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#1
Here is a link to a news article I happened to come across today about out of body experiences. Apparently, doctors in both the US and UK are going to be studying about 1,500 ("near" death) survivors to test and see whether or not the out of body experience actually exists.

http://www.news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/health/7684684.stm


#2
So I went to the ER last night to find out just what exactly was wrong with me and I found out I got scarlet fever. How? I have no idea. Basically, I've got a rash thats continuing to spread all over me, my hands/feet are swollen, i've got a mild fever, and nausea and vomitting from the antibiotic they prescribed me. Obviously, I am feeling pretty crummy. I hope that some of you out there would we willing to send your thoughts/wishes towards me.

I really would like to feel better soon...

Thanks in advance,

Leilah
#3
QuoteCAN'T GET IT OUT OF MY HEAD: BRAIN DISORDER CAUSES MYSTERIOUS MUSIC HALLUCINATIONS
The Sunday Telegraph Magazine, February 28, 2004
Janet Dilbeck clearly remembers the moment the music started. Two years ago she was lying in bed on the California ranch where she and her husband were caretakers. A mild earthquake woke her up. To Californians, a mild earthquake is about as unusual as a hailstorm, so Dilbeck tried to go back to sleep once it ended. But just then she heard a melody playing on an organ, "very loud, but not deafening," as she recalls. Dilbeck recognized the tune, a sad old song called When You and I Were Young, Maggie.

  Maggie was her mother's name, and when Dilbeck (now 70) was a girl her father would jokingly play the song on their home organ. Dilbeck is no believer in ghosts, but as she sat up in bed listening to the song, she couldn't help but ask, "Is that you, Daddy?"

  She got no answer, but the song went on, clear and loud. It began again from the beginning, and continued to repeat itself for hours. "I thought, this is too strange," Dilbeck says. She tried to get back to sleep, but thanks to the music she could only doze off and on. When she got up at dawn, the song continued. In the months to come, Dilbeck would hear other songs. She heard merry-go-round calliopes and Silent Night. For a few weeks, it was The Star-Spangled Banner.

  The music often began when she lay down for a nap, or when she drove her car, and would last for hours. Like most people, Dilbeck knew what it was like to have a song stuck in her head, but this was different. The music sounded as vivid as that coming out of a radio or an orchestra pit. The only way she could make the music stop, she found, was to play the radio. "Fight fire with fire," she thought.

  For the most part, Dilbeck kept her perplexing condition to herself. And the melodies were more than just annoying; they had a strangely sinister quality. Once she began to hear a song -- even if it was one of her favourite pieces by Chopin -- she could no longer bear to listen to a real version of it.

  Dilbeck endured this mystifying condition on her own for months, until she paid a visit to a San Francisco doctor. She had come to see him about her Lyme disease, which had plagued her since 1993. As they reviewed her symptoms, she told him about the songs. Her doctor informed her that she had a little-known medical condition called musical hallucinosis. She belonged to a small but significant number of people who heard music that simply wasn't there.

  Dilbeck's experience is typical -- if not universal -- among people who have musical hallucinations. Many sufferers are elderly and the songs often emerge from the deepest recesses of memory. One patient heard Italian opera that her parents used to listen to. Others hear hymns, sea shanties, jazz or pop tunes.

  And while some people get used to the music and even enjoy it, to most people it is alarming and disorienting. Sufferers try to stop the sounds by closing the windows in their house, blocking up the chimney, stuffing cotton wool in their ears or sleeping with a pillow over their head.

  "It's not a joke at all," says Timothy Griffiths, an expert on auditory disorders at the Newcastle University Medical School in England. "It's distracting and horrid."

  Musical hallucinations were invading people's minds long before they were recognized as a medical condition. "Robert Schumann hallucinated music toward the end of his life and wrote it down," says Diana Deutsch, a psychology professor at the University of California, San Diego. "He said he was taking dictation from Schubert's ghost."

  The biggest survey of musical hallucinations to date was carried out at a Japanese psychiatric hospital in 1998. There, researchers found that six out of 3,678 patients had the condition. This one-in-600 figure is unlikely to reflect the prominence of the condition, however, because the doctors only looked at people with serious psychiatric disorders.

  In fact, people who are otherwise of sound mind also experience musical hallucinations. Other studies have linked musical hallucinations to a range of things including old age, deafness, brain tumours, drug overdoses and even liver transplants. And it is thought that many people who have musical hallucinations may keep the condition to themselves.

  "My suspicion is that there are people who have it who don't come forward; they can be a little embarrassed about it," Griffiths says.

  Despite these confusing patterns, one thing is clear: Musical hallucinations shouldn't just be lumped in with other hallucinations, such as hearing voices or seeing visions.

  A person can hear musical hallucinations every hour of the day without any other distortion of reality. That's because our brains process music, neuroscientists have discovered, through a unique network of neurons. When sounds first enter our brains they activate a region near the ears called the primary auditory cortex that starts processing sounds at their most basic level. The auditory cortex then passes on signals of its own to other regions, which can recognize more complex features of music, such as rhythm, key changes and melody.

  Research has shown that these neurons can go wrong without affecting any other part of the brain. Some people who have suffered brain damage lose the faculty of music while remaining otherwise normal. Other patients cannot recognize or remember musical tunes. Others can't tap time to music.

  Griffiths has taken this research further. He studied six elderly patients who developed musical hallucinations after they began to go deaf. The music they heard ranged from rugby songs to the hits of British singer Shirley Bassey. Griffiths scanned his subjects' brains with a technique known as PET (positron emission tomography). He injected a radioactive marker into their bloodstream, which accumulated in the most active parts of the brains of his subjects. Each time he scanned his subjects' brains, he asked them whether they had experienced a musical hallucination during the scan. If they had, he asked them to rate its intensity on a scale from one to seven.

  Griffiths discovered a network of regions in the brain that became more active as the hallucinations got more intense. He was taken aback by their pattern. "You see a very similar pattern in normal people who are listening to music," he says. The main difference is that musical hallucinations don't activate the primary auditory cortex, the first stop for sound in the brain. When people hallucinate, they use only the parts of the brain responsible for turning simple sounds into complex music.

  Griffiths has used these results to build a hypothesis: The music-processing regions of the brain are continually looking for patterns in the signals arriving from the ears. As these regions recognize a tune, they amplify certain sounds that fit the music and minimize extraneous sounds. That's how you can hear the melody of a piano in a noisy lounge. When no sound is coming into the ears, Griffiths argues, neurons in the music network sometimes spontaneously fire off random impulses. The brain can seize on these signals and try to impose some structure to them, rummaging through its memories for a match. A few notes may suddenly turn into a familiar melody. For most of us, these signals may only produce a song that is hard to get out of our head, and with a constant stream of information coming in from our ears, this false music is suppressed. But deafness cuts off this stream, and in a few people the music-seeking circuits go into overdrive. They hear music all the time --not just the vague murmurs of a stuck tune. It becomes as real as any normal perception.

  "What we're seeing is an amplification of a normal mechanism that's in everyone," Griffiths says. "I'm really talking about that tune-in-your-head phenomenon, but it's so amplified in these people that it is abnormal."

  This theory could explain why sufferers so often dredge up music heard early in life. These melodies may be the most strongly encoded in our memories and thus most easily summoned up by the music-perception network. But it will take much more research to explain the musical hallucinations of people such as Janet Dilbeck who are not deaf.

  Diana Deutsch is planning new research. Unlike previous studies, she will scan her subjects with magnetic resonance imaging (MRI), which can catch second-by-second changes in brain activity. "It might be a while before we have results, but it's certainly something I'm very excited about," she says. "We'll see where it takes us."

  Deutsch has had no trouble finding volunteers. That's probably because people suffering from musical hallucinosis are given little help within the medical community. "Doctors don't take it seriously, or put it down to tinnitus: a ringing in the ears," she says. "But you don't get the Battle Hymn of the Republic from ringing in the ears. Often these people don't get the sympathy and the care they should."

  In some cases, doctors can treat musical hallucinations. Partially deaf people seem to get some relief by using better hearing aids, according to Griffiths, perhaps because they can then suppress their music circuits with outside sounds. Some research suggests infections of the brain, such as syphilis and Lyme disease, can trigger musical hallucinations by inflaming parts of the brain. Curing the diseases sometimes cures the hallucinations as well. And in other cases, the songs just stop. "People have written to me to say, 'A wonderful thing has happened; they've gone away,' " Deutsch says. "People need to have the hope that it's not going to remain with them forever."

  But hope is a long way from a cure. When Dilbeck tried a new antibiotic for her Lyme disease the songs stopped, but the side effects of the drug were too much for her. Since she went off the antibiotic, the hallucinations have returned. For some reason they are milder now than before -- often just a few notes over and over again -- but they're still a burden. "I'm resigned to them," Dilbeck says. "But I'd give $100,000 -- if I had it -- to make them go away."

Copyright 2004 Carl Zimmer


I thought this was interesting. This used to happen to me a lot. Mainly when I would practice guitar hours on end. When I'd finally go to sleep at night, all of a sudden these crazy guitar (and saxophone?) solo's would just start playing away - crystal clear. It was lovely. I don't practice much anymore and I don't hear the music in my head as often as I used to. I'm sure some of you here have experienced this. Its pretty funny though. Seeing how some consider it a disorder.
#4
What do you guys think about depersonalization and derealization? Have you ever experienced it? How often does it usually occur? How do you think it relates to AP/OBE's/phasing?

You can do a search on Google if you have no idea what I'm talking about. Here's a site that was created by a person who has gone through such things first hand:

http://www.dreamchild.net/mydp.html
#5
OK. So Last night I thought I'd end the day with a short meditation. After a couple minutes, I started to fall asleep sort of(I was tired). Anyway, you know those pre-dream images? Well, I guess I was seeing those and then I was... Uhm How do I say this? Basically I got caught up in a mini-dream type thing, but I was still half-awake, and someone said something funny? and I laughed - physically. The laughing jolted me fully awake and I I was left with vague memories of the ... funny scenario. But it just doesn't make sense, really.

Well. I don't know. It was just really weird/random. Anyone know what I'm talking about here?
#6
As I fall asleep, I find myself feeling as if I am about to lose it completely. I don't mean that I'm about to fall asleep, but rather that I am going to get lost...somewhere. It usually happens when the blackness behind my closed eyes become more prominent and my physical senses start to dim. It is then that this feeling overtakes me and I desperately try to reach back to... physical reality? I'm simply trying to figure out what this is and why I feel so panicky when it starts happening.

Does anyone else feel like this when your meditating/phasing/going to sleep??
#7
Welcome to Astral Chat! / Are you a Tool fan
March 09, 2006, 19:23:21
In case you haven't heard, Tool will be playing live (along with other bands) on Sunday - April 30, 2006 in Indio, CA.

Right now, tickets are around $85.

For more info: go to www.coachella.com

I CANT WAIT TO GO!!  :grin:
#8
Well, Friday night my friend Abby suggested we try to meet at this marketplace we used to go to. I decided it wasn't a bad idea.

It was 1:05 AM when I slipped in bed. Before I went to sleep I decided I would do a little reading. I looked over the notes I printed out earlier on lucid dreaming and my old dream journal entries. Eventually, I started to get tired so – I retired. Because I had previously spoken to Abby about meeting her at the marketplace, I figured I would do a little meditation first and then start the phasing process.  

I started off by pretending I was walking to the marketplace. I really tried to focus on the sensations associated with walking while at the same time visualizing my surroundings. Suddenly, everything became real. I recall seeing Abby sitting at the table in front of the marketplace waiting for me.  I couldn't believe how smooth and quick the transition was. It truly shocked me to see just how real everything was. As soon as I realized the shift had taken place, the scenario vanished and I found myself moving in an upwards motion. I was snapped back to my room.  

I find myself in my bed, faced downwards feeling the usual symptoms of a traditional OBE. In the blackness I saw a number "3" etched in pinkish-yellow light. I think to myself, "its backwards" (it wan't).  As I twirl in midair, I remember my mission to meet with Abby. I tried to get back to her but with no luck. Instead, I ended up being pulled upwards, through the ceiling and into the sky.

I wake up and think it's over. The lights are on and I pick up my i-pod. I decide to listen to it while I go back to sleep. I put on a Tool song. Soon, I start to feel strange sensations. My eyes are vibrating and moving back and forth, much like they would during REM sleep. My brain feels funny and my wrists are bulging. I soon find that my thoughts are creating my reality. Quickly, the realization that I was enduring a false-awakening dawns on me. Yet, I still wondered how the music sounded so real.

I must have lost a little lucidity here because when I went downstairs, I thought about getting a pen and paper to write down my experience down. When I reached the bottom floor, the house was lot bigger than usual. I saw my dad sleeping on the couch. He was non-responsive and I covered him with a blanket. For some reason, I had a strange desire to rearrange the (unfamiliar) chairs in the living room. The "dream" shifted and I soon found myself in Reno, Nevada.  

I was in some sort of dark building, on the first floor. I think it was an airport/cafeteria. It was nighttime. Suddenly, I'm looking at a bird's eye view of the town. It looks European. The "dream" shifts and I end up getting off of a bus. Two lesbian girls greet me, in which they ask me of my sexual orientation. I say I am straight.

I then start to tell them that I know I am in dream and that (struggling to find words) it's "not true". The girl to my left nods her head and looks down. Together, we leave the chubby lesbian girl (who also liked me) and walk to a bus waiting station and sit on a wooden bench. There is a roof overhead so the area is shaded. A bus comes by and splashes us with mud. I cover my face before it's too late. Playfully, the bus comes by again and tries to splash us. (Didn't work that time.)

Again, the dream shifts and I find myself on an "open roof bus" (thinking back on it now however, I think it was just a continuation of the dream – as I was still with the girl). The weather is rainy and to the left is a river. T here is a man (spanish) along with the girl and I. He tells me that I'm going to have to go on some wet rides at the theme park we were heading to. I say I'm not the bathing suit kind of girl and then ask, "What ever happened to bumper cars? Why can't we do something like that?" He decides that would be fine. Sadly for me, the dream changed before I got to ride the bumper cars.  

Anyway, I end up in this white house. There are duplicate homes within the home – although they are somewhat different in size. The house is all white. As I walk around, I see a sign on the pantry door which reads "Pan and Bread". I laugh to myself – for Pan in Spanish means the same thing as bread. In my room, I confront a large/medium mirror. I notice my pants are quite baggy. I then wake up (for real) at 3:05 AM.

I was "asleep" for approx. 2 hours.

If anyone's curious, I called my friend the next day to ask her what was her experience. She said she fell asleep but tried again in the morning when she woke up. She started feeling the vibes and focused on imagining the environment when she suddenly found herself at the marketplace sitting down at the table, watching me walk up to her. She said it was so exciting that she immediately woke up.

Questions, Comments or Concerns?

Do share.
#9
Welcome to Astral Chat! / Today it snowed
February 19, 2006, 23:51:29
Who'da thought?
#10
Welcome to Writers Corner! / Good writing schools
February 11, 2006, 14:17:23
I'm thinking of going to school for writing. I just can't find any good ones!Does anyone know of universities that have good creative writing programs? I've tried searching it several times but it's all just scattered information.

Even if the school you know of is not in the US, that's fine. It'd be great to go to university out of country - although I am not sure how one would go about doing it.

I've only got a year left before I have to apply to schools. Questions, Comments, or Concerns? Shoot.
#11
Welcome to Dreams! / Fires
February 11, 2006, 14:08:15
Somewhat long...

Olympia & Palo Verde were connected. I kept forgetting this every time I worried my friends wouldn't  be able to see the beautiful Olympia I used to go to. The only difference between the Olympia in the dream and the one in waking life was that it was dark green and there were bricks. If anything, it looked more like a Palo Verde type of school as Olympia is actually all white.

Anyway, a fire broke out and everyone was panicky for a second. I called 911 but they never came. As I dialed, I started thinking maybe it wouldn't work as we were far away from the city. Then all of a sudden, this ROTC(?) girl used her survival skills and quickly rushed to the store and bought a hose. With it, she executed the fire. Many people thanked her and I thought she was great do so such a thing.

As the fire was going on, there was the white van and my mom, dad and sister? were in it. There was a sheet covering the whole van and the second time it passed me by, I urgently took the sheet off so that my parents would see the fire ahead of them. Finally, they grew aware of it.

Then, I had another dream where I was in Mr. Reads' class, although the room looked nothing like it does in waking life. He asked me to write on the board – to write down the instructions needed for the future fire in his classroom. When I finished and came back to my seat. The girl sitting behind me told me I misspelled some things and went to the board to correct it. I spelled guaranteed as "Guranteed" and water as "weash't" (something like that). I remember thinking, jeez! What's wrong with me, how can I spell water like that.. that's weird. Then I rushed back to the board because I forgot to write the MAIN things I was supposed to write down in the first place: THE ABC's!! (Something I recently learned in my CPR class I'm taking in school)

Then, the fire broke lose in the classroom. I think it turned into my CPR class because I recall thinking how much I liked the CPR class, as it was such a major change from the rest of the day. I recall feeling the heat of the fire & looking around thinking how much I liked the realness of it all.

-Twas strange I didn't snap out of it and become lucid. I wonder why I hold myself back. What? Would it be too shocking for me? Hmph.


-But yes. I've noticed I've been having a lot of fire related dreams. As in, these types of fires, and massive explosions. It's weird because I haven't been watching any TV shows/movies that would trigger such dreams. Who knows, maybe someone on earth has been thinking a lot about explosions/fires and I'm just picking up on it! (let's hope not)
#12
Forums Bugs Reports and Questions / Pictures/Avatars
February 06, 2006, 17:44:34
OK. First, I am not sure if this has been asked already but here goes.

-What are the steps to post a picture?

-What are the steps in order to have an avatar that is larger than.. the avatars capacity?

(As in, how do i re-size it if i can't save the picture in the first place- i can only use the web-site's address.. & Does the picture not re-size automatically, or do you have to do it yourself until its the right size?)

Thanks!
#13
Lately, the more I have been practicing phasing, the more I've been experiencing the infamous vibrations. And I will admit, it has gotten me irritated –which I know is always a no-no. You see, the farther away I've gotten from the whole OBE idea, the more it has been happening. (A bit ironic if you think about it) So, every time that I would get the vibrations, I would try to turn it into a phasing experience. Looking back on it now, that's pretty funny because that doesn't really make any sense! Getting back to the point, when I would experience the vibes – I would A)try my best to make them go away (there were times when they got really uncomfortable) or B)focus inwards while it was happening.

I must note now that doing these things NEVER worked out. Therefore, I've been trying to figure out a way to get past the vibrations. The idea of LITERALLY focusing past the vibrations never occurred to me – that is - until last night.  

02/03/06

4 AM

I felt the vibrations. I decided to focus past them rather than try to make them go away. Got to a point where I experienced a shift in the blackness, in my mind, which felt as if I was reaching/stretching through space/time. It was very enjoyable. Then I find myself in my room, walking/floating carefully so I wouldn't accidentally step on my laptop (which was on the floor at the time). I try to flip the light on – but it doesn't work. I went downstairs and was about to share my experience with my dad when I decided not to. I walked into the kitchen to get a spoon? and took a look in my backyard. I momentarily thought about what had happened when again, suddenly, I was re-experiencing the whole thing one more time. I found myself back in my bed, accompanied with the vibrations when I repeated my method (focusing PAST the vibrations).  It worked – again – and I immediately awoke to the sound of my alarm.

Got a similar experience or would just like to comment. Go for it.
#14
Welcome to Dreams! / Dream Vocabulary
February 01, 2006, 18:16:18
There are so many words that can be used to describe experiences in our life. But sometimes.. it is very hard to find the words to describe dreams. Maybe that's because some dreams are simply indescribable. But nevertheless, I think its about time words/phrases be created specifically for the description of dreams. It'd probably make it much easier. Or at least by a little.

(But then again, it could just be that I need more practice in translating my dreams to paper. )

So, If there's anyone out there who thinks it would be a good idea.. why not shoot out some phrases/words and we can get the ball rolling.   :smile:
#15
Welcome to Astral Chat! / Multiple Personalities
February 01, 2006, 18:02:58
After having a conversation with a friend I began wondering about Multiple Personality Disorders. She says there are about 3-4 individuals in her mind either talking to each other or her. Some of them or angry, some are passive. There have been times when they "took over her" while she was in mid-conversation, and she just blanked out. She didn't remember a thing.

I get the feeling that these people in her mind, that she says are separate from herself are just parts of her .. eh, like, channeling in to her. Or maybe more like.. she's a radio receiver channeling into other radio stations (each station representing a part of the total "her"). Only thing is, she's .. receiving input simultaneously. I think I may have lost myself.  :lol:

What are your views on MPD?
#16
Last night I stayed up rather late. I went to bed around 2AM and decided since I was nowhere near drowsy, I would attempt my own technique. I would do nothing.

Eventually, I noticed a strange but definite shift. It was like being in a dull semi-aware state, for goodness knows how long, to being wide awake and calm. It was around this time that I started to perceive movement in my minds space. If anyone has ever put pressure on their eyes and has seen the grey pyramid like structures, well it was a lot like this. The only difference is that all of the grey/silver matter was moving.

Then, my arm got wicked cold. I thought, "hmm wonder what that was". Soon though, I started to feel the position of my limbs and decided to turn over. This was when I fell asleep.

I was standing by my door, looking in the pitch black dark. There was a man, Picasso or some artist, standing next to me. We were talking when he stated something along the lines of "I only see things that are real". Then, he said he's never seen anything in his life. I got the impression he meant everything is imaginary. I start to think he was loony.

At that moment, I awoke abruptly in my body, accompanied with a nervous/excited feeling within.

Notes:
-Although I wasn't specific, I asked for help before I headed to bed. Then thought about the what-ifs of "help". As in, what if all the times people ask for help and receive it, they are just getting help from themselves.
-I was the guy while at the same time I was me. So it was me talking to me. Could this have been an F2 experience?
-Wasn't entirely lucid during conversation, didn't hit me till was sitting up in bed.
#17
For many years my sister has suffered from lower back pain. I guess because of this she has a lot of trouble doing simple things such as walking and bending down. It affects her whole body. My grandma has a screw in a her hip and I'd say she's in pretty bad conditon. My sister is WORSE than her. My grandma is 65, my sister is 22.

Although I haven't taken any courses on Reiki or anything, I have tried doing it to my mom and grandma. The times I have done it, it has worked for them. Even though she was hesitant, I decided to try to do it on my sister. She said it didn't help her.

Anyway, if anybody out there thinks they can send some healings to her it would be greatly appreciated. Her name is Jasmine and right now she's in Vegas if that helps.

Thanks,

Leilah
#18
Yesterday as I was doing chem hw I began thinking back on my non-physical activities.. and how they have been diminishing the past month. I thought about the focus levels and how just a few weeks ago I was so eager to "reach" them.

It was 2:48AM and I decided to head for bed. My plan for the night.. or morning actually.. was to just try and watch my thoughts as I fell (and I was falling fast) asleep.  This was a different approach for me and at the time I really didn't care what was going to happen. I placed that on.. what was meant to be I guess.

Anyway.. I started drifting away. I zonked out for probably about 15-20 minutes (how I know this, I don't, it just felt like it). Then, I awaken to what seems like the vibrational stage.. the only difference being that I didn't really experience any normal vibrations.

Instead, what I awakened to was the weirdest sensations ever. The only possible way I can even try to describe it -is that it felt like I was awake while my brain was doing its "job", and that well, I was aware of every feeling going on within my brain. It felt jiggly, kind of heavy, and just felt like something was going on in there. THEN - I start to feel this .. buzzing/twitching area in the frontal lobe and the pineal(?) gland crossed my mind. My eyes felt weird too. THEN - I felt.. jeez how do I explain this.. like invisible.. rolly balls/hands massaging my upper back/neck.

Eventually, it all subsided(after what felt like an hour) and I was seeing through closed eyelids. I lifted up and out of body and came back in. I remember thinking to myself, well why don't I try phasing while I'm in this state.. wonder what would happen..

It was at this thought, that I traveled backwards in the blackness of my mind. As I was descending, who knows where to, I was hearing people's laughter - at least 5. Finally I reached bottom where I was with the people laughing. There were no bodies present, just like.. presences laughing. And from that point on I can't remember anything else. (except for the fact that I had two false awakenings after)  


Well. There it is. I'm not really sure what the hell that was but it freaked me out. Why? Well one -I never read or heard about those type of sensations or experiences and two-it took me by complete surprise.

Opinions, etc. are welcome.

Thanks,

Leilah
#19
There have been numerous times where I have just realized that I have been rambling/conversing back in forth with someone (me?) about some topic I can't quite recall.

This happens as I try to remain aware as I'm falling asleep and/or when I start my day off as soon I awaken (meaning - I'm in a zombie like state while brushing my teeth/picking out clothes). Sometimes I can remember what the conversations are about, but when I do recall them, they seem completely senseless. For instance, the other night I was in Focus 10 (besides the fact that I slipped in and out of consciousness, heh heh) and I was talking with what felt like someone else - about people who wear backpacks everywhere they go.

I know that when these "conversations" occur" I am not fully aware, but only after it occurs - after I become awake, do I realize what just took place.

Hopefully, I haven't lost anyone. I'm not desperately seeking for an answer, it's just something I've always wondered about. By the way, this isn't like overhearing conversations while your falling asleep,etc. but rather actually engaging in a conversation.

Anyway, if anyone has experienced this or have any idea of what this may be - do share your thoughts.


Thanks,

Leilah[/i]