Hey all, I've got a few really big concerns that I've been struggling with for a long time, and I was hoping someone could help. First off, I've never had too big of a problem stimulating awareness anywhere on my body, even before I found this site and the NEW system.
My problem though is that despite some attempts to raise or store energy, my physical, emotional and mental states have become more fatigued and lacking in energy. This fatigue leads to an inability to sit down and focus on raising energy or do it very effectively. Obviously this is a big road block because I'm not able to store energy or channel it very well. I can sense blockages in my body whenever they appear but I typically have to numb them or shut them down in order to remain sane and bring up my already diminishing energy levels.
Don't consider me to be some thin, unhealthy and unstable person. On the contrary, I am just where I should be for my height and weight, I hardly ever get sick and I interact with most people in a positive and comfortable way. I just have this overwhelming exhaustion and often lack of motivation to do a lot of what I want to do. I'm also not that big of a bum either (I just graduated high school in an accelerated course with honors).
I've considered that it might be some embedded negative philosophy on life that does this to me, but I seem to be more neutral than anything else, and most affirmations/philosophies I've come in contact with have only had a temporary effect. I've passed the whole "dark night of the soul" phase a couple of years ago. I'm just really confused on what I can or should be doing. Please help.