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I'm being tortured by this idea for a while now. For weeks now, a corelation between the yin/yang, the duality of the zodiacal signs and that of religions, has been in the back of my mind. I mean, think about it yourself: the negative/feminine part of the zodiac (the water and earth signs) are asociated with the night, the color black and belong to the dark part yin. While the positive/masculine signs (fire and air) are asociated with the time of day, color white and with the bright part yang. The negative traits of the masculine signs are: arrogance, irritability, big egos, being inconsiderate, aggresivity, narcisism, self-absorbtion, impulsivity, excessive bluntness, etc. The feminine signs' negative traits are: excessive sensitivity, being too dreamy, lazyness, being too critique, passive-aggresivity, not being strong-willed, shyness, being too modest, of low self-esteem, not very confident, immoral in behaviour, etc. "God" is asociated with the positive/masculine/bright side, while Satan is asociated with the negative/feminine/dark side. I mean, Lucifer (Morning Star) is asociated to the planet Venus (which is feminine and governs one of the most feminine signs Taurus). The Moon and Venus are the most pregnant elements of the dark part/night (like the Sun is to the bright part/day). God is asociated with either the Leo sign (Sun) or the Sagitarius sign (Jupiter) - very masculine signs of fire. Now we know who Jupiter was in Roman mythology; the equivalent of the Greek Zeus.

Satanism and other similar religions say that Satan and his demons aren't "evil" as Christianity claims, but that the Christian God and His angels are the evil ones, right? So there's duality in religions as it is in signs/energies, but who is RIGHT? And also, the Gods of the old Egyptians are Christianity's demons. Ex: the supreme Egyptian Sun God Amun-Ra equals the demon Amon (who is a king of Satan and governs the first degrees of Taurus). What does that tell us? It tells us that the Egyptians were with the dark side (yin), while Christianity is with the bright side (yang). But look at how advanced the antique Egyptians were. We can't even explain today all their rituals, constructions and... "ways". But since the existence of Christianity, the world seems to have stagnated, if not regressed. Why? Well, I think because of the Christian church controlling everything with the cross in the left hand and the sword in the right, in the middle ages, and now with an immense, consolidated power of influence, programming and censorship. However, I'm a Christian myself and just don't know what to think anymore. Who's good, who's evil, are there even such things at all, etc.

I can remember a couple of times when I became lucid within a dream. One time I became lucid but just couldn't keep this state for long. Something happened in the dream that made me forget about the fact that I just realised I was dreaming. So the dream's course couldn't be influenced. Another time, after I achieved awareness of me dreaming, I got enthusiastic and I felt like I was in a rush. I had the urge to see someone that is very special to me as fast as I could, as if I knew the dream would end not much after I gained lucidity, so I had to hurry. Everything around me was happening faster and faster, almost dazzling, that special someone didn't appear and I woke up extremely ticked. I'm looking forward to my dream experiences every night, but I'm often dissapointed in the morning, when I realise that either I didn't memorise my dreams or it didn't occur to me to become lucid within one. Anyway, I have to do some research on educating myself a bit regarding these problems, but your advices would be extremely gratefully received.

Greetings everyone.

I'm very happy to have joined this forum and I respect you people right off the bat, just for partially having the same interests as myself. I hope this respect will grow as/if I get to know you. I know it will.

Anyway, I have a question regarding one of my weirder experiences. I've never actually had a controlled OBE (but I'm learning and working on it), but this one time, three years ago when I was 16, I smoked weed. The stuff wasn't very potent, I didn't smoke alot of it and I had this very weird experience. I sat down on the bed and I don't remember what happened but I think I went OoB. I didn't know about anything like that then. However it was very short, but horrible and it scared the hell out of me. It felt like I was in a very dark place, but not the kind of darkness that is present when I have my eyes closed. I don't know how to characterize it but it was like three-dimensional blackness, or that's how it seemed to me. And I was hearing alot of horrible masculine and feminine (and some inhuman) voices that yelled, mocked me and laughed at me. I didn't understand what they were saying, but I knew somehow that they were laughing at me and I felt (in those brief few seconds) dispair and fear as I have never felt in my life. I can't explain it accurately, but I had very strong feelings and sensations and they were all extremely negative. It was like I was experiencing a mixture of every type of negative emotion known to man and no positive one. It was horrible and I was fighting to snap out of it. When I woke up I was lying in bed and I was really freaked out; one of the most unpleasant and puzzling experiences of my life.

Anyway, what I'm asking is, could the drug somehow have altered my consciousness and made me project to lower planes? 'Cause I'm sure I encountered some really negative entities in my little trip. And if this is the case, is it a typical one? Are drugs not recommended, although at first judgement one is inclined to say they can be helpful while projecting?


Thank you and I'm looking forward for answers and opinions.