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I'm starting to not believe in bipolar disorder myself and I feel like the meds I take are seriously blocking me from having regular projections like everyone else.  I feel like the way I was before them was me experiencing what I needed to experience and I was just scared really.  Doctors tell you that you are feeling or you are a certain way and you start to believe it. I don't mean to take this away from the main topic at all but I'm not sure what the next step would be so i can start to have more projections that come naturally to me.  Thank you for responding to my post!  It was one of the most amazing experiences (though scary), but my other experiences that are up there with it are all the lucid dreams and sleep paralyses I experience. 

Heather

Thank you so much Volgerle

I have this book called The Crystal Bible by Judy Hall, and it covers pretty much everything, including amber.  It says holding Moldavite  "downloads" information from the Akashic Record and Light Body.  I just checked and there is nothing on this forum that has anything to do with the Akashic Record.  Have you or anyone heard of this?  Is it ok to wear on a necklace during the day and also put it under my pillow at night?  Thanks for your response!  I appreciate it.

Heather

I have a Moldavite pendant given to me years ago.  I was wondering what the best use for it was.. or what chakra (if any) it's best used for?

Heather

I have seen spiderwebs but not the actual spiders yay lol.... One insect I cannot stand

Heather

My first obe was 4 years ago.  I was about to go to the mall, and my friend was moving my car into his garage.  I laid down, not sure what happened but i stood up and everything was different.  I started to get a bad feeling.  I checked my pulse and I had one, I remember I kept checking it.  My mom called, and I didn't know how to speak or answer questions.  I heard my own voice in my head, giving me the answers to each thing she asked or said, which was extremely freaky!  My friend is flipping out of course because I am.  I keep walking around.  I sit down on the couch, he gets me something to drink.  I'm able to drink it but I'm afraid of what's in it. (btw, i had been smoking but I had been for awhile and nothing like this has ever happened).  I started to see the room in thin lines and pixels, kind of like an etch a sketch, the lines were moving up and down.  I would talk a lot of what I saw to my friend, and then it seems like I would go quiet for like 20 minutes.  It felt like 7-8 hours of things happening.  I kept trying to fall asleep and wake up completely, but I couldn't wake up.  I remember looking at him and his face would change.  I posted this somewhere else but I remember kind of coming out of it.  I was hallucinating, I kept getting caught in large spiderwebs and I looked and felt ridiculous trying to get out of them lol.  During this, a voice was created in my head and it stayed with me for about a year and it kinda just "left" on it's own.  It kept telling me to hurt people and myself.  I didn't hurt anyone but me. 

I have Bipolar Disorder and I don't know if maybe this has anything to do with it?  My doctor now says I have psychosis, but I don't believe I do.  I was really into crystals and stones at the time and some of them, especially moldavite, were very powerful and I could see things or believe I could do things others couldn't.  When I got away from them, I was ok.  I think that maybe I didn't know how to control them.  Now I have them all out again, and hopefully I can get a better handle on them

Thanks for reading

Heather

Hey Calm how are you?  I'm glad you replied  Yeah I have some sleep paralyses that are very negative but haven't had one in awhile.  Astral projections seem to take a lot of energy out of me so I haven't tried to have one since my last one.  I remember having an oobe 4 years ago.  I remember all of it.  I laid down for just a second, just to relax, and then i "wake up" but i'm not really awake.. I know I could walk around and drink something.  But I remember this "voice" was created in my head.  It had a name, and I relived that experience every day for a year and he finally went away.  He would tell me bad things (no I wasn't or am schizophrenic lol) but this voice was very real.  It's taken me 4 years to realize it was an oobe but I'm glad I can finally put a name to it

Heather

i cant get it to work   here is my pic: http://www.tagged.com/angel_o_demonioxxx

Heather

My sleep paralyses are much more intense when i wake up, but yeah i did remember quite a bit when i woke up from projecting.  i read that you should have a digital clock or watch next to you and to check it to see if the numbers change... i reached for my cell phone, i leave it next to my pillow, to check the time, but it wasnt there.  i kept moving my hand.. and then i heard it and looked up, not physically, but saw it on my desk and thought crap i cant reach it, but i know thats not true and that in the future i will someday be able to.  i saw my grandmother die in my "dream", she was in the fetal position.  i screamed.. i knew when i woke up that she doesnt have much time left, but during the dream sleep i went through all the stages of grief except for acceptance, because im still skeptical about me, just a regular girl, being able to predict something like that.... but at least it prepared me for the news.  thanks again for reading!  i dont wanna write it all at once lol

Love,
Angel o demonio..? 

Thank you guys so much!  I hope your journeys are as wonderful as mine was... I hope to get better at it with time 

   I DID IT!!  After 3 years of trying to control my OBEs I finally did it... I controlled it!  I wish I could tell everyone what an indescribable feeling I have right now... I kept going in and coming back out but instead of them scaring me all the time I said not anymore... I guess everyone chooses to (what can i say in here?)  climax when they have control lol.. that was hawt... not to mention the vision of the love of my life burned into my memory where he will stay until i find him   so much to say... i need time to chill and relax and stop crying and laughing every other minute!  whats the word i wanna use....?  its so much to take in and absorb at once.  I havent read anything here yet but no one in my life understands how important this is to me and i had to tell people who did.  thank you all for reading

Love Always
Heather