Let me open by saying i am an experienced projector. I have had hundreds of astral projections throughout my life, ranging anywhere from a few minutes to a few hours (relative time obviously... there is no time in the astral). I am 23 years of age, and my first projection was at age 16. I have seen a lot in the astral. I have spoken to entities, struggled with learning how to fly, seen the future, heard things so complex, that i could not remember or understand them, so on and so forth. I open with this not to brag... but because for the first time ever... i encountered something i can not explain. It goes against everything ive ever known about the astral.
At about 2 o'clock a.m. last night, me and my fiance decided it was time for bed after watching a nice movie together. i turned the tv off, kissed her goodnight, and laid on my back while she laid her head on my chest as usual. I thought for a bit, and realized it had been a good while since my last projection. I decided to go for it. No problem, right away the vibrations started and out i went. I rolled to my left and was out... but it was so different... Let me mention im living in a college dorm room. When i left my body, there was no color... it was black and white. I instantly forgot almost everything i knew about my life. I didnt remember i was in a college dorm, i forgot about my lover laying on my chest, i forgot about most of my mortal life... i was literally restricted to this room and that moment alone. The room resembled my dorm room but was different as well. It was larger, and seemed to have no windows or way out. When i left my body, i realized i was still vibrating, this ussually happens when im to close to my physical body. I decided to drift away from my body until the vibrations stopped. The further i got from my body, the less intense the vibrations became. I did a few tests to ensure i was out of my body and not actually awake (despite the black and white tone to everything...) i passed my hand through a nearby wall and concluded i was in the astral. As the vibrations stopped, i realized how dumbfounded and cloudy my thoughts had become. I could barely think, i could barely even remember what purpose was intended for this projection. I decided to just explore this room. It had an ominous feel to it. When i was far enough from my body to be at rest from the vibrations, i noticed that i was not alone in the room. I came face to face with 6-8 entities staring at me. They resembled the grim reaper. Hooded figures with no face, just a black abyss where the head should be. They were floating just a bit above the ground and wouldnt stop staring at me. I knew they were staring at me. I could feel their gaze. When i looked into one of their faces (there was no face, just a space where it should be.) i felt an overwhelming sense of malice. These entities were evil... i could feel their intent. I immediately knew these were not just residents of this realm... they were residents to me....
I have to admit... since my last projection, i have done very very bad things. I have made horrible decisions. I have become... evil. Just as an example... i am a heroin addict. I am in the process of quiting, but the decisions involved with being a heroin user involve lying, stealing, cheating, etc. I have treated my family badly with my decisions to use this powerfully addicting drug. I want so badly to quit, but the pain is so intense, i am drawn back to it every time. But this experience has completely turned my world upside down. This isnt about quiting a drug anymore... its about saving my soul....
I knew how sick my soul was now. I could see what i had attracted. these things, they follow me everywhere i go and dictate my actions. Im not saying i have no responsibility in my actions, im just saying my actions have attracted beings that facilitate the ability to do bad.
I ignored these things, despite the slight fear i felt. I was able to push them out of the way and pass by them (their gaze still fixed on my consciousness) And behind them was a closed large wooden door. Seemingly the only way out of this room. The door looked like it belonged on an old temple or something. It had square decorative panels. I was so intrigued by this door, that i had to know what was behind it. I could pass my astral arm through it, but everytime i tried to pass through it entirely, i was instantly teleported back to my body. Not awake, just there... vibrating. I attempted several times to get through the door. But i couldnt. After a while, a while of flying up and down through the roof and floor, i realized i was stuck in this place. There was nothing outside of this room but darkness. When i left through the roof, i could look down and see the room and myself in bed, but nothing surrounded the room. Like the room was the only thing that existed in this void. After about an hour (a literal hour) i decided i wanted to leave this place... and wake up. Normally i have trouble seeing in the astral, i always end up opening my real eyes instead of my astral eyes. This time i couldnt open my real eyes no matter what. 2 hours passed by, i spent the entire hour trying to wake up. I could not. I was stuck in this room. I got scarred. I tried to scream. Obviously that didnt work. I tried and tried and tried to yell, but nothing but a subtle whisper escaped my vocal cords. Finally, after a while, i could feel my fiances head lift off my chest. I could see her in the astral, she looked at me. My astral eyes were open, my physical ones closed. She looked a little puzzled, but went back to sleep. The dismay i felt was indescribable. I desperately wanted to wake up. I couldnt stand being there any more. When i felt her head lay back down, i screamed at the top of my astral lungs. "HELP ME!!!!!" "HELP ME!!!!!!" i screamed over and over and over again. "PLEASE WAKE ME UP!!!! WAKE ME UP!!!! PLEASE!!!!! PLEASE!!!!!! WAKE ME UP!!!!!" Over and over again. All of a sudden, something embraced me from behind. As it embraced me, a feeling of primal terror took over my body. I started breathing very fast and i was so terrified. Finally, my fiance woke up and heard me whispering "wake.... me..... up...... pleeeeeeeeeeease!" She said it was so bizzare, to hear somebody ask to be woken up. She shook me and i flew up to the sitting position. All my memories returned and my heart was pounding fast.... she hugged me and told me not to worry, that it was just a dream.... no sweety.... im sorry, it wasnt just a dream. This is real. this is no imaginary situation. I am in real danger. My soul is being steered by these things. And when i woke up, the very real terror of the afterlife set in. I wanted to project again and confront these... demons. I wanted them gone. But it doesnt work that way. I need to fix my life for them to go away.
How could i possibly have been stuck out there? I thought that couldnt happen. Had it not been for my lover, i would have been there.... for a long long long time.
help me understand what happened... and what i need to do (besides the obvious)
At about 2 o'clock a.m. last night, me and my fiance decided it was time for bed after watching a nice movie together. i turned the tv off, kissed her goodnight, and laid on my back while she laid her head on my chest as usual. I thought for a bit, and realized it had been a good while since my last projection. I decided to go for it. No problem, right away the vibrations started and out i went. I rolled to my left and was out... but it was so different... Let me mention im living in a college dorm room. When i left my body, there was no color... it was black and white. I instantly forgot almost everything i knew about my life. I didnt remember i was in a college dorm, i forgot about my lover laying on my chest, i forgot about most of my mortal life... i was literally restricted to this room and that moment alone. The room resembled my dorm room but was different as well. It was larger, and seemed to have no windows or way out. When i left my body, i realized i was still vibrating, this ussually happens when im to close to my physical body. I decided to drift away from my body until the vibrations stopped. The further i got from my body, the less intense the vibrations became. I did a few tests to ensure i was out of my body and not actually awake (despite the black and white tone to everything...) i passed my hand through a nearby wall and concluded i was in the astral. As the vibrations stopped, i realized how dumbfounded and cloudy my thoughts had become. I could barely think, i could barely even remember what purpose was intended for this projection. I decided to just explore this room. It had an ominous feel to it. When i was far enough from my body to be at rest from the vibrations, i noticed that i was not alone in the room. I came face to face with 6-8 entities staring at me. They resembled the grim reaper. Hooded figures with no face, just a black abyss where the head should be. They were floating just a bit above the ground and wouldnt stop staring at me. I knew they were staring at me. I could feel their gaze. When i looked into one of their faces (there was no face, just a space where it should be.) i felt an overwhelming sense of malice. These entities were evil... i could feel their intent. I immediately knew these were not just residents of this realm... they were residents to me....
I have to admit... since my last projection, i have done very very bad things. I have made horrible decisions. I have become... evil. Just as an example... i am a heroin addict. I am in the process of quiting, but the decisions involved with being a heroin user involve lying, stealing, cheating, etc. I have treated my family badly with my decisions to use this powerfully addicting drug. I want so badly to quit, but the pain is so intense, i am drawn back to it every time. But this experience has completely turned my world upside down. This isnt about quiting a drug anymore... its about saving my soul....
I knew how sick my soul was now. I could see what i had attracted. these things, they follow me everywhere i go and dictate my actions. Im not saying i have no responsibility in my actions, im just saying my actions have attracted beings that facilitate the ability to do bad.
I ignored these things, despite the slight fear i felt. I was able to push them out of the way and pass by them (their gaze still fixed on my consciousness) And behind them was a closed large wooden door. Seemingly the only way out of this room. The door looked like it belonged on an old temple or something. It had square decorative panels. I was so intrigued by this door, that i had to know what was behind it. I could pass my astral arm through it, but everytime i tried to pass through it entirely, i was instantly teleported back to my body. Not awake, just there... vibrating. I attempted several times to get through the door. But i couldnt. After a while, a while of flying up and down through the roof and floor, i realized i was stuck in this place. There was nothing outside of this room but darkness. When i left through the roof, i could look down and see the room and myself in bed, but nothing surrounded the room. Like the room was the only thing that existed in this void. After about an hour (a literal hour) i decided i wanted to leave this place... and wake up. Normally i have trouble seeing in the astral, i always end up opening my real eyes instead of my astral eyes. This time i couldnt open my real eyes no matter what. 2 hours passed by, i spent the entire hour trying to wake up. I could not. I was stuck in this room. I got scarred. I tried to scream. Obviously that didnt work. I tried and tried and tried to yell, but nothing but a subtle whisper escaped my vocal cords. Finally, after a while, i could feel my fiances head lift off my chest. I could see her in the astral, she looked at me. My astral eyes were open, my physical ones closed. She looked a little puzzled, but went back to sleep. The dismay i felt was indescribable. I desperately wanted to wake up. I couldnt stand being there any more. When i felt her head lay back down, i screamed at the top of my astral lungs. "HELP ME!!!!!" "HELP ME!!!!!!" i screamed over and over and over again. "PLEASE WAKE ME UP!!!! WAKE ME UP!!!! PLEASE!!!!! PLEASE!!!!!! WAKE ME UP!!!!!" Over and over again. All of a sudden, something embraced me from behind. As it embraced me, a feeling of primal terror took over my body. I started breathing very fast and i was so terrified. Finally, my fiance woke up and heard me whispering "wake.... me..... up...... pleeeeeeeeeeease!" She said it was so bizzare, to hear somebody ask to be woken up. She shook me and i flew up to the sitting position. All my memories returned and my heart was pounding fast.... she hugged me and told me not to worry, that it was just a dream.... no sweety.... im sorry, it wasnt just a dream. This is real. this is no imaginary situation. I am in real danger. My soul is being steered by these things. And when i woke up, the very real terror of the afterlife set in. I wanted to project again and confront these... demons. I wanted them gone. But it doesnt work that way. I need to fix my life for them to go away.
How could i possibly have been stuck out there? I thought that couldnt happen. Had it not been for my lover, i would have been there.... for a long long long time.
help me understand what happened... and what i need to do (besides the obvious)