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Yesterday and the day before I had OBEs during the mornings (first ones in a long time). I met with one of my guides, Exsy, who congratulated me on achieving a new level of consciousness and achieving a particular task I'd been given, and he showed me some living claymation kittens, which I helped heal and played with.. That was fantastic! The next day I paid particular attention to exactly what I was doing when separating from my body and noticed exactly at what points the transitions were made. It was very educational.. Anyway that's some background.

Last night I made a brief attempt to project, but gave up after 30 minutes because of being tired. At about 6am this morning, I was having a dream where I was fixing a girl's bike. I ran up the stairs to fetch some tools, and as I lay them out on the bed to pick the ones I needed, this disembodied human-looking arm reach down from the ceiling and flung me up into the air.

I felt the "whoosh" that comes with leaving your body, and kept my eyes closed because I had some knowledge that I was not going to like what I saw (as if I'd been through this before), and I had a very strong urge to try to sleep so I didn't have to remember what happened. The next thing I know, I feel like I'm laying down on a hospital bed, and I'm surrounded by bright flashing vibrating lights and there are two pairs of disembodied arms over me. My right arm is floating up, and these disembodied arms are trying to push it back down. I resist, and raise it again.

I say, feeling extremely sedated, "What's going on?"

One of the owners of the arms shouts at me, as if to a misbehaving child, "STFU. Look, do you want to go back to your university accommodation or do you want to end up somewhere in Spain?"

I had a strong urge to answer the question, but being aware it could be a false dichotomy trick to get me to consent to something I just said "What? Why would you do that?"

The next thing I know, I'm lying in bed, awake.

I go back to sleep but two hours later I woke up and found myself partially paralysed. I couldn't see out my left eye, couldn't turn my head left, and I couldn't control my left arm (which I couldn't see behind my nose, but I could see my hand rising and sinking gently, and I could control my left hand). Eventually my arm raised far enough to allow me to see my elbow, and I spotted a finger resting underneath the elbow.

Being pretty protective of my property, I snapped my right arm over there, yanked on the hand under my elbow and pulled some kind of short thin pink alien. I grabbed it by the neck almost strangling it, and pulled it close. It had *small* black eyes with vestigial flaps above and below them that weren't quite eyelids, no nose, and a mouth that came forward to a peak.

"Who are you? What the f are you doing in my room?" I demanded, blanking my mind to avoid letting it read an answer from me, but it still managed to grab onto some of my doubts:

"What I'm doing is really important," it said, weakly. "I'm a friend of a friend."

If it was really a friend it would have asked for my conscious consent, and would have explained why whatever it was doing was important, so I pulled it closer and yelled at it "GTFO out of my room and never come back!"

And then it vanished and the paralysis was gone.

What do you make of that?

Since I've started meditating (almost) every night in an attempt to get back into astral projection, I've started remembering pieces of what "I" have been doing while asleep. It's not dreams; it's like directly remembering the underlying "meaning" behind the dreams rather than looking for the meaning through symbols. One constant factor during these memories is that I'm always fully aware of my own nonphysical existences and the nature of nonphysical reality, as though all those blocked memories are released and reunited with me for a short duration. Does anybody else remember being in this state?

Some examples:

• One time while meditating, I fell asleep for about five minutes. When I woke up again, I had this memory of being surrounded by white light and being unaware of my human existence; I was just one conscious entity of many, in a void of light.
• One thing I've worried about a fair bit recently is my inability to feel love for people I know I care about (friends, family). I had an experience while asleep that was mixed with some dream symbolism, but essentially I was on a course with my aunty and a man she knew, and the course was designed to help you feel love. I remember having a three-way hug with these people and feeling fairly intense emotions and energy flowing through me but struggling to give it back.
• I had a dreamless night last week, and after waking I had a memory of being in a school or something, being taught something important and given advice.
• I remember a brief conversation I had with my "higher self," where my unconscious self was worried about my conscious self being tempted towards alcohol and drugs. Neither of them knew I would remember it (I think). There was a conclusion reached and another person was brought in to help me. I don't remember anything that was said though.
• Last night, in the middle of my sleep period, I became semi-conscious of where and what my unconscious self was doing. I was outside the Universe, helping some being(s), I think. The weirdest thing was I was filled with this unimaginably intense energy, and it was quite scary. Some knowledge passed between my unconscious and conscious selves, and I knew that returning to the physical in this state would literally cause some kind of explosion (spontaneous human combustion?). We had a hard time bringing me down, and eventually I returned to normal sleep.

There are many of these I can list. Some of them were recorded in my dream journal years ago, but I've never remembered as many as I have in the last two weeks.

I have an overactive brow chakra, and underactive throat and crown chakras (I can tell this when I do reiki and it gives me a headache). I think this might be messing with my sleep cycle, and it might account for my recent insomnia. What techniques can I use to balance them?

This always happens to me (as it did this morning): when I project, I start out on the etheric plane, and have brilliant realistic sensations of movement, etc. but I'm blind. Whatever I do to get my vision back, what I see is so far removed from the physical plane, I'm often viewing extremely old (> 50 years) thoughtforms left behind from when someone else lived here, or sometimes I'm entirely on the astral plane.

Viewing old thoughtforms and exploring the astral is all fun, but I would like to explore something closer to the physical. How can I stop myself from drifting?

A bizarre idea came to me today: what if your computer had a partial existence on the etheric plane, just as humans do? I'm not suggesting that a computer could be made into an intelligent living being or have a soul, I'm thinking about what if one component of your computer was a thoughtform capable of controlling its own energies, creating other thoughtforms, psi constructs, servitors. You could download a program to perform some reiki healing, or set up an etheric webcam, or send and receive telepathic messages with your computer, etc.

As I see it, there's two main problems:

• Getting enough energy to create and maintain the thoughtform component close enough to the physical plane for reliable communication. I've no idea how much it would need or how it would be supplied.
  
  
• Sending messages from the etheric plane to the physical so the physical computer can receive information. The other way -- from the physical to the etheric -- is easy enough because the etheric is a close copy of the physical. But it should somehow be possible, because if the etheric plane truly exists, it's capable of interacting with our physical brains, right?
  
  I spent some time thinking about the second problem and googling fringe science theories, and came up with some potential solutions:
  
  
• EVP is one option, but the signal-to-noise ratio is awful, and you could end up recording for hours without discerning any intelligible information, and automating that could be quite difficult.
  
  
• Random number generators are often used in parapsychological experiments, and perhaps they could be useful for this, but there is still a lot of noise. Note that not all RNGs would fit the role: software ones are deterministic, which makes them inapplicable. Some of the better ones involve "random" physical information from hardware, but most of these still operate under classical physics where it might still be partially deterministic. Quantum RNGs, though might work, because they're purely random. They're used in cryptography, and I believe you can probably buy USB QRNGs on the Internet. The best thing is, it's also a common belief that the etheric plane can bias the probabilities of quantum-mechanical phenomenon...
  
  
• The Teslascope. I can't find any information about how it works, though. It's supposed to pick up alien signals and allow you to talk to the dead.
  
  
• Gravity wave radio or Hodowanec's circuit ( http://www.angelfire.com/scifi/EclipseLab/2k1/gravradio/gravradio.html ). Both look quite difficult to set up, but are a possibility (and I'd be inclined to believe Hodowanec's circuit is just a scam - he kept making up excuses to explain why others' copies weren't working, and he never properly explained how it's meant to work). Both are also said to pick up alien signals.
  
  
• Scalar waves and longitudinal electromagnetic waves might hold information if they exist.
  
  Anybody else have ideas or experience with EVP / Teslascopes, etc.?
  
  Here's some interesting links on speculative science that might be useful to an engineer:
  
  
• http://montalk.net/notes/astral-physics
  
  
• http://montalk.net/notes/the-etheric-origins-of-gravity-electricity-and-magnetism

I woke up at 6am this morning experiencing a supernatural fear. I hadn't been dreaming, but I was partially aware of being asleep. Anyway the fear I felt was unbelievably extreme. I've dealt with negs before, and some frighten me, but I've never felt anything like this before. It was as though I'd done something to REALLY tinkle off God while minimally conscious, and his full attention was on me. I think it also felt like I woke up during something I wasn't meant to witness? I wasn't paralysed, so it couldn't be sleep paralysis... but maybe it was a night terror? Ugh... it felt horrible.

Anybody else do this?

-dingo

A while ago I was laying in bed after waking up, not really doing anything. After a while my heart felt funny. It was like I had two heartbeats and they sort of separated and continued at different rates. My hand was resting on my chest over my heart and when I tried to lift it, I felt intense pain in my chest and head. It felt like I was ripping my heart out. I had to slowly wake myself up and bring myself out of trance to do it without pain.

So, I guess my heart chakra opened and I became aware of it, but why was it stuck to my hand? And what would have happened if I'd ripped it out of my chest?

Last night (or rather, this morning) I woke up from a weird dream (not the kind I'd normally have) into sleep paralysis.

I dreamt I was studying something spiritual at some far away place. I think I was a monk or something. I can remember walking around a sky-blue building in a dressing-gown-type outfit, and doing some assignments.
One thing I can remember was a diagram. It was like a compass except on each of the points it had a word written. Over north was written body, over east was spirit, over south was mind, and over west was soul. I remember it seemed to make sense to me to draw it as cyclical rather than a hierarchy, like an endless cycle of 'death' and 'incarnation'.
The next thing I can remember is reading a post on a forum (this one, I think) written by some guy who'd witnessed one girl get attacked by negative entities while she slept. Apparently she thrashed about as if trying to claw at something in the air. I was skeptical, as I don't believe negative entities are real, and then the dream ended and I opened my eyes.
I found I couldn't see through my left eye, and my left ear felt as if there was extreme pressure pressing on it - like when your ears pop on a plane, but ten times stronger.
I heard, through my right ear, something thrashing on my pillow, like a tail making a noise while swinging through the air. Then I started to hear my bed creak. I knew I wasn't moving so I didn't know what was making the noise.
I wondered if this was a kind of 'warning sign' for me to make sure I was taking neccessary precautions against psychic attack. Then I thought what the hell am I thinking, this is just a load of hallucinations.
I very quickly identified that the noise my bed was making was not the noise it makes in real life. Then I started to see big blobs of grey and brown light hovering a couple of feet in front of my face.
I looked down and saw my covers were halfway down my chest, but I could feel them on my chin, so I knew I was hallucinating.
I closed my eyes, ignored the sounds and sensations and tried to project, but without any success. The noises got quieter and quieter until I couldn't hear them anymore, and then I lay there for about five minutes wondering what the hell was just going on. Being too lazy to turn the light on, I reached for my pen and drew a squiggle on my hand to remind me about the experience when I woke up in the morning.

Anyway I'm curious as to what people think of this experience. This kind of experience (hallucinatory sleep paralysis) has only happened about eight times in my life, so I think the probability it would happen immediately after my first reiki attunement is very low. Therefore, I believe the dream and the sleep paralysis I experienced were related to the attunement.
I also want to point out that if I believed, as many newbies probably would, that I was being attacked by 'negs,' the experience would have got a whole lot worse (as the ones I've had before became). The creaking noise near my feet in the bed would have developed into a monster or ghostly figure, and from there it would have gone from bad to worse. Belief in negs would have caused more harm than would be prevented if they did exist.

Hello.. I'm 17, and I've been projecting for about two and a half years, and I've had about 70 odd OBEs and projections. I've blessed outofbody.co.uk with many posts and hope to do so here too Actually I've come here in the hope I can learn a bit more. I've never read any of Monroe books so I guess I've missed out on a lot of stuff..
I'm not religious (I still regard myself as atheist) and I intend to remain religion-free. Religion is about belief. AP is about doing. So no belief is needed for AP, and mis-placed belief can be disastrous. At least in my opinion.