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I really do appreciate your post.  Defenitely some interesting insight there.  However I'd like to point a few things out.

The confirmation of said incidents in spiritual texts and regular books on Kung Fu happened 3 - 4 months after this all began.  These books are not the cause of my belief.  This whole thing began out of the blue after starting the NEW system.  I did not predict this, nor did I ever expect it to happen.  I entirely agree with you in that I could find plenty of authors with an opposing viewpoint.  In fact, I have.  However, they do not describe in detail what is happening to me like the other ones I've found.
Nor do I really care about these texts.  Let's just throw them out.

What if I'm not seeing auras?  I don't know what auras really are anyway.  All I know is that I see "Stuff" I would describe as clear creamy hazy fog eminating off of everything.  It is sometimes different colors, but mostly clearish.

If my ability isn't synonymous with my energy levels, then why can I feel energy pumping through my body more heavily as my ability increases?  And why does my ability weaken as my energy wanes?

I can say for sure it is not my beliefs that are causing all of this.  I had to discover the general rules of how it works on my own through experimentation.  It is as concrete to me as "if I exercise, my muscles grow."  I don't think you would go around telling people that eating healthy only leads to good health based on their belief that it does.  There is some basis to these things.

I'm trying to tell you that I have no ability as of now to make sex benefit me.  I have tried everything I can think of.  When I have sex, it returns the sensations of bugs crawling under my skin to my body, making me more or less miserable and in a constant state of being annoyed.  It's like having a swarm of mosquitoes crawling under my skin if I have a ton of sex.  

I agree with you about mental, phsyical, and spiritual harmony, but I don't see how restraining desires effects those.  I have a desire to do drugs, does that make it unhealthy to obstain from them?  I have a desire to eat junk food, does that mean it's unhealthy to not do that too?  I don't see the connection.  If anything, restraining desire makes us stronger doesn't it?

I really appreciate your input and I think I'm understanding things from your point of view, but I don't see how I can change this.  This isn't a "perspective on reality" thing.  Trust me.

Garrr, I'm so confused about this.  I wish I could find somebody that has had similar experiences.

I would also like to emphasize this has nothing to do with organized religion for me, but personal experience.  I don't care about issues of society deeming sex bad or good.  I am not having this issue because of society or religion.  What is happening is just happening and I want to know why and how it works.  Thanks ahead of time.

Wow, way more results then I expected.  Thanks to all that replied.

Here's the thing.  Sexual thought makes me secrete "fluids".  The loss of fluids is synonymous with my ability to see auras diminishing.  For instance, I'll be able to see an aura an inch wide eminating off of the top of a bottle cap and then afterwards, only half an inch.  Every night I go to sleep it recharges a small amount, building and building every day/night I refrain.

Are you suggesting this is some kind of unhealthy blockage?

Am I not supposed to have this energy/ability?

What basis do you have to back up the statement that sexual abstenation is unhealthy?

I'm not attacking anyone.  I'm just desperately curious to figure this out as I'm still quite young.

On the one hand I feel that I'm looking at the biggest decision in my life.  I can harness this energy all my life and have more than just about anyone by the time I'm 70 years old.  Or I can say screw it and just accept a metiocre amount for the rest of my life while having as much sex as I want.

It is my own belief that life is short, and that harnessing this energy before I die is more important then sexual activity in the long run.

You may discount the validity of the scriptures I read.  But I've read this in several different books, including "There are No Secrets," a book on Cheng Man Ching (A Tai Chi Chuan Master).  It describes it as "Qing" energy, and even goes as far as to describe in detail about how long it takes to recharge, which I have validated.  I went on to confirm similar details in these scriptures, so I defenitely feel there is at least partial validity there.

Grrrrrrrrrrr.  lol.  Somebody help!

About 3 weeks or so after I began the NEW system, my body became sensative to energetic activity.  I began feeling what could only be described as bugs under my skin crawling around.

6 months have passed since then and I've discovered that ejaculation is the source of the problem.  I have confirmed the relationship of energy and semen in taoist scriptures.  I have managed to refrain from sexual orgasm and the effect has reduced to being very mild.

Here's the thing though.  The longer I refrain from it, the more my energy builds and builds.  I can feel more energy pumping through me and I am able to see auras better and better every day that passes.  However, once I get to a certain point, I can't even think about sex without losing energy.

Does anyone have any experience with this that could help me?  I would like to build my energy in this manner, but I don't want to refrain from sex.  I want to have my cake and eat it too.  Any help is appreciated.  Thanks.

sally2004, persuing your dreams isn't always a light and fluffy experience.  You'll often find yourself taking an inner glimpse at some of your worst fears.

No matter what happens, you can't die in a dream.  Death isn't a bad thing either.  It can often represent change, transformation, or teach you a lesson about yourself.

When observing your dreams, try to learn from them.  What do these experiences I'm seeing tell me about myself?  What do the feelings I'm feeling while having said experience tell me about myself?

I had a dream about a week ago where I drove off a cliff.  Things like this, falling, having your car not work, car accidents, etc are all quite commen.

You will find however, that your actions in your dreams are directly related to your actions and thoughts in real life.  In other words, if you are trying honestly and very hard to quit smoking cigarettes in real life, you might find yourself resisting them in a dream as well.

Now what if you had no desires, fears, or worries.  What would you dream about then I wonder?

This technique is highly underrated.

After Dreaming for 6 years, I still use this technique regularly.

Dream getting fuzzy?  Yell "CLARITY!"  Everything clears up instantly.

Somebody or something bothering in a dream you don't like?  "GO AWAY!" makes them vanish in about 2 seconds.

Feel like projecting through a dream?  Close your eyes, focus, and yell "SHOW ME THE ASTRAL!"  Viola.

Trust me, it's one of the best techniques out there.

That is the biggest BS Scam I've ever heard.  You don't need anyone to open your chakras for you.  And doing it that fast is very unhealthy.  Slow, Gradual Developement is what you want.

Why would you pay anyone for something absolutely free.

Buy Astral Dynamics by Robert Bruce, or read his NEW techniques for free online.  That is all you need for a very long time.

Using the simple technique of yelling can give you amazing results.

Just yell out strongly whatever it is you want.

I promise you results and I assure nobody will hear you yelling in real life.

Sleep: 8-9 hours a night

Dream Recall: 10

I was sleeping through till morning for many weeks, now I have been waking up multiple times at night, but it makes no difference to me.

Some tips if I may:

Keep just a small sheet of scratch paper with a pen by your bed (Not a dream journal).

Before you sleep, simply tell yourself once or twice and mean it... "I am going to dream tonight, and when I do I will remember it when I wake up."

When you wake up.  Write down 5 key words.  (I.E. Forest, Bear, Mosquito, Giant Banana)

When you get home from work, look at those key words and see what you can remember and write them down.  If you don't have the time in the morning that's fine, these key words will help you remember them later.

If you don't have time to write 5 words, then give up now.

If you used to have good dream recall, it's easier to get it back then to start from scratch.

Need help?  I'm at gimmecooky@hotmail.com

Not to scare you, but it could be a negative entity or small energy feeder using your feer of mosquitos to drain some of your vitality.

However, with the dead mosquito part at the end, I'd say it is more likely something from your subconcious, or a message of some kind.

I believe focusing on the order of how things happened in this dream, as in the sequence of events, might be a good way of approaching it.

Wells, if you haven't gotten Nita's book I suggest you do.  The techniques in that book can really burn the nasties away.  Also, core image stuff is hugely helpful.

Everytime I do what you suggest a negative entity presence in my left shoulder grows in size and strength.  This also causes me to feel lots of little negative entities all around my body all the time.

Everytime I give in, negative entity activity more than triples inside me and it sucks horribly.

I just got done reading through the possession section of psychic defense.

It seems I exhibit some symptoms and I was curious about people's opinions.

I have been getting muscular cramps in my left and right calves at night.  These are quite painful.

I experience a compulsive desire towards a lustful fantasy I will not mention.  
I do not feel this is part of me.

The day after I give in to said compulsion, I feel utterly fantastic.

When I starve myself of lust for elongated periods of time, I feel negative entities in me weakening and I become very depressed.

I constantly feel sparratic and spontaneous sensations in my genitals that feel like vibrating electricity.  I can also feel negative entity movement in there.

If I starve myself of lust for a long time, it is quite commen to feel a throbbing pain in my genitalia.  It hurts a lot.  It feels like a heavy painful pressure.

I also have dreams with snakes in them and dreams of me being chased or persued by evil nasties.

Sorry if this is all too much information, but I want to know if I'm possessed.

I'm just curious about this.

I have been using runes to purge myself of negative entities.

I don't believe this causes negative Karma, but just thought I'd see how people felt about it.

I know it can cause karma if you do reckless things with it like cast curses on people and things like that, but let's say the person in question is only using magic to purge himself of evil and improve himself and not to win the lottery or something silly like that.

So does using Magic give you karma or not?

I donno, this thing is really nasty.  It won't just "leave" as you say.  It actually causes physical pain and tension.  It causes sharp stabbing pains every so often in a very specific pinpoint spot.  God knows what it is and what it's doing there.

It seems very set on remaining attached to me.  I've known about it for several weeks and I still can't seem to get rid of it.

Yes, Tayesin is correct.  The spirit and body are too seperate things.

If you would like to get in touch with your higher self, I would recommend Zen Meditation (Moving Meditation).

It's easy for naysayers to tell you that something they haven't seen is "fictional" or "impossible."  Much like people gaining the ability to fly in huge chunks of metal was impossible before airplanes were invented.

I would recommend constant daily meditation for at the very least 2 months straight.  See for yourself and then decide rather then forming concrete beliefs that are unchangeable, which is a sure way to go absolutely nowhere in your life and spiritual developement.

I heard about this on one of Robert Bruce's radio interviews.  Some woman called in complaining of psychic troubles.  She had no control over her natural ability and said she saw "Shadow Men," often and it was most certainly a negative experience.

I can't be sure, but it sounds to me like they are some form of Negative Entitiy.  I would calmly and politely disassociate with your friend as it sounds like he could potentially cause you problems.

I've also read about Satanists saying that deep down "demons are our friends" and they hope to build meaningful relationships with them.  That's just nuts.  I don't think I'll be making friends with demons any time soon, and I would push the same advice on you for these "Shadow Men."  Especially if you can see them negatively influencing your friend.

I feel these all throughout the day, every day.

They come especially when I'm lying, or sitting in a relaxed position.

I've just gotten used to them.

I'm pretty sure it is a neg coming or going.  Most likely it is a very small neg or energy feeder.  Then again I'm no expert.

I donno what else you can do to prevent their entry 'cept maybe try warding yourself somehow.

That reminds me I need to ward my house.

Buy Nita's book "the problem solver's alphabet."

Also get Robert Bruce's "Practical Psychic self-defense."

It's been almost a week now and I find that I can use about 5 or 6 runes in one sitting.  Needless to say that my neg problems have reduced even more.

The energy that I can harness has grown a lot from using these.  This book has much helped me with controlling my lustfull urges and I have been "sober" for over a week now.

I continue to see progress and growth, but the thing in my shoulder remains.  I notice that when I am concentrating a lot of energy and trying to banish the thing in my shoulder, it tends to sting with a sharp pain briefly and sparatically.  It also does this randomly throughout the day when I'm not doing energy work.

By now I am very curious to know what the thing in my shoulder is, but I'm satisfied with having been able to weaken it.  It feels loose everytime I use the runes although I still think I've got a ways to go before I can completely expell it and keep it out.

I wonder if this is some minor form of possession.

I would also like to know what the average number of negs people have in them is.

Dreams are not so easy to interpret.  I would say use your intuition.  It would be best not to assume too much and not really accept any of the possible answers as truth.

They could have been elements of your subconcious.  They could have been things in the astral.  They could have been symbolic dream symbols of some sort.  They could be a lot of different things.

Regardless it doesn't sound like you need to worry about this dream.  Yes, there are astral spider things.  Many years ago I also witness enormous spiders trying to kill me.  Who knows?

I wouldn't think to much of it.  But expelling your life of negativity is always recommended.  Also, I recommend keeping a dream journal.

I believe that slow and steady is the best way to go through energy body developement.

These headaches you are getting are quite possibly from overstimulation and can cause health problems.

I would only use this if you are very experienced and know what you're doing.  I'm a noob though so....

It sounds to me like it'd do you some good to work on your secondary and tertiary energy centers.  I would go purchase "Astral Dynamics" by Robert Bruce, it gives a comprehensive guide on how to do it.

It could be that you have a very developed third eye or crown and not enough energy from the rest of your energy body to help support it.

I donno, I'm no expert.  You should get his book though, it could help you big time.

It's getting easier to use this book every day.  I'm continuing to have fantastic results from using it.  Today was the first time I tried a combonation of runes and I got really great results.

It's really incredible to feel all the negs leaving my body through my feet when I use them to expell evil.  The proof is in the pudding.

I went through half the day today without even thinking about a neg because I hardly felt them at all now.  They just aren't bothering me anywhere near as much.

The thing in my shoulder is getting so weak it's fantastic.  I really can't thank Nita enough for this information.  It feels so great to not have to feel them crawling all over me all the time.  I can't imagine a week from now, they'll prolly be so weak and scrawny I just won't notice them period.

Here is something very interesting as well.  3 days after I started using the runes I had a dream (last night).  In this dream, there were a bunch of people I didn't like partying at my house and telling me how much I sucked and was worthless and stuff.  Many of the people talking to me directly were in the forms of good friends in real life.  Anyway, I finally said "Fine I'm leaving," and they responded "Ok good."

On the way out, I saw just tons of people, 30-50 of them all congragating in my driveway.  All of them people I didn't like for some reason.  I noticed that at least 20 of them were lined up in a row and an undercover police woman was arresting them one by one with a clipboard in her hands.  The ones that weren't in the line saw me and said "There's the guy that called the cops on us!" and all came after me and I ran and fought with them for a long time after that.

Symbolism:  People I didn't like - Negs or negative aspects of myself.
Cop - Some force expelling them?
Line of people - the negs that were expelled or being expelled.
Rest of people chasing me - Negs that I haven't delt with yet. (They obviously didn't like what I was doing)

Pretty cool stuff.  All just food for thought.

Also, I've never felt better.  I can't wait until I get them all.

Thanks the for the advice Jaime.

I am pleased to say that after over a month and a half of trying to conquer lust, I have finally won...  Granted, my uhhh, "area" is aching a lot, probably due to Negs desperately trying to get me to cave in.  I believe I'm stronger then them now.

The second I felt the damn things growing I couldn't take it anymore.  They were swarming me at night and driving me crazy.

Now with the help of Nita's book, I hardly even feel the things.  There are still some left, but I can take my mind off them throughout the day because they aren't swarming and tickling me all the time.

I have a feeling a week from now they will be nearly non-existant.  Yay!  

I'm serious about Nita's book, that stuff is very potent and effective.  I hope you get it and put it to good use.  It improved my life drastically in a matter of days.

Ok, I just tried Nita's Book "The Problem Solver's Alphabet" and it is making a huge difference.

As of 3 days ago, I was absolutely crawling with nasties that were tickling and  annoying me greatly.  At times I was having trouble typing it was getting so bad.

I only have a month's worth of experience in these matters and I picked up Nita's book and it was really easy to use.

As of now I have only used 2 different runes and done her techniques for a total of 40 minutes and already these things(negs) inside me are much weaker and are fewer in numbers.  They don't tickle nearly as much although they are still there.  I can certainly notice a huge difference.

I have been using Robert Bruce's Core Image reduction and New system along with Nita's book and I'm getting fantastic results.

I recommend this book to anyone having any neg related troubles.