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Ive been reading up very intensely lately, and I ran across a phrase, "indigo children".  It really sparked my interest, so I googled around a bit, and came upon a really professional looking site.  The guy had this huge theory, about how humans have not two, but twelve chromosomes, its just that only two are "connected" and accessible, and can be studied by the technology currently available to us.  According to him, there are ten additional strands that we don't use, but they contain the secrets to clairvoyance and telepathy and such.  The bigger theory behind that is humans were once gods themselves, with incredible psychic power and such, but some wanted to rise above and so they sparked spoken language and disconnected the ten strands.  
    So, after that point it turns into a hilarious scam called "DNA Awakening", but according to the guy he is just trying to protect and nurture a group of people who were born more sensitive to psychic power and spiritual growth, called the Indigo Children.  Another source described the condition as being often misdiagnosed as ADD or depression, and that I think is all too believable to anyone who's searched into metaphysical topics.  It is quite ironic that the masses are so caught up in the Ritalin and antidepressant craze, its quite plausible that in fact there is something far beyond the physical or psychological that is imbalanced that is accountable for the conditions.  And that's where the metaphysical theory comes in.  

So, I just posted this because its been bothering me a lot, and its next to impossible to find a truly credible source that isn't selling something... And if anybody has a comment or knows something about the topic, Id love to hear it!

Well, Ive mentioned the possibility to him, at an earlier date he was so open and understanding of my belief in reincarnation,  but it was as though he bi-polarized and said that it was "disrespectful" to think of anyone as an incarnated person....Which is really, really hilariously ironic, a Satanist lecturing about respect....of dead people.... So, I told him about the dream where he died, he told me not to worry about anything like that, like the already solid fact that he cuts himself on a far more regular basis than anyone else I know, which is saying a bit.  I didn't know he mutilated himself, until I talked to him about the dream, and it scared me considerably, but he made all kinds of excuses and I bought them.  Ive told him about a few other dreams Ive had, where I was being chased by the bullies who taunted me as a youth, that situation escalated to the point where the leader of the group tried to choke me and was kicked out of school.  And, in this dream, they were all my age, and they chased me just like they used to until they almost had me, and with my last breath I called out Brody's name, and in that moment his arms were around me, and there was light and my tormentors fled and he comforted me, and this dream was so vivid and symbolic for me, but he mostly blew it off.  I just, everyone around him has told me he didn't use to act so contradictory, and now its like he has his extreme good days and bad, but he refuses to let anyone help or talk about it, and if that combined with the highly obvious logical source isn't enough evidence of possession and psychic attack, I don't know what is.  I wish to the gods I could let it go, but today, after having the older boy visit yesterday, everything was haywire within my group, breakdowns for no reason, random snaps of anger, intense depression and suicidal tendency, and the scariest bit is my lass, after driving to her house to try and figure out why she wasn't at school, had wounds on her feet and arms and bruises, and she had no idea where they had come from, in fact one moment her right arm was fine, and then when I looked a bit later there was a clotted streak of blood down it, and when we asked there was no explanation.  I myself was psychically attacked by Brody until I could take it no more and put up a ward to protect myself, which made him back off.  But I wear a silver pentacle, that has been blessed and bound, and I have stones of protection and symbols of power among my clothing and jewelry.  Ive done much more energy work than any of the others, and it seems to be showing in my resilience to this outbreak, though I was vulnerable this winter.  Its just gotten out of hand, and though I have read Practical Psychic Self Defense, but it really didn't have specifics or help in this kind of instance, the passive defenses as I listed above I already use on myself.   I want to know if there any active defenses you know of that I could use to lessen the negative effects on Brody so that he can make his own decisions, because I have forgiven him for all of this, they aren't his words, and the unconditional love theory has done little to help.  His condition has worsened in the last couple days, and I'm really worried about all of them, I'm not sure how far the copying capacity of this neg stretches, it could be all one main neg that attacks from a far, copies could be in people, I don't think anythings been attached to the site.  Thank you for your input.

Well, that would be the case, except for the fact I
a. Am not sexually attracted to boys.
b. Have a girlfriend that I'm trying to protect from him as well.
c. That would be incest to me, because I have come to regard him as a brother.

This isn't some petty jealousy issue, do you really think I would bother to post like this if it was?  Severe symptoms of neg influence have arisen, and this is the psychic self defense forum. Thus, I requested advice on psychic self defense, from possessed individuals, and the basis for the entire theory of possession is that even though we want there to be a nice easy, explanation like a "walking black hole", often times there are negative and chaotic forces influencing us that we don't want to admit are there.  I don't really want to consider the possibility that any of my dreams or visions are real, nightmares of people being hurt aren't exactly easy to accept and analyze, for instance I actually had the most horrific nightmare of my life, where Brody was standing in a space, some unknown nowhere, with his head down and eyes glazed over like blinders from reality, and I tried to reach him and comfort him from something obviously hurting him, and as I approached he drew a dirk, and proceeded to sheath it in the side of his wrist and rip upward, showing no emotion, only silent tears and blank pain, and I screamed out and tried to stop him but he couldn't feel me or hear me, and I hysterically tried to make it stop with praying and begging, but he ripped open the other and I watched him bleed himself to death.  All of that, lucid, I could smell the blood and feel my face become inflamed with fear.  This isn't some cynical human tirade, this is a serious danger to the health of myself and my community.  When a persons presence nearly puts you on your knees, there is something truly unnatural at work, and as a Pagan anything unnatural in such a way is a threat.

Thank you for your input, but this really isn't something that can be shrugged off and ignored.

Well, that would be the case, except for the fact I
a. Am not sexually attracted to boys.
b. Have a girlfriend that I'm trying to protect from him as well.
c. That would be incest to me, because I have come to regard him as a brother.

This isn't some petty jealousy issue, do you really think I would bother to post like this if it was?  Severe symptoms of neg influence have arisen, and this is the psychic self defense forum. Thus, I requested advice on psychic self defense, from possessed individuals, and the basis for the entire theory of possession is that even though we want there to be a nice easy, explanation like a "walking black hole", often times there are negative and chaotic forces influencing us that we don't want to admit are there.  I don't really want to consider the possibility that any of my dreams or visions are real, nightmares of people being hurt aren't exactly easy to accept and analyze, for instance I actually had the most horrific nightmare of my life, where Brody was standing in a space, some unknown nowhere, with his head down and eyes glazed over like blinders from reality, and I tried to reach him and comfort him from something obviously hurting him, and as I approached he drew a dirk, and proceeded to sheath it in the side of his wrist and rip upward, showing no emotion, only silent tears and blank pain, and I screamed out and tried to stop him but he couldn't feel me or hear me, and I hysterically tried to make it stop with praying and begging, but he ripped open the other and I watched him bleed himself to death.  All of that, lucid, I could smell the blood and feel my face become inflamed with fear.  This isn't some cynical human tirade, this is a serious danger to the health of myself and my community.  When a persons presence nearly puts you on your knees, there is something truly unnatural at work, and as a Pagan anything unnatural in such a way is a threat.

Thank you for your input, but this really isn't something that can be shrugged off and ignored.

This year, has been one endless cycle of bad situations, as I expected it to be coming into high school, but not the the point its escalated.  In the beginning, I continued my loner ways and kept to myself, but I found that I was distinctly attracted to the aura of a guy in my forum.  I couldn't for the life of me, figure out how I was so intently drawn to this random person, but there was an overwhelming sense of "there is something to be learned here, something needs me, I have to be with this person to find out".  And so, I became friends with this boy, who's a year over me, but has one of those "light-years over everyone else" self centered attitudes that seem to go along with the Satanism he is so devoted to.  Now, I try and be as universal as possible, but there are deep seeded hatreds and cravings for redemption from past lives, all of which point to Christianity, and I have been fighting these generally unjust, but sometimes all too deserving feelings of distaste, and I really try to treat every ones beliefs as right in their own way.  So, there was another Satanist who seemed to be his role model, a year over him, and I was very accepting of their ways and thought them no different from myself.  Now, also in this group there is a vudun/"kitchen witch" who I became about as close as I go to people with, who will come up later.  So, one day, we are just chatting, and a stranger comes along.  He seems friendly and charismatic, and I am informed that he has graduated and is visiting, and was a very close friend of the others in my group last year, and he was cool this that and the other.  The boy who caught my fascination, who I will call Brody, was particularly excited, and ran over and kissed him and sat on his lap for the rest of the free block and they talked and it seemed like a happy thing to me.  I later found out, that this newcomer, was a former cocaine addict, dropped out of high school, and Brody is so deeply ensnared by him that he would do absolutely anything for him.  The guy smokes, and I found out that Brody smokes and drinks when the guy does, but normally is very anti substance abuse.  

I have a half vision, half deep intuition that Brody, will be raped by this older boy, partly from logic, partly from gut, and this disturbs me a great deal, because before this vision I had been having numerous very intense sights, of a past life.  In this life of my dreams and visions, there is a mother, a father, me the younger sister, and an older brother.  Somehow, my brother and I were separated, perhaps after a sibling fight, and I was kidnapped.  Now, this was a seemingly Scottish/Gaelic family of crofters, my mother was a very good healer and mage, my father was also wise, but my brother was ever the rebel. I walked in the footsteps of my mother, and was highly spiritual for that age, and so it seems I was kidnapped and killed by those who would eradicate the indigenous Pagans of that era.  My parents were torn apart by the loss, but my brother went into a deep depression and denial.  He became a soldier, or fought somehow, but the vivid dreams end there.  I filled in some blanks with intuition and research, and the name Brennus led me to the Age of Heroes, 370 BCE, if it wasn't also my brothers name, that parts not solid enough, but I also researched the breed of horse my family owned that I was very close to, and I traced it to the highlands. This breed has become very symbolic to me, because my true form is equine, and Ill talk about that in some other topic.  So, I gathered this general idea of that area and life, and just then Brody and my relationship fell apart.  I know now, that the "kitchen witch" had been lying about each of us, behind the others back, in fact every word he said was a flat out lie.  I thought, his ideas were better than nothing, after spending a hellish middle school surrounded by Christians who hated me, I thought anything else would be perfect, but I was still surrounded by lies.  The higher satanist friend, was kicked out of school, and then ran away to her dads house.  That fear for Brody was always with me, I tried to make a ward to protect myself from his natural energy vampirism, and the spell actually influenced him to apologize to me about the fight and put us on neutral terms.  But I discovered that what he was telling everyone behind my back made it seem like some horrible experience he didn't know why he went through with. He seems to revel in hatred, he seems to be deceived into thinking that hatred will somehow make him feel better, and I know this isn't his will.  So, after overhearing him I found that my suspicion of him consenting to the older boy could be horrifically true, if they weren't that day they could well be today, because as I walked through the hall he passed me.  I felt it, that first time he visited, the red power, the inhuman eyes, and I thought he was just some sort of tempting spirit, just some neutral entity in his true form.  But today, all of the fear I have ever felt for another came to life in my throat, and I nearly choked, my heart raced and my skin felt like it was being irritated.  Beyond the filthy red lustful energy I saw the black, after the energy work Ive been doing I was dangerously aware of the true intent, and it became evident to me that the inhuman I sensed wasn't just a true form but a malign entity of great influence.  There is, a demon, in that boy, and since Brody has been so close to him, he must have contracted a copy, because I have seen the similar negative effects on him, and the others, though I cant feel it in myself, the person I love had a bout of suicidal depression earlier this year and had to be sent to psych ward, and other signs of attack have been evident to me, and it all makes sense that these problems Ive had among these people may well have been due to a neg, ESPECIALLY within Brody because the prerequisites have been aligned so nicely, dabbling in the dark arts, all forms of consent, self absorption, not telling anyone whats wrong, not having a reason for being as miserable as he is.  And, at this point I feel this force is coming dangerously close to myself and my love again, and I would really like to be rid of it for good before someone actually completes a suicide attempt, or hurts someone else.  I feel an obligation, and a connection to Brody, obviously because I identify him as my brother, although all people are my family, these things that I feel tell me that, and he denies my existence, but I would never see him hurt despite the things he has said and done to me.  

How do I expel, such a demon, what other development should I undergo to protect myself and work towards weakening it, I'm in the process of reading Practical Psychic Self Defense, but I'm not sure what beyond energy awakening work and OBE practice would be beneficial here, I might have little time, so tell me what you think I must do.

Thank you! I will do just that as soon as I can. I think I should read a couple books first, but I'm sure I will have a lot of fun in the forums as soon as I get a solid chunk of time to sit down and get into it.  I appreciate the nice welcome!

My name is Amalthea, I have had natural psychic awareness for as long as I can remember, and have been actively exploring for the past 7 years.  I have invasive visions and nightmares, many of which seem to be connected to my past life experiences, primarily in what seems to be Scotland in the Age of Hero's, about 350 BCE or so, and have been under attack by a psychic vampire who all intuition tells me could well have been my older brother in that life.  I'm not yet sure if his natural energies are just so overwhelming they drown out my perception of other possibilities, but Ive found unmistakable patterns in names and memories and instances that lead me to believe there is something important at work there, despite how bad he makes me feel, and I hope that I can grow through this experience with the help of this community!  If anyone knows anything about such things, or is interested in exploring the concepts of "astral lineage" and reincarnation with me, please don't hesitate to send me a message!  And also if anyone is interested in investigating evidence of astral awareness in art and the history of psychic awareness.