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ok im gonna start off by saying i have crossed paths with people powerful enough to pull heavy magick off i mean heavy, but i didnt think i angered them, not enough to warrent a curse anyways, well so heres the story shortended.
before ( lots of months ago) before meeting said people a proper concouise on purpose astral projection had not been achieved but i got very very close and had what may have been an accidental one, but eventually i gave it a rest i thought i wanted a break and didnt try during this peroid i had the whole situation wih all of them people but i didnt try projecting during that peroid so it could have been before hand when this started happening i just didnt know, but i thought it was over arfter a few months and then i tried doing it again but something was differnt it's like everything was harder eg the rope technique i kept letting go hammock technique i sometimes lost control but that was it but it slowly got worse so the rope technique seemed impossible like i couldnt grab the rope, hammock swinging it kept almost feeling like the thing i was swinging on broke away and started floating and even the floating technique became harder, soon it became even if i did hit the vibrational state it was like the vibrations were very timid not as intense in anyway not almost as intense.

so what is this is this just me or is it some kind of curse? now some things ive tried eg praying for a spirit guide= nadda doing a lot of aura cleansing well i feel refreshed arfter but still i even have tried using runic magic (which is awesome btw) for anti cursing creating thoughtsorms to rid my aura of any negative energies and stuff like that so i just dont know arfter everything i have done i would imagine a curse would be destroyed by now, but as i said if one of them did lay a curse down it would be heavy but its a bit of a strange curse to go through all of that effort prevent him from easily concouisly AP, so any ideas on what is going on honestly even if its a long shot tell me

i will keep trying but i assumed that was the vibrations anyways, i guese that means i was right the thing that im wodnering is how do i get to that state again as i said it almost feels as if everythings getting harder

ok so i have been attempting to AP for A LONG WHILE now with very little succes,ok what i do is i put on a iso tone for aid in projection ok i keep the iso tone on throughout the attempt what can last up to 2 hours but that is genrally 2 hours of me repeatedly trying techniques (including not trying) which dont seem to be working at that time so very little luck in the projection department its almost like i can reach all the states of relaxtion needed but the vibrations just dont come.

but the real strange and confusing thing is before when i attempted AP regualry (months ago) i could use any method to get to what i thought was a vibrational state  in under 10 minutes and the state for me was intense to say the least but sill no *vibrations* my heart rate soared my heart charka felt like it was bursting through my chest as did my heart and solar plexus charka intill that point peeked but then because i get diseriontated by all the feelings and then kaaaaput failed, no vibrations to speak of arfter a while i gave up intill recently ive been trying again, and this is the fustrating part it almost feels like its getting harder to AP, at first it was little things like the rope technique i couldnt keep hold of it like my astral arms kept letting go and then every other tech got that little bit harder with the floating technique its harder to maintain the floating feeling witht he hammock i lose control of the swaying and it essentialy stops and this all got worse attempt arfter attempt untill we reach the present where techniques feel almost impossible to do but if i try my hardest i can reach a state where my stomach pulsates ever so slightly (nowhere near as intense as before).

so what im asking is whats going on and how do i fix it,now i know it isnt fear, it feels like the oppisite of what some people describe as having a loose astral body except it gets worse and worse or my subconcouis is trying to stop me and winning big time and ive tried affirminations if that is the case and nothing still.                       

if i intend to project with the help of tones should i be playing them the whole way through or the first 30 mins or what because im not sure

at first i could almost do it but over time its getting harder and harder intill now i dont even almost ever feel the vibrations no matter how hard i try ITS NOT PHYCOLOGICAL i thought it would work today and that the last few days were coincidences i was wrong it is getting ahrder how do i stop this and why is it happejing

i tried that it didnt really work becuase my astarl body still couldnt get out from the vibrations

but are there any tips or reasons why i cant get past this state

ok i can project to the point where i feel pulses throughout my entire body and im almost projecting at which point i just speed up my hammock technique further and maybey try and roll out but however no matter what i do i can get past that point no matter how hard i try and just so you know i project quite late at night unlike most people the reason being i find it easier i fall asleep to early in the moring arfternoon i dont even get close to vibrations night is easier by far and i dont fall asleep at night when i do it i never have not once (im not sure why) if that has something to do with it tell me because the only reason i know as to not do it at night is because you fall asleep but i dont

i do ask for help and thats one of the reasons i have progressed so quickly

ok i can project to the point where i feel pulses throughout my entire body and im almost projecting at which point i just speed up my hammock technique further and maybey try and roll out but however no matter what i do i can get past that point no matter how hard i try and just so you know i project quite late at night unlike most people the reason being i find it easier i fall asleep to early in the moring arfternoon i dont even get close to vibrations night is easier by far and i dont fall asleep at night when i do it i never have not once (im not sure why) if that has something to do with it tell me because the only reason i know as to not do it at night is because you fall asleep but i dont