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I don't believe that anyone can be cursed -- it's just superstition unless you happen to live in a culture of voodoo.

Other than that, I'd say you're putting the cart before the horse.  Do you really want to learn to meditate & why?  Try getting a good handle on that before switching to telepathy.

Have you heard of the philosophy of "non-attachment"?  You're so wound up about what you want & what she wants that you're spinning your wheels.

Have you tried listening to any guided visualization tapes?  I find it helpful to have an outside voice to concentrate on.  The original thing I started with involved going down an escalator, then an elevator, then coming out onto a gorgeous beach & swimming & running.  There's more & more, but you get the idea.

Now I'm an artist, so I never had much trouble visualizing stuff.  It sounds like maybe your primary input is not visual, & so you might be better off with a different type of meditation.  Perhaps chanting or dancing or another modality.  If you really want to go visual, then I'd suggest staring at a physical object, like your lemon, & then closing your eyes & trying to reconstruct as much of the lemon as you can with your eyes shut.  Open your eyes & look at the lemon again, taking in more details.  Then close them & further enhance your original image.  Worth a try?  Good luck.

There are also Progressive Relaxation techniques.  You mentally check out your body parts from head to toe & relax each one.  If you're really stressed, you can go thru each muscle group to tense & then relax each one.  For example, you would ball your hand up into the tightest fist you could make & then breathe out & relax it until it's limp.  If one part is particularly resistant, then do the tense & relax thing several times for that part until the stress is gone.  Good luck.

I think they are splendid contraptions!  Give 'em a spin & send your prayers out into the cosmos!  It's comforting to actually be able to physically touch them & know that they represent centuries of wisdom & tradition.