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Why is it bad for my eyes. Would it have anything to do with melatonin, can't remember what that is anyway. The word just came to me.
Well the lights died again so I won't anymore. Maybe "it" got angry. I'm not using the music to help me sleep just to keep this thing away.
Read that uplifting/happy feel good type music especially nursery rhymes can work, drives them crazy apparently. I think I prefer love songs...

Affirmations are more effective when you're in Alpha. Your subconscious can be influenced more easily. It might not work for everyone unless you believe it will. Well yeah the affirmation won't help against a car hehe. I have a choice to let fear and this thing control me or not. I choose not to. Your thoughts and how you feel can help, of course should also be used with other defense techniques.  Fear also attracts negs doesn't it. Why should I give it something to use against me. I'll admit at first maybe I was abit scared this has never happened to me before. Being fearful just makes it worse. So I don't fear it anymore. If I could astral project it would fear me.  : D

Hmm, maybe slapping could help but I feel weird about that hurting myself doesn't really interest me. If I need to as a last resort I'll ask someone to do it for me.
Nothing has happened for a few nights now until last night. The lights are off but my stereo still on. As usually I become "conscious" in the middle of the night but this time I start to feel something pulsating on the centre of my back then it moves to the left of my shoulder blade. The pain was intense, so I visualized a white light inside me spreading to where it was, after abit the pulsating stops. I wake up and feel tingling sensations on my back. Now I can hear something in my ears like pulsating type noises even while I'm typing this and sometimes areas of my body pulsate. What is happening to me. Weird how I stop reading and thinking about the paranormal, astral projection etc these things start happening to me.
Btw I have 2 huge mirrors in my room their lengths from the floor to the ceiling. In that archangel michael thread someone asked about mirrors and Michael said they're gateways to other dimensions or something like that. Maybe that has something to do with it.  

Yeah maybe I should develop my shield never really thought of that, thanks. I used to make psi balls, but stopped because one time I felt something evil in my room later at night on the day I was "training" alot. Just remembered some other weird things once I woke up and heard a loud beeping noise in my room, and I'm pretty sure nothing in my room makes that noise kinda freaked me out..and recently I've been waking up and I can't feel my left arm like something has been draining it(maybe that's normal?lol). It's never happen before though. Also parts of my body seem to become hot like I've been out in the sun. The lights in my room stopped flickering now after I kept repeating "in the name of God I vanquish you", which I think was my higher self who told me to say it.

Yeah I guess the slapping is kinda funny the hands looked freaky though, only happened the other night...Whatever it was I think it's the same thing that's been draining my energy and trying to paralyze me, which I described at the start of my first post. I haven't given it another chance to slap me or whatever else it wants to do because the past few nights I've been sleeping with the lights on and leaving my stereo on(love songs, I heard negs don't like them hehe). Maybe tonight I won't
Been doing affirmations too "I fear nothing, nothing can hurt me", when your subconscious believes it you'll believe it, seems to be working.

Hi, some weird things have been happening to me recently. I've been reading about astral projection for a few months and wanted to experience it but got abit worried about being attacked by negs so I decided I wouldn't. Stopped reading and basically stopped thinking about it. Well a few weeks ago I "woke" up in the middle of the night(seemed to be between the sleeping and waking state) and felt energy flowing out of my back and something "pushing" both sides of my body. Then an overwhelming sensation it was covering my whole body trying to paralyze me.  So instinctively I thought of a shield exploding around me trying to get whatever was on me off. It seemed to work cause I felt the "presence" becoming weaker. A week later same thing happens I felt energy being drained from my back again but this time also felt my bed "sucking" me kind of like the bed was becoming quicksand. I struggled but eventually could move my body and woke up.
So the next night before I went to bed I asked  my higher self to create a shield if there's an evil presence. Thinking maybe my higher self could hear me even tho not having much luck communicating with it. Nothing happens that night  but a few days later I wake up in the middle of the night feeling all this energy being drawn in my body and a protective shield surrounding me. it was amazing and I felt that nothing could hurt me.
A few days later I sensed I was about to astral project, feeling I was levitating. But I stopped myself, in my mind I was thinking I didnt want to. Maybe that was a bad idea.

A week or so goes by nothing really happening, except the light bulb in my room just died while I was getting ready for bed and now that I've got a new one it keeps flickering kind of like in a pattern! (neg maybe). I've started to pray too and asking my guardian angel to protect me before i go to sleep. I've been seeing the number 11:11 so much lately. Maybe a sign of someone or something trying to contact me?.
Ok so now to the topic of my post, last night I woke up around 1am after going to bed at 10pm. I was paralyzed and couldn't move obviously. Could sense a "dark' presence, so I tried to create a shield but lost concentration. Then I look up and see these hands above me slapping/hitting me in the face. I raise my energy and it seemed to repel it and when I stop it starts hitting me again. I keep my energy up but feel drained then all of a sudden feel something sitting on the bottom half of my body holding me down. I decided to wake myself up and just lied in my bed from 2am till 5am. Then today my gf tells me she wants to end it with me, which has made me feel pretty down. Maybe the neg will use this against me.    
Why am I being attacked when I don't even astral project or want to, not yet anyway. Thinking about getting protection first. Someone please help me. Any comments/advice would be appreciated.