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Hello wonderful travelers of AP, it's been some time.

Life took me out of my endeavors for astral travel and as a result, I'm back to square one. It seems all the work I put in to it has left me and as a result, frustration is getting the better of me... A terrible enemy for relaxation and focus.

I'm mainly writing to get this out of my system and maybe a little moral support. I have no one that I care to talk to about this in daily life, you guys are it.

Ah, my status report:

Never getting to enough relaxation for separation any more. Also, I've developed some acute sleep apnea that seems to be preventing quite a bit. Also, despite my past successes, which were beautiful and very close, my belief seems to be wavering. It's almost as if I've learned too much, I've learned too many techniques without finding a truly successful one. I remember mind awake/body asleep being a gem. Phasing was starting to produce slightly as well. What do you ya do?

Anyway, I'd love comments, feedback, a fly out during the night to pull me out, positive emotions, whatever. I will not give up, whatever the case.

Best thoughts and wishes to everyone, I admire you all,


G

Small success but good success! I actually got out for a moment last night. It was spot on clear too. I think  it would have lasted longer but I was startled by someone that was sitting in the lobby outside my room... which shouldn't have been.

The lobby was in my house and it's not public. The person was looking at me, unsmiling, but not menacingly in any way. I can also honestly say that I've never seen him before, at least not as far as I remember. He had long, very curly hair and a beard/goatee. He has dark eyes and was also about 7 to 10 years younger than me.

Upon seeing him I got startled and found myself back in my body. I tried to move back out and tried to send him messages with which he seemed to respond, very patiently.

Anyway, it's only a baby step, but I'm really excited by this. I meant the holidays to be a time to really focus on this because I wouldn't have many distractions at night (girlfriend is on a separate vacation) and could put some time in to it.

I also found a technique that seems to resonate with me. The log rolling method that Monroe employed when he wasn't phasing. I never could pull it off before because I couldn't imagine myself all the way around but last night it worked more than once.

The first time I was experiencing early vibrations and paralyzation with a serious non-moving pattern in my eye. The second time I got the above scenario.

The main thing I've learned and that everyone has instructed is that the level of relaxation is the most important part before trying any technique. This has been the challenge for me because I have a VERY hard time relaxing on my own and up until two or three months ago had to use Tylenol PM to sleep.

Learning these techniques along with some Ayurvedic herbs have really helped though. There herbs don't invoke sleep, they just help with tension.

Anyway, thanks to everyone that has offered some help on this site, your words have all meant a lot! Special thanks to TVOS who'd mentioned that you really have to train for this like the Olympics. I hadn't realized how far you needed to go until I read that.

If you have any feedback, please bring it on!

G

I'm keeping the earlier part of this post below, just in case it doesn't make sense later without it.

I was advised to try out phasing when I posted last. While my results haven't been the holy grail of complete OBE I have achieved some things that seem to go along with some of the results I've read that I should be seeing.

I thought I'd post and see if I could get some constructive feedback if anyone has a moment.

Here's how things are currently going:

- Systematically relaxing every body part
- Focusing on the blackness
- Enjoy the colors for a while
- Randomly experience events as they appear (images, partial snippets of strange scenarios I'm not familiar with, images of people I don't know)
- Occasionally the tingles will start but don't tend to last very long

I also realized that a very horrific memory of mine is related to all of this.

When I was in the Army, there was a night that I was out in the field on Robin Sage, a training expedition for Special Forces. I had finished my shift for guard duty and had gotten in to a remote tent away from our camp that I was sharing with another soldier. Normally we slept alone in our own tent but we were expecting some mock raids that night.

I remember falling asleep with the feeling of my feet being extremely cold but unable to do anything about it. It was around 20 degrees outside and raining, really very miserable. As I started to fall asleep it felt like the cold was climbing up my body, I was exhausted though and I had nothing warmer to make it go away.

I don't know how long I slept, but when I woke up I was shivering completely and shaking all over with no ability to move almost at all. I desperately tried to move my mouth and open my eyes but I wasn't having much luck. After a few minutes I was able to get 'help' out of my mouth and then a few more times but only as a whisper.

Finally my tent mate woke up and went for help. This one very large soldier came in and grabbed me and threw me over his shoulder while still inside my sleeping bag and sat me down by a very small fire. Humorously enough, my sleeping bag was somehow turned around where the bottom part was over my head leaving no hole for me to breath out of. Smoke rises, as you well know, and shot straight up my sleeping bag. They thought I was convulsing, but I couldn't breathe!

Anyway, I've actually experienced that a few times since then. When vibrations and sleep paralysis start, I really panic because I feel like I'm going to be trapped in the cold dark with no one to hear me.

However, the night before last when they occurred I heard a voice in my head telling me to relax and to go with it. The tremors went on for a while and then unfortunately faded.

Anyway, here's my progress.

Have a wonderful Christmas!!!

G

I felt that I got very close today, but I had a strange symptom that I've never heard of going on. My forehead, more specifically right between my eyes had a rhythmic throbbing going on. It wasn't painful but it felt really strange. Any ideas?

After waiting for years, literally, I'm posting to a community of people with this same interest, fascination or possibly obsession. The latter is what it is for me at this point.

I began researching OBEs when I was in the Army several years ago. Like any good lower-enlisted, I'd fallen asleep in my office during work hours and had been enjoying a really good nap. I had been sleeping in a chair in a cold records room next to my office so nobody would walk in and see drool rolling down my mouth, or even worse, my NCOIC (Sergeant).

It was the last thought/fear that caught my attention. I realized during my nap that my sergeant was going to be coming down soon and he wouldn't be happy seeing me snoozing. I tried to wake myself up... it wouldn't work. I kept trying to move my fingers, my eyes were twitching and there was this buzzing and shaking going on all around me.

In short... I freaked.

Shortly after this very frightening episode of my life I began researching what would cause such an experience. I quickly uncovered OBEs and began reading about it. The realization of what occurred actually brought back memories from my boyhood when I'd be playing superhero under the night sky, flying over rivers in a costume that I'd crafted through my imagination. I had ever remembered how I'd lost control and fallen in to the river.

This was a wonderful realization, I felt I'd reacquired a part of my childhood and at the same time to got a large piece of the picture as to who I am.

But study turned to frustration. As a married man, I spent nights reading and experimenting hoping to unlock what had actually been natural to me. Years went by, I began to forget and finally let the corporation consume me. My mind became a slave to the work clock and all that I could think about was overtime, overtime... need more overtime. Even my wife began saying 'You need overtime, get more overtime.'

My marriage crumbled like many, for the same reason as many, however the years of overtime had taken it's toll: I no longer knew who I was. I had to learn to sleep alone again, I had to figure out what I liked to do again, I had to figure out what to do in my spare time.

Now in my thirties, I began doing what many 'suddenly single' men do, I started dating. Nope, I wasn't even remotely ready, but I needed some woman to take my ex-wife's spot and tell me what to do. But thankfully after a year or so of horrifying dating experiences, I started to work on me.

After a few more years I got to know me again, I began to figure out what I really liked, what I really enjoyed and then all of the sudden I remembered something... A memory of a young man napping in his office, a scene so reminiscent of a Norman Rockwall painting, but with something more profound under the surface.

And that brings me to the present time. I've begun trying again every night, I've even begun Hemi-syncing... but it's almost as if I'd closed the door on that part of my boyhood and it doesn't want to come back.

I roll like a log and pull on the rope, but I only seem to give myself a migraine. I read and read, but nothing seems to happen.

I know that there's very little that one can say, it's a personal journey and only you can teach yourself how to ride this bike. Dad can't push you along until you start pedalling, you have to do it. I guess I'm hoping that by writing this that it it might be a catalyst in my astral development.

Maybe someone has some insight or maybe you're just trying as well and want to read a similar story. Either way, if you have something to say, I'd love to listen.