my death. But in reality he is very kind with me and when I ask him he gets very angry and says its not true, its bovine excrement. It is with my mother also.... He does it every time he sees me. Everyone does it.  I cant stand the pain.
When I go to bed I doubt if I wake up and  in the morning I doubt if I live up till the evening. And lately I think it is poltergeist. I hear sounds like metal scrubbing, they are loud and go from inside of the room near the roof. Few times the TV turned on itself and once the light turned off and there was no problem with the switch...