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Have not been here in a few months, don't know why actually, maybe because my bookmarks got erased..and also i drifted into the daily grind, the routine that manages to (make me) kill anything productive that i do

I also had a sort of an psychological crisis, nothing serious just a case of very blue days that catch up with me from time to time ( well not so much in the last few years as they did before) and make me wonder about me, my life and the moments where i've let myself down, and question a lot of things in my life...

Well i've worked trough it, and these things aren't bad and somehow they put me back in perspective to push myself again to try to keep my own promises and give me a sort of resolve and momentum...

so to get to the point .... it also torns me back to the things that make me truly happy in life, and one very big thing in that box is the blessing of OBEs, meditation, and (light magick that have found their way into my life now about six years ago  and made it so much richer and more fulfilled

So now i come to my point, just to say thanks to you people that make this wonderful community that inspires, motivates and keeps pushing me to stay on track while also making me realize i can go in any direction i want in this world and feel it, explore it and enjoy it

I didn't realize this post would be so long, and sorry for maybe sounding corny but i can't help it

Does anyone like this band?
Well they have an album with a theme/leitmotif of sleep paralysis/LD/AP streaching trough it. The album is called "El cielo".
Its pretty straightforward in referencing to these things mostly in this song


Dredg - Scissor lock

I think I'm awake
rolling
(picking up auditory hallucinations)
on my blanket
I am sinking

into the bed
lying around me
are beautiful washes of pulsating color
buzzing white noise
sounds like one hundred bees

I too once thought the radio played
let's act like children while we sleep paralyzed
I too once thought the radio played
let's act like children while we sleep paralyzed

losing your control here
your body is asleep
and your mind is awake

I too once thought the radio played
let's act like children while we sleep paralyzed
I too once thought the radio played
let's act like children while we sleep paralyzed

[spoken word]

I too once thought the radio played
let's act like children while we sleep paralyzed

well their music is imo very good, they play a kind of alt rock with a great rhythm section. Anyway i was just curious if anyone likes them.

When i'm kinda on the edge of projecting, when i'm in my bed but aware that i'm actually asleep i get some sort of vibrations. The problem is they're not the real vibrations at least nothe rumbling roaring ones that i had when i returned to my body from a couple of false awakenings.
These vibrations seem faster more buzzing like, and they result in an enormous amount of tension based mostly in my mouth, actually pressure in my teeth. Sometimes they get almost really painful. And just today when napping/attempting ap  i got into the same situation.
I also tried closing my upper and lower jaw, and while doing that  i felt the strong sort of magnetic resistance.
Any thoughts to what this is, and how to deal with it if i have to?
And also could it be a result of me having a fair amount of fillings in my teeth?

Thanks 

Why is there so much emphasis on the "initation" in Reki, and a master has to initiate you for you to be able to give Reiki..but the whole process doesn't take longer than a weekend session, a copule hours every day ( this is information from a few books about reiki)....Why does every book on reiki insist that i give a (in my case, large) amount of money for someone to initiate me....

i believe you can heal yourself and others just by energy work and developing yourself , but this thing in reiki just bugs me and i was wondering if there is a logical answer to it

tnx