knucklebrain1970, your post so resonates with me, I registered just to reply...
It's long hard work. I've mellowed with age so I find I can let things go more in a mental/emotional sense, but physically it's very hard for me to relax. I always find my eyebrows pinched, or my hands tense or my shoulders tight. How people can sit or lie there like a floppy ragdoll I have no clue. And no, I don't get any energy out of meditation either. Astral travel is something I never tried on purpose and I had a dream only once that I walked out of my apartment and into the hallway and didn't set off the house alarm. I don't know if people would consider that astral travel or an OBE. Not that it was a very important or life-changing experience...I don't know what the point would be of purposefully trying to do either of those things, of how it would make my life better, or anyone else's.
I agree with you wholeheartedly! What's my purpose? What am I supposed to be doing? Is there really a continuation of consciousness after death? What's the deal with spirit guides; do we all really have them or is that just a 'comfort blanket' to help people deal with life's miseries? All these questions and no answers...it's like a huge endless cosmic joke.
Quote from: knucklebrain1970Ok, Reincarnation. Supposedly, I chose to be here. Right?That's what they say, unfortunately
QuoteWell since I'm so disconnected with my true self, and no matter what method I try I can't connect, I find it hard to believe that there are 2 of me;I find it hard to believe too...in fact, I don't believe it. How can I be in 2 places at once, and one that I can never remember or go back to?? To me, there's just no point to be both 'up there' and 'down here' at the same time.
1. My physical Self
2. My spiritual Self
QuoteNow my physical self does not want to reincarnate again. I've had it with this planet, I don't want to come back. Sad to say that? Yes, but I'm serious.Amen! You and me both! I can't stand this place, I NEVER want to come back. I love my family and friends, and the earth is beautiful, but it's just not worth it going through this rat-race of a life.
QuoteNow if my "TRUE- SELF" wanted to come here to experience and I can't remember because I'm disconnected and probably never will be reconnected, then how the hell and I to believe that there is such thing as free will.I do believe in free will, as I'm free to do whatever I like here..I can break laws, I can adhere to them. I can go to work today, I can stay home. I can make money and have a home, or I can be homeless. I can go left or right...you get the idea. The thing that hits home for me is where you say "I can't remember" because that's the most frustrating thing for me. Why on earth can't I remember the mistakes I've made before, the things I've done before so I can correct them?? How do I know I don't keep doing the same damn stupid stuff over and over and over...it's gotten to the point where I'm wishing for annihilation when I die...total nothingness, my personality wiped out, nothing after the brain dies, the perfect materialist view. What's the point to keep coming back if I can't fix things??
QuoteDo you know how sickening it is to me to learn of everyone elses enlightenment'sHey! "Everyone"? Certainly not! Fughettabout it man, I'm in the same boat you are! And don't always believe it when people tell you they are 'enlightened'. There are stages to everything. Supposedly, from some of the reading I've done it's an endless cycle and once you get to the top...if you ever do...you do it all again because you have ... eternity. At this point, IMHO being eternal is a horrifying concept.
Quoteand astral travel and to want to experience it myself, but nothing works. I feel no energy, I can't relax.Meditation takes a looong long time to get right. I've been doing it for months and some days I just can't sit still for more than 5 minutes
It's long hard work. I've mellowed with age so I find I can let things go more in a mental/emotional sense, but physically it's very hard for me to relax. I always find my eyebrows pinched, or my hands tense or my shoulders tight. How people can sit or lie there like a floppy ragdoll I have no clue. And no, I don't get any energy out of meditation either. Astral travel is something I never tried on purpose and I had a dream only once that I walked out of my apartment and into the hallway and didn't set off the house alarm. I don't know if people would consider that astral travel or an OBE. Not that it was a very important or life-changing experience...I don't know what the point would be of purposefully trying to do either of those things, of how it would make my life better, or anyone else's.QuoteAlso, what is the sense of loving someone if you are separated at death and carnate into another body?Supposedly, your loved ones go with you on the journey to earth. There's separation at earthly death, but reunion in the afterlife and then you all go back to do it again.
QuoteI find the free will concept very hard to believe. I want what I want, but my true self wants different? This is what really really really aggravates me to no end and I want to explode. Now granted, I've only been meditating for a month, if that, but how long does it take before I have the ******* answers to the questions that have been gnawing at my stomach since my inception on this planet. Yeah I'm mad, very angrily ticked off type of mad dammit
I agree with you wholeheartedly! What's my purpose? What am I supposed to be doing? Is there really a continuation of consciousness after death? What's the deal with spirit guides; do we all really have them or is that just a 'comfort blanket' to help people deal with life's miseries? All these questions and no answers...it's like a huge endless cosmic joke.