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Steve,

I have a similar problem with all sorts of close associates -- not just partners -- and it goes back throughout my life.

What I learned in the last 10 years is that part of the way I cope is to quietly "fund" my allies with energy and power.  A friend told me years ago that she had the best luck with men if I was around because if I was in the room she was 20% more beatiful, 20% more witty, 20% sexier.  If I was like that with friends, what was I like with partners?

Then, when I would do "whatever" to focus and head off in a different direction energetically (meditation being one of many) people would FREAK OUT  I had the most problem with linear types because they had no language or concept for what was gone, they just felt like their oxygen was removed and passive aggressively reacted like a drowning man.

I struggled with it for a long time about the OTHER person, and then it began to dawn on me that for some reason I needed them for grounding and a assortment of other things that I didn't know how to do myself.  I discovered that I was actualy the initiator of the dynamic.

At first I felt terrible about that.  The more I have learned, the more I come to suspect that this may be the invisible glue that hold culture together.  

Now, when I'm in the sort of circumstance you are in, I deal with it energetically.  It's ever so much easier.

One the most helpful filters for me came from an engineers who worked for me years ago who fought a constant battle with rage and anger.  He told me that he learned in the Navy:  

"Never attribute to malice what can be adequately explained by stupidity"
Stupid is probably too strong a term here, but I find the general thought helpful.

It is my experience that there is real evil out there, but I think there's a simpler interpetation from the same info that called out your excellent post.

I think we're in a period of instability as a result of leaving an evolutionary plateau and not yet reaching another.  Everything is in flux.  Even "the wise" are disoriented because the ordinals are are shifting around.  In that kind space, there's a need to establish a sort of "false real" just to get some rest.  In chaos theory these are the temporary structures that form up that will not hold.  I tend to think of it like a log jam in a flood -- it can seem pretty stable and reliable until the pressure builds up enough to wash it away.

Karla MacLaren (my hero) says the New Age is a religion created BY survivors FOR survivors.  I do think a new Real is moving in upon us, but the interpetations view and shaped by New Age tendencies -- even tendencies that have matured beyond the first reflex of new age -- will naturally contain all the skew survivors carry, including the desire for a wise and powerful "rescuers"

My experience of spirits is that they come in a wide range of capacities and intention.  Just like people, often those with the best intentions make the biggest messes.  I'm not sure that's all bad, though.  Evolution and birth both tend to be messy businesses.

If you are correct and the ascended masters are not what they seem, is it possible they are providing a needed raft in the storm for those who need a refuge?

The trouble with unbinding spells is that there's already been power given over by virtue of the fact that it's working at all  Remember that a line pulls both ways . . . if there wasn't already a "con" covert or otherwise going on, the binding spell would cause more trouble for the person who cast it.

Beyond spells, the most common successful technique I know people to use is the Sword of the Archangel Micheal.  If you look around, there will be people who have all kinds of special invocations, imagery and techniques.  

If you want some help, here are some traditional catholic prayers.  They're always a bit heavy for me, but they really help some people
http://www.publicsafety.net/st_micheal.htm

Most common is the St Micheal the Archangel, protect me in this day of battle . . .

Once the lines are cut, it's helpful to use Micheal's blue cloak as a further protection.

It's pretty easy to find and wear a St. Micheal medal.  

Another great tool if you are okay with angels and not triggered by judeo-christian tradition is psalm 91

Safe journey

I've always been highly empathic,although I haven't much control.I haven't tried scanning yet.How would I do this?


Was this question directed at me?

Regulars here will be able to direct you to reliable techniques that it's worth your time to master.

Myself, because of what you are already experiencing, I'd suggest this:

Choose a place where you can "girl watch" without it being inappropriate.  Campus, outdoor event . . . something like that.  Choose a venue where you are pretty comfortable.  Find a corner where you can view the movement but where there's limited range -- where nobody can get behind you.  I like stone or cement walls, personally.  Take a book or a newspaper or writing materials or anything else that can both draw your attention if you need and also serve as a cover for "people watching"  

Get settled in and get comfortable inside and outside yourself.  Coffee, tea, whatever, as if you were settling in for several hours.  Like nature watching, get quiet so that you are part of the background.  

QUIETLY bring your attention up and scan around the room.  If you are a visual person, you can do this by looking up from your book and just visually scanning around the room.  You will probably find that your eyes are drawn to one individual or another but KEEP YOUR EYES MOVING in casual visual scan and then look down, in visual concentration on your book or newpaper.  Take a drink of latte.  Take a deep breath.  

Without looking up, you will probably notice that you "know" things about different spots or people in the room, even if you don't know what you know.  If that's so, your natural (and healthy) curiousity and interest would have previously used "laser vision" to try to really get whatever your unconscious flagged.  That's a boundary violation, and most people get creeped out or take it as a challenge.

Learn to do the quiet scan, organizing and regrouping your information, EYES DOWN.  Pretty soon, you will master the ability to do the scan without using your eyes.  

Once you do that, it's an easy (and usually automatic) step to send good thoughts.  

and then they will come to you.

Hope it's okay if I jump in on this.  Just a different point of view.  My comments will be packed with ignorance, because I just say what I see without a lot of training.  Ignore what doesn't fit.  

When gifted people open up their minds and energy -- like with NEW or any other technique -- the flow affects each person a little differently.  

Many techniqes have a solid enough structure that they entrain the novice so that the nuances go unnoticed, and the "typical" response has few "blips" outside the ones the tradition predicts maps.  

Energy is energy, though and we are all unique.  It's been my experience that often really talented people choose a teaching that is not fully compatible with their setup (like hateful people sometimes choose Christianity, mindless people sometimes choose Buddhism . . . )  

This causes the Flow to run up against obstacles that cannot be ignored.  

Sometiemes it's private and personal, and it's needful to work through the block.

Sometimes, though, with naturally generous and fearless individuals, they take on the dilmenas that accrue in the group or cultural consciousness.

With you, it's really interesting the "sea and shore" nature of the sexual/energetic exeprience -- the way the energy builds up but then depletes.  This might be all about you, but it also might be that you are living out an energy paradox.  The quality of the discussion here would tend to suggest that might be the case.

My suggestion would be that you live the question and not slip into some dualistic either/or, good/bad solutions.   It's a more annoying way to live in regards to something that matters, but my guess is that if you go down one fork of the path you will find your destination inadequate and need to double back.

Why not take the question itself into the etheric.  Ask the energy.  Ask the experience.  It wouldn't help most people, but I think you will get an answer -- not in words but in what life serves up for your solution.

When the student is ready the teacher appears.

Hey...

I read a number of posts... and you all have really potent abilities.
Is there some way it could be developed? I can sometimes hear what people are going to say like 1 second later... or maybe their thoughts... but i never had auric vision, or clairvoyance, telekinesis or anything like that...

Could these skills be strengthened or something? does it grow with age or is it like "given", like a gift?

Also i keep getting this "urge" to get an Ouija board, i know theres a spirit in my house, because i was hearing something like "you want an ouija board" then i said in my mind "NO" and then the light went off and a ball dropped on the floor. A little help?

Sometimes i can see shapes of people in places.. like a transparent black silhouette but i usually dismiss it as my own eyes playing tricks.

so erm... a little help?

Check out Karla McLaren's "Becoming an Empath"  in addition to the resources listed here.

I agree wtih others here -- you're already operating effectively in the etheric.  You have just arranged somehow not to know what you really know.

It helps to understand why that works for you.  

The etheric world is a full and busy place.  Many  people block or limit their awareness so that they can operate effectively in the linear world.  

I would also recommend that you stay away from the Ouija board.  They're okay for some people, but since you already had a "no" response from yourself, follow it.  My experience is that Ouija channel is full of icky stuff.  Why not just go with better channels?

Tools are nice because when you're not using the tool, you can stay in the linear.  Keep in mind that, just like with carpentry, the tool changes the work.  "If your only tool is a hammer, you tend to see every problem as a nail"  or in the etheric world -- you tend to see nails everywhere.  Some nice tools to have as you build a kit can include angel cards, runes, pendulum, tarot (some decks better than others)   Some things will prove more appropriate for you than others.  For example, I can't touch tarot cards without things going badly, but other people do wonderful readings for me.  It's me, not the cards.  I can't use a pendulum without getting off on a weird channel.  Pendulums are WONDERFUL for most people.    

I just have a feeling that for you, one of the most effective tools might be automatic writing.  I don't actually feel like you NEED tools, but that instead it would be helpful as a way for you to compromise between the part of you that wants to move forward on your giftedness and the part of you that wants to resist.  Both sides of yourself have valid reasons.  One way to keep automatic writing "controlled" is to get special paper and special pens that you use only for that.   I have a little problem with things like writing checks and linear work because I didn't take that precaution.  If you want to begin to develop your gifts rather than just get information, instead of tradional automatic writing, you might just try "telling it as a story" and noticing when it's your gift working and when it's imagination.  My experience is that if you go this route it flows back and forth.  

A word about the spirit in your house.  It feels like there is more than one and they're kind of a range of characters.  At least one of them feels kind of icky.  Meaning no disrespect, but you might want to put some protection in place as you begin your explorations.  I feel like the "icky" thing is well within your capacity to handle, especially if you stay aware -- that it is more likely to act bigger and badder than it really is to con you so that it can draw from you before you get up to speed enough to make your own choices.  It's not a big concern for me or I wouldn't be telling you what I've said here.  It I could wave a magic wand for you, I would wish you could develop your skill set in a "safe" environment -- like a church where you feel good, or a benign and competent etheric practitioner -- but I feel that is unlikely for good reasons you hold private.

If I can do anything, ask.

Safe Journeys,

Chimerae

Years ago when I was in therapy, a psychiatrist had to explain to me that I was an empath and an powerful one.  He told me then that "if you can receive you can send"

It was causing me problems because when I did therapy work I'd overwhelm anybody in the room with me.  

This has been consistent with my general experience.

Everybody (even those not gifted) can do this, but it takes something extra t get the intensity and focus for "normal" people"

Some questions/lines of thought for you . . .

1.) Does it happen in other venues than those sexually linked?  Just "reading" your writing, it seems like you have something powerful going on with your 1st and 4th chakras.  Not like it's out of balance, but more like that's the way you're made.  If that's so, you could learn to shape this experience in ways more helpful to you and everyone else.

2.)  Have you tried altering the pattern you are sending?  Just for fun, instead of whatever you're doing (sounds like you are sort of weirding girls out) see if you can induce feeling of being beautiful or sexy or wild or safe or laughing . . .

Obviously, learing to do this opens up possibilities for manipulation.  Keep in mind that what you will get is a mirror image of your own patterns.  As you learn to send different patterns, you will learn to "tune" your own inner experience.  

Sex stuff is automatically focusing -- that's just the way we are all wired.  Most women and especially most girls have already learned to experience that as a threat.  That doesn't help you in any form . . .unless you just want all females to flee like a flock of startled birds whenever you appear. . . or else en masse begin collecting stones and looking a little to hard in your direction.

Thanks Burningriver.

Good point and very timely for my own path that it's not the shamanic stuff that makes it all weird but just the problem with hanging on too tight to control -- or giving up and taking no authority at all.

Ah . . . balance . . . well, maybe in my next life!

Thanks again for the info, sorry to hear about your computer.

Could you explain that a little more for me I dont fully understand the question.

I know several practicing shamans who came into it through the new shamanic psychology.  They practice shamanism almost like other people use relgion or work.  They have normal mundane lives and then, on some prearranged schedule they do personal and group work that involves fires, beating drums, totems, sweat lodges and a whole host of things.  Beyond that, it's mostly just "interesting" for them when they repeatedly see some animal.  What's hard for them is that they are still deeply culturally engaged and their professional peers their more traditional neigbors, and their client's uninvolved associates are either offended or disbelieving of the validity of their work and experience.  I don't know any of these people particularly well.

As for the other kind of shaman, the sioux medicine woman puts it best.  She says that when you do this, you are this all the time.  That there's a "crack" and that in some way the shaman has to bridge it.  Except that the mudane world and the world of spirit are terribly out of synch.  She feels best in the midst of her practice and rituals -- working with herself, individuals, and groups . . .but as she goes through her linear life it's like pushing upstream against a raging current.  She  has developed intense chemical allergies.  Her little town has great diffulties with violence, drugs, kids that cannot manage in school.  Much of it is inexplicable.  Spirit does not let her off the hook in terms of her accountabilty to the demands of the spiritual world to engage the mundane.

As for the other shamans I know, the sioux example is the same.  The exact details are different -- some people have no general engagement with the world around them, some have every material advantage but health problems and social problems.

I'm thinking, as I asked my question, that you are among the second group, not the first.  If so, you must know something about balance or wisdom or ? that came with your upbringing that these other people are missing.

If you are in fact, more like the first group with shamanism as a practice, you also must know something none of them do, since you seem untroubled by the problems they face.

It's possible that my question can't be answered simply and you just ARE.  If that's the case, I'd like to know what you have seen with other shamans both those that experience difficulty and those who have what you have in terms of grace and balance.

Again, I don't think I've phrased this very well, so I want to say that no disrepect is intended.

I was brought up as a shaman and I suppose that the whole mystery/mudane thing doesnt bother shamans its just the people that want to act all mystical that say things such as "ooOoO this is so hard" or
"Even though its a burden..." thats when people start to think its OoOoO so hard. So whatever your view I cant change it.

I'm actually pretty easy to educate, mostly because I know that I'm wrong alot.  

Way back at the beginning, the way the question was framed, it sounded like an outside looking in with confusion frame of reference.

I know a couple of people who were raised as shamans -- one sioux, one more from the new age traditions.  They find it incredibly difficult to balance the demands of community/individual, culture/spirit.  Most of the shamen I know do find it to be a challenge.  

I'm not sure how to phrase this question correctly, so I apologize if it comes across wrong . . . since you ARE a shaman and you find that to be doable without drama or excess burden . . . what's different about your experience?

I don't think shamans are just like everyone else.  

(And I'm not a shaman, so this is a view from the outside, looking in)

Seems to me that shamans have a unique relationship with the Mystery -- they really enter into it, with or without ritual, and then through their lives bring some aspect of it back to be made available to the mundane world.  

That sets up a particular type of experiences -- not because of the shaman's "out there" experience or because of their day to day lives but rather because shamans seem to have to always deal with the transition and the awkwardness between mundane and mystery.  It's not that it's awkward, for the shamans, but shamans seem to take on this work for the benefit of the mundane world -- and to the mundane the very existance of anything "out there" is awkward.

I was a white (female) manager for over a decade.

Our company was growing, but too small to be targeted by affirmative action quotas.

Still, when I hired our first black man there were many hidden obstacles for him that had everything in the world to do with lack of inclusion.  People LIKED this man . . . he just wasn't welcome in the "Old Boys Network"  and that meant that there were all kinds of opportunities that never materialized for him.

I wasn't part of the "Old Boy's Network" either, but they looked out for me.   Chivilry is not dead, just a little bent.  

Affirmative action is a badly crafted attempt to level the playing field.  In about one more generation, it will be about as level as it's gonna get and will have outlived it's usefulness.

Here's my experience . . .

For whatever reason, it's easier in some locations than others for spirits to do material "tricks"

In general, the easist "tricks" are done with electronics -- I presume that it's the low power requirements.  After that it's electrical and water.  

It seems like the entities that approch the whole "problem" of moving things as a game -- hey!  check this out!!! are most apt to have success.  Spirits that are purpose driven -- say wanting to give a message to a particular person find that sort of thing far more difficult.  

According to the spirits, that has a lot to do about how individual spirits perceive material environements radically differently.  If you can see the stereo, for example, it doesn't help you much.  If you see patterns of energy where the stereo is -- well, now you have something to toy with!

I've never had a table or bed move.  The biggest physical things I've had happened were a clock on my bookshelf, set behind an elaborate arrangement of crystals, was on the floor face down every day when I came home from work -- without a single crystal disturbed.  It went on for weeks.  I kept trying to come up with a way the clock could fall and not budge the rocks, but there just seemed to be no way.  

In the same house (with a particularly nasty ghost) I went to take a bath one spring equinox, left the room while the tub was filling, and walked back in just in time to see red flood out of the tap, just like the flowing blood on a cheap horror movie.  It was rust.  Sure looked spooky at the time.

The only other physical thing was when I was talking to a new boss who didn't believe in ghosts.  Something threw a stack of metal camping  plates off the shelf next to us, right at us.  That was weird, but never happened again.  Guess they got their point across.

Thought I'd share this meditation adaptation from the paphlets Colorado publishes on bear encounters.  

The author noticed the wisdom and just substituted "thought" for "bear"

" Meditation Hints from the Colorado Division of Wildlife"
by Kim Boykin


There are no definite rules about what to do if
you meet a thought. Thought attacks are rare
compared to the number of close encounters.
However, if you do meet a thought before it has
time to leave the area, here are some suggestions:

REMEMBER:
Every situation is different with respect to the thought,
the terrain, the people, and their activity.

STAY CALM:
If you see a thought and it hasn't seen you,
calmly leave the area.

STOP:
Back away slowly while facing the thought.
Give the thought plenty of room to escape.
Wild thoughts rarely attack people unless
they feel threatened or provoked.

SPEAK SOFTLY:
This may reassure the thought that no harm is meant it.

IF A THOUGHT STANDS UPRIGHT
OR MOVES CLOSER:
It may be trying to detect smells in the air.
This isn't a sign of aggression. Once a thought
identifies you, it may leave the area
or it may try to intimidate you by charging
within a few feet before it withdraws.

DON'T RUN OR MAKE SUDDEN MOVEMENTS:
Running is likely to prompt the thought to give chase and
... you can't outrun a thought!

Thought this was funny and yet brilliantly helpful -- that translates to "uplifting" in my world, altho others may see it differently:

http://redwing.hutman.net/~mreed/

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Why is it that people scent psychological imbalances and use them as a basis for attacks?
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It's not just psychological -- people who have a death in the family will tell you what when grief really kicks in there's nobody there for you.  Cancer, job loss . . . you name it.  

As a specific example, there's a place in Texas called the Richardson Early Childhood Center that treats families with early intervention because their research has discovered something they call "fussy baby syndrome"  Something as simple as a "fussy baby" alienates the entire family from their support system and ends up in all kinds of social, emotional, financial, psychological, physical problems for EVERYONE in the family.  Richardson ECC targets families with "fussy babies" and provides extra support and treatment at no cost -- and they can document the cost savings to the community in just 3 years.  30 years later the cost savings are astronomical.  

Personally, I think the negs are part of a social mechanism that help shove anyone "not okay" farther out into the fringes, loading those people down with as much of the "garbage" of the social order as possible, so that if and when they fall off the map they take as much of the culture's baggage with them when they go.  I think it's the latent "neg" in allegedly healthy people (like bacteria and virues on the physical level) that cause "in" people to attack the potential "outs"

It's not all bad news though.  It really is possible to just walk away and leave the culture to deal with is own baggage.  I'm serious about the growing stronger in the broken places.  

Consciousness is the key.  I'm just not sure of all the doors it matches up with to open up and "get out of the asylum" that's our culture.

"Injury is opportunity" is not just about negs

Bacteria takes opportunities in open wounds from an abrasion or cut.  

Embroyonic  cells gather at the local of any injured tissue and increase the likelyhood of cancer -- hence the long list of carcinogens.

A family under stress from job loss or a host of other sources is an easier target for all kinds of perpetration.

In all things, it is possible to grow stronger at the broken places, turning the "crisis" of the "attack" whether it is negs or illness or whatever into an opportunity

I frequently see the sort of spirits that I beleive you refer to as "negs" in people who are experiencing no difficulty.  As long as the person is whole and their ego is intact, the spirit just hangs around and affects whatever it can reach.  

Just a thought, but you might take a look and see if it's not that trauma and alchol/drug use create an opportunity for negs to manifest in a way that they are more noticed.  In the world I see, they are as common as virus and carried by "healthy" people.  

It's built in and part of our social mechanisms.  When someone has serious trouble in their lives, even someone quite beloved, watch how they are attacked and isolated by those around them, even people who genuinely love them.

Lets grow stronger in the broken places.

How can we be human angels? Are we using angel as an actual noun or a descriptor here? We can act like 'an angel' and be sweet and kind, but we are human. If there are angels, they are not humans.

Viola!  Semantics trumps sensibility!

Definitions of angel on the Web:

spiritual being attendant upon God
www.cogsci.princeton.edu/cgi-bin/webwn


saint: person of exceptional holiness
www.cogsci.princeton.edu/cgi-bin/webwn


invests in a theatrical production
www.cogsci.princeton.edu/cgi-bin/webwn


the highest waterfall; has more than one leap; flow varies seasonally
www.cogsci.princeton.edu/cgi-bin/webwn


The English word comes from the Greek "angelos" (messenger). In the Bible they were described as an intelligent and immortal species, usually presented as being visually indistinguishable from humans -- i.e. without wings. They delivered messages from God, and either harmed or helped humans. Satan is described in the Bible as an evil angel. Because the Bible's cosmology asserts that the earth was flat, that it was covered by a metal firmament or dome, and that God resided in Heaven above the dome, angels have often been portrayed as having wings so that they could fly from Heaven to earth and back.
www.religioustolerance.org/gl_a.htm


A typically benevolent celestial being that acts as an intermediary between heaven and earth, especially in Christianity, Judaism, Islam, and Zoroastrianism. An Angel is a spiritual or celestial being sent to earth to relay a message to a person, serve as a protector or help them in their transition into the afterlife.
www.ghosttracker.com/glossary.html


A typically benevolent celestial being that acts as an intermediary between heaven and earth, especially in Christianity, Judaism, Islam, and Zoroastrianism. Angels are messengers of deities, which link God and man (devdut). (Also used to mean a kind and lovable person; one who manifests goodness, purity, and selflessness.)
www.sanatan.org/en/glossary/a.htm


A Force of light, there are many types of angels, all working for the higher power. If you need help - ask for it, an angel might just be waiting for you to say help!
www.astroawareness.com/symbols/symbols.html


A private investor who often has non-monetary motives for investing as well as the usual financial ones.
www.catalyst-financial.com/glossary.html


At one point an Angel was a primary character in the world. She is one of the more heavy- handed allegorical characters in the pantheon. She has most of the generic qualities of traditional angels - purity, goodness and stoicism. This Angel appeared at a delicate time in my life and was a bit of a rescuer. Her role and presence tapered off as the person she was based on, Hannah Ekberg, and I drifted apart. Ultimately the character was killed and buried by the Emperors son on his father's behalf. Recently, at the urging of the Traitor, the Emperor has sought distraction from his current problems by digging up the Angels body as a form of ghoulish nostalgia. Her feathers have been used the Emperor and Smoking Guy as a sign of nostalgia and victory respectively.
www.fliar.com/dictionary/dictionary_a.htm


(an energetic, spirtual being who assist humans with the living process because they have special powers or help us to see our own special powers.While generally thought not to be in physical form, many incarnate into physical form and also come and go as needed from spirit to physical form as needed.
www.rememberingsoul.com/potglossary.html


Literally, "messenger"; these beings are mentioned frequently in apocalyptic literature and figure prominently in the Dead Sea Scrolls. The constitutional literature of the sect (Rule of the Community, Damascus Document) indicates that the group imagined itself to be one with the angels, particularly during worship.
www-relg-studies.scu.edu/facstaff/murphy/courses/sctr108/glossary.htm


Someone who befriends a surgery patient and gives them extra attention while they are in the hospital and reports back to any mailing list they are on about how they are doing
dewdropdeb.tripod.com/dewdropdeb/id9.html


An English gold coin first issued in 1465 with a value of 6 shillings and 8 pence. St Michael spearing a dragon is on the obverse and a ship on the reverse. This denomination was struck under every monarch until the reign of Charles I.
www.coincraft.com/aboutus/glossary.html


Celestial entities that are still part of a group consciousness, not yet individualized. Within some religions, they have been referred to as the messengers or guides of God.
www.agasha.org/dictionary.htm


One of the Elinrómi, spirit-servants of the Maker. A guide, she led the Bryant children on their quest.
www.angelfire.com/mn/Maychoria/glssry.html


A divine or semi-divine being who is able to work with humanity for a number of purposes. A personification of the concept of holiness. Angels, together with Saints, in a supposedly "monotheistic" religion, take the place of the multiple deities in Polytheistic traditions.
wolfmoongrove.com/Wiccan%20info%20pages/glossary.htm


Known in education as a Teacher's Aide. An angel is the person who volunteers to help the teacher in any way that the two of them decide is most useful.
members.tripod.com/treasured/glossary.htm


a word signifying, both in the Hebrew and Greek, a "messenger," and hence employed to denote any agent God sends forth to execute his purposes. It is used of an ordinary messenger (Job 1:14: 1 Sam. 11:3; Luke 7:24; 9:52), of prophets (Isa. 42:19; Hag. 1:13), of priests (Mal. 2:7), and ministers of the New Testament (Rev. 1:20).
www.jesuscaresaboutyou.org/ebd/T0000200.html


Individual who buys into a company at its very beginning.
www.businessownersideacafe.com/financing/financing_glossary.php


A finite and immaterial creature; an incorporeal substance having the powers of knowledge and desire, wholly personal unto itself, unique as to its own individual identity or person, and contingent upon God its Creator.
www.catholicism.org/Philosophia/glossary.htm


A vampire with a soul. How lame is that?
homepage.ntlworld.com/mark.scholes/hashriscos.html


1. the light of truth; 2. wisdom; 3. guidance; 4. a coming birth or death (literally or figuratively)
www.angelicinspirations.com/page158.htm


a large alien with wings made of feathers or leathery skin
www.psychickids.com/glossary.html


same as "angel investor".
www.advancedtechgroup.com/glossary.htm


A term for a type of nonprofessional investor, usually one who puts money into local firms.
glencoe.com/sec/busadmin/marketing/dp/entre/gloss.shtml


From a Greek word meaning "messenger"; angels were commonly conceived in biblical times as emissaries from the deity who employed them to communicate his will to humanity. The oldest known rendition of angels in art occurs on the stele of Urnammu, a Sumerian king, but many scholars suggest that Israel's belief in angelology derives from Persian sources. Angels named in canonical Scripture include Michael and Gabriel, although apocryphal and pseudepigraphal literature lists others. Angels are particularly important in the birth stories of Jesus (Luke 1-2; Matt. 1).
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a private investor who often has non-monetary motives for investing as well as the usual financial ones.
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Wealthy investor who invests in private companies
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I kill all insects but spiders,  .

Sigh.  I practice "catch and release" with house insects and rescue drowing earthworms.  I gotta learn to lighten up.

When I do totem work and get stuck, I sometimes look at predator/prey relationships.  Aren't gnats spider food?

Checked into Spider totem stuff since you have that connection?  I know some people feel Spider is the totem of writers.  

Maybe the gnat is your "carrot" to draw you into writing???

This sounds really dumb but . . . Have you ASKED the gnat what it wants?  What the message is?  I make more breakthrough doing dumb stuff than I ever do with enlightened practice.

Raster,

If it looks like a duck and walks like a duck . . .

My answer to your question would be "no" we're not all angels.

The people like those in the post you described just seem to me to be "different" -- not better or worse or more or less, just differnt.  They seem to have different assignments and focus than others -- even from others that are great lightbringers.  

Or it might just be perspective.  Not long after I got my first chickens one of my neighbors got an emu.  I wrote a children's book using grass level photos as illustrations with my dog as the narrator titled Chelsea and the Giant Chicken  Gotta tell you from CHELSEA's point of view that was nothing more than big chicken that was ignorant in it's true place in the dog/bird pecking order.

If we take the label "angel" to mean a powerful lightworker dedicated to service to heaven and earth -- sure!  But then, what's the point of the rest of our language base . . . saint, prophet, sage, and all the rest   You know the story of how Eskimos have so many different words for SNOW, simply because different kinds of snow "matter" in their world

My understanding, (that I've not been able to bring to practical mastery) is that you set your intention.

If your intention is to resolve your Karma -- off you go and the lessons come faster and with greater clarity.

I've been around a number of powerful people who wanted Instant Karma -- the true desire of their hearts.  They're all dead now, but that might be a reflection of the pattern of my old associates.

Here's what I observed in their lives in the years after setting their intent for instant Karma:

Almost immediately, their lives became indescribably difficult -- think the fast track to Step One ". . . our lives had become unmanageable . . ."  Even though these were people with spiritual experience and good practice (but in my eyes questionable wisdom) not all of them could actually cope with the power of genuine powerlessness and either backpedaled off their intent or melted down right there and never made it through.  About 2/3 made it to the next step.

Not long after that, their lives took an astonishing jump "upward" with breakthough after breakthough.  Watching from the outside, it look to me like setting their intent instantly resolved all the karma that could be instantly resolved -- and put tremendous pressure on the hard stuff their egos had difficulty surviving in its resolution.  Major spiritual ascention, resolution of many life issues very quickly.  Most people completely changes their interpersonal associates at this point.

Post elevation, there always seemed to be a nagging issue or two that they took with them to the grave and never could quite master.

Could be that this is not at all on point and just a reflection of my associations, but here it is for whatever it's worth.

As for me, I need all the grace -- graceful timing, graceful release, graceful resolution, and all the rest of the grace I don't understand as well -- just doing what needs to be done right now.

There are cascading levels of difficulty attached to making a living as a "healer"

The central problem comes from the very dualistic thinking that has you (and most of us) trapped right now.  In a more positive aspect, "trapped" can be reframed as "anchored" or "grounded in a particular reality"

If you talk to people who have managed to get themselves free from dualistic thinking, you find that healers "heal" wherever they are.  Teachers "teach" in whatever context they find themselves.

From the outside the journey from here to there LOOKS like it's one of getting out of the culture to get free of the cultural trap, but many people will tell you that you just end up dealing with same culture and the same problems from a different angle.  

Some of us -- and you may be one -- have to disconnect from our cultural engagement simply because of our own addictions.  We get addicted to aspects of the culture the way alcoholics get addicted to booze and we cannot get clear with ourselves and the world around us as long as we are hanging out in the endless bar that is the corporate world.  

As long as we are caught in the illusion that the culture has more power than spirit, we continue to struggle as you are struggling -- it just becomes a desperate struggle for minimal resources instead of the one you are enduring.

Others of us -- and Rastus, in my opinion is one -- manage to transform right in the midst of their context and get the spirit/material closer into appropriate balance.  It's still not easy, but it's a matter of successfully "living the questions"   It's what we all end up having to do anyway to get where we need to be -- it's just some us go through a huge destructive drama to get there from here.      

There is a book by Ed Hayes that speaks directly to some of this called St George and the Dragon  It's easy reading light short stories.  

It all starts with the true desire of your heart which sets up your own personal North Star to sail by -- and you have that well in place.

Safe journey.