You must let go of all you have learned and your most cherished beliefs, especially ideology. Empty your mind of the thoughts that constantly distract us, mentally ask your questions and be prepared for answers that you will not like, but you will know to be true. Challenge these truths with every ironclad argument you can come up with in the same manner. Understand that not everything will be revealed to you, simply because we are here to learn by experience and any information that interferes with future experience will not be revealed to you. It is a process and takes time, but once it begins you can never go back (nor will you want to). Hope this helps. My motivation was my idealistic nature not being in sync with what I observed all around me.