Well, I've only recently been attempting AP, though it's been something that's interested me for a long time. It's come after I have recently changed my outlook on life and have been more sensitive to the energy around me. This has gotten to the point where I have actually seen energy coming from certain people/places.
But I digress...I have been practicing recently and only gotten close to separation twice. The first time was last week, I felt a numbing sensation all over my body and could feel the energy vibrating and my heart began to race. I felt as though I was already somewhat aware that "I" was not *just* my body. I think the shock of the sensation prevented me from going further. I wasn't scared, it was just a new feeling and it caught me off guard. Also, and I don't know if this is normal, but it also caught me off guard that I noticed my penis was becoming slightly erect..it was very distracting as I wasn't thinking about sex nor did I want to think about sex at the time.
Well, about an hour ago I went in my room to give it another shot. Through on my headphones (using an isochronic tone track on my phone, it seems to help, if for no other reason that to allow my mind to stop cranking and over thinking...without them I just can't seem to get close)...I laid there for a while, kept getting distracted...then my mind got set in the zone. Letting my imagination run wild with visualizations in my mind, etc. Well, fast forward a bit and I can feel my body begin to buzz with the familiar energy, and oddly enough I started to become slightly erect again (I find this to be a strange reaction to this experience, but at least I wasn't caught off guard with it this time) the visions are becoming more random and intricate and I call out for a guide to help me (as I've seen people suggest) and a few moments later I see a clear image of a woman who looked a bit sad and she looked up at me and said, "I don't think you are ready". And I said, "I'm ready" a few times in a row. It was interesting because I wasn't dreaming and this was all pretty vivid. Next thing I know, I feel a rush of energy and my vision (eyes still closed) turns VERY bright white. I thought, "This is it." But I couldn't separate...next thing I know it all starts to fade away and I notice, "Oh wow...my entire body is shaking!!" It was shaking A LOT...almost like those uncontrollable shivers if you were walking around outside is a freezing blizzard. I wanted to give it another try but I decided to calm my body down and I will try again tomorrow.
So, are these experience typical? Are there any pointers to get passed that point? Was the woman my imagination running wild, my subconscious limiting me or is it possible this was a guide? I sincerely appreciate any help. I feel that AP is really important for me and I would love to experience it. Thanks so much.
Edit: And I hope I posted this in the correct section.
But I digress...I have been practicing recently and only gotten close to separation twice. The first time was last week, I felt a numbing sensation all over my body and could feel the energy vibrating and my heart began to race. I felt as though I was already somewhat aware that "I" was not *just* my body. I think the shock of the sensation prevented me from going further. I wasn't scared, it was just a new feeling and it caught me off guard. Also, and I don't know if this is normal, but it also caught me off guard that I noticed my penis was becoming slightly erect..it was very distracting as I wasn't thinking about sex nor did I want to think about sex at the time.
Well, about an hour ago I went in my room to give it another shot. Through on my headphones (using an isochronic tone track on my phone, it seems to help, if for no other reason that to allow my mind to stop cranking and over thinking...without them I just can't seem to get close)...I laid there for a while, kept getting distracted...then my mind got set in the zone. Letting my imagination run wild with visualizations in my mind, etc. Well, fast forward a bit and I can feel my body begin to buzz with the familiar energy, and oddly enough I started to become slightly erect again (I find this to be a strange reaction to this experience, but at least I wasn't caught off guard with it this time) the visions are becoming more random and intricate and I call out for a guide to help me (as I've seen people suggest) and a few moments later I see a clear image of a woman who looked a bit sad and she looked up at me and said, "I don't think you are ready". And I said, "I'm ready" a few times in a row. It was interesting because I wasn't dreaming and this was all pretty vivid. Next thing I know, I feel a rush of energy and my vision (eyes still closed) turns VERY bright white. I thought, "This is it." But I couldn't separate...next thing I know it all starts to fade away and I notice, "Oh wow...my entire body is shaking!!" It was shaking A LOT...almost like those uncontrollable shivers if you were walking around outside is a freezing blizzard. I wanted to give it another try but I decided to calm my body down and I will try again tomorrow.
So, are these experience typical? Are there any pointers to get passed that point? Was the woman my imagination running wild, my subconscious limiting me or is it possible this was a guide? I sincerely appreciate any help. I feel that AP is really important for me and I would love to experience it. Thanks so much.
Edit: And I hope I posted this in the correct section.