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Someone once told me "there's no such thing as death; death is not a thing on its own. Death is just the absence of life."

Similarly, there's no such thing as darkness; darkness is just the absence of light. It is not a thing on its own.

For some reason, that helped

Thank you, everyone, for the warm welcome and responses

I know that I previously said that I was not eager to learn to consciously AP/OBE. See...On one hand, I do so desperately want to learn how to consciously experience Astral Projection because the experiences I have had have been so wonderful (well, at least they are now; it was not so wonderful when I experienced sleep paralysis for years and years - not knowing anything at all about any of this!). At the same time, there's something to be said for having these experiences be beyond my control...

How do I feel about death now? Less anxious; less obsessively worried... but still scared sometimes. This experience came only a few months after I experienced my first loss of a close family member (my 99 year old great grandmother... yes, I got to have an amazing, close relationship w/ a great grandmother! crazy!) Losing her really seems to have awakened a lot in me... I miss her desperately. I feel as if she's near me all the time, and that both terrifies and excites me.

I know so little about this stuff. I only know what I've experienced unconsciously and what a select few have explained to me. Whenever I start to dig deeper, I run into all these terms and "methods" that overwhelm me. It looks so complicated, and so many people seem to know so much more than I can hope to comprehend. I don't even know where to start!

The one thing I find most difficult about AP and OBEs is that very few people in my everyday life understand why I even care or think about these things. I don't really have any friends who also experience these things, and I have only one friend who has an interest in AP and OBEs, but she lives far away.

A couple of months ago, I had an OBE/AP experience that truly changed my life. I've shared the experience with a few people, but most pf the people in my life don't know what to make of it. Since having this experience, I've been "starved" for information and just aching to find a community of friends with whom I could discuss these things without having them look at me like I just grew another head.

So, here I am... I've posted before, but I want to share this particular experience and see if anyone else can relate.

It began the way most of my experiences now begin - with me raising up out of my body. I used to get stuck in a dream paralysis stage but, thankfully, that practically never happens anymore. Now, I almost always drift up out of my body.

I was not alone; I had some sort of guide with me, though I could not see any being. I moved out of a window and began drifting up over the earth. During this time, I was not aware of my earthly life at all. I couldn't have told you my name; I couldn't have told you anything about my earthly life. I was completely filled with something I can only describe as absolute love. I just felt so amazingly full of love and peace.

As I was drifting up, I felt this intense love for every being (person, animal, tree...just everything) on the planet. I was seeing the tops of roofs, and I was aware of the families in each one. I knew and could understand how every single being was both connected and separate, and I just ...loved them. Loved everyone with a beautiful, powerful love that was more than a feeling.

So, a pause here... see, I've been struggling a lot in the past couple of years with an intense fear of death and dying. Just an overwhelming terror about the whole dying process.

Well, during this experience, my "guide" "said" (not verbally) to me something akin to "if you are able to feel all of this right now, can you imagine how much more powerful it will be when you are truly dying?" and I knew this was in reference to my fear of death and dying...and that I was basically being told "look... your body and soul are prepared and equipped to handle the experience of dying. It will all be taken care of when it's time. Don't worry."

I was suddenly aware that if I looked above me (or behind what would've been my shoulder if I'd had a body), I would see "God" (or the Divine Creator...or just whatever being it is that some of us refer to as God). And I did look. And I saw the brightest most intense light I have ever seen...it was both far too bright to look at but did not hurt me. It was the very definition of light.

And I was immediately propelled back into my body.

When I woke up, my entire body was tingling (similarly to how it feels if a limb just begins to fall asleep)...only it wasn't just a limb...it was my whole body. It was intense. I've never ever experienced that when coming out of an OBE/AP experience; I've never had a physical reaction to an experience like that.

This particular OBE/AP experience has really and truly altered my life. My terror over death has diminished a fair amount, though I admit to still being afraid. I'm curious as to whether or not anyone else has had a similar experience or might be able to help me understand mine more.

See, I do not ever consciously project myself into OBEs/APs. They happen to me at random, and I can't induce them. I've very very slowly over time learned to experience them more fully (they began as night terrors...then sleep paralysis...then drifting but panicking...and now full experiences). I'm eager to learn more, though admittedly not eager to learn to consciously make these experiences happen at will.

1.) How often do you have OBEs?

I have OBEs about twice a month. I have had them this frequently for most of my life. I also have sleep paralysis episodes sometimes. It's kind of hit or miss which I'll be having.

2.) Do OBEs happen for you randomly, or do you put some form of effort into achieving them?

They happen to me randomly, though some medications do make them happen more often. I never knew anyone else had them until recently, actually. I didn't even really know what they were until this year.

3.) Can you describe the typical experience you have when you have an OBE?

I get a very strong vibrating feeling, and then I feel myself drifting up from my body. I generally feel anxiety about it; I have a very strong feeling of needing to maintain a spiritual connection with my body. As if I won't be able to get back into my body if I drift too far away.

I've had lots of different experiences before realizing what was going on recently. Growing up, OBEs and sleep paralysis were all very upsetting to me. I tend to have extremely graphic hallucination/dreams during sleep paralysis. However, as I've learned more about what is going on, it's become more of an exciting experience. I'm able to identify that I've "left my body," and so I don't feel so much anxiety about the vibrations and feelings.

I still have a lot of trouble controlling "where I go" so to speak. I can control it a lot more now than I used to, but it's still difficult. I have, though, been able to have a sort of half OBE/half sleep paralysis experience while others were in the room...and they were able to confirm that what I saw during that experience was, in fact, what was actually happening in the room at the time. So, that was interesting!

Hi everyone, I'm new

I'd love to ask some questions!

1.) How often do you have OBEs?

2.) Do OBEs happen for you randomly, or do you put some form of effort into achieving them?

3.) Can you describe the typical experience you have when you have an OBE?

I'll answer my own poll Just really would love to learn more about others!