hey.. This post might not be very dramatic compared to everyone out there with more serious problems.. but I'm having this.. shall we say.. problem.. maybe someone could help..
For a pretty long time now I have been experiencing these bizarre thoughts that come up in my head, that try to convince me of the exact opposite of what i really believe in, If i think a positive thought, or hope for a positive event for example, another thought would immediately pop up and say in my head 'i don't want that, i want this', bringing up the opposite something that i fear or sencerly hope wouldn't happen etc. Then i end p ages trying to convince myself and make sure that i do not want to have me or anyone else com to harm, or that I'm not the way that the thought just told me i was. This goes back and forth for a long time.
This started out not being a very big problem but gradually as i was unable to control it, became a highly hindering obsession, in other words it wouldn't go away. I don't actually know whether to classify this as a serious disturbance or an 'attack' as i never dream of it, or only dream of it in the way i approach it in my waking life, and if i don't think about it or am reminded of it by the complex system of associations with fears that has built up, it doesn't come up.
If anyone has any idea what could help this, i would be very grateful as this is a great pain to live with let alone do any serious work.
For a pretty long time now I have been experiencing these bizarre thoughts that come up in my head, that try to convince me of the exact opposite of what i really believe in, If i think a positive thought, or hope for a positive event for example, another thought would immediately pop up and say in my head 'i don't want that, i want this', bringing up the opposite something that i fear or sencerly hope wouldn't happen etc. Then i end p ages trying to convince myself and make sure that i do not want to have me or anyone else com to harm, or that I'm not the way that the thought just told me i was. This goes back and forth for a long time.
This started out not being a very big problem but gradually as i was unable to control it, became a highly hindering obsession, in other words it wouldn't go away. I don't actually know whether to classify this as a serious disturbance or an 'attack' as i never dream of it, or only dream of it in the way i approach it in my waking life, and if i don't think about it or am reminded of it by the complex system of associations with fears that has built up, it doesn't come up.
If anyone has any idea what could help this, i would be very grateful as this is a great pain to live with let alone do any serious work.