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I'm having trouble recononize myself when i dream. I've notice myself in a dream sometimes about 4 or 5 times in the last couple of months. When i do reconize myself  in a dream i then either think of flying (doesn't work), and then after that leaving my body. I left my body 2 times doing this method. How can i better reconize myself in my dreams? becuase they seem so very real...should i just try to be more aware when i close my eyes or just keep thinking about noticing myself in a dream and i will do so more frequently. I find this the best method to obe, and i feel like i am also becoming more in touch with my self and what is going on in my dreams and mind. Do any of you find this method effective?

I'm sure im not the first to think of it..but, has anyone heard of or tried experimenting with projecting into computer software or the internet? not just that but what about visualzation programs? like milk drop or any other light show or creative artpiece? seems kinda tricky to do this. anyone here left the computers on and gone into what the left on before the projected? or maybe some other method similar?

I hear stories of people doing the most extraordinary, remarkable , and some say impossible things for love. it's a phenomenon worth noticing in every living being on the planet and seems to be infinite in its nature. Is lust just a way of showing love in an unconscious way? how do you know the true difference between the two? and if there isn't,  is it only human to fall in love with someone who craves lust? and the very last question, is love inevitable for all beings?

I can't tell whether I was in the AP or not but it felt so real and different. I wont go to much detail about the dream i had but I'll give examples of feelings occurred.

This last month since I've been deeply desiring to AP, my dreams have become to real and vivid. Never in my life have I had this many dreams (or maybe just started noticing them while asleep probably with my third eye). Anyways, my dreams are sometimes unusual and scary but sometimes beautiful.. Each time the more horrific or beauty intensifies...i start realizing that I am in a dream and I notice myself. This has happen about 4 or 5 times...out of  all those times i usually wake up instantly when i realize that "wait this is a dream". Once or twice I was in a deep 3d blackness phase.

Now this last dream, (I was slightly drunk from the superbowl game party) was very pleasent. I Came to a part in my dream when I realized that it was a dream again. This time i didn't wake up, instead i thought wait a sec if this is a dream let me try to fly. That did not work. So i was like okay lets do something else...as i start trying to think i suddenly see my dream reality start tearing and fading apart..like the universe was ripping apart..White holes were tearing my dream apart. I am suddenly running up stairs towards the white holes (all the people in my dream now disappeared). Finlay the white holes turned into some INTENSE white light and felt like Ecstasy..I keep running to it full speed. Then all I remember was this Metallic pole was right in front of me..but my body was like floating now it was not in an upward postion like in my dream. My instinct was to climb and start pulling it up...I'm going up up up..At first i did not go up, It was like Lag in a video game..I tyred pushing didn't go..then tryed again and slowly but "laggy" I went up the pole. Then 3D Blackness...after that I see my body in front me in my bed were i went to sleep. I am now at least 6 to 7 feet above my body, I felt so light..like no weight. Then BOOM I fall straight down right back into my body and wake up.

Now i was like Oh crap that was awesome! let me call my friend and tell him what just happened, I remember having a conversion on the phone and everything, then i go to my room and seeing my grandmother there..(this is unusual and she is never on my bed) I tap her and say grandma what are you doing here. She looks at me and says "who's there" like i was some ghost. I start repeating myself to her and she does not hear me. I'm like WTF? am i in the AP still after I just talk to my friend and stuff, as soon i start touching her and getting louder..I wake up.

Does the AP sometimes feel like a dream? because i cannot tell what just happen..I have a feeling I did AP because I have never saw myself on the bed before like that levitating. But then after all I thought i was Awake, having just talking to my friend and seeing my grandma and everything. So strange but it felt like a borderline thing...

do people get confuse easily with the AP and dreams? do they sometimes collide and occur during projections?

Is this normal for begginers? or does it happen to everyone?

Why is this symbol so common? In astral and OBE books, websites, videos. Also in corporate logo's, TV, ancient hieroglyphics, artifacts, and countless other instances. This symbols seems to be EVERYWHERE. Why? I don't think its a stupid question to ask because it is seen so many times and should have some spiritual explanation, truth, or reason. I know many corrupt individuals also use this symbol as some form of power, but others use it in the complete opposite form, as though it had spiritual meaning. I'm sure it has countless explanations or maybe just one truth. Any interpretations would be very intresting to hear or understand more of.

Here's what i was curious about..now, i know love is so powerful that it can break through any of the rules set forth (if there are any) in this universe. Sometimes i get the feeling that i have been in love in some other life so deeply that somehow someway...i would see her or meet them in my physical or astral? I read somewhere that Souls meet in a higher plane in existence and then they somehow they team up to go into these physical worlds to increase there chances of spiritual growth or evolution.

Now how about this..Since everything i do is NO coincidence..then sometimes i wonder the girls i meet, or family i have, or people that stop by my store...maybe I could of know them in future and past lives? does love bring us together? or does some other force? or maybe just a combination of forces? IDK but i see these people and they all seem UNFAMILAR to me..isn't that strange UNFAMILAR? its like I'm used to see them subcounsiously..but Cousionsly they seem FAMILAR to me? maybe its just a trick my mind is playing but i come in contact with thousands of people a day...and its like non of them look unusual, different..they all look the same..nothing new? why is that...its like each face is okay but not so much there face its like something behind it. What if i met spoke with each one in another life or plane of existence. do you think thats the case? isn't it funny how you meet someone you never thought you knew, but yet you have conversations as though you knew them for a lifetime? I have so many of these and they just make me wonder...I see some other force at work here, it's all to much for me to take.

lately i have been trying to find my ego in me, i know it's not easy..but i dont like the person i am , was, or becoming...the people around me are trying to convert me or something and im not sure if there helping me or confusing me..the choices in my life are always changing, and the people around me i want to help and connect with..some of them see me some crazy kid...others just think im lost, but i know that if i believe enough i can make my dreams a reality...im just not sure of the future steps ahead i feel so alone and confused but i know there are good people out there..but when do they show themselves? any life experiences would be helpful..

during the day and at night....before and while I try to get into the trance state, I try to imagine my self acting like i would be in the AP. like, i jump off my building, go threw walls..walking around in the street..does this help or further confuse me? I think it helps but I'm not sure..it seems fun just imagining it, feels kinda real but its hard to concentrate on because other thoughts try to take over. I feel like I want to crave it so badly that i just try visualizing things i would do in the AP..even though i haven't projected recently or very rarely in my life,(maybe i just don't remember it).

is this a good technique to help my projection?

This last week I have been trying to astral project constantly, i am more awake at night then ever, sometimes i feel myself lifting up but then i notice i get kinda excited and wake up. Then i think no man its just u'r body lifting up and ur just getting tense ( i am not sure if it was astral or physical because i only got out my body slightly if i even did project). But i believe in it so greatly, i even ask other nearby entities to help me come out and guide into the astral plane if they can even hear my calls for help).

However, one thing i have notice that does not usually happen in my sleep in recent weeks is that, my dreams are becoming more vivid and intense. I have 3 to for 4 different dreams a night and i remember clips if not most of them quite well.. Here is were it gets crazy, My dreams are all in different settings and people.

dream 1:
One is with this girl I really like/ (used to like) I have known her for a couple of years now,she so beautiful you guys don't even know (spanish-colombian/Ecuador lol..)
I just end up seeing her at the mall or in other places were i have been with her before, in one dream shes sitting down with many other people and i just pull out my hand and pick her up and she comes and follows me ( i don't remember anything after but we went somewhere)

dream 2: Sexual related dreams of me witnessing 2 people whom i never seen before on my roof having some sort of sexual relation, (I live in a building) The funny thing the roof is on the top of the building and i am on the Pent house...I would have to be physically on the roof to see that thing happen in the real physical plane..but somehow i can see them on my level through my room window doing sexual things..Idk (weird) it seemed like a lust event...

dream 3: In my building i used to sometimes hook up some of my friends with some "work" aka: that sticky icky, aka: Maryjane..anyways thats what we call it down here..(I live in Miami) anyways, People whom steal and rob that i know of from my old highschool somehow were in this dream and tried to like i guess rob me and i ending up defending myself. I think in this dream i killed someone which i have never done in any of my dreams ever..and then these 3 people start looking for me..then i am in my room looking at my desk and i realize i am in a dream for a second then i wake up instantly...

dream 4: I am in a room of my old elementry school office (it was a room of fear because it was next to the princapals office. I was a problem child all the time & almost expelled but i passed) but the room look different there simply just chairs all around. Now somehow people from my job (i work at the mall at "Guess") and many other from my past start coming in the office and sitting down. There was an argument in the room, and it seemed that the administrative people (whom i do not know of) where trying to convince others that i was doing something wrong. I stood my ground and said words that i don't remember but i know i fought back and resisted there words of corruption. For i simply know that i did not do what they said i did, and that they were lieing to my friends. Then i remember others started to stand up for me and believed me then there was a split room of believers and all the administration was losing there power.

Here is the most weirdest part: All of my dreams start combining, the people who robbed me were there, then someone else from my highschool started fighting with them as soon as they walking in the room, it seem like an all out war with my other dreams and the other people in it. My dreams were all combining and i am still unaware that this is a dream, i think it's reality..because this type of things happen all the time to me..it felt very real..but then i don't remember what happens after that

I have these types of dream frequently and sometimes i concider maybe i am in the AP, but i just wake up and it feel like a dream..

sometimes i just think its the place i live in, it's surrounded by rich corrupt individuals...they only care about themselves and never help anyone..my grandparents are racist and aren't open minded what soever, sometimes i hear them scream at night because of w/e nightmare they were having. My life isn't bad, so don't feel sorry for me..i have money, good physical features and just about to turn 21 this February. I know a lot of people and make great dance/electronic music with my brother, i go out all the time with friends to clubs and am very popular...yet somehow i am just so alone down here, people think I'm crazy when i bring up things like AP or corruption in this world and its governments, i can only rely on my younger brother and a couple others i met that are very in touch with there spiritual side..my parents are just wealthy people from the old school who do not wish to change for another 10 years or maybe another lifetime.

anyways, are these dreams on my way to a successful Astral projection? I am not afraid of any entities in the AP, the worst thing they can do is kill me and i now have a better understanding of death and it phases..so its not fear that is the problem, if there is any problem at all.

let me know if these sort of things are common.

Sometimes I wonder if there are entities watching sen. Obama or even surrounding him in the AP...negative or positive, he seems to have alot of love surround him so it would be cool if he visits the AP frequently, send him an invite to the island show him a good time(semi-serious lol...) He seems as though he is open to the idea of AP. I wonder what kind of dreams he has..there are entities that do want to corrupt his mind, and vice versa. If anyone does happen to meet up with him asleep or awake (non-physical), let me know what you see. I think I have an idea who will the election though, makes me sad but I could be wrong...w/e happens it always works out in sync with the master plan..