Hi everyone. I'm new here. I need your help, with a strange experience I had.
First of all you need to know that I have been having OBEs and projections (not at will usually), ever since I was a child. In the last months I am able to project or have an OBE at will, but I can't see a thing this way. I mean I'm completely blind (this was never part of my experiences). Anyway, another thing you need to know, is that about 10 years ago I saw (fully awake) a beautiful white, and bright light, that was sending out love to me. I could also hear a chorus (wonderful voices), and there was a man by the light, laughing with great enthousiasm with his arms wide open (calling me to him/and the light). I got scared because of this 'outburst' of enthousiasm (I was quite young), but then I cried for hours for not going to that light.
So, 10 years later (2 days ago), I had another willing projection. My astral body was completely blind again, but I decided this time to give it a try and get out of my bedroom (thinking that maybe in due time, I would be able to see, I didn't want to miss the opportunity again), so I started pushing myself upwards (in standing position), and at some point it got harder to move up, so I pushed with my 'hands' really hard, and suddenly, while I was struggling into the complete darkness, I got face to face with an AMAZING blue light, that was coming towards me (or I was going to it...?). But I mean AMAZING BLUE COLOR, you know? The funny thing was that it was sending out a restriction to me, as if I was not allowed there, or something (it wasn't hostile...). I wouldn't stop though. I was magnetized. I pushed even harder, and suddenly a card came out of the light (the KING OF HEARTS...which is......strange!!!!), and I said 'what is this? You gotta be kidding!' and I pushed again, and I got even closer to the beautiful light, and there I saw a red human-like figure (like an hologram, I mean there were red rays going through the figure), and he came out 'against' me, but not in a dangerous or hostile way. I felt him like a guard or something that was trying to keep me away from the light, but without wanting to hurt me or anything. I was immediately sent back to my body!
Can anyone explain to me:
1. What does the white light stand for (and what was this 'happy to see me man' by the light?)
2. What does the blue light stand for (and what is this red 'guard')? Why wasn't I allowed there? Was it too high for me at this point? If yes, how did I manage to get so close to it??
3. Why can't I see anything when I am projecting at will? Why am I in complete darkness? How can I see again there? I never had this 'problem' in the past!
Thanks for your help... It means a lot (any suggestion).... Be well
First of all you need to know that I have been having OBEs and projections (not at will usually), ever since I was a child. In the last months I am able to project or have an OBE at will, but I can't see a thing this way. I mean I'm completely blind (this was never part of my experiences). Anyway, another thing you need to know, is that about 10 years ago I saw (fully awake) a beautiful white, and bright light, that was sending out love to me. I could also hear a chorus (wonderful voices), and there was a man by the light, laughing with great enthousiasm with his arms wide open (calling me to him/and the light). I got scared because of this 'outburst' of enthousiasm (I was quite young), but then I cried for hours for not going to that light.
So, 10 years later (2 days ago), I had another willing projection. My astral body was completely blind again, but I decided this time to give it a try and get out of my bedroom (thinking that maybe in due time, I would be able to see, I didn't want to miss the opportunity again), so I started pushing myself upwards (in standing position), and at some point it got harder to move up, so I pushed with my 'hands' really hard, and suddenly, while I was struggling into the complete darkness, I got face to face with an AMAZING blue light, that was coming towards me (or I was going to it...?). But I mean AMAZING BLUE COLOR, you know? The funny thing was that it was sending out a restriction to me, as if I was not allowed there, or something (it wasn't hostile...). I wouldn't stop though. I was magnetized. I pushed even harder, and suddenly a card came out of the light (the KING OF HEARTS...which is......strange!!!!), and I said 'what is this? You gotta be kidding!' and I pushed again, and I got even closer to the beautiful light, and there I saw a red human-like figure (like an hologram, I mean there were red rays going through the figure), and he came out 'against' me, but not in a dangerous or hostile way. I felt him like a guard or something that was trying to keep me away from the light, but without wanting to hurt me or anything. I was immediately sent back to my body!
Can anyone explain to me:
1. What does the white light stand for (and what was this 'happy to see me man' by the light?)
2. What does the blue light stand for (and what is this red 'guard')? Why wasn't I allowed there? Was it too high for me at this point? If yes, how did I manage to get so close to it??
3. Why can't I see anything when I am projecting at will? Why am I in complete darkness? How can I see again there? I never had this 'problem' in the past!
Thanks for your help... It means a lot (any suggestion).... Be well
