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OK the truth is I'm male but never liked being male so over the years I've become an angry young person. I honestly am lost and don't know what to do. There is NO WAY I'm telling my family I'm like this. I never asked for this so don't make fun of me.


Sorry for my other topics.

Well after my failed death attempts while I was gone something clicked in me. The darkness in me showed me something greater worth gaining. What that darkness showed me was the joy in seeing people suffer in fear, pain, sadness, and hate.

Burn a mothers baby in front of her and she'll be lost in sadness.
Beat a child until he fears you.
Take the husbands wife and torture her in return he then feels hate.
Grab a cat and pull it's skin off and watch it suffer in pain.

It's so easy getting life forms to dislike me.

The darkness is my reflection. I don't care for peace or love really. Let darkness into your heart and it will guide you to true power.  Just picture ever soul becoming one but this time in full negative form.

I am the truth.

PROVE TO ME LOVE EXISTENCE..............I SEE YOU CAN'T.
The truth is it's an illusion so give it up for greater power.
You don't need anybody.
You don't need life.

From a logical view suicide is ok in this problem below.

A child is born and cared for but later on in life he became a burden for his family.

If the child died: For the better.

1. The family would become better.
2. Mother wouldn't have to worry anymore.
3. Father wouldn't have to put up with the brat anymore.
4. Brothers and sisters would be happy the flaw is gone.
5. Family would be much more happy without that flaw in their house.
6. The dead child was born slow, bullied by classmates, later became full of hate, could no longer feel emotion, never like his gender, dropped out and disgraced his family. Can you see why suicide is ok now?

I'm pretty much at that point where nobody can comprehend me. This sounds odd but I want to be consumed by pure darkness or whatever it is. What I'm saying is could it be possible that a few of us came from it?  Deep down inside not only do I want the end of humans but all of existence. I know I'm odd but I see no reason to exist anymore. Perhaps in death I'll return to that very darkness.